Dearest Clementine (39 page)

“I want to fuck you to next Friday and back again. Does that make you feel better?”

Staring, a little shocked and wide-eyed, I burst out laughing, and then he rumbles beneath me, laughing too. Thank fuck he didn’t say he wants to make love. I would have shot myself.

“Yes, actually it does.” I prop myself on his chest, and run my fingers in imaginary lines on his skin.

There’s enough light in here so I can see this masterpiece beneath me, all chiseled muscle and taut lines. Finally, I rest my chin on my hands and look down at him. “Well, if we’re making sure to clarify everything tonight, you should know that I have some requirements.” His mouth tugs up slightly as he waits to hear my demands. “If you want this to work, I have three rules.”

He nods slowly, amusement flickering in his eyes.

“One, no more lies or omissions. I don’t care if the president of the United States is fucking his entire staff and you have the inside scoop but you’re sworn to secrecy. You tell me.”

He smirks. “Fine.”

“Two, no snuggling with groupies—ever—and no more overnight trips with Angelique or I will break your hand, the one you use for self-satisfaction.”

His grin grows. “Deal.” His arms tighten around my waist as his legs open, dropping me between his thighs where an unmistakable hardness greets me.

“And lastly,” I say, leaning down and stopping just before our lips meet, “never let go.”

The expression on his face is the only indication that I’ve negotiated my third sticking point before he flips me over onto my back. I’m lying here breathless, thinking he’s going to devour me, but he gets up, and for a scary half second, I’m worried he’s leaving.

My heart races, and I sit up only to realize he’s undressing. His shoes hit the floor, one after the other, before he stands next to the bed. He changed out of his football pants after the show—he said he was cold, but I think it was so girls would stop grabbing his ass.

I watch as he unbuttons his jeans and lowers them over his sculpted hips, revealing those amazing V muscles that lead down to his Never-Never Land. Holy shit. He’s a delicious morsel in nothing but a pair of boxers.

Trying to reciprocate the sexy, I sink back into bed, tucking my hand under my head and sticking my chest and hips out the way models do, and hope I don’t look like an idiot. But his eyes pass over me slowly, appreciatively.

“Damn, you’re gorgeous,” he says as he crawls up my body, staring hungrily.

“If I told you I loved you right now, would you think I was using you?” I ask, half teasing. Running my fingers through his hair, I whisper in his ear, “Because I do. I do love you.” He brings his mouth to mine, his tongue gently stroking mine, his hands running along my body, driving me insane with desire.

I thought I loved Daren, and I did in a butterfly-and-hearts kind of way, but it was nothing like this. This is an asteroid shower on a summer night. A tidal wave crashing onto the breakers. Falling over the edge of Niagara Falls in an inner tube. Because I have fallen, irreparably, for Gavin Murphy.

“You might not be able to tell, but I love you too, crazy girl,” he says sarcastically against my mouth. “I’ve wanted you for a long time.”

His hand ducks beneath the fabric of my shirt, and I push him back slightly so I can pull it off, leaving me in a hot pink push-up and my little skirt.

Gavin runs his finger along the strap of my bra, down to the cup and across the top of my breast until he reaches the clasp where he hesitates. His eyes meet mine and I nod. My skin instantly tightens in the cold room.

His hands are reverent as they smooth across my bare skin. I push my chest into him, and he grips me, sliding his hips between mine. I wrap my legs around his waist and wiggle, hoping to get a little friction on the part of me that’s throbbing like it’s disco night.

He stops and grins. “I have something for that.”

I watch, open-mouthed, as he descends down my body, kissing and touching and nipping until he reaches my spankies, which he slides down along with my lacy undies until I get them off.

He kneels between my legs, and I’m lying topless with my skirt hitched up around my hips, trying not to squirm as he looks at me. And oh, good God, does he look. My heart is pounding, and I’m not entirely sure I can breathe.

“Are you up for a different kind of third base?” He grins so big, I might have a heart attack. I realize we’re back to baseball metaphors as he lowers himself to my thighs. He takes my legs and drapes them over his shoulders, opening me up more.

Sweet Jesus.

Gavin’s hot breath hits my skin first, and his mouth on the most sensitive part of my body has me gripping the bed and writhing. I wasn’t expecting this. I know some guys don’t do this, but it’s fan-fucking-tastic. My eyes damn near roll back in my head as his tongue slides slowly against me, teasing and caressing. But when he slips in a finger, my body lifts off the bed. I grab his hair as his stubble rubs along my thighs, and my toes curl along his shoulders. I hear a moan, then another. Then I realize I’m the wanton moaner, lost in an explosion of light and sensation as a climax shatters me. I’m not sure how long I’m shuddering before I catch my breath.

Gavin crawls back up me with a very self-satisfied look on his face. I pull him down to me and kiss him, too out of it and euphoric to be embarrassed by the taste of myself on his lips. I hear the tearing of a wrapper and realize he’s taking out a condom.

“Show me how to do that,” I murmur sleepily. Did I really just ask my boyfriend to show me how to put on a condom? I don’t recognize the naked girl lying here in bed asking such questions.

Yes, I’ve purchased condoms and practiced safe sex the one time I went there, but the act of putting it on seems perplexing. Hello, it’s a body part I don’t have. 

“Okay.” He smiles, rolling over and placing the circular disk in my hand. “Come here.”

I struggle to sit up next to him and finally get my first good look. He’s at full mast, saluting me proudly, and my eyes bug out, making him chuckle.

“Honey, I don’t think you’re going to fit,” I say nervously. Sure, we’ve messed around, but I’ve never gotten a really good look at him
down there.

Smirking, he kisses me on the forehead and lies back. He takes my hand, placing it on the crown, and helps me roll on the condom. As my hand moves against him, I have to admit I love his velvety, rock-hard man parts.

When he’s locked and loaded, he looks up and we stare at each other.

This is it.

Gavin clears his throat. “Get on top.” His raspy voice sends shivers down my arms. “That way you can control it. I don’t want to hurt you.”

My face must be on fire right now, and I blurt, “But I don’t know what I’m doing.” It’s true. I don’t. My one-night stand was quick and unpleasant. It was nameless, faceless rebound sex, and I’ve mostly blocked it out of my mind. Suddenly, though, I wish I wasn’t so clueless.

He smiles sweetly. “Babe, I think you can figure this out.”

Oh God. Oh my God. Trying not to freak out, I straddle his hips.

“I’m still wearing my skirt,” I giggle. I’m clearly anxious as all kinds of random things are shooting right out of my mouth.

“Yeah, it’s hot. I’ve always wanted to bang a cheerleader.”

I swat at him, and he laughs, grabbing my wrists and pulling me down to kiss. He laces our fingers together as he whispers how much he loves me, that I’m his dream girl, that he has more songs for me. My heart melts as does some of my hesitation.

He’s hard beneath me, and when I wiggle, his eyes darken. Wanting to make him feel as good as he's made me feel, I glide across him slowly, which he must like because he grips my hair. I tighten my thighs, and he groans. All of this friction has me throbbing again, which is crazy because I just had a totally mind-blowing orgasm five minutes ago.

After a little more grinding, I decide to take the plunge and angle him at my entrance.

He clears his throat. “Baby, are you sure? We don’t have to. I’ll wait as long as you need.” His voice is clipped and husky, and everything about it says he wants this as much as I do.

“God,
yes
, I’m sure.”

He chuckles and grabs my thighs as I slowly push down. The farther I get, the more intense Gavin looks. It pinches at first, but it’s the only thing that helps the throbbing, and I want more. Finally, I can’t stand it any more, and I let gravity pull me down. I instantly topple over onto him, unable to deal with the fullness.

“Jesus, baby. You’re so tight,” he groans. I would blush ten shades of red if I weren’t already flushed from our recent activity.

I don’t budge at first. I can’t. His hands run down my back like he’s soothing me, and I close my eyes, our naked chests panting against one another. We’re hot and sweaty, and this is, hands down, the most intimate moment of my life.

I manage to lift my head. The look in his eyes tells me he loves me, tells me I’m beautiful, and I put my lips on his to reflect those same emotions. Before I know it, I’m moving again. I’m slow as I try to acclimate to him, and it hurts a little, but after a few minutes his body feels so right pressed into mine.

Watching Gavin watch me is hot. His eyes are hooded as he tightens his grip on my hips, and I start to lose myself in the sensation as it builds again.

When he cups my breast, I arch into his hands, appreciating the ripples of electricity that head south, but as he thrusts his hips up, I gasp, putting my hands on his chest to steady myself. Whoa! Is he supposed to be able to knock the wind out of me by jutting his hips?

Sitting up again, I start to move, and his hand lowers to my core, rubbing me in small, slow circles.

With that shattering sensation beginning to tease me, I start to tense, and I can tell Gavin is close too because he’s thrusting again, harder, deeper, but now it feels right, now it feels good,
so
good, and I tell him because I can’t help it. He rubs me a little faster, and I. Lose. My. Mind.

I scream as bliss washes over me, slumping down as he thrusts a few more times, tensing and tightening his arms around me. He finally stills, all of his muscles taut.

We lie there, panting, connected. The after-sex glow? I’ve got it. The sex-god boyfriend? Yup, that too. The head-over-heels feeling of love? Definitely.

When did life get so good?

* * *

With heavy lids, I wake, craning my neck to see that it’s only 7 a.m. I drop my head back down onto the pillow as a warm arm reaches around my waist and pulls me back, and Gavin’s delicious body contours perfectly against mine.

“You’re too far away.”

I love the way his voice is raspy first thing in the morning. I love that he’s here with me. Well, I… I love him. I turn in his arms and lay my head on his chest.

“I’m sorry we broke up,” I say, still feeling like shit that I didn’t trust him. I’ve been meaning to tell him this all week.

He laughs softly. “Babe, we never broke up.” He strokes my back and kisses the top of my head, and we lie there in the early morning light, tangled together, listening to the rustling of the trees outside my window. “Hey, does this mean you’ll go running with me now?”

Laughing, I snuggle closer. “Yes, we can go running.” Uh, but not today. I have to make sure I can walk first.

My room smells like Gavin, his clothes, our bodies, and the memory of what we did makes me giggle.

“What?” His fingers trail down my arm, making goosebumps leap out on my skin.

“I was thinking about last night.”

He stills, and I look up to see him frown. “Baby, nothing I did to you last night should make you giggle.” But then he grins. “Hey, who knew you were a screamer?”

My face falls, and I gasp. Gavin closes his eyes with that smug expression still lingering. I stare, horrified.

“If you hadn’t tried to impale me with your superhero-sized man junk, I wouldn’t have screamed.”

He breaks out laughing, and I shush him, afraid he’ll wake up my roommates.

“Superhero, huh?” He’s grinning like an idiot.

“Yes, jerk.” I brush a few strands of hair off his face.

“Have I told you that I love you? You just made my decade.”

“Men and their penises,” I mumble before I curl against his chest.

He pulls me closer—fitting his thigh between my legs, pressing my chest to his—and whispers, “That was the best game of baseball I have ever played.” He moves the hair off my neck and presses his lips to my skin.

The smile on my cheeks might break my face. “Really? I wasn’t horribly awkward and inexperienced?”

“Nope. It was even better than I imagined.” His mouth is still working its way down my neck.

I push him away. “So you imagined this? Like, a lot?”

He licks his lips, and that look in his eyes could melt titanium. “What do you think?”

I lean down to kiss that delectable mouth, which only makes me want more. “I think you’ve been a bad boy.” I nibble on his lower lip, and he groans. “And I think you might need to be punished.” His eyes dart to mine. I’m sure I’ll be sore as hell in the full light of day, but screw it. You only live once.