Authors: Sara Craven
thought, or the passion she had tried to
escape. Had her bitter rejection of him
after they had escaped from the tunnel at
Diablo changed him so much?
she wondered. Thoughts went spinning
through her mind in hazy confusion.
The Senora was right, she told herself
sleepily. I am tired. In fact I'm
exhausted. And it will all seem very
different tomorrow.
But it was no different the following
day, or the day after that, or any of the
weeks which followed.
Rachel felt as if she was living in a
dream. She stood like an automaton
while a small dark woman pinned and
tacked, prodded and pulled at her,
endless yards of cream silk chiffon
spilling around her. She walked in the
gardens beside the fountain. She visited
Mark while he was confined to his room
on doctor's orders. She talked with the
Senora. She swam in the swimming pool
wearing a bikini of Juanita's, which
Josita also adapted for her. She
sunbathed. She changed for dinner and
descended the staircase to the
salon
where the Senora and the ever-growing
number of relations summoned, to attend
Vitas' wedding waited. After dinner, she
sat and made stilted conversation
designed to improve her Spanish, trying
not to let her eyes stray too often to the
other side of the room where Vitas sat.
And when the small tinkling clock on the
side table sounded the hour of ten, she
would rise, receive the Senora's
goodnight kiss and walk to the door
where Vitas waited to kiss her hand and
then her cheek coolly and swiftly.
The first time it happened, she almost
hadn't believed it. She had walked up to
her room in a daze, and let the round-
faced girl waiting nervously there help
her undress and put on a delicate lace
nightgown. Then she had lain there in the
darkness staring across the room at the
closed door, waiting almost painfully for
it to open and for him to come to her.
She had no doubt that he would come.
He had warned her at Diablo that her
debt to him was by no means paid. But
there was more to it than that. She
wanted him to come. She lay, watching
the darkness and wishing him beside her.
Even when the entire house was quiet,
she still waited for him to come to her.
But her bedroom door remained closed,
not just for that night, but for each night
that followed. He never came near her.
In the daytime—on the rare occasions
when she saw him—he was charming to
her in an aloof way, as she guessed he
would be to any woman guest under his
roof. She saw him exercise the same
charm on a bevy of wide-eyed young
cousins and a dragon of an aunt from
Magdalena.
But for much of the time, he was absent.
The Senora explained that he was much
occupied with business.
'He works twice as hard now,' she said
smilingly, 'so that after his marriage he
can devote his time to his lovely young
bride.'
The lovely young bride returned the
smile with an effort and wondered
bleakly whether she featured in his
future plans at all.
Yet she could not deny that he was
thoughtful. He had arranged for a
diplomat friend based in London to call
on Sir Giles, and the reassuring news
had been sent back that her grandfather,
though anxious, was continuing to make
excellent progress. Her luggage had
been brought from Asuncion, and her
wardrobe added to during two delightful
shopping trips to Bogota with the
Senora.
In many ways her days could not have
been more completely filled, yet they
were empty. And when she realised that
in just over a week she would stand in
the family chapel and be married to a
man who was becoming more of a
stranger with every minute that parsed, a
cry of silent panic rose within her.
And there was no one she could turn to,
not even Mark, who had made a rapid
recovery and was now mobile again
with the help of a crutch. He had become
friendly with one of Vitas' male cousins,
a young man of his own age but double
the sophistication called Jaime who
shared Mark's passion for fast cars, and
was quite content to drive him into
Villavicencio or around the dirt roads of
the vast estate.
Rachel had gone with them once, but she
had not enjoyed the trip because Jaime's
style of driving did. not impress her. But
she thought she could learn to love the
rolling grasslands that stretched for
miles as far as the eye could see, if she
could be shown them by her lover. But
Vitas had not offered to show her the
ranch, and she was determined not to ask
him. She had discovered through talking
to Jaime and the others that he not only
bred cattle, but had vast industrial
interests too, which he had never
mentioned. Rachel thought with a pang
that the more she found out about him,
the less she seemed to know, and yet
soon she would belong to him in the
most intimate relationship of all.
It couldn't go on like this, she told
herself.
She
couldn't
marry
him,
expecting
to
be
excluded
from
everything that was meaningful in his
life. He couldn't really expect her to turn
into a docile Colombian wife, without a
thought in her head except the latest
fashion and how to prevent her
husband's eyes from straying ...
This was the thought which plagued her
the most, she admitted miserably to
herself. Every time she remembered the
photograph she had seen at Maria's, pain
slashed at her like a knife. She could be
looking at herself, she thought, hungry,
pleading for a warmth, a love that would
ever be denied her.
She wanted to be alone with him, she
thought. She wanted to go to him and tell
him all her doubts, her uncertainties, and
feel his arms close around her. He still
wanted her, she thought bleakly, or so he
had led her to believe. Perhaps that was
not even true any more. But one way or
another, she needed to find out before
they took an irrevocable step that could
ruin both their lives.
She chose a morning when she knew he
would be in the estate office at the back
of the house. The door to the office was
open, and she saw with a lift of her heart
that he was alone, packing papers into a
briefcase, his dark face absorbed and
rather remote as he bent over the
massive heavily carved desk which
dominated the room.
He did not see her at first, and she was
forced to clear her throat to attract his
attention. His head came up immediately
and she saw his brows lift with surprise.
'An unexpected honour,
querida
,' he
drawled. 'Was there something you
wanted?'
Rachel was tempted to say baldly, 'Yes
—you.' But he was too much of a
stranger these days for that. She came
forward slowly, her eyes fixed on his
face. In spite of his constrained manner
to her and the formal suits he wore these
days, the eye-patch gave him an
undeniably rakish air.
'I wanted to talk,' she said. 'I—I seem to
see .so little of you these days.'
He glanced at his watch. 'Unfortunately I
have to leave for a business appointment
almost immediately. But I am flattered—
and surprised that you should seek me
out. It was not long ago you told me you
never wanted to set eyes on me again.'
She moved her shoulders defensively.
'Well, that was then. But we're going to
be married, aren't we?' She tried to
smile. 'I can hardly avoid seeing you
sometimes when you're my husband.'
He gave her an ironic look. 'How true. Is
that why you've come here, Raquel? To
find out exactly what demands I intend to
make of you once you are my wife?'
'No,' she protested, 'it isn't that at all. I
just want to talk—to get to know you,'
she added in a low voice.
He fastened the catches on his briefcase.
'Again you flatter me. Yet there are those
who would say that we are already more
—intimately
acquainted
than
any
unmarried couple have any right to be.'
'That isn't what I mean, and you know it.'
She watched him pick up the briefcase
and take another swift glance at his
watch. 'Don't let me detain you.'
'We'll talk tonight, if that is what you
want,' he said. 'Perhaps it's time we did.
But you must forgive me now.'
He walked towards the door, but as he
drew level with her, he slowed almost
imperceptibly, and she felt his brooding
gaze rest on her face, on her parted lips.
She felt herself sway towards him as if
he had hypnotised her, her body yearning
towards his. She wanted his mouth on
hers, his hands to discover all the sweet
secrets her body longed to offer him.
And then the moment was over. Vitas
strode to the door, gave her a brief,
unsmiling bow and was gone.
Rachel stood still in the centre of the
room as if she had been transfixed. She
felt rejected, outcast, totally alone. She
swung round and caught the edge of the
desk with her hands, pressing the sharp
carving which decorated it almost
convulsively into the soft flesh of her
palms, welcoming the ache it brought
her. At least it still proved she was alive
and had feelings. She wanted to throw
herself down on the floor and cry, but
she knew she had to leave. The two
secretaries who worked in the office
must be at their coffee break, but they
would be returning soon, and she had no
wish to be caught by them standing alone
in Vitas' office, looking as if she was
about to faint. She was just walking
towards the door, when one of the
telephones
on
the
desk
rang
imperatively. Rachel halted, looking
back at it doubtfully. She wasn't sure
whether the call was coming in on the
house telephone or the outside line. If it
was an outside call, she didn't think her
Spanish would stand up to coping with
any long explanations that she was not
one of the secretaries. On the other hand,
it might be important.
With sudden decision she went back and
picked up the telephone.
It was a woman's voice that spoke,
warm, and with an unmistakable
American accent.
'Vitas, honey? There's been a change of
plan. It will be easier if we meet at the
hotel.' There was a pause as if she was
waiting for a reaction, and then she said
sharply, 'Vitas? Are you there?'
Rachel passed her tongue over suddenly
dry lips. She said, 'I'm sorry,
senora.
Senor de Mendoza has already left. I'm
afraid the original arrangements will
have to stand.'
And she laid the receiver very gently
back into its rest.
Rachel sat huddled on the back seat of
Jaime's car. She still didn't know what
impulse had prompted her to run through
the house and out into the sunshine, and
she had found Jaime there, helping Mark
into the car. They were just off to
Villavicencio, and they were clearly
amazed when she asked if she might go
with them.
'Jump in.' Mark studied her white face.
'Though you don't really look as if you
ought to be going anywhere,' he added
with brutal candour. 'And what about
your handbag? Don't you want...'
'It doesn't matter,' she interrupted. 'Can't
we just go— please!'
Mark and Jaime exchanged a long look,
and she heard Jaime murmur something
about bridal nerves. Let them think what