Authors: Katharine Kerr
vaine whispered to Gawaine, showing a rare moment of sympa-
thy.
Though a smile curled the corners of the King*s mouth, he did
not look ready to summon the food. At that moment Gawaine's
belly growled again, not quite so loudly, and many other stom-
achs rumbled in sympathy.
Gawaine set aside his mead cup, and rose to his feet. In a ring-
ing voice he cried out, "Uncle, send for the food, and I shall tell
you and this assembly of a right marvelous adventure that hap-
pened to me before I became a knight!"
"So be it!" said Arthur with a tired smile. He signaled to his
hulking butler.
Cheers and the clanking of cups raised in impromptu toasts to
the king. Sir Gawaine, and the food itself filled the great hall
with noise. A line of scarlet-clad scullions bearing wooden plat-
ters heaped with steaming cuts of venison, boar, and mutton pa-
raded into the room. Two brawny cooks pushed a small cart
carrying a cauldron of bubbling turtle soup toward me center of
the hall, and small page boys offered polished wooden bowls and
spoons to all who wanted them. After placing at least one meat
platter on each table and trestle, the servers returned to the kitch-
ens, only to reappear in a few minutes carrying trays covered
with hot, roasted chickens and ducks. Some of them brought ba-
sins filled with bunches of purple grapes and ripe red apples
which they placed on every table.
Sweet grape juice trickled down Gawaine's cleanshaven chin
as he reached out with his dagger and nabbed a whole roast
chicken from the center of the table, just instants before
Dinadan's blade thwocked into the empty wood. "My apologies,
Din! I did not mean to rob you." Gawaine extended the prize to-
ward the smaller man, but Dinadan waved it off and took another
slightly smaller bird instead. "To the victor . . ." Dinadan
laughed. Gawaine pulled the hen back to his plate, sawed off a
drumstick, and took a huge bite.
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Agrivaine dipped a chunk of hot bread into a puddle of dark
pork gravy, and lifted it like a scepter. "Better than the Christmas
cod feast back in Orkney, eh, brother?" He gloated for a moment
before biting into the sopping loaf.
"Christmas at home," mused Gawaine. He stopped chewing
and his eyes clouded with memory. "Remember the time that
Merlin feasted with us. Thanks, brother, I think I know what tale
can pay for this supper."
An hour later, the feasting slowed. Men groaned happily and
loosened their belts while ladies wiped their lips and discreetly
adjusted their girdles. Sir Dinadan rose on his bandy legs, wiped
the grease from his bushy mustache with his sleeve, lifted his
cup high, and called out a toast, "Drink we now to Sir Gawaine,
the courteous knight, for he has once again saved this court!"
"Keep now your promise. Nephew, and justify this feast with
your tale," commanded the king.
Gawaine arose- hi two steps he passed the bard and deftly
plucked the harp away from him. The minstrel started to protest,
but an exaggerated wink from the knight calmed him without a
word. Gawaine staggered up to the high dais (hours of imbibing
made it slightly difficult to keep his balance) and hammered on
me strings until the hall fell silent. "Hearken, my lords and la-
dies! I shall tell you of my first meeting with Merlin, the great
enchanter, and a marvelous adventure that came of it."
"I was just a lad of twelve summers when Merlin the Prophet
visited our court. He brought with him a break in the snowstorm
that had blown for all the twelve days of Christmas, and for that,
my father decided to honor him with a three-day feast.
"Merlin proved to be a popular guest. Commoners and nobles
crowded round him, offering small gifts and asking his blessing
or advice. The ladies of our court vied with each other to comb
his beard, or bring him morsels from the table. As the day turned
to evening, my father's face darkened with jealousy.
"In his wrath, my father decided to test this famed magician.
He called me forth and presented me to the Wise Man, saying,
"This is Gawaine, my first-bom son. Tell me now how he shall
die, if the future is known to you.'
" 'Lot. this is unseemly,' said Merlin. 'No man should know
me manner nor the time of his dying.'
"My father stood up and glared at his guest 'I am King! My
word is Law! My whim is command! Tell me of Gawaine's
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death!' And he glowered, gray eyebrows and shaggy mane of
hair putting all who saw him in mind of an ancient storm god.
" 'Very well,* Merlin agreed. 'I am your guest, and I should
obey my host, but little joy will you gain from this knowledge.'
" 'Just tell me! Tell us all!' commanded my father.
"Merlin called me to stand before him and placed his hands
atop my head and over my heart. Those hands were warm and
strong with the best-kept fingernails that I had ever seen, all of
a length, unbroken, uncracked, and not caked with dirt beneath
the nail. I felt a tingle that made my neck hairs rise on end, and
then the wizard—he was not an old man at that time—winked at
me with one eye, before turning to face my father and mother at
the head of the board.
" "This boy shall die by falling,' he intoned in a sepulchral
voice that filled the ball.
"Disappointment and dismay twisted my father's harsh fea-
tures. We kings of Orkney are warriors, and doubtless my sire
expected to hear that I would die in battle.
"My mother leaned and whispered something in his ear, and
his countenance brightened. 'Twice more shall I ask this ques-
tion, but for now let the feasting and merriment proceed.' I es-
caped happily to the table in the corner where my brothers and
I took our meals, hoping that Agrivaine, or some other child
would be the king's subject on the morrow, but on the next eve-
ning, when Lot dirtied my face and dressed me in the rags of a
peasant boy, there was nothing I could do but pretend to a churl-
ishness I did not feel.
"Merlin seemed to look right through the grime on my face.
Neither my slouch nor my ragged garments fooled him. Putting
his hand on my head, and staring my father straight in the eye,
he announced, "This boy shall die by hanging!'
" 'Is that so?' asked King Lot, and a gleam of satisfaction
came into his eyes. 'Well, I will watch his fate carefully, and he
won't go by hanging if I have anything to say about it!'
"Once more my father planned to ask his question, and the fi-
nal disguise shamed me. For the third occasion I had to play the
part of a girl—truly a galling experience for a twelve-year-old
boy who thinks he will be a warrior some day. I had a blonde
wig, a scratchy dress, a necklace made of wooden beads from
my mother's store of jewelry. They cut my fingernails and toe-
nails and painted them red. They stained my lips purple with
berry juice, and they padded my hips to make them seem wider.
It took all afternoon to dress and prepare me. My mother made
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me practice walking with a swaying motion. I also had to keep
my eyes discreetly downcast. The ladies really tried to make a
proper damsel of me, but I fear that I disappointed them."
Gawaine paused in his tale to take a drink while laughter rocked
the hall.
"Gawaine!" When Guinevere could speak without laughing
aloud* she went on, "You amaze me! Perhaps you would accept
an honored place among my ladies."
"Nay, ladyl" The words came out vehemently, and the queen
tinkled with laughter again. "Let me remain as I am, your true
knight and defender." The queen nodded her assent
Gawaine bowed slightly and resumed his story. "After three
days of feasting. Merlin seemed to have filled up. To my childish
eye, he looked strong and restless. He didn't even wait for the
question when my father led me forth with some story on his lips
of my being his niece from farther norm."
" 'You are quite a trickster. Lot,' he declared, 'but you don't
fool me. This boy who is trying to act like a girl to make you
happy will die by drowning!'
" 'Ah haw! I may not be a great trickster, but you are not so
clever yourself, magician! This young maid is in reality my son
Gawaine, and indeed it has been him each night when I asked
the question, but you predicted three different deaths for him.
You are a fraud. Merlin, and a charlatan who cannot remember
his own predictions from one night to the next!'
"Merlin rose to confront my father, and the two men now
stood chin to chin and eye to eye like two dogs about to attack
each other. 'You set a fine table. Lot, and I thank you for the
meat and drink, but your hospitality leaves much to be desired by
way of courtesy. Indeed, I knew it was young Gawaine each time
you asked your question, but I spoke the truth—he shall indeed
die by falling and by hanging and by drowning!'
" 'Never!' howled my father. 'My son Gawaine shall grow to
be a great warrior like his father—'
" 'Greater,' Merlin said in a voice so low that only I heard
him.
" '—the greatest in the land—'
" 'Perhaps," whispered the wizard. He took my hand and
gazed deeply into my eyes- 'Fear nothing and you shall be a
hero, Gawaine.' His words seemed to be aimed for my ears
alone, and no one else took any heed of them. '—and when he
dies, it shall be a sword that brings him down!'
" "That, too,' muttered the wizard.
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" 'Fake! Fraud! Your prophecies are all lies and trickery. To-
morrow you must leave my dun and never return on penalty of
death!' declared my father sternly.
" 'Why wait?' Merlin said. 'I will take my leave now, but you
Gawaine shall see me again when you least expect it!' He then
cried a word of power, and the hearthfires began to smoke so
much that the whole hall soon rilled with mists and vapors. We
all ran out into the snow to escape choking to death, but Merlin
never came out. Nor was he inside when the hall cleared. He
vanished, simply disappeared, which really puzzled my royal
sire. He felt that somehow he had been made to look like a fool,
and he always hated the wizard for showing him up.
"In fact, Sire," Gawaine addressed King Arthur directly at this
point, "my father took the field against you when you were
newly crowned more because that you were Merlin's protege,
than from any desire to be High King himself." Arthur, who had
been smiling and laughing as heartily as anyone, grew sad.
"Would that Merlin still graced this company!" he exclaimed. "I
could use his wise council in these troubled times."
"Nay, my heart," answered the Queen, "you are better off
without the old devilspawn. Surely the priests of Holy Church
would not support you so staunchly if you trafficked with a black
magician like Merlin."
"Truly, Nephew, that was a strange feasting that you de-
scribed, yet I think it does not yet justify our meal this evening,"
said Arthur.
"Wait, Sire, it gets better," Gawaine assured him. "The true
adventure and marvel is yet to be told. I need but a moment to
slake my thirst with another flagon of mead before I move on to
part two of this tale." A serving knave quickly refilled Gawaine's
cup and he downed it in one long gurgle. Setting down the
empty vessel, and speaking with a bit of a slur, Gawaine picked
up the thread of his story.
"In the years that followed, I forgot about Merlin's strange
prophecy. I grew from a gangly youth to a young warrior nearly
as large and strong as I am now.
"On Midsummer Day of my seventeenth year, I rode out hunt-
ing with only a pair of dogs and a single servant to accompany
me. I rode beneath ancient oaks covered with mistletoe, and
among thickets of furze and blackberries, up hill and down,
searching for game. Armed with sword and boarspear, I thought
myself a match for any beast I might encounter.
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"Deep in the forest, I met an old hermit, and stopped to speak
with him for a moment
" "lum back, young sir,* he croaked at me. 'Death haunts this
forest today.' His eyes sparkled strangely as he warned me. and
I fancied that I knew him, though I had never seen him before."
"A ragged old hermit," muttered Arthur. "Yes, he liked that
disguise."
"As I rode into the shade of a king among oak trees, a cold
breeze from nowhere riffled my hair and cloak, and for a mo-
ment it seemed that day was night—everything around me faded
to stark black and white images, and I nearly fell off my steed
with sudden dizziness. Then, as quickly as the strangeness had
come upon me, it vanished, and I recovered myself to find the
dogs leaping and barking at something in the bushes in front of
me.
"A sort of grunting came from the impenetrable foliage. I
thought my hounds had found a wild boar. To bring back such