Authors: Anthony Bidulka
men had talked about my disguise for the evening.
Not much happened for a while other than eat-
ing chicken, drinking more wine and generally
pleasant but unrevealing conversation. Sereena
and Marilee had met briefly at some point in their
pasts and seemed to enjoy one another’s compa-
ny. I was busy using the file clerk’s inside knowl-
edge to learn who all the other people in the room
were. Topping the list of people I wanted to meet
were Shelley and Murray Rowan, the remaining
two partners of the firm who were seated nearby;
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Nikki, Cary, James and Jill, the four managers who
worked most closely with Daniel; Colleen, the
receptionist who had dealt with the mysterious
woman earlier that day; and Marie, the partners’
secretary. I had a lot to do before Daniel and I had
to leave for our meeting with Sunny.
It was after the chicken and before dessert,
which undoubtedly would be Saskatoon Berry
pie, when I was about to head over to the Rowan’s
table to introduce myself. I felt a heavy hand on
my shoulder. It was Herb Dufour, who had left his
seat and was standing over me.
“Russell, how about you and I go get another
bottle of wine for the table?”
Overhearing him, Marilee and Sereena indicat-
ed their support for the idea by clinking together
their half-empty glasses. The remaining two men
at the table were too busy ignoring the women
they’d come with and ogling Marilee and Sereena
to care. The other two women simply scowled. I
nodded and rose to follow Herb through the maze
of chattering diners. At first, when we passed the
bar I imagined Herb assumed I needed a pee
break and was leading me to the bathroom, but
when he walked right by that too and into the ball-
room’s deserted foyer I knew something was up.
“I’m worried about our friend,” the big man
said before we’d even come to a complete stop. He
was standing uncomfortably close and I backed a
step away.
“I’m sorry?” I said, not ready to make assump-
tions.
“I’m worried about Daniel. He told me why
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you’re here, Russell. I know you’re not a potential
client. I know you’re working for Daniel trying to
figure out this blackmail thing.”
“I see,” was all I said, already aware of that
information.
“I have to admit, when he first told me he was
considering hiring you, I wasn’t sure it was the
best idea. But seeing as he has and you’re
here…well, I just wanted to tell you I’m on
Daniel’s side and I want to do whatever I can to
help him.”
I could see why Herb Dufour was a successful
senior partner in a CA firm and a city councillor,
positions of implied trust. The way the words
sounded coming from his mouth and the look on
his face made me immediately want to believe
everything he said. Wanting to believe and believ-
ing aren’t the same thing though. I always have to
remember that in my business. Even so, I found
that my comfort level with Herb was increasing—
and I liked his cologne.
“I see. Well I’m sure he appreciates your sup-
port.”
“Don’t you think the best way to deal with this
whole thing would be for Daniel to pay this damn
blackmailer and shut him up—just to be done
with the whole mess?”
“Maybe, maybe not,” I uttered, not wanting to
say too much in such a public venue. “There’s no
guarantee paying the money will be the end of it.
That’s the problem.”
“You think he’ll come back for more?”
I allowed myself a bit of a head bob. “Maybe,
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maybe not.”
“So we gotta get this bastard. Do you know
who he is yet? Have you found him? Do you
know where he is?”
“We have some leads,” I answered noncommit-
tally.
With that he pulled a white card out of his
breast pocket. “If there is anything I can
do…you’ll call me?”
I nodded and took the business card and, after
a brief glance at the titles and letters after his
name, stuck it in my breast pocket.
He slapped me on the back again. “I’m going
to go get that wine we promised the ladies.”
Since I was in the neighbourhood, I decided to
make a stop at the washroom. Every time I enter a
public loo I’m reminded of a popular e-mail joke
that was liberally distributed a few years ago. It
was a series of scenarios involving a row of urinals
and several men standing at varying positions in
the row. Based on where the men were standing,
the reader had to decide which urinal he would
choose to use (if any). Your choice would suppos-
edly indicate whether you were gay or straight or
undecided. Scientific? No. Accurate? Hmmm.
Fortunately for me, this evening the bathroom
was empty and I was spared the dilemma. I was
about done my business when a black-suited gen-
tleman entered and, despite several other options,
pulled up to the urinal next to my own. Interesting
choice, I thought to myself. I heard him unzip and
could smell his heavy musk.
“Hey,” I heard him say.
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This is not usual decorum. Normally we stare
straight ahead as if trying to ignore each other and
what we are doing and then walk away.
“Hey,” I said back, not looking at him and hop-
ing my tone conveyed a message that I wasn’t in
the mood for conversation or whatever.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
Now I looked at him.
Kelvin Kraft.
I zipped up my pants and stepped back. He
was a pompous, arrogant jerk the last time I met
him and I was guessing nothing had changed. I
wondered if James’ father was a guest at the
DGR&R affair or one of the other parties being
held in the hotel that evening. I tilted my head as
politely as I could and turned to wash my hands
at the sink.
“You didn’t answer my question,” he said, fol-
lowing me to the sink.
I calmly dried my hands on a paper towel and
answered, “I make it a habit to never answer a
question that contains the word ‘fuck’ in it, Mr.
Kraft. What are
you
doing here?”
“Well I’m certainly not skulking around wash-
rooms picking up young boys. Is that how you
met my son? Huh, is it?”
Some people aren’t worth talking to. I walked
out. It was either that or serving him a fist sand-
wich and I didn’t want to risk his blood on my
wonderpants.
On my return trip to the ballroom I tried to
judge the import of my meetings with Herb
Dufour and Kelvin Kraft. Where had Kelvin Kraft
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come from? If he was attending the DGR&R party,
then had Daniel unknowingly hooked up with a
client’s son? If so, had someone—maybe Kelvin
himself—found out? If so, what would a man like
Kelvin Kraft do?
By the time Herb and I returned to our table
our companions had split and the two men were
paying an inordinate amount of attention to their
own dates. Herb was drawn away by a group of
rowdy underlings and I saw Sereena sitting at the
next table with Daniel having what appeared to
be an intimate discussion. Cheryl Guest was
nowhere to be seen. What happened to dessert?
After unsuccessfully trying to spot Kelvin Kraft in
the crowd, sitting through a few “thanks for your
hard work this year” speeches, the white elephant
gift exchange and a silly skit by the lower-downs
skewering the higher-ups, it was after 11 and
Daniel and I had a date with a man in a parking
lot. It took some re-convincing to get him to agree
to join me but eventually, bolstered by cheap
wine, he made some excuse to Cheryl and slipped
out of the ballroom with me and Sereena. Sereena
took the RX7 and drove herself home while Daniel
and I took his black BMW. We headed to the
Confederation area shopping mall which, by free-
way, was only minutes from the hotel. If all went
according to plan, we’d have Daniel back at the
Saskatoon Inn before the first party-goer acted
shockingly unaccountant-like.
We pulled into the near-empty parking lot at
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11:20. There were three other cars spread through-
out the lot but none were occupied. We found a
spot to park as far away from a light standard or
another car as possible and waited, me in the front
seat behind the wheel and Daniel in the back. He
was sitting low enough so as not to be easily seen
by an approaching vehicle, but high enough to see
what was happening. The plan was that when
Sunny arrived Daniel would keep watch until he
could positively confirm the driver was actually
SunLover. Then he was to duck down into the
back seat out of sight while I dealt with things.
Simple.
We had a few minutes, so I decided to ask
Daniel a couple of burning questions. “I met Lois
Vermont at your party tonight. Is she a client of
the firm?”
Daniel hesitated a second before answering,
“Ah, no. We invited her as a kind of thank you for
the whole SBA award thing. Just smart business.”
“What about Kelvin Kraft?”
Another hesitation. “Kraft? Kelvin Kraft? Any
relation to James?”
“His father.”
“His father? You saw James Kraft’s father at the
DGR&R Christmas party?”
“No, actually I saw him in the men’s room and
thought maybe…”
“Huh. Well, he must have been attending one
of the other events in the hotel, don’t you think?”
“Yeah,” I said lightly. “I’m sure that’s it. We
better keep it down for now. Sunny should be here
any minute now.”
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And a moment later a blue car drove into the
lot. Blue! This could be it! Daniel said the person
who’d followed him twice drove a blue car. But he
also thought that person could have been a
woman. I tried to decide whether one of the head-
lights was brighter than the other, like the blue car
that had tailed me, but I couldn’t be sure.
“Can you see the car?” I whispered to Daniel,
hunkered down in the back seat. “Is it the same
blue car that followed you?”
I heard him grumble and groan as he tried to
find a good position from which to see the car
without himself being seen. “I…I’m not sure. It
could be. Damn. Yeah, it could be. This could be
him!”
The vehicle, which I could now see was an
Audi, made a beeline for our Beemer as if it had a
sign on it saying, “A homosexual man who wants
to have sex is in this car.” He parked about two car
lengths away. I couldn’t see the driver clearly and
assumed he couldn’t see me. I felt my heart beat-
ing faster. I was trying to keep my head focused
on the task but it was difficult separating fact from
fantasy. What was most surprising to me was that
at that moment, a moment of high pitched ten-
sion, sexual proximity and a little bit of fear, I
could completely understand the attraction of this
activity, an activity many people, gay and
straight, believe to be illicit and dangerous. But
perhaps that is exactly what makes it so attractive.
The hint of danger. The rush of adrenaline. The
promise of pleasure. An act so contrary to the safe,
routine, unremarkable lives most of us live. It’s
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about being every outrageous, sexually free, out-
there character we’ve ever read about or seen in a
movie, even if only for a few minutes when no
one—or almost no one—is watching. It’s about
being bad…and then being rewarded for it with
sex.
For a moment that seemed to span eons, our
two vehicles sat there, in a dark, snow-swept
parking lot, regarding each other like two lions in
a jungle meeting for the first time. Friend or foe?
We kept our motors idling, partially to keep
warm, partially in case a quick getaway was
required. Someone had to make the first move.
But who? It couldn’t be me. If I got into Sunny’s
car I’d be without my key witness and unable to
determine if Sunny was also SunLover. Another
moment passed. I knew it would take a brave man
to make the first move. You’d have to hope luck
was on your side and that a whole host of possible