Authors: Sara Craven
Reluctantly she obeyed. 'Satisfied?'
'Not entirely. Pull your sleeve up. I want to see if there's a swelling.'
She didn't want to. For one thing she was just becoming aware, now
that the first shock had worn off, that her arm was indeed very
painful. But that was natural, wasn't it? After all, she had just
banged it on a hard floor. But the pain should be getting easier all
the time, she thought, and yet there seemed to be no way in which
she could hold her arm and make it comfortable even.
Biting her lip, she pulled back her sleeve and extended her arm
almost defiantly. His fingers moved on her skin, featherlight, and
she yelped involuntarily.
'So it does hurt.' There was a sort of grim satisfaction in his voice.
'Of course it does. I've bruised it,' she said defiantly. She brought
her other hand up underneath to support it, and it felt infinitesimally
better. 'I tell you I'm all right,' she added, her voice rising.
'You're far from all right,' he said flatly. 'Sit down on the step and
I'll put your shoes on for you.'
'I can manage my own damned shoes!'
'Fine,' he said with heavy sarcasm. 'Let's see you do it, then.'
There was sweat beading her brow by the time she had got one of
them on and the laces weren't even tied. She heard Gethyn curse
under his breath, then he seized her other foot roughly, thrusting the
shoe on to it and knotting the laces with an almost savage twist.
'Come on,' he said, putting his hand under her good arm and urging
her to her feet. 'We have a fair old drive ahead of us.'
'Where are we going?' She hung back, staring at him, her eyes wide
and apprehensive.
'To a hospital that has a casualty department,' he said shortly. 'They
don't grow on trees in this part of Wales, I'm afraid.'
'You're being ridiculous!'
'I don't think so.' She was being led now inexorably towards the
door which had been her original goal, and the irony of this did not
escape her. 'You may have bruised your arm as you say, or you may
have sprained it. Whatever you've done, an X-ray will tell us all
about it. Wait a minute.' He caught up his coat from the table and
felt in one of the pockets, producing the headscarf she had bought
in Dolgellau. His mouth twisted as he looked at it. 'Perhaps we can
find a use for this abomination after all.'
Davina stood numb with fury while he fashioned a rough sling and
put her arm into it.
'Please take me back to Plas Gwyn,' she pleaded when he had
finished. 'Your aunt could put a cold compress on it for me and ...'
'Don't argue,' he said, and doused the lamp.
The air outside felt chilly as he put her into the Land-rover.
'You're in for an uncomfortable time until we get on to the road,' he
informed her. 'If you start to feel sick just hang out of the window.'
She wasn't sick, but she could have been, and faintness was
threatening to overwhelm her again by the time the jolting ceased
and they emerged mercifully on to the road. She made herself sit
up, carefully avoiding moving her arm which was throbbing dully
and persistently, and took a grip on herself.
Gethyn did not speak, and in the dim light inside the Landrover, the
lines of his face seemed to show strain.
It was she at last who broke the silence between them. 'I don't
recognise this road.'
'No. We're going to Aberystwyth. It's fractionally nearer.' His voice
sounded almost impatient. But more than that— worried, as if he
was actually concerned about her. But that was hardly possible, she
thought with a bitter little twist to her lips. It was far more likely
that he was regretting the loss of his night's entertainment.
At length he glanced at her. 'Are you warm enough? These aren't
the most comfortable of vehicles, as you've already found out to
your cost this evening.'
'I'm quite all right,' she lied. 'I think this mercy dash of yours is
simply carrying things to extremes.'
'Perhaps.' She was aware of the jut of his chin in the darkness. 'But
I'm taking no chances.'
The dark folded shadows of the hills seemed to close them round as
they drove. Occasionally Davina spotted the twinkling lights of a
farmhouse set back off the road. Nothing overtook them. Gethyn
was driving as if he meant it, but other cars swooped towards them,
their lights like bright searching eyes. She found she was closing
her eyes involuntarily against the unwanted brilliance, and at last
she dozed a little.
When she opened her eyes, the road had widened, and there were
houses and street lights, and Gethyn was swinging to the right,
putting the Landrover at a long, steep hill, and the large brilliantly
lit building which stood at its crest.
He held the glass doors open for her to pass into the casualty
department. It seemed almost deserted. A young man in a white
coat doing a crossword puzzle lowered his paper and gave Davina a
searchingly professional glance as she was escorted to the reception
desk. The formalities completed, a young bearded male nurse led
her along a passage to a curtained cubicle.
'Hurting, is it?' He peered at her arm inside the sling, and gave a
slight whistle. 'Don't answer that. I can see for myself.'
The doctor's fingers were firm but gentle as they explored the
swollen area just above her wrist. Like an automaton Davina moved
her fingers on instruction, and had to bite back a cry of pain when
she attempted to move her thumb.
'Hm.' The doctor looked across at Gethyn with a slight grimace.
'One definite fracture and a possible scaphoid as well. But, we'll
know more about that when we see the X-rays.'
The young man with the crossword puzzle turned out to be the
radiographer, and Davina made herself sit very still, trying not to
flinch as he arranged her injured arm in all kinds of positions for the
camera.
Gethyn was waiting when she emerged from the X-ray room.
'I've found you a cup of tea,' he said briefly, handing her a paper
cup. 'Hot and plenty of sugar. Good for shock.'
She was quite glad to sit down beside him on the bench in the
reception area and sip her tea. It was quite revoltingly sweet, but
after a while the quaking feeling in the pit of her stomach began to
dissipate, and she began to feel considerably more human.
In what seemed like no time at all she was back in the cubicle
hearing the bad news. Two fractures—one just above her wrist and
another at the base of her thumb. She couldn't believe it. She'd had
far worse falls than the one she had just suffered. She had fallen off
ponies as a child, and on the ski slopes when she grew older, and
had never been a penny the worse from any of them. She'd stood
more chance of hurting herself that afternoon when she'd scrambled
round the rocks to find the dragon's cave.
She sat numbly watching the dripping strips of plaster being
expertly applied round her hand and thumb. Her right hand, she
thought desolately. It would have to be her right hand. What was
she going to do now? How was she going to drive her car? Her arm
was not hurting so much, she had to admit, now that it was
supported by the plaster, but it felt as if it did not belong to her,
swathed in plaster almost from her elbow to her knuckles. She
wanted very badly to find a quiet corner somewhere where she
could sit and cry until there were no more tears, but no one seemed
prepared to let her do that.
She found herself meekly accepting a list of instructions about how
to look after her arm, and then Gethyn, his hand warm under her
other arm, was shepherding her back to the car park.
He gave her a brief look as he climbed in beside her. 'How do you
feel?'
'I don't know.' She stared down at her arm. 'I can't quite believe all
this has happened. I feel such a fool.'
'I broke a collarbone playing rugby one season,' he said. 'And I
broke this'—he tapped his nose—'the next. I gave up rugby after
that. Too bloody dangerous.'
She knew he was trying to make her laugh and was grateful for the
sudden lightening of the atmosphere.
'What position did you play?'
'Full back,' he returned casually.
She pondered her scanty knowledge of rugby. 'Oh—like J. P. R.
Williams.'
He gave her a faint grin. 'I wouldn't put myself quite in that class.'
'I had no idea you played rugby,' she said casually, and could have
kicked herself.
'No.' His brows rose sardonically. 'But then it was never the past
you were particularly interested in, was it,
cariad?
Only the
present, and the future, though there was damned little of that as it
turned out.'
'I'm sorry,' she mumbled.
'Don't be.' He sighed harshly and explosively. 'There's little point
now. Perhaps if we both get out of this mess older and a little wiser,
it will have served its purpose. Who knows?'
There was tension between them again now—almost tangible, and
she regretted it. Just for a few fleeting moments they seemed to
have recaptured the easy comradeship of their courting days, the
companionship which had so often and so easily turned to
passionate need, one for the other. At times, she thought unhappily,
they could be walking, laughing at some mutual nonsense, hand in
hand like children. Then the next moment they would be in each
other's arms, man and woman completely. Oh, where had it gone?
Why had she let it go?
She stole a sideways glance at Gethyn under her lashes and saw
that he was frowning faintly, his fingers drumming restlessly on the
steering wheel as he drove. They were out of Aberystwyth now.
The sea was behind them and they were heading inland, back to the
tall hills. She moved restlessly. The little drama was over now, and
they were back to the major event. Because she'd been injured and
frightened, a lot of things had remained unsaid. But there were other
things—other statements that had been brought out into the open,
and these were what rankled.
She remembered everything he had said before her fainting fit with
a deadly clarity. She had been too hurt, too bewildered at the time
to reason it all out, but now she had nothing else to do but stare
ahead of her through the windscreen and brood, and she did not like
the conclusions that were buzzing like a swarm of angry bees inside
her brain. When Gethyn had first launched his bitter tirade, she had
assumed that he believed she had miscarried on purpose— thrown
herself down the stairs, perhaps. There was a bitter irony in that
now.
Yet now she knew that he believed there had been nothing careless
or accidental in the loss of the child. That somehow, even without
his consent, she had managed to wangle herself an abortion. But
how could he think such a thing? True, at the time he had been on
the other side of the Atlantic, but her message to him, begging him
to come, telling him what had happened, had surely been clear
enough?
Unless it had not been delivered properly. Out of the nightmare of
pain and fear, she could remember one thing clearly. Her
mother—cool and elegant as always—at her bedside, wiping her
forehead with a dampened cloth. Her voice quietly soothing. 'My
darling—my poor little girl.' And her own faltering reply: 'Tell
Gethyn—ask him to come.'
But what had her mother told him? Davina felt a shiver run down
her spine as she tried to come to terms with this new possibility.
Mrs Greer had hated Gethyn and resented her marriage and every
aspect of it. Her concern for Davina had been real, but her attitude
afterwards made it clear that she thought her daughter should be
glad she had not been made to bear Gethyn's child. And she had not
bothered to conceal her relief and pleasure when Davina told her
quietly she intended to write to Gethyn telling him she did not want
to see him again.
Davina had assumed at the time that her mother's relief was simply
at the marriage being at an end, but now she wondered if it was not
quite as simple as that. If Mrs Greer had another even more potent
reason for wanting her daughter and hated son-in-law kept at a
permanent distance. If she had lied ... Davina flinched away from
the thought, but it had to be faced. If she had told Gethyn a
deliberate lie, then that was all the reason in the world for not