Authors: Sara Craven
renting to fetch his own case, not touching him and thankful for the
taxi-driver's cheerful presence. She would liked to have made an
excuse and waited for him in the cab, but he made it quite clear he
expected her to accompany him up to the flat. She stood silently
while he unlocked the door and then walked ahead of him into the
small living room. This was all strange too, she thought, even
though it was where they would be living when they returned from
the hotel until they left again for the U.S.A. She wandered round
the room while Gethyn collected some things from the bedroom. It
was difficult to imagine herself sitting in either of the fireside chairs
reading while Gethyn worked at the table behind her. She peered
into the kitchenette where she would soon be cooking the meals and
a feeling of total inadequacy began to invade her.
It was as if some romantic veil had been suddenly torn from her
eyes and she was seeing life as it really was for the first time.
Where had they gone—all those hours she had spent with Gethyn,
wandering round art galleries, browsing through bookshops? He
had taken her to dinner, to the theatre, walked with her along the
Embankment and through the parks. Sometimes he had kissed her,
and she put a hand almost fearfully against her lips. It wasn't a great
deal on which to base a relationship as intimate as marriage, yet this
was what she had done. What did she know about him
really—except where he had been to school and university and the
titles of the books he had written? She knew his parents were dead
and that he was an only child like herself, and preferred Italian food
to Chinese. She shook her head almost dazedly.
She heard a board creak behind her and turned to find him leaning
against the bedroom door jamb watching her. He had discarded his
jacket and loosened his tie and looked completely at home, which
she supposed he was. She was the stranger here. The little fish,
suddenly and disastrously out of water.
'Come here.' His tone was gentle enough, but there was an
underlying note of command, of ownership even, which made her
mouth dry.
She tried to smile. 'The taxi will be waiting.'
His brows rose lazily. 'I sent the taxi away. We can call another
when we're ready. Now, come here.'
Her reluctance must have been obvious for by the time her lagging
steps had got her across the room to him, he had straightened with a
jerk and was frowning.
'It's a little soon for second thoughts, isn't it?' he asked sarcastically,
and she flushed.
'I—I don't know what you mean.'
'Of course you know,' he jibed. 'Any resemblance between you and
the loving girl I kissed last night is purely coincidental. My God, I
don't think you've touched me voluntarily all day.' He took her by
the shoulders, his eyes searching hers. 'What the hell's the matter
with you?'
'Nothing,' she lied. 'It's all been a bit of a strain, that's all. And
Mummy was being—difficult this morning.'
Gethyn murmured something under his breath that she prudently
failed to hear. Then his grip had tightened, compelling her towards
him.
'Hello, wife,' he said quietly, and bent and kissed her on the mouth.
She made herself remain passive under his touch, waiting for that
familiar warm tide of feeling to engulf her, but there was nothing. It
was as if her warm flesh and blood had been transformed to marble.
She was incapable of even the slightest response, and presently he
released her. She had closed her eyes involuntarily as he had bent
towards her, and she kept them closed, afraid to encounter his
anger, until she knew that he had moved away.
When she ventured to open them, she found he had returned to the
bedroom and was focussing all his attention on fastening the straps
round his case. She bit her lip.
'Shall I make some coffee?' She strove for normality.
'If you want some,' he said, his voice expressionless. 'Can you find
everything?'
'Well, I shall have to learn some time,' she returned without
thinking, and blushed stormily as his sardonic gaze met hers.
'That's true,' he observed smoothly, and swung the case from the
bed to the floor. She turned away hastily and went to the
kitchenette. She filled the kettle and plugged it in, and found the
remains of a pint of milk in the refrigerator.
She was searching through the cupboards for the jar of coffee when
Gethyn came in. Immediately the admittedly cramped area of the
kitchen seemed to shrink to the proportions of a postage stamp.
'Look,' she pointed to the milk. 'That wants using up.'
'Perhaps.' He came to the cupboard and leaned down, his arm
brushing hers. It was as much as she could do not to flinch. He
produced the coffee jar and set it down on the narrow worktop.
'Unless we decide to stay.'
'To stay?' She could hear the nervousness in her own voice, and
knew it would not be lost on him either. 'But we're going to the
hotel.'
'I'm not so sure that's such a good idea.' His face was enigmatic as
he spooned coffee into the waiting beakers. 'This is going to be our
home, at least on a temporary basis. I don't see why we shouldn't
move straight in, and forgo your uncle's offer, kind though it was.'
'Oh, but we couldn't!' The kettle was boiling and she moved
hurriedly to switch it off.
'Why not?' He leaned one elbow on the worktop, watching her
levelly. 'Careful of that kettle. You're going to scald yourself.'
She set it down, her heart thumping. 'Because—because it would
hurt Uncle Phil's feelings. It's his wedding present to us and ...'
'I could phone him and explain the situation. I'm sure he would
understand.'
'Well, that's more than I do.' She lifted the kettle and filled the
beakers.
'I simply get the feeling that the implications of the bridal
suite
are
proving a little too much for you at the moment,' he said
unemotionally. 'I'll ask him just to postpone it for a few months, if
you like, until you're in a mood to appreciate it more.'
She was panic-stricken. The flat was so small. What possibility of
privacy did it afford? She added a splash of milk to her coffee and
sipped at it almost distractedly. She preferred it with sugar, but she
did not wish Gethyn to join her on another search for the
commodity. She thought fast.
'I think it's too late to change our minds now,' she said rapidly. 'The
hotel will be expecting us. Besides, I didn't really expect to have to
do housework on my honeymoon.'
It should have sounded coquettish, but it came out as petulance, and
she wished it unsaid. Gethyn's dark face, was still and enigmatic.
He said coolly, 'As you wish, then,' and drank his coffee with a
slight grimace.
While he phoned for a taxi to take them to the hotel, Davina rinsed
the beakers under the tap. She caught a glimpse of her reflection in
the kitchen window, her eyes much wider and brighter than usual,
but that could be the champagne, and a tiny flush of colour high on
her cheekbones. She looked as if she was running a temperature,
yet inside she felt deathly cold.
She was still cold when the hotel porter ushered them into the suite.
Everything was there waiting for them— more champagne on ice,
red roses—lovers' flowers, filling the air with their scent, baskets of
fruit. She glanced round and saw through the half-open door the
gleam of a gold satin bedspread, and hurriedly averted her gaze.
Gethyn was tipping the man, who was asking, after an appreciative
word of thanks, if they wished to have dinner in the suite rather than
downstairs in the restaurant.
'We'll dine up here,' Gethyn said. 'We can order later, I suppose.'
'Of course, sir.' The man's voice was deferential, eager to please.
'Oh no,' Davina broke in, aghast. 'I—I mean—wouldn't it be more
fun to have dinner downstairs ...' Her voice tailed away
uncomfortably. She knew that they were both looking at her, the
porter with a kind of sly amusement under his deferential manner,
and Gethyn with an anger that held no deference at all. He turned to
the porter.
'My wife prefers the restaurant. Perhaps you would make the
necessary arrangements.'
When the door closed behind the man, he said softly and chillingly,
'Do you think you could manage to conceal this aversion you have
for being alone with me in front of the hotel staff?'
He strode across the sitting room to a door on the opposite side and
opened it, glancing in. He was smiling when he turned, but his eyes
were like green ice.
'The instinct that brought you here was quite right, lovely. Every
modern convenience at your disposal—even a second bedroom for
the bestowal of an importunate bridegroom.' He stared round the
luxurious sitting room. 'And what shall we call this, eh? No Man's
Land, perhaps? Shall I wait for you here when it gets to dinner time,
or would you prefer to eat separately too?'
She said, and there was a sob under her breath, 'Gethyn?' She was
asking for his tenderness, his understanding, but he had gone and
the door was shut behind him. She was alone and afraid.
With a long shuddering sigh, Davina sat up at her desk and pushed
her hair back wearily from her pale face: She was still alone, she
thought. But at least she was no longer afraid, and to prove it she
would go to this place in Wales and meet Gethyn face to face once
again.
The signpost for Moel y Ddraig had said four miles, but Davina
seemed to have been driving for hours and there was still no sign of
any habitation. The narrow road wound determinedly on ahead of
her, leading her deeper and deeper into the very heart of the valley.
She had encountered little other traffic, so she had been able to pay
some heed to the beauty around her. It was wild and rugged when
compared to some of the rounded green hills she had seen that day,
with harsh, rocky outcrops thrusting through the short green turf
and clumps of purple heather. There seemed to be sheep grazing
everywhere, like tiny tufts of cotton wool against the vivid
landscape. The sky was a deep tranquil blue with only the faintest
tracery of high white cloud.
If only this had been the start of a holiday, Davina thought ruefully,
she might have imagined herself in heaven. As it was, not even the
wild charm of the valley could rid her of the insidious feeling of
dread that was beginning to pervade her consciousness. She was
already regretting quite bitterly that she had ever set out on this
strange journey.
But she wouldn't turn round and go back. Now she was here, she
would go through with it. In her briefcase was a letter from Uncle
Philip, setting out details of the proposed American tour—her
credentials for being here. Not that she expected Gethyn to be taken
in by that for one minute. It was merely a face-saver and she knew
it, but at least her presence here in Wales would mean that she
could test his feelings about divorce.
She had tried quite vainly to explain this to her mother. Mrs Greer
had been stunned into silence when Davina had awkwardly broken
the news of her proposed trip and its dual purpose. Then, and more
disturbingly, she had burst into tears.
'You're going back to him,' she had repeated over and over again.
'In spite of everything that's happened, you're going back to him.'
'No.' Davina had attempted to reason with her. 'I'm going solely to
find out, if I can, why he has ignored Mr Bristow's letters. And I
have some papers from Uncle Philip to deliver as well.'
'Oh, yes, Philip!' Her mother had rounded on her, her eyes flashing.
'Naturally, he's involved. He'd be glad to see you reconciled to
that—creature, if only to spite me. He's never liked
me.'
Davina felt suddenly very weary. 'If Uncle Philip really felt like
that, I doubt whether he'd go to these lengths to show it,' she said.
'This tour that's being laid on is quite genuine.'
Mrs Greer produced a lace-trimmed handkerchief and sat twisting it
in her hands. Her eyes when she looked at Davina were brooding
and full of resentment.
'I still see no need for you to go,' she said. 'If it's all that important,
Philip could go himself—or send someone else.'
'He is sending someone else,' Davina insisted gently. 'He's sending