Captivated by Your Love (The Blue Heart Series Book 2) (11 page)

I leaned up against the door and then sank to the ground, covering my face with my hands. What the fuck was I going to do now? I had to get her back; I wasn’t going to just let her walk out of my life. I was a man who fought for what I wanted, but the thing was, I wasn’t sure what she wanted. She was so cold to me. Letting her leave me with my mouth hanging open was so out of character for me, but she had completely stunned me and I felt like I had been gutted like a fish.

I was really wound up from our fight and could feel my blood rushing through my body. I couldn’t quite wrap my brain around why she would rearrange my kitchen when she doesn’t even cook. It made no sense, none at all; unless, she was trying to get a rise out of me. And needless to say, she did get a huge fucking rise out of me. I wanted her to be comfortable here. I would do whatever it took to make her feel at home but I had things in order, the way I liked them.

“Justice, are you just going to let her leave you like that?” It was Sydney. Great, I was going to get ridiculed from her best friend. I honestly didn’t need anyone’s shit right now. But she was absolutely right; why was I still sitting on the floor?

“Hell no I’m not going to let her leave me but, Syd, level with me. What should I do? I think we both need to cool down.” I needed answers. Should I go after her like I really wanted to or should I give her a chance to cool down? I needed to calm down so taking a break was for the best at the moment. But I didn’t want her to think I had given up on her and I especially didn’t want her to be by herself. Jensen had made bail and so he could be out there stalking her; ready to try and stake his claim again. That was the last thing we needed at the moment. Another encounter like that would possibly destroy her. She was a tough cookie but she had taken the last encounter pretty hard. She still wasn’t completely herself yet but she had made some great strides. I knew losing our baby really tore her up. It tore me up too. It would have been amazing to have a baby with her.

“Bro, you can’t just let her go. Get your ass up off the floor and go to her.” This was quiet Sebastian adding in his opinion, which didn’t happen often. He didn’t realize I was a nanosecond away from getting up and going after her. But I wasn’t sure what her reaction would be. I didn’t want to fight with her anymore. I wanted us to get along.

“You two really think she will talk to me if I go to her now?” I asked both of them. I needed answers. I didn’t want to stir the pot more so to speak. I needed her. I wanted her. She was a part of me now, but I just was so torn.

“She is going to be pissed, but that is what you two do you, fight like crazy and then make up.” Sydney kissed the baby on the head. “But you two couldn’t be more perfect for one another.” She was right, we couldn’t be more perfect for one another. I was crazy about her with a capital C. She meant everything to me. Picking myself up off the floor I stood and looked to Sebastian.

“What do you think, Sebastian?” I wanted his opinion because I knew whatever he had to say would come with a lot of thought behind it. He was a man of a few words but when he spoke, it was usually pretty powerful.

He ran his hand through his hair and then looked me in the eyes. “Do you love her?”

Wow, that was a pretty powerful question. It was one that I wasn’t quite sure I wanted to share the answer with everyone just yet. Abbee didn’t even know how I felt about her at this point. But what the hell. “Something fierce.”

“Then go get your keys and get the hell out of here. I’ll stay and get everyone fed and clean up. I don’t have anywhere to be,” Sebastian said and then smiled at me. He was such a good brother. I couldn’t have been any luckier to have the siblings I had. They were all unique in their own way and loved me as much as I loved them.

“I can help too. That way it will give you and Bee some time to make up.” Sydney winked at me. I knew what that wink represented, some hot make-up sex which I was dying to have. I couldn’t wait to have her again and create entirely new memories with just her and me.

“I appreciate you both helping me out. Thanks.” I walked over to Sydney and gave her a sideways hug since she was holding Lucy and then went and patted Sebastian on the back.

“Just fix this, Justice. You two need one another. I believe that true love always prevails.” These were Sebastian’s words of wisdom and they were pretty deep.

“Thanks, bro, I appreciate it.” I grabbed my keys out of my pocket and then checked to make sure I had my phone. I noticed I had a text message and opened it up to see who it was from. It was Abbee.

Abbee: I really don’t like you right now and moments like earlier make me sorry I came home with you.

Her words shredded me. I couldn’t believe she had just texted that to me. I had a feeling it was only her anger talking at the moment, but damn that was brutal. I needed to fix this in a huge way. I just hoped when I got to the house she would even let me in to speak to her.

Me: That is a little crass don’t you think. I know you don’t dislike me. Baby, we can work this out.

Abbee: There is nothing to work out.

Me: You don’t mean that.

Abbee: Do too.

“Is that Bee?” Sydney asked.

“”Yes, and she isn’t much too happy with me at the moment. She is spitting her venom at me. Fuck my life. How am I ever going to get her back?” I asked the both of them, looking for the divine answers that I didn’t have.

“You just march right back into her life and you don’t give up until she takes you back. That is what I would do if I were in your shoes.” More words from Sebastian, he was full of advice tonight. For never being in love he sure was confident when he spoke.

The baby started fussing. “It looks like it is time for her to eat again. Good luck, Justice. I’ll see you soon.” Syd walked over to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek and then whispered in my ear, “Don’t give up on her.”

I just smiled at her because I knew I wouldn’t give up on her; there was no way in hell I would. I was crazy about this woman.

I decided not to reply to Abbee’s text and to just head over to the house and get things squared away once and for all. I knew this wouldn’t be the last fight we would ever have but I hoped to God that she would never tell me she disliked me again. Those were very hurtful words.

“I’m gonna take off, bro. Thanks for taking care of things tonight.” I told him, and then slipped my phone back into my pocket.

“Go get your girl.”

I was so fucking pissed I could spit nails, but it was good to be home in a house I was familiar with and in my own bed. I just lay here thinking about what a cluster of a mess tonight had become.

Tonight had been so much fun up until Justice had gone all bossy on my ass. I was getting so sick and tired of him treating me like I was a piece of property. I wasn’t his property, I was my own person. He didn’t own me, yet, he treated me like he did. It was utter bullshit.

Maybe I shouldn’t have rearranged his kitchen. I guess it was a little much. I didn’t even cook but I wanted to be familiar with things in his house and I didn’t like where everything was. So yes, I may have been out of line but I wanted to feel at home. That was the kind of girl I was. I took charge over situations and made them my own. When I moved here into the house with Sydney and Damien I did something similar with the furniture and they didn’t mind. I guess they weren’t as big of control freaks as Justice was.

Damn he was a control freak. I feared what it would be like to live with him. I knew he wanted me there permanently but I wasn’t sure that was such a good idea. We fought so much I had to wonder if there would be more bad times than good. I hoped there would be more good times but who knows. The thought of living with him gave me butterflies and a lump in my throat at the same time. At the moment, I was miserable without him. I wanted to be wherever he was.

What was I saying? I was crazy about the man and I would take the good with the bad in a heartbeat. He was everything to me. He had won me over from the first time we met. I was like a fish on a hook and he was reeling me in. I wanted to be with him no matter what lay ahead of us but I was so mad at the moment. Livid. I tried taking in a few deep breaths to calm myself down. What the hell was I going to do? I reached for my phone to wave a white flag and then decided against it. Perhaps I would just let things settle tonight and wait till the morning. But I really didn’t want to spend the night without him.

So here I was all by myself. It was a lonely feeling in this big house. Then it hit–– me I was all-alone. Jensen.

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

What would I do if he tried to attack me again while I was by myself? I had counted on Justice to take care of me and shelter me from anything that might harm me, like Jensen. I believe him when he said he would protect me. I really needed to get a restraining order on him, not that it would stop him from coming after me. Thinking back to that horrible night and the look I saw in his eyes. My stomach twisted up in a knot and I started to panic. I needed to make sure the house was secure and that the alarm was on.

Quickly getting up, I scooted off the bed and padded downstairs. I was in a night shirt. Nothing sexy but I was comfortable. As my bare feet touched each step my fear grew greater. What if he was already staking out my house just waiting for the moment to get me alone?

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

My belly was in tight knots and I could feel a thin layer of sweat form on the back of my neck. Maybe I needed to call Justice or go back to his house with my tail between my legs. Yes, that is what I needed to do; I would go back to his house.

I turned on my heel and headed back up the stairs and went to put on my shoes. I didn’t care that I was in a nightshirt. I grabbed my robe and threw it on. He wouldn’t care either, most likely he would probably think it was an open invitation for all you can eat sex buffet.

The doorbell rang and I stopped in my tracks. The hair on my arms stood on end and I broke out in full goose bumps. But then it dawned on me–– Jensen wouldn’t ring the doorbell. He was too sinister for that. He would probably break a window and sneak in that way. I started to relax a little and head back downstairs to get the door. I still had to wonder who was here at this hour. It was late in the evening and I wasn’t expecting anyone. Most everyone I knew with the exception of Shaina and Sydney’s coworkers from the salon were all at Justice’s house. Maybe it was a friend for Damien. Hell, I didn’t know.

I made my way to the door and stuck my eye to the peep hole and looked out. Relief washed over me. I opened the door and threw myself into Justice’s arms.

“I’m so glad you’re here,” I told him as I held on to him for dear life.

“So you don’t dislike me and wish you had never came home with me?” He pulled back and looked me in the eye.

I bit my bottom lip; I had been so mean to him by saying that. “I should have never said that to you, of course I don’t dislike you. You mean the world to me. What I said was a very immature reaction. Please accept my apology. It’s just you push every button sometimes.” He did mean the world to me. He was everything I ever wanted in a man. Yes, we fought and we fought hard, but when it was all said and done with there was no one else I would rather be with.

“Come in.” I broke away from him and eased him into the house.

“That means everything to me, Abbee. You mean everything to me.” Then he crashed his lips to mine.

My body flooded with all of the pent up passion I had for him and I put it into a lustful kiss. I wrapped my arms around him and then slid them up his back, running my hands through his hair that felt like silk against my fingertips. He sighed heavily into my mouth as we both fought for dominance and control, consuming one another. He smelled amazing. The cologne that he wore drove me bat shit crazy, combined with his own natural scent, it was my own personal aphrodisiac. I let it permeate my senses. I didn’t know the name of it but I would be finding out soon. He placed his hands on each of my cheeks and continued to ravish my mouth with his tongue and lips taking everything I had to give him. My body pressed against his, pouring all of my pent up emotion into this kiss. It felt so amazing and I never wanted to let go of this beautiful man that could make my body quiver just by looking at him.

We broke apart and were both panting, fighting to take control of our labored breathing. I darted out my tongue and licked my plump swollen lips. The kiss had seared me and I felt the staccato of my heart as it beat under my skin. It was like I had just bicycled uphill for an hour.

“I want you,” he said to me. His eyes an intense blue, hooded and dilate., I could see the lust burning brightly behind them. I was sure if I were to look in the mirror my reflection would look the same.

In one swift move, he swept me off the ground as I wrapped my legs around him and then he scooted us to the wall with such force that I had to take a deep breath. I was taken off guard. I could feel his chiseled body against me as well as his hard cock pushed up against my pussy. I ran my hands up his back, feeling him and wanting him even more. His body was amazing but the man he was, the incredible person had me reeling. I wanted all of him. This time it would only be the two of us and I treasured that thought.

He brought his lips to mine again and his tongue swept my mouth taking from me while I gave to him. It was heated, it was hot and it was so utterly delicious. His tongue caressed mine with his own as he swirled it around. He would pull out for a moment, bite my lip and then dip it back inside to continue playing with mine. It was hot and very erotic. He kissed me like I had never been kissed before. He removed one hand from my backside and started undoing the belt of my robe then slid his hands under my night shirt, skimming it up my body with deft fingers and lifted my robe off.

“Is your pussy wet for me?” I felt my body quiver at his words and I sucked in a breath. I pulled my swollen bottom lip between my teeth. I didn’t have to think, I was so very wet for him. From the moment my eyes met his tonight I was wanton and ready to give myself to him. I had been ready to experience a night of just the two of us since the day I had met him.

“God yes,” I sighed. He started trailing kisses down my neck alternating between licking and blowing gently. Goosebumps broke out on my entire body and my clit began to throb. I was ready for him to take me. His hand trailed down my body searing my skin in its wake until he found my clit. I gasped at the sensation the moment he put his fingers on it. He began to circle it with his finger slowly and then he picked up speed. I sighed in pure blissful satisfaction. It felt so damn good for him to have his hands on me, not just my clit but everywhere. His mouth was still consuming mine as our tongues lavished one another. My hips began to gyrate in sync with his rhythm of his finger and I moaned in pure bliss.

“I’m going to fuck you hard and fast, eat you and then I’m going to fuck you again.” Those words were music to my ears. I wanted that more than he could possibly ever know. My desire for him was like I had never experienced before. My heart beat wildly under my skin and I inhaled deeply, the air rushing into my lungs. My body was on fire for this man.

“My pussy is all yours.” The walls of my sex clinched deliciously.

“I like that you don’t have on any panties. That is super fucking sexy, Abbee.” He picked up the pace and started really teasing my clit with his fingers, and then he stuck two fingers in my sex and I about came undone underneath him. He started pumping them in and out of me at a quick pace. I withered underneath him as it felt so good. I was wild for this man and felt myself coming undone, losing all control. I couldn’t contain my breathing as he had me so worked up. I crashed my full lips to his and kissed him wildly. Mouths, tongues, lips, I took control of the kiss and consumed him.

I pulled away from his mouth because I had to tell him what this experience was doing to my body. I was so overwhelmed with lust for this man. “That feels so good, baby, I can’t wait to have your cock inside of me,” I said to him breathlessly.

“My cock is so hard for you. I need you now.” He undid his belt and pants and then took his cock out of his boxers and slammed into me. “Your pussy is so tight, so wet.” He slid up and down inside of me, thrusting deeply, and my sex clamped around him. I just wanted to hold him inside of me forever it felt so damn good.

I was dripping wet. I could feel the moisture and hear the sounds I was making every time he slipped back and forth inside of me. Both of our breathing was labored as we were trying to fight to gather air into our lungs. This was the hottest sex I had ever had.

He pulled all the way out and then slammed back into me again; his cock hitting me at just the right spot and my pussy quivered at the sensation. My head slightly hit the wall but that didn’t matter because this was what I wanted, we were finally having a moment that was just us. Our bodies were pressed tightly together. We were a fit of arms and legs and I sighed just thinking about this amazing connection we were having. I never wanted to be apart from him again. If this is what our fights lead to then I would pick a battle with him any day of the week.

“Baby, clamp that pussy around my cock.” I tightened my muscles around him and he moaned and I sighed. I ran my hands up his body caressing his muscular back. He changed his angle again and then I felt him hit my g-spot and my breathing became more ragged as I tried to gulp air into my lungs.

“Just—” I sighed. “I’m close.” I was on the tip of a precipice, ready to explode at any moment. My body was readying for a mind-blowing orgasm. He reared back and then slammed into me again. I completely lost it. His cock had caressed my g-spot once again and I lost all control over my body spiraling until oblivion. “I’m coming.”

He picked up the pace and started ramming into me as hard and fast as he could; fucking me like no one ever had before. Then he made one last thrust and I felt him explode inside of me. His breathing was ragged as well as mine and we just looked at one another, sharing a moment of pure satisfaction together. Both of us trying to catch our breaths, our eyes hoode,d speaking words that neither of us were saying. I felt boneless but amazing. I couldn’t wipe that damn grin from my face or the feeling from my heart. This man had completely captivated me.

I gathered my arms tightly around him and laid my head on his chest. We were both covered in sweat; our bodies glistening in the aftermath of what had to be the most amazing sex I had ever had.

“Your pussy is hot,” he said to me, smiled and gave me a chaste kiss.

“Well, I think your cock is hot,” I said as I took a deep breath trying to gather control.

I felt something dripping down my leg and then it hit me. I eased him out of me and then planted my feet on the ground and looked down at his unsheathed cock.

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

Fuck me.

Well, he did just fuck me.

“Justice?” I looked at him. I could already feel my face getting red and my ears getting hot.

“What is it?” He looked panicked.

“You didn’t wear a condom again. How could you when you know what happened last time? I’m not prepared to go through this shit again,” I spit at him. I had just lost our baby a few weeks ago. This was way too soon for me.

“Oh fuck.” He breathed out through his pearly-white perfect teeth.

“Yeah, oh fuck is right.” I was beyond pissed. I couldn’t believe that he didn’t even think before he stuck his dick inside of me. What the hell was wrong with him?

I started doing the math in my head. Was I ovulating? I didn’t think I was, thank goodness.

“Good news, I don’t think I’m ovulating, dipshit,” I told him.

His face turned down. What the hell did he want me, to get pregnant again? “Good.”

“Just so you know I’m clean. I’ve never not used a condom before. It’s just with you, I lose all control.” My resolve started to melt a little. I understood about losing control. Perhaps I could’ve been responsible and reminded him of the condom as well.

“I get it.” I pushed my wild hair away from my face. “I’m clean as well. I was just tested while I was in Detroit. I had to make sure that Jensen didn’t give me anything.” There was no telling what Jensen could have given me but the tests had shown that I was clean and free of diseases.

“Baby, I don’t want to use a condom with you. I just want it to be us with nothing between us.” I liked the sound of that but I had to think about it because I didn’t want to get pregnant again. Not yet anyways. We needed to be a couple first before we brought a baby in the picture. “Will you get on the pill for me?”