I held up my hand. âIt's the sorry story of my life. All the men I've known have used me in one way or another. Thanks for being here today, Angie. It's funny, the first time I met you, I thought you liked Jack.'
âAs in wanted to shag him?'
âSomething like that.'
âWhatever gave you that idea? I don't, by the way.'
âNo, I know. Just me being suspicious. I thought Jack was too good to be true. Turns out, he is.'
Angie pulled me towards her in a bear hug. âNone of this is your fault, Claudia,' she said when she let me go. âHow were you to know what Marcus and Con were up to?'
I shook my head. âI can explain about Marcus â'
âYou don't have to. It's none of my business. I'm sure you had your reasons.'
Did I? Did I have a reason for sleeping with Marcus, or did I just do it because it felt good when he paid attention to me? Because I felt special when Marcus paused for an extra couple of minutes in my office every morning when he did his rounds?
âSo the memory stick held a code?' I said.
âYeah, and once accessed, vast sums of money could have been drained from the company's bank accounts, including overdraft facilities which ran into the millions.'
âAnd I was the one who almost made it all possible?'
âUnfortunately, Claudia, that's exactly what Jack was thinking.'
Moments later, the door knob turned and Jack walked in. âClaudia,' he said, putting his hand on my shoulder, âyou're free to go.'
Thank goodness. I couldn't believe it. I shrugged his hand off my shoulder. âYou mean it's over?'
âNot quite.'
He just had to rain on my parade.
âWe'll print out a transcript of your interview and I'll need you to sign it tomorrow. We'll also need you present at Marcus Cassoli's hearing in Brisbane later this year.'
âSure.' Whatever. I wanted to get out of there, go back to the apartment and have a shower. âJust one thing, Jack â they won't' be coming after me because I dobbed, will they?'
âWho?'
âCon and his mates.'
âDoubt it. Con's on his way to Athens. He's going to be busy for the next seven to ten years. You don't have to worry about him.'
âAnd Marcus?'
âMarcus will also be busy.'
I nodded and walked towards the door with my head held high and Angie beside me.
âClaudia,' Jack called out. âYou'll have to repay the twenty thousand dollars as soon as you land in Australia.'
Excellent. Financial Armageddon.
Part of me wanted to ask why Jack had lied to me, why he hadn't simply asked me about all this before it got out of hand. But I couldn't face him a moment longer.
I was over it.
And over him.
I walked out the door still feeling wretched. Of course the holiday had been too good to be true. Even though I'd had an affair with Marcus, a free European holiday was an extravagant pay-off. Not to mention the money. He'd never cared for me at all, he'd just been using me. The same with Jack bloody Harper. What was it with men and me?
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t was close to five o'clock by the time we arrived back at the apartment. Vacillating between tears and blind rage, there were so many things I was upset about I didn't know where to begin.
Firstly, I was furious with myself for allowing Marcus to use me for his sinister ends. None of this would have happened had I not slept with him. And then to find out there were other women as well! Still, I couldn't help feeling shocked that Marcus would do something like this. He might have been a faithless jerk, but I wouldn't have thought he was a criminal with connections around the world. Would Marcus really have let me take the rap for this? Apparently so.
âClaudia, it happens â a lot more than you think, sweetheart,' said Angie as we sat on the terrace with Sophie and Tara some time later.
âThat makes me feel
so
much better,' I said before bursting into tears again. Obviously, there were a hell of a lot of idiots like me in the world. It wasn't a comforting thought.
âYou couldn't have known,' Tara said.
âYes I could. You told me I was getting into serious shit. But I didn't listen to you.'
âThere's one thing I don't get,' said Sophie, twirling her ringlets in contemplation. âAngie said that you'll have to pay back the thousands of dollars Marcus gave you. Why did he give you so much money in the first place?'
Tara and Angie looked at me and then uncomfortably at each other, but said nothing.
âI'll see what the boys are up to,' said Angie finally, standing up.
âI'll join you,' said Tara, and they both disappeared inside.
âSophie â'
âWhat is it?' she said, squeezing my hand.
I couldn't believe I was about to destroy her faith in me again.
âI slept with Marcus.'
âNo,' she started.
âI did.'
âWhat? You're kidding? He's married, for God's sake,' Sophie said, practically spitting out the words.
âSeparated.'
âDid you love him? Did you intend becoming his second wife?'
âNo. I don't know. I was confused.'
My answer seemed to infuriate her further. âIf you weren't in love with him, why the hell would you do it? Why would you play with people's lives that way? His wife? Their children?'
âIt wasn't like that, I promise. I had no intention of going to bed with him but he was so kind and sympathetic about all the stuff with George â'
Sophie rolled her eyes.
âOkay,' I said, putting my hands up. âI have no reason. It was inexcusable.' I slept with a married man. End of story. No matter how much I tried to reason why, I couldn't. My morals were in the gutter. Marcus didn't force me. He didn't declare his undying love for me. Neither of us did.
Sophie was seething. âSo it was just something you did to pass the time?'
âIt wasn't that either. I like â liked â Marcus, a lot.'
âSo the fact that this man had a wife and children didn't matter?'
I didn't answer. How many times could I tell her Marcus was separated? Besides, it was beginning to sound lame even to me.
âHow can I compete when there are women like you, waiting to pounce on every married man that comes along? Women like you, who are funny and charming and don't have to worry doing about doing the laundry or grocery shopping?'
âThis isn't about you, Sophie.'
âOf course it's about me. It's about every married woman who's cheated on by their husbands with single women who don't give a damn about anyone but themselves. They think they're so goddamn special.'
âI'm not special.'
âYou got that right,' Sophie fumed. âYou're a walking cliché!'
I shook my head. An affair was only a cliché until you were smack bang in the middle of it, living the lie every day.
Sophie wasn't finished. âYou're a disgrace, Claudia.'
âI'm so sorry,' was all I could manage.
âIt's not me you should be apologising to.' With that Sophie turned and walked up the stairs towards the road that led into Fira.
I thought about chasing her but I couldn't face another scene. Maybe after she'd had time to think, she'd feel less furious. And as angry as she was with me, I was even angrier with myself. I knew what I'd done with Marcus was wrong.
âThat went well,' said Tara when she and Angie walked back outside.
âWhat am I going to do?'
âSophie's in shock. Give her time,' Angie suggested.
Tara wrapped her arms around me. âGod, you get yourself into some situations.'
âI know. I'm sorry for dragging you into this mess.' I thought for a few more minutes before speaking again. âI keep going over everything again and again. My brain won't let it rest. I know that sleeping with Marcus was selfish and I have no one to blame but myself. And I know he used me to get to Con â'
âI doubt Marcus knew how far Con's criminal tentacles stretched,' said Angie. âJack thinks Marcus was duped into believing Con was the answer to all his financial worries.'
âAnd he had me to pin it on if things went wrong.' I closed my eyes and shook my head. âI can't forgive myself for putting you guys in danger.'
âWe were never in danger,' said Tara. âIt was our overactive imaginations.'
Just then Sophie walked back down the stairs. I got up out of my chair and walked over to her. âI'm so sorry, Soph.'
âSo am I.' Sophie sighed. âYou thought he was separated. It happens.'
âThanks, but I had no business sleeping with him.'
âIt takes two. Anyway, how are you feeling? About Jack?'
I burst into tears. Jack! I couldn't get over the fact that he'd used me as well. He'd been following me since Brisbane airport, maybe even before.
âJack never liked me,' I said coldly. âHe never fancied me.'
âI really do think Jack liked you,' said Sophie.
âWhenever the two of you were together he did seem attentive,' observed Tara.
âOf course he was fucking attentive,' I yelled, finding my fury and pushing away the almond cake Angie had given me. âHe was pumping me for information. That's all he cared about. It wasn't a coincidence we met in Brisbane or in Athens or again in Santorini. How dumb am I? Why couldn't I see he was following me? I was vital to his investigation. Prick. Pratt. Pig face.'
The three of them sat there, mouths open, staring at me.
âFeeling better?' said Tara finally.
âYes, actually.' I blew my nose, wiped away my tears and sat up properly in the chair. âI swear, as God is my witness,' I said, crossing my heart, âI will never have another boyfriend! I'm going to become a nun.'
âNow, now,' Sophie said.
âWhy not? My life's fucked anyway.'
Sophie knew better than to try to reason with me.
âHe fooled us as well,' Tara said. âMen, hey?'
âAll this time he was just stringing me along. Doing his job.' I was so furious, I was practically spitting. âI was part of his investigation.' I stopped, thought for a moment, then screamed, âWhich makes the fact that he slept with me an absolute disgrace!'
I was exhausted and ashamed. I wanted to go home to Tara's cosy little terrace on the other side of the world and hide from everyone for a month, a year â as long as I could. Who cared that I was destined to end up wearing Sophie's knitting, surrounded by cats? I'd had enough. I was defeated. I never ever wanted to think about Jack Harper again.
âHave you done a poo today, Mummy?' Levi asked Sophie when she and I walked back inside to check on the boys. Sophie pretended she didn't hear him. He followed us into the kitchen where we retrieved two enormous chocolate blocks from the fridge.
âPoo? Did you do a poo, Mum?'
âLevi, I really don't want to talk about this right now.'
âMine was huge. The biggest poo I've eber done. Bigger than a dragon's. I watched it swirl down the toilet. Now Harry's doing one and I'm watching him. We neeb toilet paper.'
Sophie retrieved a roll of paper from the kitchen cupboard. âI really don't want to know.'
As we walked out of the kitchen, Levi ran ahead to the bathroom, presumably to check on the state of Harry's bowels. Then I noticed Sophie's shocked expression. âYou okay?'
âThere,' Sophie said quietly, pointing out to the terrace. I looked. Tara and Angie were locked in a passionate embrace. It was a sweet, intimate moment and I felt as though we were intruding on it.
I turned a very rigid Sophie around and marched her back towards the kitchen.
âWhat was that about?' she exploded, moments later.
âWell, they evidently like each other.' I paused. âA lot.'
âBut how? When? Where? When did all this happen?'
âA few nights ago,' came a voice from around the corner. Tara helped herself to a piece of chocolate, then wrapped her arms around us. âIsn't it great? I think I'm falling in love.'
As she twirled back out to the patio, Sophie and I peeked outside. Angie was nowhere to be seen. But there were voices coming from the bathroom. Angie was on toilet duty. Sophie and I saw our chance and ran out onto the terrace with our chocolate.
âSo this is where your inspiration has sprung from?' I squealed to Tara, hugging her. âAngie!'
âI'm stunned,' said Sophie, dropping the chocolate onto the table and flopping into a deckchair.
âI can't believe you kept this from us,' I said, lunging at Angie when she rejoined us. âSpill!'
âWe wanted to tell you,' Tara said, holding Angie's hand, âBut what with Levi disappearing yesterday and your arrest today, Claud â'
âApparently I wasn't arrested,' I corrected. âI was detained.' I'd momentarily forgotten about the whole humiliating debacle. âAnyway, enough about me, tell us about you two.'
âI knew Angie was special as soon as we met,' admitted Tara.
Angie smiled. âSame.'
âThose first few days when we all hung out together with Harry and Levi, we just clicked.'
âObviously.'
âThen that night after the beach, after you left, Soph, we kissed.'
âI had no idea,' I said.
âI thought you might have guessed something was up when I didn't come home,' Tara said.
Sophie and I looked at each other and I slapped Tara's arm. âWe had no idea you didn't come home.'
âYou didn't come home?' Sophie said. âAt all?' Sophie's jaw was still lying rigid on the floor.
âNope. After we put Harry to bed, we stayed up all night talking, kissing . . .'
âMaking plans,' Angie continued.
âPlans?' I repeated, raising my eyebrows.