Forever Mine (Providence Series Book 1) (9 page)

I knew that my mouth was hanging open, and I so wanted to say something meaningful or, at least, question what he was saying, but all that came out was “oh!”

"So are you going to let me prove it to you?" He asked running his fingers gently down my face and then stroking my lower lip, his eyes following the path of his finger before looking back up into my eyes.

“Uh," is what came out of my mouth causing a smirk to curl up on his sexy mouth.
 
God, I'm never lost for words, why does he always do that to me?

"Is that a yes baby?" He asked nuzzling his nose against mine tenderly.

I took a deep breath in and then closed my eyes as I breathed out.
 
“Okay," I whispered, "we can try, but please don't lie to me or use me.” I opened my eyes and looked into his gorgeous gray eyes that were a beautiful deep silver with a darker gray band around them; they were so unique, so…Ren.

"Never baby, never!” He promised before he kissed me.

9

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Ren

I woke up, rolled over and looked
around the large space while I thought over my conversation with Maya last night;
 
I couldn't believe she was giving me a chance.
 
Ever since I turned 10 and got over the whole girls have cooties bullshit, I have never had to work for a girl.
 
I wasn't lying when I said to Maya that I've never had a girlfriend; even back then there were kisses behind the trees of our school, but I’d never committed.
 
Sure, the girl may have thought I was hers, but I always shot that shit down because I never found myself interested in someone enough to commit.
 
When I lost my virginity at 15, I discovered a whole new world and the joys of being sexually active. I’d used the theory that if I had a variety, none of them would try and tie me down with some form of commitment bullshit.
 
Now, though, Maya has changed that for me, and I won't settle for anything less with her.
 

With the way I'm feeling now, I'm thinking I need a plan to keep Maya tied to me forever so that I don't lose her, but I know that I need to take it slowly because she doesn’t trust my reputation.
 
My past is a huge issue for her, and I don't want her using it as an excuse later on down the line.
 
My Mom told us about soul mates, but given how disinterested I was in a relationship and how my brothers and I have grown up I figured we'd never get one, but fuck if I don't feel it now with Maya. I know she's fucking gorgeous, but I don't think its just that because I've had gorgeous women before and I've not been interested in keeping them, so there must be something more, something deeper and it scares me and tethers me at the same time.

Last night when I was exploring her, all I could think was that I was in heaven, and I thanked all that was holy that she was giving me a chance that I know I don’t deserve.
 
On Friday, I saw the look on her face and kept trying to apologize, but I knew it wasn't the time or place; the look on her face ate away at me all day, though.
 
I thought we’d hit a good place yesterday and that we’d have a drink at the bar and chat, but someone had apparently been telling her lies, and I knew who it was - fucking Francheska.
 

The only time that ache had gone away was when I had her in my arms and after she told me she'd give me a chance.
 
If she knew she had no option and that she was stuck with me forever, though, I think she'd cut my balls off and run, so I needed a plan.
 

I have never felt so much from kissing someone before; it was always something I could do without, so long as the chick was willing that was all there was to it. When I think about it like that, I feel like the biggest piece of shit ever.
 
After our talk, we had explored a bit more, and I’d asked her to come with me to the lake today for a picnic to spend some time together and with some friends too. Thankfully she’d said yes so I needed to get my ass in gear to get shit together.

Maya

I have got to be out of my mind agreeing to give him a chance, but I just couldn't tell him no.
 
I've been awake since 5.30am thinking over the whole thing, and when I think about not being with him, I feel like crying and throwing up - so I need to see this through and see if he's serious. I'm going to keep my head on straight though and not let my heart lead me like it had before, although not with Andy - he was a special moment that I wished I could forget and delete.

Thankfully I had got waxed last week, otherwise, I'd be panicking about shaving everywhere and making sure I don't look like Chewbacca. I decided on a pair of cut off shorts and a racerback tank - thankfully I had a strapless bra the same color because my girls are just too big to go without one, and I’ve always thought visible bra straps were kinda tacky.
 

Finishing off my morning routine, I went downstairs to tidy up my kitchen and drink my morning cups of coffee.
 
I've never been a breakfast girl, but I can't go without at least 3 cups of coffee, so I finished off the pot and waited for Ren to arrive.

Bang on time at 11 am he knocked on the door, and I tried my best to look like I was relaxed, but my hands were shaking as I opened the door. "Hey baby,” he wrapped his arms around me as soon as the door opened.
 
He stood holding me for about 10 seconds before pressing his head into my neck and taking a deep breath.

"You okay?" I asked because I couldn't understand how he was acting; he always seemed so confident.

"Yeah, I just needed that,” he stood back to look at me.
 
"You got something to swim in baby?"
 

I’d totally forgotten about bringing something to swim in, and it must have shown on my face because he chuckled and shook his head slowly. "Okay, I'll get my swimming stuff. Do I need to bring anything else?”

"Nah, I’ve got it covered - get your stuff baby.
 
Is there anything that you'll need from down here?" He asked as he gently pushed me towards the stairs.

"Um, no I don't think so unless you want to look and see if there's anything that we'll need?
 
There's cold drinks in the fridge, chips in the cupboard, a cooler in the pantry and there's blankets that we could use in that box over there.”

"I've got all of that ready; you just get your stuff.”

I tried to remember what I was coming up here for, but this soft side of him had thrown me.
 
Should I wear my new bikini, or would that be too much?
 
I decided to have another look at it to see if it would be too slutty for the lake.
 
I’ve always found that on beaches you can get away with a more risqué bikini because there are so many people there wearing different shapes and sizes of bikini’s, but at the local lake that same bikini might just be too much.

"Definitely go with that one,” Ren croaked from the doorway, scaring the ever-loving shit out of me and making me squeal and jump.

"Oh my God,” I panted, putting my hand on my chest realizing too late that I was holding the bikini bottoms in my hand.
 
"Sorry, its just we've always lived within close distance to the beach or countries that get majorly hot, so I only have bikinis.
 
We can always stop on the way, and I'll get an actual suit if that’s better?”

"No way," he said shaking his head. “Put that one in a bag and let’s go."

I did as I was told and then picked up a towel to take with me.
 

"I've got towels baby, you don't need to bring one,” he said removing the towel from the bag.
 

Here's where one of my flaws comes out - I'm a towel snob.
 
When I wash them, I put in five times the softener you're meant to, and then I dry them for twenty minutes extra just so that they're all poofy and soft.
 
I can't live with hard towels that take your skin off, and I explained this to him, waiting for him to hand it all back to me and say ‘see ya’.
 

Ren stood and looked at me for a second before picking up my towel and touching it with both hands.
 
"I see what you mean.
 
Shit, I've never thought of that before!
 
I had ma doing my towels because they always felt like sandpaper when I did them but fuck me if yours don't feel like that cotton shit they use on babies."
 
He went and got another towel out, exposing another flaw to him.
 
I'm not only a towel snob, but I'm a towel junkie - every shade and size you can think of I've got, and not just one, but a full set.
 
"Holy shit, how many towels does one person need?”

"A couple,” I mumbled slamming the door shut, but I was too slow, and he caught it and opened it back up again.
 
He started laughing hard behind me, so I made sure the door to my towel obsession was closed,
 
walked out and shouted over my shoulder, "are you ready?”

"Wow, wait til ma hear's this,” he laughed following me. "She has two closets filled with towels, but that's because there was seven of us living there. Over the years, she's never cut down on them because we're always forgetting and stealing hers, but that right there is impressive.”

"I'm an interior designer Ren, of course, I have a lot of towels and bed linens.
 
When you change them, you need them to match,” I grumbled.

"How many 'bed linens' have you got?”

“Enough," I said not meeting his eyes.

"Is it as impressive a collection as your towels?" He was laughing again, so I just stayed silent and looked at the floor trying not to incriminate myself in any way.
 
"Holy shit, I've gotta see that one day - are you going to do the same for us at my house?”

My heart stopped - was he saying that I'm going to be living there? No, he couldn't be, it’s only been twelve hours?

10

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Ren

Shit, fuck, I didn't mean to say that.
"I mean when you redecorate?" I replied quickly, catching my slip up as casually as I could.

"Yeah, I'll get a couple of sets, but the rest I'm leaving to your mom,” she said smirking at me.
 

She was standing by the door of my truck with the sun shining in her eyes making them sparkle; they were so unique and gorgeous just like the rest of her. Moving closer to her, I bent down to take her mouth just meaning to give her a quick kiss, but like last night, it got out of control and before I knew it I had her legs around my waist, and she was pressed up against the side of the car.
 
My hands moved up her thighs until I got to the bottom of her shorts and then I slid my right hand up inside them and held her left cheek;
 
she was so smooth and soft all over and smelt like heaven - she was quickly becoming my addiction.

I finished by giving her a slow kiss, lifted my head and waited for her to open her eyes.
 
When she did I almost said fuck it and took her back inside her house, but I wanted to take her to our lake and show her around the ranch if we had time so I opened the door, put her on the seat and buckled her in before stealing a final kiss.

On the way to the lake, we made small chit chat holding hands and fell into comfortable conversation like yesterday - asking questions and telling stories getting to know each other that little bit better.
 
It felt like we were years ahead of that, but I wanted to know everything about her and it looked like she felt the same way.
 
I still couldn't get over how many countries she'd lived in, but it started a plan in my head for her to show me the countries and her favorite places. Hell, I’d book it now if I could find someone to cover me at the garage and if I thought she wouldn’t freak out on me.

"Here we are,” I said as I pulled into the car park for the lake.
 

Cole was already there along with my best friend Mace and his sister’s best friend Ava.
 
Those two were always together, but there was no sign of them being in a relationship even though it was obvious that they were in love. I was glad that Ava was here, though, I figured it’d be less intimidating for Maya having another girl around.
 
It was important to me that she loved my family and that they loved her too.
 
I knew ma and Cole already did, Cole especially…the little twat.

Maya

Oh my God, was he growling again?
 
"Are you okay?”

"Shit yeah, sorry I was just thinking about something,” he said rubbing his forehead and still looking like he wanted to kill someone.

"Uh okay, shall we go and get set up?" Anything to distract him from whatever was making him look like he was about to kill someone. I opened the door of his truck and just as I jumped down, I was knocked off my feet by a blur and landed on my back.

"Fucking hell, Dash! Cole, what the hell? He knocked Maya over,” Ren yelled pulling what appeared to be a Dalmatian, not a bear like I first thought, off me.
 
"You know better than that, bad boy.” He was telling it off like it was a bad child.