Crystal Bella (15 page)

“You know
, Kali everything in your past has led you to this point and you are here in my life. So you have to thank that old person for getting you here. The day you rocked up into my life, your history, your past was already there, it was formed and it was yours not mine. I know from that day on you’ve always been so pure and angelic to yourself and me.”

When Ethan looked at her all she saw was love. In that moment it was like the face of her own angel. He looked at her with unconditional love. It was pure and it showed on all his face. His eyes were deep and green and when she looked into them, any ache she ever had was lost in those eyes that just had love. No one had ever looked at her like that. She was having a déjà vu experience. It was as if she had been looking for this moment her whole life, for a man to look at her in this way. She had been searching for it and was now found, but didn’t even know she had been looking until now. The mystery was unfolding before her. She almost looked stunned to Ethan. Another layer he had not seen before but was unfolding before him. They were becoming creatures of another time, their beauty igniting each other. The expressions on their face derived from their souls showing their destiny formed centuries ago. It made them shine together in the universe’s shadow. It was like Gods tear had fallen upon them and they saw their love so crystal clear.

~~~~

It was 11am, a new day and Ethan knew he had to get up. He had fallen into a deep sleep and had not awoken until 10am. He had the day off from college and was just waiting to get a call from Christian to meet up for a coffee.

Ethan eventually got up and walked around in his boxer
s. Elisabeth was at work and he walked into the kitchen and grinded himself a coffee. The view of the sea, the wooden floors on his bare feet made him feel pretty special. He always liked the feel of wood, especially on his skin. It seemed alive, like he could feel their original place, out in the forest where the wood had come from. That energy seemed to stay there and connect to him. It grounded him having the feeling of the wood on his feet. Coffee also grounded him, the initial hit, the slight buzz, it made him feel positive.

Ethan knew he would
be seeing Kali tomorrow at class but for now he had to just wait for Christian to call. He felt a bit restless and bored just waiting. Ethan didn’t like to wait. He didn’t like the moment when you had made up your mind on something but there was a wait of an hour or so, he just wanted to be there now. Eventually the phone rang and it was Christian. He was with Carl and they had arranged a ride to Edgeoholic cafe. Ethan was happy, a nice relaxed, free day and it was sunny. Ethan needed light, his house had so much light. He had realized he needed that when he stayed at an old friend’s place once. He was there only for three hours and the darkness of the house got to him a little. Three hours he could handle it but all the time he was like, no way. Different if it was night time, dark could be cool, being at one with the elements, but during daytime Ethan needed light.

~~~~

Ethan pulled into Edgeoholic cafe. It hit him then, the experience he had the last time he was there, the moment before the old lady.
Wow, time is speeding up, it seemed so long ago now.

Earlier in the day Christian had been tal
king to Amelia. She was sweet and calm in her energy. The only problem was their time was always so brief, passing through, one minute here and there. It was just after he saw her that he bumped into Chuck and it wasn’t the first time Chuck had been around him either. The other day he was close by and annoying in his presence. He was just chatting away about nothing, trying to be cool but it all seemed false and unnatural. Chuck had seen him earlier in the day.

“
Hey Christian, I wanted to ask if you don’t mind, could I score off you? For the college party.”

Just out of the blue
, thank goodness for Ethan.

“You know
I occasionally may use that stuff, but rarely and I don’t have any.

“I was sure you dealt it.”

“No just a regular college
guy who likes to party.”

“Sure, do you know who I can score from?”

“Um…try Carl maybe.”

“Carl? Oh, okay
.”

“Good luck,
” Christian said and walked away.

He didn’t feel scared, he felt more annoyed, angry
that he was playing a game with him, pretending to be nice. It just made Christian’s blood boil. What made him more agitated without really knowing was how he had to appear nice and apply that superficial kindness in his conversation. It bugged him to be false, but he had no choice. He had to be diplomatic.

Christian
had played it well, but the game Chuck was playing and the way it was making Christian feel was going to come to a head, where one would get hurt. When confrontation came Christian’s way he would exert his aggression. He was like a Pit Bull when he felt threatened and would attack.

Ethan walked into the Cafe.
Christian and Carl had found a cozy seat near the window in a booth. Just as he saw them he noticed Natasha walking through. It had an unusual feel to see her, something had changed, he didn’t get the pit in his stomach. He felt compassion towards her. He felt that sense of forgiveness and wanted to be friends.

Ethan sat down with
Christian and Carl. They spoke briefly about the other day with the old lady and Ethan reassured them that nothing would come of it. Christian talked about Amelia.

“The problem is
I’m just not getting enough time with her. One minute here, one minute there.”

“
Well, you’re gonna have to spend time with her to find out whether there’s a connection,” Ethan said.

You just
can’t keep playing it like a child, Christian. A crush from just 10 seconds of talking to her,” Carl added.

“I know
, I know,” Christian said.

“Yeah you are just going to have to make
time, and if it doesn’t happen, you will just have to be direct and ask her out,” Ethan said.

“Okay, thanks for the advice
. She is just very sweet and...” He paused and made a funny gesture holding up his hands and clenching his teeth, “Intimidating almost.”

“If she smells fear
she’ll think you’re a pussy. Don’t be afraid of her beauty,” Ethan said.

He cou
ld be so direct and it sometimes made others uncomfortable, just the directness with his assessment with someone else’s emotions. It was often direct, honest and a little nerve wreaking for some to hear.

Christian
was afraid of her beauty. Very little feared him but a beautiful, rich girl was making him shy, insecure and if he was true to himself, Ethan was right, he was afraid of the beauty in woman. It was one of those deep assessments that most would never get to know about but Ethan had seen it in others. He had seen how some waiters had clammed up and became nervous around Natasha, her beauty could intimidate some men. A man being afraid of a woman’s beauty sounded silly but Ethan had seen it and he knew Christian had to recognize it first, then he could clear it.

As Christian
pondered Ethan’s words, Natasha turned up to take their order. She looked gorgeous as usual and when Ethan looked at her he felt all her emotions. She looked and felt as if she was going through a hard time. Ethan had always found it hard to detach himself from her stuff, her life. Ethan’s mom had told him once.

“
You’re rescuing her. Stop it please. It’s an old pattern of yours and it gets you nowhere.”

I
t was true. Now that he was moving on from her, he felt compassion. He couldn’t unravel it, but the beauty of Natasha in this moment and with him loving someone else gave him a mix of emotions he had not felt before. Again all he could feel was compassion with it all. The essence of it was Ethan was becoming so more exact with his soul, one with the soul. The soul came from a place of so much depth and love and understanding and at night in the ether when Ethan had seen Natasha, but couldn’t remember now, there was that deep understanding and love. Natasha just couldn’t apply that in this world with all her past. It was not Ethan’s issue but his soul understood. It was the unconditional vibration he had experienced in the ether with Kali, that knowing love. It was like that was entering him now. He knew one day they would be in the afterlife in purity and laugh about their time together. She would always be special to Ethan, his soul understood her mind, her inability to accept his love, how she was not used to it, but one day she would free herself and accept that deep, unconditional, sensitive love from a male.

Natasha
took their orders, then Christian brought up the subject of Chuck.

“
You’re so right, Ethan, Chuck has been around me like a rash. He asked for drugs off me today.”

“Really?”

“I said I don’t deal, just played it cool, I said very little. I told him to try you Carl.”

Ethan laughed
, and like a kid with Christian seeing Ethan laughing he cracked up too.

“You dick,” Carl said.

“
Don’t worry, Carl, he didn’t believe me, you’re far too innocent looking,” Christian said.                                                              

“
So Chuck is really a cop, just pretending to be a student?” Carl asked.

“Yep, bang on man,
” Christian said.

“It’s a little intense, you
’re just doing some part time trading and now we have this going on,” Carl said.

“Maybe he’s
just a junior cop, doing small stuff, jay walking, parking tickets and now going after Christian,” Ethan said and Carl started laughing.

“It’s not that funny
…. he’s definitely a cop though isn’t he?” Christian asked, already knowing the answer.

“Yep
,” Ethan said.

“
I guess he has to be, unless he’s just a needy type of friend,”

“
If he isn’t a cop then I would be more worried, I’d be like what does this dude want?” Ethan said smiling.

“Yeah, we would
be like, Christian run man! He isn’t a cop! Run!” Carl said and Ethan and Carl were really laughing, Christian was unsure whether to laugh or not. Ethan kept going with it.

“Yeah I’ll be like I might have got it wrong
, Christian he’s not a cop, get out of here! What does he want? Run man!”

Ethan and C
arl kept going with it, saying Chuck was stalking him for no reason, then they relaxed on Christian and like always returned to their everyday trivial stuff, talking about the coffee, the extra rip in Ethan’s jeans and Carl spoke of a dream he had of the three of them having a coffee together.
No interpretation on that dream required,
Ethan thought.

~
CHAPTER TEN ~

HOUSE OF HEARTS

It was just after midnight
, Ethan’s eyes were heavy and he could feel something around him, it was the presence of Kali. Kali was asleep in her bed and her soul had left her body and had come over to find Ethan. Her soul was waiting for Ethan to fall asleep and when he did, she would be with him in the ether.

Ethan was half asle
ep and he could feel her presence around him, so clear for him now and then the moment came when his soul almost left his body, but came back and he got that shock that people get when their soul leaves and returns to the body, that jolt when you’re half asleep. Ethan could feel Kali next to him and said in his head, ‘I’ll be there in a moment.’ Then moments later he fell asleep and before he could get close to the ether, Kali was on him, like a vampire almost, and Ethan realized how much Kali’s soul wanted him. Kali had not felt this love her whole life and now she was like a hunter taking down her prey. Her prey was Ethan and Ethan was bombarded with her presence. It was strong, she took him.

Ethan started heading up in
to the air, Kali was pulling him up. Ethan laughed, she was so intense tonight, like a vampire who had not touched blood for a thousand years and here it was all before her. She seemed raw tonight, her passion overwhelming. It was like she had waited for eternity for Ethan to arrive and now she needed him, and he was chosen.

As she raised Etha
n up, Kali focused her desires and manifested a new place. The soul could do this in the ether, go to another plane in a moment. They were now in an ancient, huge villa. It seemed familiar to Ethan, but he couldn’t quite figure how. It was a special place. Wooden features, big windows and a roaring open fire. It was very spacious. All the rooms came together in an open plan way, they fitted so well, all coming together, all symbolic of their lives together. It was a house but it was also symbolic of their hearts.

Kali had her ar
ms wrapped around Ethan and they glided into the air. She looked at him with all her passion. He wondered if she was going to bite his neck, she had so much desire oozing out of her. As they moved through the air, they came to the ceiling of the house. There was a spectacular chandelier light that had diamonds within it and those diamonds had a story. They had been in the earth once a long time ago, they had seen the past, they had once been on the fingers of both Kali and Ethan. Now they had emerged again and shined their beauty in the house of hearts.

Kali and Ethan stood
there in the air, next to the light under the ceiling. Somehow the ceiling was see through, even with its classic wooden features, the beams going through to one another, they were transparent. Kali wanted Ethan to look above and see something, but before he could, as he read her thoughts, she wrapped her legs around him and kissed his mouth. She bit his lip, softly, but as she did, an image of blood trickled down Ethan’s mouth and it fell away and splashed onto the wooden floor below. It splashed out for both souls to see, and it formed a contract and in the contract was their portion about their love, just theirs and what they had agreed to before this life.

A contract of a thousand years manifest
ed by love. The blood flowed down and went into the cracks of the floorboards, then it went into the ground and found itself running through the earth, feeding the earth, spreading out. Then it condensed again, retracted but it left its imprint upon mother earth, then returned to the form of the full blood.

It was time for Ethan to look up now and he did. Above was an extended balcony and there were
two women on it. One looked like Natasha and the other Ethan couldn’t quite see, she was high above. Then Ethan realized how he had recognized the house he was in. It was the same house he went into when he had a dream just as he was about to break up with Natasha. In the dream a lady had showed him all around this house, showed him all the layers and how they were all connected. It was at that time, in the dream that he realized he wanted big, not small. Natasha sometimes wanted a small home, cozy and little and Ethan started to be drawn to that, but when he had the dream of the house of hearts, he realized, no he wanted this, a big house. The dream was telling him he needed a big heart like his own, and she would come, a match of his.

The dream was also showing him his
choices; he could have big or small, a big, full heart, or a half full heart. In the dream he saw a male figure who told Ethan he could only live in two places in the world, the inner city beach suburbs of San Francisco, or out in the country in one of his favorite spots, the only two he said. There were two women Ethan could choose.

As Ethan
stayed with Kali in the air, wrapped up in each other, he realized the woman in the dream at the highest point was Kali. She was the highest, emotionally and to Ethan’s soul, she was the highest one. Every human experience Ethan had gone through with a woman was to get him closer to Kali, and to teach him what he didn’t want. Every human experience Kali had gone through was to teach her the same thing and to get her to Ethan also.

Kali
raised Ethan further up and they were now in the sky. They started moving fast, moving through the air, flying, going at incredible speeds. It felt so good to fly, to be this free. Then their hands slipped and Ethan realized he was returning to his body, his mind couldn’t handle the impact of it all and he was about to wake up and was forced back to his body. Ethan returned back to his bed, half awake, half asleep. He kept dozing in that state until the light from his window woke him up completely.

~~~~

Ethan left his home and biked down to the mechanic. His car was ready and fixed. He saw Joe and he was looking happy as usual. His eyes were beaming, his grey hair shining. He seemed to have the simple life and somehow had arranged it in the big city.

“T
here you go, Ethan all done and fixed.”

“Sweet as
man.”

Jo paused and asked, “A kiwi term?” 

“Yeah I guess it is.”

Ethan looked as his car, it looked good, perfect really. But
he had this desire that just wanted the bullet holes in there, it just made it look edgy. Ethan didn’t like guns of course, but some light bullet holes, he liked the look.

Ethan knew he couldn’t
go around with a couple of gun shots in his car, it would just attract trouble, but he wanted them in there, maybe just for a week or so. Joe picked up on Ethan’s manner.

“Missing the bullet holes are you son?”

“You have done a great job, Joe it’s all good, it’s just...”

Ethan put up his hands in a gesture like he
was almost holding something. “I like the look, but I know I can’t have it.”

“One moment
son, I’ll just grab my gun from the workshop draw and I’ll put a couple of bullets in it for you.”

He was serious
, dead serious and Ethan felt nervous. Joe took a couple of steps then swung around.

“No, I am joking, Ethan.”

“Phe
w.”

Jo suddenly looked more like
an actor from Broadway.

“But what I have done is replaced your front guard which had two bullet holes in it. I still have the old one and I can keep it here in storage for you and if one day you want a few shot gun holes we can put the old panel
back on.”

“Man that’s so cool. Perfect!”

Ethan was happy, he had the perfect match. He grabbed his bike and lifted it up and put it into his car. He had to maneuver it to get it in, not so good for the seats but he didn’t really care. He drove off and waved at Joe. A convertible Porsche with a banana bike sticking out, life was perfect.

Ethan drove to college
, then he remembered it was Friday and it was the heaven, hell college party tonight. Life had been so frantic. He knew it was coming but it had just flown up on him. He had his costume all sorted so that was cool. Then he thought about Kali. If she was there then it would be perfect. She had to come, if she didn’t he would leave early and catch up with her somewhere. It felt for Ethan that the next step was coming with them. But he didn’t want to plan anything, he would be in the here and now. It was the mind that often planned things and Ethan was not with the mind anymore and he knew his soul would bring everything they needed together at the right time, in the perfect conditions and he just had to go with that unknown magic.

Ethan arrived at
Booker University, he only had one class today and it was English, with his favorite teacher.

Ethan pulled his bike out of hi
s car and locked it against the fence. Carl and Christian walked over.

“You two are like ghosts,
” Ethan said.

“We knew you would rock up here,
” Carl said, lighting up his rollie.

“Ye
ah good timing man,” Ethan said.

T
hey all went together to their English class. They walked into the grounds, as they were walking along they decided to take a short cut along the steep hill that had grass and a back drop of a beautiful Goth looking building. They jumped up the front concrete wall that was there at the bottom, which led to the slopping bank. As they hopped over the wall, Ethan noticed Carl had his little backpack on and as he used to do as a teenager, he couldn’t resist and he pulled it. At the same time putting his knee into his back and pulled Carl towards him which made him fall over.

“Sorry
man I had to do it,” Ethan said.

T
hen Christian jumped on Ethan, he was by far the strongest of them and all three were on the ground.

“Help, Carl!
” Ethan said.

Carl decided to jump onto Christian to make it a more even match. Then Ethan said, “look there’s Amelia.”

I
t was true sitting on the grass with her friend was Amelia looking like two swans on a clear lake. Ethan brushed the grass off himself.

“Here’s your chance man, she may have seen you tackle me so she’ll be impressed with your strength and speed.”

“Just don’t be afrai
d of her beauty,” Carl said.

Ethan laughed.

“What should I say?” Christian asked.

“Just go up to her,
” Carl said.

“He has to say something
. He can’t just turn up and stand there.”

“This is making me more
nervous now.....oh shit she is looking this way,” Christian said.

“Okay
we’ll sit down again,” Ethan said.

T
hey all sat down, facing slightly away from Amelia and her friend and Ethan continued talking.

“Okay
I’ll talk to her if you like and see if I can find out what she’s doing tonight, see if I can get an entrance in for you.”

“Cool,
” Christian said.

“How old are we?” Carl asked
.

“Young!” Ethan said, all smiles
, and walked up to Amelia.

T
here were about four or five groups of people on the grass bank so Ethan, Carl and Christian were not too conspicuous, but she had noticed them, everyone always did, they were happy and fun looking and always did silly things and of course Christian traded drugs which a few people knew about.

“Hey your name
is Amelia eh?” Ethan asked.

“Yes, h
i,” she said.

Ethan could see why Christian liked her, he could tell straight away she was special, her eyes had a shine in them, they were quite potent, pristine, a beautiful blue
color and she had amazing, untouched skin. If Christian was afraid of beauty, this girl would do the trick. Maybe the universe should have brought in someone less striking to get him through his lesson, he joked to himself. She was understated with her beauty, it was calm and unassuming. Ethan had to keep talking and he did.

“Anyway I
thought I’d come over, climb the hill and introduce myself since I do see you around college a bit.” They started chatting and got on really well, she was sweet, smart and probably single.

Amelia liked Ethan and
was drawn to his softness, for a male he was sensitive, she didn’t really expect it from Ethan with the times she had seen him. He was easy to chat to, it was easy and he seemed to really see her and get her in the short time they had together. She found him masculine but he had a strong feminine side that she really liked, it was a mix she had rarely seen. Her friend chatted too and they were all getting on very well, then Ethan remembered he had class soon and he was meant to be here to help Christian out and if anything he was only improving his own chances, not that he was trying, or wanting that, but he knew the way things were going, she might just take a shine towards him.

Ethan was
unsure what to do, if he put the big word in for Christian, after this performance it may not do him any justice. He decided to leave it for now and just asked if she was going to the party tonight. She said she was still undecided. Ethan told her he was going with Christian and Carl. Her friend might like Carl, Ethan thought. He said bye and returned down the hill to Christian and Carl.