Can't Say No (7 page)

She
wasn’t susceptible, but some women would undoubtedly find him a faultless specimen. A caveman should have those shoulders, and the way he carelessly dragged a hand through his hair…well. He really was an example of primitive virility. No big deal—that kind of man had never turned her on—but being such a sludge of a human being, he deserved at least that lone brownie point. It was only fair.

Bree had always been fair.

And she was now slightly confused as to how he’d managed to have her clinging to him like ivy the afternoon before. The hooch? Exhaustion? Another screw loose?

She’d put the kiss out of her mind in the same way she ignored creaks in the night; maybe they scared you for a minute, but you knew you were really safe and forgot them. The longer she watched Hart, though, the more a restless curiosity wandered through her mind. What kind of lover would he be? Masterful and all that nonsense? A reasonably small woman could get crushed under all that…

Bree.

Shape
up.

Nudging a knuckled fist under her chin, she sighed. When he was gone, she would take her bath.

He was underwater again. She frowned, her eyes scanning the small triangular lake. Before she could blink twice, he’d surged up not twenty-five feet from her, facing the spot where she was hiding in her cover of trees.

“Seen enough, honey?”

Bree froze.

Hart threw back his head and laughed. “Curiosity killed the cat, they say. If that’s your problem, you’d better be darn sure you’ve got all nine lives intact.” In chest-deep water, he took a step closer, and then another.

Four steps later the water only reached his knees. Bree scrambled to her feet. The man had
no
shame.
None.
And how the devil could the man be aroused in water that was only one degree warmer than melted snow?

“Hiding behind trees at your age,” he chided. “An honest-to-God voyeur would have chosen much better cover. Or dyed that mane of red hair. The T-shirt fits…delectably, I see. You’ve even got a little life in your eyes this morning. No nightmares last night? Talking yet?”

No, she wasn’t talking. She was
stalking.
Back home.
Alone.

Red hair, was it? Now, those were fighting words. And never mind the matching red on her face.

Sunbeams sent down dusty rays on the old oak counters of the general store. “Looks like you’re going to try out a few of your gram’s old recipes, Bree.” Claire studied every item before putting it into Bree’s sack. “Could have knocked me over with a feather when I saw you coming in here. Thought that cabin was going to stay empty for sure.”

Claire rubbed the tip of her nose, eyeing Bree’s smile with a curious look. “Barker over at the pharmacy, now, he mentioned that you’d gotten a little uppity since you were here last. I told him that was nonsense. I knew you as long as I knew your gram—ain’t no way you ever had your nose up in the air…and who’s to say you got to talk to everybody, anyway? That’s forty-seven ninety-six, sweetie. What’s wrong, darlin’?”

Everything. Small towns, for openers. And three hours of failing to communicate, of being misunderstood, and of giving old acquaintances the wrong impression—an impression that she’d suddenly become standoffish. She felt as if her head was about to come off.

Bree counted out the money, looked at Claire and abruptly swung her purse onto the old wooden counter.
Claire,
she scribbled,
I have laryngitis. I’m not being unfriendly. I
can’t
talk.

She shoved the note across the counter along with her money. Claire read the note aloud, flicked her eyebrows up and beamed at Bree. “You poor thing. I told Barker you hadn’t turned into no snob.” She leaned on the counter, ignoring the two people behind Bree who were expecting to get waited on. “I tell you what my pa used to do for a case of throat trouble. Don’t go to Doc Felders, now—he don’t know nothin’. You take a spoonful of common tar, three spoonfuls of honey, the yolk of three eggs and a half pint of brew. Beat it good with a knife, not a spoon, bottle it up and dose yourself good a few times a day. You’ll have that throat fixed up in no time.”

Bree nodded her thanks. If she’d had a voice, she wasn’t sure she would have been capable of a verbal thank-you for that particular advice.

“If you want me to, I’ll make some up for you and bring it over…”

Bree, grabbing her grocery bags, quickly shook her head.

“Wouldn’t be no trouble at all…”

The real problem with lying was the endless trouble the little fibs could get her into. It took twenty more minutes before Bree was free to sidle through the door with her arms aching from the weight of her grocery bags.

The car had been preheated under a South Carolina midafternoon sun. There was barely room for Bree—the backseat, the floor and the passenger seat were crammed with parcels. She’d known after the first fifteen minutes in town that this was going to be her one and only trip for a while—unless those temperamental vocal chords of hers decided to function again.

The main street of Mapleville was dusty and quiet. The post office was brick, but the old flour mill and general store and pharmacy were frame buildings that hadn’t seen fresh paint in a decade or two. Bree had always loved the sleepy, lazy town, and the people in it as well, but heading home was a relief. Patience, Dr. Willming had counseled her.

She was fresh out of the commodity. She’d hurt several people’s feelings that morning by not responding to their friendly questions. She’d earned a good headache simply by traveling a few miles and being unable to communicate. And a man she thoroughly detested had walked all over her while she just kept taking it like some helpless ninny. Bree was
not
helpless, and she was damned tired of
feeling
helpless.

Hot and miserable, she carried sack after sack into the cabin. Gradually, as she unpacked her purchases, she began to feel better. If the three hours of shopping had been grueling emotionally, she
had
found everything she needed to keep her busy for the next few weeks. Buying groceries had been a nuisance, but the rest of her purchases were sheer luxuries, memories of things she’d once loved to do. Gram had taught her to use the old spinning wheel, and she’d bought two sacks of wool from the old mountain man up the rise who raised sheep. She’d also purchased dye to color the wool once it was spun. And baking—on the
immediate
agenda was fussing with Gram’s old recipe for rich bride cake, and for days after that she had equally delectable plans. Her sacks were full of wheat flour and rye flour and yeast, ground rice, mace and nutmeg and currants; ginger and molasses and hops—things that few cooks used anymore.

And the old witch from the north of town—well, she claimed she was a witch—had yielded bergamot and vitriolic acid and citronella, some of the old-fashioned ingredients needed for making perfume. Gram had taught Bree the craft as a child, and as she grew older Bree started to create her own scents—better than those of the professionals, according to Gram. That, of course, was silly, just as silly as her frivolous childhood dream of making perfumes as a career. But for these few weeks, she was free to be just as silly and impractical as she pleased, to do only the things she really loved doing. She might even have time to get one brew of scent going before she started baking.

If she weren’t so hot. Thank heaven Claire had managed to come up with a bathing suit from the far back of the store. The style of the suit had almost made Bree laugh, but at least until her luggage arrived she could get clean in the pond without risking exposure to any loudly vocal exhibitionists.

When she had put away all her purchases, Bree squeezed some fresh lemons for lemonade, downed two glasses of the refreshing drink and tapped a bare toe in the silent room. Hot sunlight poured through the windowpanes, peaceful and cheery, yet she couldn’t seem to settle into doing anything.

The heat must be causing this nagging restlessness. The night would cool up fine, but right now her jeans were sticking to her legs and her hair was curling damply around her temples. Popping up to the loft, she peeled off the stiff denims and camisole and dug out the bathing suit she’d just put away.

She put it on and grimaced at herself in the cracked old mirror in the corner. The suit was a one-piece black number with a little skirt, high necked with thick straps, the kind that had gone out of style several decades ago. The general store didn’t exactly stock the height of fashion. Furthermore, the built-in bra seemed to be made of whalebone. It was cool, Bree reminded herself, and that was all she’d wanted at the time, something that was cool and concealing. No one was around to care or see…Her eyes flickered abruptly to the telescope still lying by the window.

Gram had spent hours with that telescope, looking for white-crowned sparrows and ruby-throated hummingbirds. Bree adjusted the lens, quickly scanned the trees for Gram’s old favorites and zoomed in…accidentally on the house at the top of the hill.

He’d taken the boards off the windows, she noticed. The yard had been mowed, not an easy task on that steep rise. A chaise longue now stood on the patio that jutted out over the ravine. And there was someone in the upstairs window, rubbing a cloth on the dusty panes…

Bree abruptly lowered the telescope, readjusted the lens and held it to her eye again. Not
someone.
A woman. In a shocking pink confection that a brazen hussy might have the nerve to call a bathing suit.

It
certainly
hadn’t taken him long to get established in the neighborhood.

Actually, that model of housekeeper looked imported.

She blinked again, squinting harder into the lens. Good Lord, there were two of them. The second came with tiger stripes. And that
child
didn’t know enough to buy a suit that fit her.

Bree lowered the telescope, and grabbed a towel.

Downstairs, she picked up a bottle of shampoo and headed for the door. Her suit, she thought wryly, was hardly necessary. She was going to get her skinny-dipping bath in freedom after all. He’d found someone else to play with. More than enough to keep him busy.

A little bath, a couple hours of sunbathing, then her projects…
Safe
echoed through Bree in one huge, disgruntled yawn.

At the pond, she abandoned the bathing suit and flung it toward the nearest bush. The sun caressed her bare skin as she walked with head thrown back to the shoreline. She waded knee-deep into the icy water, then thigh-deep, then arched into a shallow racing dive.

Water rushed around her limbs like icy silk. She flipped over and began a lazy backstroke, swimming the length of the pond once, and then again. Her senses seemed to burst into life, senses that had been dormant for weeks now. She was conscious of everything—the heat of sun and the chill of water, the whispered softness of trees and woods, the look of her own white skin under clear water, the feel of her hair sensuously streaming around her face when she slipped underwater.

In time, she stretched her limbs to the sun like a sensual kitten and then waded to shore for her shampoo. As she wandered back to waist-deep water, she spilled a little of the soft liquid into her palm and soon had a mound of sweet-smelling lather in her hair. Such luxuriousness felt delightful. A dollop of white foam fell between her breasts and trickled down; she arched her breasts for the sun and kneaded the shampoo into her hair and felt utterly, deliciously, wantonly wicked.

Richard would have been appalled to see her standing naked in the woods. So, come to think of it, would her parents. And anyone else she knew. Bree was not a brazen, sensual lady and never had been. She was just…Bree. All her life she had been just…Bree.

Maybe the shampoo bottle held a secret formula for washing away dissatisfaction, because at the moment she exulted in playing mermaid. When she dived to rinse off, her hair streamed behind her, and she played a few minutes more, although her flesh was starting to feel cold. A half hour later, shivering, she shook the water from her skin as she waded back to shore. Bending to pick up the towel, she straightened, loving the warmth of sunlight on her bare skin.

Almost against her will, she found her eyes darting around, seeking out shadows in the woods, absently scanning the densely covered rise to the top of the hill…Abruptly, her hands stopped patting her skin with the towel as if she were putting on a strip show. Then her spine straightened into a more natural posture, and she stopped whipping back her hair like a forties movie star.

Dammit, Bree. You’ve been freezing for at least a half hour, and you may as well quit acting like a damn fool. He’s not there. You knew that even before you came down here.

The softly caressing towel turned into a rubbing punishment.
Would you get that damn man out of your mind?

Chapter Five

At eleven, Bree collapsed on the feather bed, tested her little finger to see if it had the energy to wiggle, discovered it didn’t, and contentedly closed her eyes. This once, she knew she would sleep. The day couldn’t have been fuller, with shopping and swimming and a quick experiment with scents and an entire evening of baking. And in the peace and silence of the woods, she was certain her nightmares were behind her.

But the dream came back in the darkest hours. Always, it was slightly different. New details would hauntingly tug at her memory: the way the clouds had hung in charcoal-gray shadows, the face of someone in the crowd, the song she’d been humming as she left Gram to get the car.

Always, the end was the same. She’d let herself be talked into taking a frail old woman outside on a frigid day—her fault. They’d shopped for hours—her fault. She’d left Gram alone—her fault. She’d wasted a few minutes bringing the car around, the exact minutes during which the purse snatcher had attacked Gram—her fault. She was the one who had let it all happen. Wrong choices…all her fault.

And the siren kept screaming in the dream. The night pressed down on her; sheets writhed around her like chains. She had loved Gram so much, and the siren kept screaming, along with a silent scream that no one else ever heard.