Forever Viper (24 page)

I giggle, “I saw the whole amazing solar system.”

My head is buried in Noah’s chest, his manly scent surrounds me and his hand is running down my arm, over my hip and back up again which is making me sleepy. It feels so good to be in his arms again, there is so much that needs to be sorted out, but for now, I am content to just lie here and let his essence seep through and capture my heart again.

I jump a little when he says my name, “Peppa, will you stay here with me tonight?”

I smile into his chest liking that idea but then an image of Lara comes to me, “Oh crap, I want to, but I have work tomorrow. I haven’t been for two days because I couldn’t face Lara.”

He moves away slightly which causes me to peer up at him and he’s frowning at me. “I lied to her Noah and I hate that fact. I can’t look her in the face when I know she is suffering the pain of not knowing where you are and I do.”

He kisses my forehead, “Then take another day off.”

I kiss his chin. “I can’t. From her text messages it seems she is struggling. She said there is a lot of press about, I have to go in and help her.”

His lips brush softly over mine, “With Hans resigning and someone cancelling Vipers venues again and oh yeah, the added bonus of some bimbo saying she is carrying Cruz’s baby, I can imagine it’s a little crazy right now. Have you not read the newspapers?”

I shake my head, I knew about the first two but my brain did a flip flop at Cruz’s news and I mutter to myself, “Cruz a father? Poor child.”

Noah grins at me, “She is only after her fifteen minutes of fame. You will be surprised at what lengths some of these groupies go to. She will be paid off and vanish like she never existed in the first place.”

I felt sad for the woman. Maybe she is pregnant, maybe she isn’t, but like Noah said people will do some crazy shit to get their names in the paper. My thoughts turn to Lara again and how the hell I’m supposed to behave around her.

“Peppa, I can sense you worrying please don’t. I will sort it out tomorrow. It’s time I faced my father and sorted this mess out.”

My eyes widen and a shiver runs down my spine. Noah’s hold on me tightens, “Hey, I know all about his little hate campaign against you. Trust me, it stops tomorrow night. Do you think you can handle one day with my sister until then?”

I feel some ease and I’m relieved in some ways, I don’t know how he’s going to explain where he has been, I just hope Donald backs off. I still feel uneasy about the situation with Lara, but if matters get tough, I can always hide out in the toilets. “I’m not sure if I can, but I will try for Lara's sake. How are you going to explain where you have been to everyone?”

A daunting look crosses his face, “I need to speak with Juan and work something out. It will be sorted, I promise.”

I nod my head and my heart does a flutter when I realize something, “Does that mean you can come home?”

He half smiles and then frowns, “I’m not sure. Again, I will need to speak with Juan.”

I sigh. My heart aches at Juan’s name.
What the hell am I going to do about him?
Noah sighs too, he must sense my sadness, so I try and push it down, deep inside to deal with another day.

Noah rolls me onto my back, his eyes capturing mine, “Please stay, I can’t let you leave yet. Let me take some of the pain away.”

A tear escapes my eye and I quietly say, “Ok.”

Noah goes on to show me how much he loves me and even makes me forget for a while. He makes slow passionate love to me and with words of undying love, he lets me know he is very much alive and isn’t going anywhere, anytime soon. After a quick visit to the bathroom, I make sure my alarm is set for 6 am and a taxi booked for 6.30 am, to take me home to get ready for work. I cuddle up to Noah, the smell of sex lingers in the air and on our bodies. We talk for a while. He tells me about Flora the cow and mentions the letters again; I tell him about Hans and Monica. He isn’t happy that Hans saw most of my body, so I tell him to stop being a dickhead and get over it. And that’s how I fell asleep, in the arms of the man I never thought I would see again, but there is also the feeling that someone is missing.

Beep...beep...beep. One of my eyes opens and the other quickly follows as memories of last night surface and I stare into Noah’s handsome face. I lean closer and press my lips to his and whisper, “I love you.” Beep...beep… beep “Bloody hell, alright I’m awake.”

I turn over, pick my phone up and turn my alarm off.
It’s too early let me go back to sleep.
I feel slightly sore between my legs as I swing them out of the bed so I can sit myself up. My bladder screams at me to be emptied.

I turn my head to gaze at a sleeping Noah and smile to myself as I remember him biting me and licking between my legs. I start to get aroused and wish I could jump Noah and ask him to do it again.
He’s a Vampire Peppa nothing is going to wake him up.
I push myself off the bed with my hands and rush to the bathroom so I don’t pee myself. I clean myself up the best I can, knowing I will shower when I get home and stroll back into the bedroom to get dressed. I locate my dress neatly folded on a chair and sitting on top is a note attached to a pile of letters.

Sweetheart,

Thank you for last night, you are my world and holding you in my arms again made me feel complete. Although you might want to punch me when you find out you have to go home without knickers on. So please keep your legs shut because what lies between them is MINE. As you can see I have enclosed the letters I have written to you. Please read them, open your heart to what each of us has dealt with these past weeks and forgive us. I need you both in my life and Juan needs you. I know you can’t see it right now but you know deep down that you need him too. We are a THREESOME! Each of us plays a special role in that, it’s broken if one of us walks away. I LOVE YOU! We both do, don’t ever forget that.

Noah. xxx

PS. We can give you the whole amazing solar system.

Tears stream down my face and I shake my head, one minute he can make me laugh and the next he brings me to tears. I bring the bundle to my lips and kiss it and kiss it again. I grab my dress, put it on and then sit on the edge of the bed staring down at Noah. I climb back onto the bed and lay myself out next to him. I wrap my arms around him and hold him as close as I can to me and kiss his lips and say out loud, “I love you Noah Blaise.” My head turns away from him when I hear a car horn beep and I turn back to see a smile has formed on his face, which makes me smile, and I kiss him goodbye. I climb off the bed, grab my phone, my bag and the letters, then turn to Noah one more time and blow him a kiss. I jog out of the room and the house into the waiting taxi.

Chapter 16 (JUAN)

WHY! Such a small word yet has such a big meaning. Why did jealously twist its ugliness around my cold black heart as I watched Noah and Peppa reunite? Why did my brother get on his knees and put a protective hand on me while telling me to calm myself as my emotions were causing the ones I love to feel them too?

Why did her words maim me so deep inside? And the worst one of all, why did I let her walk out of the door without holding her one more time?

I take a quick glance at Noah, his head is lowered. I can sense his emptiness, because I feel it to. The pain where my heart lies causes me to grab at it through my shirt, my finger nails dig in deep and I smell my own blood. I want to rip the fucking thing out. I created this moment, I made this happen, and I broke us all. I need to get out of here, how can I ever look Noah in the eyes again? I don’t say a word to anyone, I just leave. My name is shouted out after me, but I kept on going.

Even in my haze of devastation, I have to make sure Peppa returns home safely. I stay as far back as I can so she won't detect me watching through the connection. I don’t need to see her face to know her pain as it pours off her in waves. The wind carries my ‘Sorry’ away into the dark night and I turn away from her, knowing she is safe and I run. I have no idea where I’m going, I just know I need a little time to think matters over on my own without being told, “She will come around. It will be ok.” Because it fucking isn’t ok. All I know is that I have to make it right, but I don’t think I can this time around. So sitting on top of a hill, pouring my heart and emotions out to the moon and stars, I come to the conclusion that I need to at least try and explain myself to Peppa.

The next night I awoke with only one place on my mind. I am expecting the barricade of Hans and Monica stopping me from getting to Peppa. It fucking killed me when Monica stood there, her hands firmly crossed against her chest staring daggers at me, saying the words I didn’t want to hear. “She doesn’t want to see you Juan, she told me to tell you to stay away. I’m sorry but you need to leave.”

I run a hand through my hair and try and remain calm when all I want to do is push them both out of the way so I can get to Peppa. “I don’t want any trouble. I just want to see her to explain. Please just five minutes.” I stare at them both pleading.

Monica steps forward and gets in my face and starts shouting, “Do you not understand me? Get out Juan! My best friend is in there crying her heart out because of you, and if you think I’m going to let you waltz in here and upset her more you have another thing coming!”

My emotions start to swirl and lift and I shout out for Peppa and all I get back is her feeling of distress. Through our connection I let her feel the love I have for her, even if desperation is riding high inside of me. I can’t leave without a glimpse of her. I need to let her know a few facts. That’s when I use my vampire speed and rush to her. Hans is faster than I thought and quickly caught up with me, trying to block my path. I firmly told him to get out of my way, but he won't budge, the fucker. I can tell from his face he didn’t want to be doing this, it is the wolf inside of him, protecting his woman, as it thinks I am a threat. I know I have to stand up to his wolf, so I flash my fangs and hiss while pushing him out of the way. He tried to pull me back when I turned the door knob to get to Peppa, but I threatened him again and he decided to back off.
Smart move wolf.

I heard her plea for me to leave, which nearly brought me to my knees and caused me to crash into the door. I begged her to talk to me, to take it out on me. I can’t stand the thought of her not wanting me anymore so I begged her not to do that either. She didn’t speak, our connection tells me everything I need to know. With defeat, I let her know I’m sorry and that I won’t stand in her way of happiness with Noah. I tried to say I love you, but I honestly didn’t think she wanted to hear it, so I let her sense it instead. It is hard to walk away but what else can I do? I have hurt her, what else did I expect? She isn’t going to open her arms wide and say all is forgiven anytime soon and I have to deal with that. I have to face Noah next and I hoped he wouldn’t turn his back on me too.

Jade lets me in; I can’t even look her in the face. My brother and Noah are sitting talking and both focus on me when enter the room. I'm ashamed of running away and leaving Noah to deal with what happened on his own and I lower my head.

Saul is the first to speak, “I was just about to escort Noah so he can feed. I’m guessing you paid a visit to Peppa?”

Without glancing in their direction, I answer with, “Yes, she refused to see me.” My head slowly raises and my eyes find Noah’s with my next words. “I asked her not to blame you, that you should be together no matter what.”

I see a flash of discomfort and then anger cross his face and within a second he is standing in front of me, his hand reaches out to land on my cheek and he strokes it. “This all feels a bit like déjà vu, and it feels like I’m the only one fighting for us. I’m a stubborn bastard Juan, and I always get what I want and that’s you and Peppa. I know Peppa, she will come back here searching for answers and I’m prepared for that, walking away isn’t an option for any of us. Now, if you don’t mind I need to feed. With the way we are both feeling, it might be a good idea that I feed from Flora tonight.”

I nod my head at him and he storms past me, heading to the front door. I’m about to turn and follow him when a hand lands on my shoulder and I stare into the anxious face of my brother. “Everything comes in time to those who can wait. Don’t give up, because what waits for you at the end of this is worth all the suffering.” Saul’s eyes search for Jade and, when they find her, his smile brightens up his face. I actually welled up with tears because I want to believe his words and I find myself wrapping my arms around him and thanking him.

After saying goodbye, Noah and I head out in silence, so he can feed. That’s how much of our time together is spent. We make small talk but avoid the subject of Peppa.

When I drop him off at Jade’s he asks me to stay, but I say “No.” I know where it will end and no matter how much I want him, I can’t right now. He tells me he loves me and gives me a kiss goodbye, I watch his tight ass as he strides away from me and feel remorse at rejecting his offer of comfort.
It’s not me who needs it, it’s our woman.
I need to feed myself and find I can’t be bothered to do that, but I do. I make it quick, not even showing the usual affection for Dolly, I use her like a piece of meat and take what I need.

I head back to the hotel room, locking myself away from the world and that’s where I stay. I let my self-pity eat away at me until the dawn arrives and sleep takes away some of the pain for now.

“Juan, wake up, wake up for fuck's sake.” A slap comes to my face and I grab the hand that dared to strike me and twist it, while my other arm snakes around a neck to get my attacker in a headlock.

“You better explain yourself Cruz.”

“Let go of me you fucker. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last twenty minutes and this is the thanks I get.”

My head snaps to the digital clock that reads 5:30 pm and I huff, “Maybe, I don’t want to wake up, it might be better for everyone if I didn’t.” I push Cruz away from me and arrange myself so I’m sitting on the edge of the bed.