Crazy Beautiful Love (15 page)

“Find one yet?” I
walked up behind her and ran my hands across her ass as I pressed myself
against her. “I’m kind of liking this one here.” I placed my hands over hers
and touched the fine lace of the bra in her hand. “This one is soft, but I’d
prefer a see-through pattern,” I whispered in her ear and she squirmed in front
of me. “Then you can do a striptease for me before I bend you over and slide
my….”

“Logan.” Maddie’s
face was red and she pushed back against me. “People might hear.”

“I don’t mind.” I
laughed and looked around. No one was paying any attention to us, and I was
glad we weren’t in River Valley.

“Look, I’m going
to go now. Bring these to me in about five minutes. If the girl is there, tell
her you went to get me a different size.” Maddie handed me a bra.

“Okay.” I nodded.
“Sounds like a good plan.”

“But try and come
when you see the salesgirl go and help someone else, okay?”

“Okay.” I nodded,
not really paying attention to what she was saying. I was too busy picturing
Maddie shuddering against me in the lacy underwear I was now holding.

“I’m going in
now.” She gave me a quick peck and her eyes were shining. “Pay attention, Logan.”

“Yes, ma’am.” I
grinned and watched as she walked in to one of the changing rooms. I noticed a
salesgirl staring at me and so I turned around quickly and pretended to study
the thongs.

“Hi, can I help
you?” A petite young blonde walked up to me with a big smile.

“I was just
looking for a gift.” I smiled at her weakly, trying to ignore the way she was
pushing her breasts towards me.

“Oh?” She pouted
and leaned in closer to me. “For your girlfriend?”

“No, I don’t have
a girlfriend,” I answered automatically and felt slightly guilty. I didn’t
really know what I would call Maddie.

“Oh?” She grinned
up at me. “I’m surprised to hear that. A hot guy like you.”

“Well, no need to
be surprised.” I took a step back from her and looked away. I could tell she
was interested and that it wouldn’t be hard for me to take her out back and
have my way with her. She was looking for it and offering herself on a silver
platter.

“My name’s
Brittany.” She ran her hand down my arm as she looked up at me and batted her
eyelashes.

“Nice to meet you,
Brittany.” I gave her a perfunctory smile and looked back down at the thongs.

“I get off at eight,”
she said, getting right to the point. I gave her a quick smile. She was
beautiful, and in any other instance, I wouldn’t have hesitated to get her
number. But now I wasn’t interested. Her feminine wiles did nothing for me. All
I could think about was Maddie in the changing room waiting for me.

“Awesome, will you
excuse me please, Brittany?” I gave her a quick, regretful smile. “I hear my friend
calling me.”

“Oh, okay.” She
looked at me in disappointment and walked away quickly. I felt bad for letting
her down, but I didn’t have time to worry about her as I noticed that the
salesgirl was no longer standing by the changing rooms. I hurried over and
knocked on Maddie’s door, and she opened it quickly, motioning me to come in.

“Where were you?”
she whispered up at me with wide eyes.

“Sorry, I got
caught up.” My mouth went dry as I stared at her. She was standing there in a
black lace bra and some black lacy panties. I could see her nipples through her
bra, and before I knew what I was doing, I pushed her back against the mirror
and ran my fingers across her breasts, squeezing gently.

“Oh my God,” she
breathed against my mouth as my lips sought hers. Her hands lifted up my
T-shirt and she pulled it up over my head and threw it on the ground along with
her clothes. Her fingernails traced the lines of my
pecs
and she bent her head and lightly bit down on my shoulder. I grabbed her ass
and lifted her up against the mirror and she wrapped her legs around my waist.
I bent my head and kissed down her neck, sucking hard as if I were a vampire,
trying to draw blood. Her scent surrounded me, and she moaned against me as I
kissed further down and took her breast in my mouth. I slid my hand in between
her thighs and slipped a finger into her panties, groaning as I felt how wet
she was.

“You’re so ready
for me, baby.”

“So are you,” she
whimpered against my lips and moved her hips up and down so that she was grinding
against my erection.

“Fuck, Maddie.
You’re going to make me come if you keep doing that.” I pushed her against the
wall harder and she slipped a hand to my jeans so she could unzip my pants. She
reached into my boxer shorts and pulled out my erection, and her hands felt
cool against my hardness.

“You’re so hard
already,” she gasped, and I laughed.

“I’ve been hard
ever since you told me you were taking me to the mall so you could fuck me.”

“That’s not
exactly what I said.” She giggled, and I pressed my lips against her mouth to
shut her up. I pulled her panties to the side, and we both paused as we heard
the sound of the fine lace ripping at my rough touch.

“Oops.” I laughed.
“I guess we’ll have to buy them.”

“Or not.” She
grinned and winked at me. “You’re a
Martelli
, you
don’t have to buy anything.”

“
Shhh
.” I bit her lower lip and positioned my erection
against her slick opening. I rubbed the tip against her ever so slightly, and I
felt her body shudder against me and the wall. I ran it up and down without
entering her, loving the feel of her wetness against me.

“Oh, Logan,
please,” she moaned, and I moved my hands up to slip her breasts out of her
bra. I bent my head down and sucked on her right breast as she played with my
hair and whimpered against me. She gyrated against me, trying to get me to slip
inside of her, but I let my erection rub against her slickness without entering
her.

“Logan, please,”
she moaned in my ear louder this time as she wrapped her arms around my waist
and placed her hands on my butt, bringing me in closer to her.

“Do you need any
help in there, ma’am?” I heard Brittany’s voice at the door after her slight
knock, and Maddie froze, with her eyes wide with shock.

“Oh, shit,” she
mouthed.

“Are you okay,
ma’am?” Brittany asked again.

“Yeah, I’m fi…”
Maddie bit down on my shoulder as I slowly entered her while she was talking to
Brittany.

“Sorry, what did
you say?” Brittany raised her voice. “What did you need me to replace?”

“Nothing,
ahhhh
,” Maddie groaned as I pressed her up against the wall
and increased the pace of my movements. “I’m fine,” she gasped out finally, and
glared at me as I continued to move, in and out of her. I alternated my pace
from fast to slow and watched her face as she came to a climax. The way she bit
her lips, and looked at me wildly was turning me on, even more than being in
the changing room. I grabbed her butt and pushed her onto me, so that the
length of my erection was going deeper and deeper into her. I held onto her
tightly to keep her from falling, and myself from losing absolute control as
she brought me to new heights of lust and excitement.

“If you’re sure.”
Brittany’s voice sounded hesitant and I knew she had to be slightly suspicious
of what was going on. “I’ll be right here. If you need me, just holler.”

“Okay,” Maddie
squeaked out and I stifled a laugh. Her eyes flashed at me and she gave me a
naughty grin before my mouth came crushing down on hers. The sweetness of her
eager lips beneath mine, combined with the sudden thrust of her hips meeting my
powerful drive, took me to the edge and I cried out as I burst into her. It
seemed as if Maddie had been waiting on me to come because all of a sudden she
cried out and I felt her body trembling against mine as she convulsed against
me. She bit down on my shoulder again and her fingernails dug into my back while
I continued thrusting into her as she came. All of a sudden she went still, and
she lay her head on me. I kissed her cheek and she looked up at me lazily.

“That was
amazing,” she whispered with a smile. “It’s never felt like that before.”

“So alive and
tingly?” I smiled back at her, delighted to hear that I had brought her new
throes of passion.

“Every nerve
ending in my body enjoyed that moment.” She grinned at me shyly and ran her
fingers down my chest, as she unwrapped her legs from my waist and slid back to
the ground. “I can see why you enjoy having sex in public, the hint of danger
and being caught really adds to it.” She giggled. “And if you tell anyone I
said that, I will kill you.”

“I’ll just tell my
brothers, no one else.” I laughed as she punched me and I leaned over to kiss
her again. “Of course, I would never tell anyone.”

“Good.” She took
the bra and panties off and I stared at her in lust, feeling myself grow hard
again. “Don’t even think about it, big boy.” She laughed as I pushed myself
against her. “There is no way that salesgirl will believe it takes this long to
try on a few bras.”

“Then why are you
trying to tempt me?” My eyes were transfixed on her hands as she pulled on her
panties and bra. I couldn’t look away from her beautiful body. I was addicted
to her touch and to her taste, and even though I had just had her, I wanted her
again.

“I don’t think
they’d like it if I walked out in their stuff.” She laughed. “I’d hate to steal
a car but get busted for shoplifting a twenty-dollar pair of panties.”

“Twenty what?” My
eyes widened. “That much?”

“Ha, ha, I was
actually saying the amount was small in comparison to a car,” she giggled.
“Though I’m not sure what I’m going to do with these now, seeing as you ripped
them.”

“I’ll buy them for
you.” I held my hand out. “And I’ll keep them as a keepsake.”

“A keepsake of
what?” She was grinning at me, and I could tell she was happy to see I had a
sentimental side.

“A keepsake of my
first time having public sex.” I grinned.

“You mean
our
first time,” she corrected me and
shook her head.

“Actually, no. I
mean my first time and our first time.” I laughed and she looked confused. “So
when I told you I liked public sex, I didn’t mean I had actually done it.” I
grinned as her confused expression turned to one of shock and understanding. “I
mean I’ve always wanted to. It’s always been something on my to-do list.”

“Oh my God, Logan.
I’m going to kill you.” She glared at me and I pulled her close to me.

“I’m glad my first
time was with you.” I stared down into her frazzled eyes and then kissed her
nose. “I hope my second time will be with you as well.”

“I don’t know
about that.” She shook her head, but I could see the hint of a smile on her
face. She had on all her clothes now and she turned around and gave me a small
devilish smile. “I’m leaving the changing room now, see you outside.” And
before I had time to respond, she had left the room. I stood there shaking my
head and paused as I heard Brittany talking to her.

“Did you see
anything you liked, ma’am?”

“I’m still
deciding, thanks.” Maddie’s voice was filled with laughter. “But you never
know, maybe someone will surprise me and buy me a pair of panties and a bra.”

“Sorry, what?”
Brittany’s voice sounded confused and I held back a laugh, as I picked up the
bra Maddie had left hanging next to me. I looked at the price tag and saw it
was sixty dollars. My head pounded as I realized I would have to spend eighty
dollars to buy the bra and panties for Maddie. Plus tax. And I only had five
hundred dollars and some loose change. And no prospect of making money anytime
soon either. I stared at my reflection and wanted to punch the mirror. Who was
I kidding? I was never going to be good enough for Maddie. I was still Logan
Martelli
, no matter how many fun afternoons we had or how
passionate the sex was. I was never going to be good enough for her. And it
didn’t even matter that her dad was fucked up. I wanted better for Maddie
because she was better. She wasn’t him and she didn’t deserve to pay for his
sins. I’d figure out a way to get him without involving her. Maddie was special;
she was my Maddie. And I was starting to think that I was falling in love with
her. My breath caught as I realized the gravity of my thoughts. The emotions
welling up in my heart were unfamiliar and I was scared. In less than a month,
Maddie had come into my life and turned it upside down and I wasn’t even sure
who I was anymore. The even scarier part was that I no longer knew who I wanted
to be, either.

Chapter 9

Logan

“You shouldn’t
have bought me both the bra and the panties.” Maddie frowned at me as we waited
on the bus.

“I wanted to buy
you a present.” I ran my hand through my hair and gave her a quick smile. “And
I knew I had to keep the panties, so I wanted you to have the bra.”

“Logan, you
shouldn’t have spent your money on me.”

“It’s okay.” I
tried not to think of how much my family needed that money. I didn’t want
Maddie to think that I was a loser, someone who couldn’t even afford to buy her
a small gift. I laughed at the irony of the whole situation—who ever heard of a
broke thief?

“I had a good day
today.” She changed the subject and slid down closer to me. “I’m glad I came
over.”

“I’m sorry we left
the plate of cookies in the car.”

“Ha, ha, ha. I
don’t care.”

“It was nice of
you to bring them over.”

“I wanted to see
you.” She grinned sheepishly. “I told myself I would try one last time, and if
you still hated me, I would just forget about it.”

“I never hated
you.” I shook my head, staring at her in disbelief. “You can’t have thought
that? I haven’t stopped thinking about you since the first time I saw you.”

“When I jumped
into your car?”

“No,” I laughed.
“When you were running away from the cops.”

“Really?” She
looked surprised, but her eyes lit up.

“Yes, really.” I
grabbed her hand and held it in mine and we sat in silence waiting for the bus
to come. There were so many things I wanted to tell her, but I just didn’t have
the words. My heart wanted to tell her about my newly discovered feelings, but
my head knew that was foolish. This was nothing more than a summer romance, and
it would just hurt both of us if I were to pretend otherwise.

“Here’s the bus.”
Maddie stood up and we walked to the curb.

“I’m sorry you
have to ride the bus with me.”

“Hey, I’m not a
princess, I’ll live.”

“Your dad would be
pissed if he knew you were on the bus though, I bet.”

“My dad can be a
snob at times.” She rolled her eyes. “It’s fine. Like I said, I’m not a
princess, no one is looking to kidnap me or do anything bad to me.”

“I guess he’s just
worried about his little girl.” I could have laughed at the fact that I was
sticking up for the mayor. Today really was a day of firsts.

“Yeah, I guess.”
She shrugged. “I’m used to it.”

“Yes, I suppose
you are.” I paid for our bus tickets and then we found a seat towards the back
of the bus. I let her have the window because I noticed a few guys looking at
her a bit too closely, and I didn’t want them trying to cop a feel as they
walked past us.

“So tell me more
about Vincent and Jared.” Maddie gazed up at me longingly.

“Why are you so
interested in them?”

“I don’t know. I
like hearing about people’s siblings. I guess it comes from being an only
child. And I want to get to know you better.”

“Okay.” I leaned
back and Maddie rested her head on my shoulder. I could tell she was tired
because her eyes were drooping as I played with her long hair with my fingers.
“I’ll tell you a story from when we were kids, and you can relax.”

“I’d like that.”
She smiled up at me sleepily and lovingly, and my heart melted for a moment as
I realized that I had her heart and her trust completely.

“So you know my
mom died of cancer. It was pretty quick and swift. Within a few weeks of her
being diagnosed, she was gone.” My breath caught and Maddie looked up at me
with saddened eyes. “We were all pretty young, but we all knew that she was
dying, and we were all devastated, but we didn’t really talk about it. Around
that time was when my dad made the turn to complete alcoholism. Please don’t be
sad for me.” I frowned down at her, not wanting her sympathy. “His drinking had
already been a problem, along with his gambling and paranoia, but we had all
hoped it would get better. And
me
and the guys hadn’t
realized just how bad it was. Only my mom really knew, and there wasn’t really
much she could do about it. She loved my father, and she was his world, but he
was so bitter and angry over things that had happened to him, that he never
really got over it. He instilled that bitterness in me and Jared, but for some
reason, Vincent never became as jaded as the two of us.”

“Do you know why?”
Maddie questioned me softly, and this time I noticed her eyes were completely
alert.

“He was always a
bit softer and a bit more sensitive than Jared and me.” I laughed. “And I don’t
mean he’s gay, though I wouldn’t care if he was.”

“Well, that’s good
to hear.” She smiled briefly. I laughed.

“Yeah, so anyway
Vinny
, well, he’s always looked at things on the more
positive side. When Dad told us stuff, me and Jared got mad and wanted to get
even. With
Vinny
, it was different; he wanted to
think of solutions and ways to fix the problem.” I could see that Maddie wanted
to ask me what stuff my dad used to talk about, but I wasn’t willing to go down
that road with her yet. I didn’t want her to know how evil her dad was. I had a
feeling it would break her heart and I didn’t want to be the one to do that to
her. “Anyway, that’s why he wants to become a lawyer.”

“He wants to
become a lawyer?” She looked surprised.

I nodded. “He
thinks that if he can become a part of the system, he can advocate for those
who have been let down by it.”

“He wants to be a
defense attorney?”

“No, though we
tease him about that all the time. He wants to become a constitutional lawyer.
He wants to take on cases that will help shape the way we construe the laws of
the land.”

“Wow.” Her eyes widened.
“That’s pretty big.”

“Yeah.” I smiled
down at her. “I tell him that one day, he’ll become a Supreme Court Judge, and
then for sure everyone in the country will know the
Martelli
name.”

“Logan
Martelli
, car thief and brother to Supreme Court Justice.”
Maddie grinned. “It does have a certain ring to it.”

“Yeah, it does.” I
felt sad for a moment as we spoke, and the reality of everything hit me once
again. It all seemed like such a pipe dream. If something didn’t change soon,
there was no way Vincent would even get his AA degree, let alone make it to law
school. I sighed as I remembered my mother’s last words to me. “You can change
your destiny, Logan. You must take care of Vincent, Jared, and your dad. You
have to be there for them, Logan. Promise me that you’ll be the man I know you
are.”

I’d nodded and
cried, but her words had always stuck with me. My life was dedicated to making
sure that Vincent and Jared weren’t trapped in the same life I was. And that
was why I had never left River Valley or left my dad to fend for himself. Even
though some days all I wanted to do was run away and start a new life.

“You okay, Logan?”
Maddie caressed my face. “You look deep in thought.”

“Yeah, I’m fine.”
I grabbed her knee and squeezed. “So anyway, before my mom died, Vincent came
up with this idea that we should perform a skit for my mom.”

“A skit?”

“Yeah.” I rolled
my eyes. “Have you ever seen
The Sound of
Music
?”

“The movie?”

“Yeah,” I nodded.
“Do you remember the lonely goatherd scene?”

“Hmm?”

“High on a hill
was a lonely…” I started singing, and Maddie burst out laughing.

“I do remember
that.”

“So we performed
that song for my mom in the hospital,” I groaned.

“With puppets?”

“No.” I laughed.
“With GI Joes, and socks, and pieces of string.”

“Wow, I would have
loved to have seen that.”

“It was pretty
funny. None of us really knew the song, but it was one of my mom’s favorite
movies, so we tried.” I laughed as I remembered her huge smile as she watched
us messing up the song and dancing around her hospital room. “And then Jared
decided that we should do the can-can, and we flung our legs up and down like a
bunch of Vegas showgirls.”

“While singing the
lonely goatherd song.”

“Oh, no, we had
moved on to
do re mi
by that point.”

“Oh, wow,” she
giggled. “I would have paid good money to have seen that.”

“I’m sure you
would have.” I shook my head in mock embarrassment and shuddered. “Holy hell,
we must have been a sight to have seen.”

“I bet your mom
loved it, though.”

“Yes, yes she
did.” I looked out the window and pictured my mother’s face. “That’s the only
reason the nurses let us continue. My mom was overjoyed to see us all together
singing and dancing. I think at that moment, she realized that we were
three
 
brothers
who
would let nothing part us. She was able to die knowing that while she was
leaving us, we would always have each other and we would always be there for
each other.”

“You really love
your brothers, don’t you?”

“I’d die for
them.” I stared into her eyes earnestly. “I would do anything for them. They
are everything to me, and my goal in life is to see them succeed.”

“That’s a pretty
important goal.”

“It’s one I’ve
dedicated my whole life to,” I said seriously.

“At the cost of
your own?”

“I don’t know.” I
turned away from her, upset at myself for my answer. I was upset because things
had changed now. I knew she would want to be my world if we became serious, but
I knew that I could not give her that promise until I knew Vincent and Jared
had their lives in order. I was mad at myself for wishing that it could be
different, and that I could put myself and Maddie first.

***

“I had a nice
day.” Maddie leaned up and kissed me as we stood next to her car door. It was
close to ten p.m. and we were finally back at my house and her car.

“So did I.” I combed
her hair away from her face. “I had a really nice day.”

“Though I wish we
had Bonnie and
Clyde’d
it for a week or so.” She
smiled wistfully. “That would have been awesome.”

“Not so awesome if
you didn’t have your birth control,” I joked lightly, not wanting to know how
big a part that small fact would have played in our trip.

“Oh, yeah, oops.”
She slapped her hand against her mouth. “I totally forgot about that, I’m such
a ditz.”

“Good thing I
remembered.”

“You’re my hero.”
She kissed me again.

“I wouldn’t say
that exactly.” I shook my head, feeling uncomfortable at her words. I already
felt ashamed of myself for even thinking about going along with Jared’s plan.

“Logan
Martelli
, you never let me say anything good about you.”

“When there is
something good to say, I will let you.”

“I hate that you
don’t see how great you are.” Maddie looked sad. “Forget the fact that you’re a
car thief, which isn’t really all that bad. You’re a good person.”

“A car thief isn’t
as bad as a murderer maybe, but it’s still bad, Maddie. I could go to jail.
It’s not like I’m borrowing flowers from the park or something.”

“You don’t have to
be a car thief.” She pursed her lips. “I’m not going to say it again after
this, but my dad could …”

My blood boiled as
she mentioned her father again. It was getting harder and harder for me to
listen to her go on about her dad being this great guy, especially when she
talked about him helping me. All it did was add salt to the wound. And I sure
didn’t want to start thinking about how much I hated her father right now.

“Let’s not talk
about it tonight.” I kissed her hard. “Don’t you worry your sweet head about
anything.
”

“Logan, no man is
an island.”

“And no woman can
fix a man. I am who I am.”

“Do you want to
come over tonight?” She looked at me hopefully. I shook my head. “Can I stay
over?” I froze at her words; there was no way I wanted her to come inside of my
house. I was embarrassed at how shitty the house looked inside, and I was
scared for her to meet my father, and I didn’t really want her around Jared,
either. There were just so many things that could go wrong if she came inside.
“I guess your silence is a no.” She pulled away from me. “Fine, call me when
you want to see me.”

“Don’t be like
that, Maddie.” I grabbed her shoulder and she shook my hand off.

“Whatever, I’m
going home.” She yawned. “I’m tired, I need to go to bed.”

“I wish I could be
in that bed with you,” I said softly and gave her a half-smile. She looked at
me dismissively and got into her car.

“I’ll see you
whenever.” She closed the door and started the engine with me standing there,
staring with my mouth slightly agape. I wasn’t used to Maddie treating me like
this. I knocked on the window and she rolled it down slowly.

“Thanks for
spending the day with me.” I leaned in to kiss her cheek, and she turned to me
with eyes flashing.

“I’m mad at you,
Logan
Martelli
.”

“I don’t know what
I …”

“Oh, shut up, of
course you know why I’m mad. You don’t trust me. You won’t tell me why you hate
my dad, you won’t let my dad help you, even though I can tell you don’t love
being a thief, and it doesn’t seem to be paying you that well. You won’t let me
meet your brothers. Maybe you’re ashamed to be dating me? Or maybe you don’t
want to bring me into your small microcosm because you don’t really like me
that much. Maybe you just like having kinky sex with me, but you don’t really
want to date-
me
date me.”

“That’s not true,
Maddie,” I sighed as she glared at me.

“Well, why don’t
you think about it and decide what you want to do. Because this limbo isn’t
going to work for me.”