Charade (9 page)

             
“It’s the weekend. I wanted to see if you’d come home. I thought we could spend some time together.”

             
My heart speeds up. Her voice is off.

             
“Or I could come to you. We can get a room…hang out. How does that sound?”

             
It sounds like something is seriously wrong. I fight to swallow the ball in my throat. “No…no. I’ll come home. I need to get away anyway.”

             
“Okay, sweetie… I love you.”

             
“You, too.” I don’t take the time to grab any clothes. I have some at home. Purse and cell in hand, I’m out the door.

             
Something’s wrong. I know it to the marrow of my bones. My mind flips through everything bad: my aunt and uncle divorcing, someone’s sick. I don’t like any of the options that squeeze their way into my subconscious. Lily and Mark are steady. The only steady I’ve ever known.

             
It only takes me forty-five minutes to make the hour drive. I see the blinds move when I pull into the driveway. It makes my gut sink even f
a
rther. I don’t know how I’m as calm as I am right now.

             
“That was fast,” Aunt Lily plasters a fake smile on her face.

             
“What’s wrong?”

             
My uncle steps out of the kitchen. He’s the typical wealthy workaholic—always busy, yet he’s here. Why is he here?

             
My cell slips out of my sweaty hand and hits the floor. 

             
Aunt Lily tries to smile at me again, but she can’t quite do it. Bending over she picks up my phone.

             
“Just tell me.” I fall onto the couch. Lily’s eyes glisten before one tear slips out. They each sit on one side of me. I’m afraid my heart is going to burst out of my chest.

             
My aunt grabs my hand. It’s shaking. Or maybe that’s hers. Or both of ours.
I look almost exactly like her—her and mom both, but there’s a sadness to her I’ve never seen before.

             
“We got a visit from the police today.”

             
Oh my God.
They had to have found my mom. She must be in jail. Has she been locked up all these years? No, that’s impossible. If she was, I would know. Papers were filed when she left. Everything is official and on record.

             
“Okay…where is she?” I don’t know what emotion to focus on: Anger or pain.

             
Lily starts crying harder and my uncle takes over.
He shifts his weight, looking nervous.
“Cheyenne…sweetheart. There were bones found.”

             
My breath cuts off. My vision gets blurry. My heart stops.
Bones!

             
“They’d been there a long time, sweetie…but there were teeth. They ran tests and—”
He takes a step toward me, but stops as if he’s unsure.

             
“How long?”
How long, how long, how long?

             
“Ten years,” he replies. Lily lets out a sob, but I can’t manage to do anything. Ten years. Ever since she left. My mom has been dead since she left me and I didn’t know. And I hated her for leaving me. Hated her for something she might not have done. Or she might have. Now I’ll never know. Never know if she planned on never coming back or if something else took her away from me.

             
But all this time, I hated her.

             
“
Everything’s not always black and white, Princess.”
Colt’s words slam into me.

             
“I’m so sorry, kiddo,”
m
y uncle says.

             
My aunt, Mom’s sister, clings to me. Pulls me into a hug and cries on my shoulder.

             
“Mommy has some things to do, Cheyenne. I’m going to bring you to see Aunt Lily. You want to see Aunt Lily, don’t you?”

             
“No… I want to stay with you.” I grab onto her hand. Pleading. “I miss you when you go. I’ll be good. I won’t cry this time if we go out. I’ll even stay by myself at home just to show you I can.”

             
I’ll be a big girl. I won’t leave the room at parties. I won’t call 911 if I get scared. I won’t freak out like I always do.

             
“Oh, sweet girl. Don’t cry. You’ll have fun with Aunt Lily. You can’t go where Mommy’s going.”

             
I wrap my arms around her waist and cry into her belly. Cry because she’s leaving me and I want nothing more than to go with her.

             
She didn’t say she’d be back. At nine-years-old, I lost her. Not that she’d been there when I needed her two years before.

             
“Everything’s not always black and white, Princess.”

             
“You can’t go where Mommy’s going.”

It could mean she knew she wasn’t coming home…or it could have slipped her mind. Been something she thought she didn’t have to tell me because I should know she’d be back.

             
But I never thought of it that way. I hated her.

             
“Do you understand what we’re telling you?”
m
y uncle asks.
He looks small. It’s the first time I can remember him ever looking that way and it makes me want to lose it.

             
I manage to pry myself away from my aunt. Still no tears. I have to hold my hands together to try and keep them from shaking though.

             
“She’s dead. Been gone ever since she left.”

             
She’d left before for days at a time. Even for a couple weeks. Is that an excuse for assuming the worst? That she’d planned on throwing me away and never looking back?

             
“The police are looking into it. They cautioned us, we’d likely never know what happened to her.” Mark’s voice is steadier than mine could ever hope to be.

             
“Where?” I manage to creak out.

             
“Cheyenne—”
m
y aunt starts.

“She’s old enough to know, Lily.” He looks at me, no nonsense like always. “Wilsonville. In the woods.”

One town over. Was she leaving? Was that on her way out of town and she got a flat tire? Someone pulled over to help? Did she go into those woods planning it on her own?

“I have to go.” My chest tightens, so tight I can hardly breath
e. I yank my cell from her hand, which is hard because my fingers just want to curl.

“What! You can’t leave. Not after this. I want you to stay home, Cheyenne.”

“I can’t.” Blurry vision again. I’m somehow breathing too hard and can’t get enough air at the same time.
Don’t panic. Not until you leave.
“Someone’s expecting me. I have to—I can’t. I need to go.”

“Wait, honey. Don’t shut me out. You have to let someone in.” Lily’s words are close to what Andy said. They make my chest feel tighter.

I run out the door. Lily calls my name behind me. Both my aunt and uncle stand in the doorway as I rip out of the driveway. I only make it about a mile away before I hit the curb when I pull over. I hardly get the door open before I’m vomiting all over the road.

It’s dark out now, no sounds besides my retching.
Bones. Woods. We’ll likely never know.

Was she alone like this? Did someone sneak up on her? Take her against her will?

I slam the door, fighting back the tears. Fighting back the panic. I put my car into drive, hit the gas and go.

~CHAPTER THIRTEEN~

Colt

             
“Colt. Man, that chick from the party is here for you,” Adrian yells through my bedroom door.

             
Shit. Just what I’m not in the mood for today—dealing with the Princess. I’m a little surprised though. I didn’t expect to see her again. I don’t know how I feel about her being here now.

             
I open the door.

             
“I didn’t want to let her in
,
in case you weren’t alone.”

             
“Though you didn’t mind risking whoever I might be in here with knowing someone else was here for me?”

             
Adrian winks. “Only because party girl seems different.”

             
“Her name is Cheyenne.” I don’t know why in the hell I just said that. Pushing around Adrian I head for the door. “You closed the door on her? You fucker.”

             
A laugh is his only reply. I pull the door open. She looks different than usual—her hair is a tied back and she’s wearing faded shorts and a t-shirt. This doesn’t look like the kind of clothes she’d ever let someone see her in. I don’t know why, but it makes my skin feel tight.

             
“Back to give me more shit?” I ask, leaning my hand against the doorframe.

             
“No. I came to tell you
its
over.” Her voice crack
s
slightly.

             
“Shit,” I ground out. “Let’s go in my room. I don’t like other people in my business.”

             
I’m surprised when Cheyenne pushes past me. I ignore the room full of people who watch as we walk by. “Last room on the right.” Once we’re in, I close the door behind us.
             

             
“It’s really clean in here…and white.” She has her back to me.

             
“What? A guy like me can’t like his shit clean?” I don’t care how I look, but I like my stuff to be in order.

             
“The rest of the house was trashed.”

             
“I don’t have control over the rest of the house. I doubt you came here to talk about my white sheets though.” I lean against the old desk in my room. Mom got for me at a yard sale, all stoked because she knew I’d need somewhere to do my homework.

             
“I already told you what I came here to say. It’s over. The charade.”

             
I laugh and scratch my head. “Yeah I figured that out when you got all pissed at me the other day and then didn’t give me my next assignment.”

             
Which should be a fucking blessing to me, but for some reason, I find myself annoyed about it. “You still owe me money though. I played your little game for a few days.”

             
Cheyenne snaps her head toward me. For a second, I think she might cry, but instead she rips open her purse. “How much do you need, Colt? Is this enough?” She tosses a wad of cash at me. “Or do you want my credit card too?” The plastic rectangle bounces off the wall as she throws it. “Is there anything else I can give you? What else do you want from me!” she screams.

             
I have no idea what the hell is going on here, but it’s obvious something’s up.

             
“Feel free to take it all!” I dodge her purse that flies at my head. She’s not crying, but it looks like she wants to. Her chest rises and falls with big surges. Something twists in my gut.

             
“Hey. Is it me or did we just step into the Twilight Zone or something?” I take a step toward her. The look of rage—or pain, maybe both— in her eyes slices through me. “What’s wrong?” Another step.

             
“You mean besides the fact that my mom is dead, I didn’t know and I’ve hated her for years? Nothing,” she snaps, her voice like acid.

             
Those words slam into me like nothing else she could have said. Nothing else anyone could have said. My body wants to tense up and slacken at the same time. “Fuck,” I run a hand through my hair. “I’m sorry.”

             
I’m not good with words. I’ve never cared about it before, but in this moment, I wish I knew what else to say.

             
Cheyenne shrugs. “It’s not like you did it. Can’t change it now.” Another shrug. “So yeah. I blamed her for leaving me, wanted to prove I didn’t care about anyone else leaving me again, when the whole thing was a lie. Needless to say, I don’t need that anymore.”

             
Her words grate on me the wrong way. She wants them to be real, but like everything else she does, they’re fake. “So…you’re all tough then? You’re just pretending this isn’t a big deal? Eh, I found out my mom’s dead, but I’m just going to go about my business.”

             
“You smug son-of-a-bitch.” She tries to slap me, but I
grab her wrist
.
Like always she didn’t hold back. It was a full swing.
“Don’t do that. You’re not better than I am, hiding behind the fact that you’re an asshole.”