Desired Affliction (4 page)

Something was up with the entire Lexi thing…Megan was way
to protective and now Radley. The problem was figuring out what exactly the
hell was the secret.

(Lexi)

Over the next few weeks things seemed to get a little
easier to handle I was less frantic around the guys in our dorm I was learning
who had girlfriends who the loners were and the guys I wanted to avoid. I got
all my classes figured out and was doing better than I imagined I would. I even
found myself occasionally strumming on my guitar when I was alone or singing
along with my iPod.

Things with Radley were getting more comfortable once
again he would hang out in the dorm. They had a fundraiser at the Fraternity
and I helped with the setup and cleanup…as a favor to Radley. Hope was doing
her normal glaring every single time Kole got within two feet of me even though
I never actually once seen him with her. He flirted a little and I handled it…I
actually didn’t freak out on him which I think surprised us both.

There was a carwash this Saturday in the Strip mall
parking lot which will raise money once again for charity. It was being
organized by the fraternity and one of the sororities. Of course the bimbo Hope
belonged to the sorority so I would once again be subjected to her glares.

We had to be there at ten and I as usual was running
behind. Why the hell I was worried about what I looked like was beyond me. Who
was I kidding I knew exactly why I cared. I had worn my bikini with a pair of
snug shorts and a tank top over it. I pulled my hair up into a ponytail but
because my hair had a natural wave it curled down my back in big wavy wildness.
I put on just a little makeup and lip gloss.

When I walked into the room Megan let out a loud whistle,
“Hello Hot Totty…Damn who you trying to impress.” She made her eyebrows go up
and down repeatedly as I leaned over and grabbed my pillow to throw in her
direction making a direct connect to her head. “Ow…wench,” she squealed and
laughed it off.

She jumped up and grabbed her bag, “Rad is on his way we
are supposed to be downstairs waiting in five minutes and that was about…three
minutes ago so we better get moving.” I followed her out of the room locking
the door behind us as we quickly made our way to the parking lot just as
Radley’s jeep pulled up and in the passenger seat was…Kole. I turned to face
Megan and in response to my glare she shrugged her shoulders but as she walked
passed me she leaned in whispering, “Stop glaring at me or I’ll be forced to
call you Hope all day.” I pulled her hair in a playful way as she yelled ouch
and climbed into the backseat of the jeep.

Kole turned and smiled saying hello to the both of us and
then facing the front listening to the music as he rolled his tongue along his
lip. At one point he flipped out his piercing and bit down onto it with his
teeth lightly. I had to admit that he was the first person to be able to affect
me enough to make me blush with heat. He had my full attention…I shook my head
and looked out the side window. I hope he didn’t notice me staring. Stop
salivating Lexi what the hell.

When I turned back and saw the cocky grin he had I knew
he had in fact noticed. I couldn’t help but smile and that is when I felt Megan
staring at me from the side. I turned to face her and she had her mouth hanging
open. I shrugged, “What?”  Quickly I turned to look out the window popping
my ear buds in and blasting the music for a distraction…

You are fine
You are sweet
But I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak
I feel sparks
But I don't wanna be into you
If you are not looking for true love, oh oh
No I don't wanna start seeing you
If I can't be your only one
So tell me…

It was too late to take it back I realized I was actually
singing loud enough to be heard when I caught Kole turn completely around in
his seat. I saw his quick movement from the corner of my eye and I yanked the
ear buds out, “Shut up…do not say a word. Pretend you heard nothing.” Megan
laughed and Radley smiled. “Lexi that was…” I cut him off and held up my hand,
“Shh…nothing.”

Kole looked confused but turned back around and left it
alone.

There were so many girls running around in their suits
and the guys in just shorts. The water was spraying and the cars were somewhat
being washed. Megan grabbed my hand and pulled me to the back of the jeep. She
lifted her top over her head and pointed to me, “Take it off you are not
leaving your shirt on. If I have to go through with this so do you.” I rolled
my eyes, “Fine but the shorts stay on…that is where I draw the line and the
first guy that asks me to show him where my tattoo ends…let’s just  say he
is going to be singing soprano.” Megan just laughed and after I threw my shirt
in the back she closed the door.

My tattoo started very low on my left hipbone wrapping in
both directions around the front and back. It ran up my entire side and ended
just under my left breast. It’s a vine of Cherry Blossoms. Vertically on my
side it has a quote that says ‘Remembering is Painful’ and directly below that
it continues with ‘Forgetting is Impossible’. Megan is the only person that
knows why I got it and what was its’ exact meaning. I was most definitely not
embarrassed I just knew the drill and everyone would be asking about it or
commenting on it.

We found Radley washing a big black truck and decided to
offer him some help.

I heard a girl squeal and when I turned it was Hope she
was being spray by the hose from some guy. Of course she was wearing a white
bikini and nothing else…White as in when wet it may as well have been Saran
wrap. Her eyes connected with mine and immediately started scanning the parking
lot for Kole. Once she found him she stalked off to stake her claim. What a
bitch…seriously she was a complete drama queen. She walked up behind him and
wrapped her wet body around him and I turned away. Like it was really going to
bother me…honestly I mean I didn’t even know if you would consider us friends.

Oh please Lexi…of course it bothered me…I hated seeming
him with that bimbo. Why…why the hell did I care anyway? He was a guy…a really
hot guy but in fact a guy. I don’t know him I don’t trust him and I don’t need
him.

Okay now that I settled that battle within my mind I got
back to washing. I felt someone lean into me when I turned to find Kole. He
started washing the truck but looked forward, “I have to say Lex…that tattoo is
pretty fucking hot.” I turned to look at him, “Wipe the cocky grin off your
face Kole…you are not getting anywhere with it.” I heard him laugh, “Oh really
because I have been told I can be pretty persuasive.” Now I laughed, “Oh I am
sure you can be but the thing is I am not your typical girl…ya know the one
that falls head over heels for a sexy smile on a hot guy. I am a little tougher
to break than that.” He had stopped washing the truck and was now looking
directly at me, “So you think I have a sexy smile…and I’m hot huh?” Oh my god
he was so cocky…get over it. I did say that though and you had to be blind if
you didn’t think this guy was gorgeous. I just turned and threw my soapy rag at
him as it hit him in the chest I walked away and I heard him laughing behind
me. I needed distance from him I could not become that girl. I don’t do
that…ever…

“You don’t think he actually likes you do you? I mean he
flirts with everyone.” I turned to find the one and only ‘Bimbo’ standing
behind me. I had walked over to a soda machine and had just bought myself a
Pepsi. I popped the cap and took a drink only continuing to stare directly at
her.  After I put my cap back on I sat it down on the ground next to me.
“I really don’t know who you think you are and to be honest with you I really
don’t give a shit. I do have some advice for you though…don’t ever walk up to
me and pretend you know me or what I may be thinking. You have no idea who the
hell I am or what I’m about. You can go back to your happy little illusion that
you and Kole are going to one day get married and have kids living happily ever
after…I don’t want Kole bitch… (I moved in really close to her to the point
where my nose was about two inches from hers) but just so you know…if I did
want him…I could have him in a second…

(Kole)

“Hey Kole…you might want to rescue your little bimbo
before Lexi makes sure she isn’t so fun to look at anymore,” Megan hollered
over the hood of the Mustang they were currently washing. I turned quickly to
look off in their direction. “Fuck,” I dropped my sponge and started to jog
over.

“Okay ladies…we are here to wash cars. No need for a cat
fight put the claws away,” I stepped in between them. I actually wanted to tell
Hope to get the fuck away because I knew what she was trying to do and it was
not going to happen. I could tell by the look on Lexi’s face that I had only
pissed her off more than Hope already had, “Oh there won’t be any claws Kole
just keep this fucking skank out of my face and things will be fine.” Lexi
brushed passed me and bent down to grab her soda from the ground. She paused
and looked over her shoulder, “Tell your little bitch there isn’t any need for
her to stake her claim on you…I don’t want her leftovers.”

Damn she’s hot when she was pissed. She was different and
it hooked me…it was crazy the way Lexi had crawled beneath my skin and spread
like wildfire. I watched her storm off as her tight little shorts showed the
bottom of her ass cheeks. If I didn’t think she would knee me in the nuts I
would definitely cop a feel of that sweet little ass. I watched her walk away
as her hips swayed back and forth.

“You are seriously not in to her are you…she is so nasty
Kole,” what did I ever see in Hope her voice drove me crazy. Oh wait I know
what it was I was drunk and she was easy…

“Nasty…she’s nasty is she? How many of my frat brothers
have you fucked in the last two weeks trying to get my attention? You would be
the definition of nasty.” I turned back to look in the direction of Lexi, “Now
that girl over there…that is one fine ass girl…and yes I’m in to her. So you
can cut the crap Hope…because you’re starting to piss me off.”

(Lexi)

I spent the rest of the afternoon trying to avoid any
contact with him. I was making every attempt to stay on the opposite side of
the parking lot from both of them. “You do know Lex that it’s okay to like him.
He isn’t a horrible guy,” leave it to Megan to pick up on my irritability. I
just kept washing the car, “I don’t like him like that Meg. He is just a guy…a
really cocky self-centered…arrogant, conceded guy.” I tossed the towel onto the
side of the bucket, “I think I am going to call it a day. You only have like
what…thirty minutes left. I can catch a ride or walk…I have washed enough cars
for one day.” I didn’t wait for her to argue I just started walking toward the
college.

“Are you seriously going to walk back to campus by
yourself…it’s like three maybe four miles.” I thought I had escaped unnoticed
but it appears Mr. Cocky has followed me. “I’m fine walking by myself Kole,” I
kept walking without looking at him. He placed his hand onto my lower back causing
me to flinch and I immediately stopped walking to turn away. “Did I piss you
off or something? If I did I am sorry. I thought we were actually getting past
all this…shit,” I didn’t get the chance to answer him before he continued,
“What exactly did Matt do to you for you to be so angry all the time.”

The air in my lungs disappeared. I felt the bile raise
and I fought back the tears, “What did you say?” I looked back to the parking
lot and connected with Megan looking very concerned, “I don’t know what you’re
talking about.” Megan was now walking in our direction with Radley close
behind. I turned back to him and swallow hard, “You have no idea what you’re
talking about…” Kole stepped toward me bringing up his hand to place it on my
arm but a stepped back quickly causing him to pull his hand back in. “Listen
I’m sorry Megan said that somehow Matt was responsible for how closed off you
are. I was just wondering how…what did he do.”

I felt betrayed she was my best friend why did she say
anything. “Megan how could you?” Radley and Megan were now standing directly in
front of me and I blink and a single tear ran down my cheek as I quickly wiped
it away. Megan looked from me to Kole and finally back to me, “What?” I felt
sick… “Damn it Megan you had no right to tell him about Matt…It’s my fucking
life. I am the one that battles this every god damn day…ME! I can’t believe you
said anything to him about that.”

I didn’t wait for her to respond or anyone to say
anything I just turned and ran. I didn’t stop until I reached the dorms I
needed space I had to get out of here and fast. I changed my clothes quickly
then left. I had to disappear I needed to forget…

(Kole)

I rode with Radley and Megan back to the dorm I felt like
such an ass…

“Megan I’m sorry I said anything. I had no idea she would
freak out like that,” I felt horrible about everything. “Kole you couldn’t have
known how she would react. It’s my fault I never should have said anything to
you. I have to find her,” Megan stood in their room crying.

I was worried about what exactly I had just caused by
saying anything about Matt. I have never seen a girl freak out like Lexi did
just from breaking up with some guy. It was like she was terrified, “Maybe we
should split up we could cover more that way. If you take me back to the house
I can take my car and drive around too.” They both agreed that would be better
as they turned in the direction of the frat house.

Once I got into my car I grabbed my phone…I had a phone
call to make. Someone was going to tell me what the hell was going on…and now.