Broken (8 page)

It’s been the best few months, Cameron is still here with me in Miami even little Sadie is here making noise all over the house with her little nails on the tile. I’ve fallen in love with her to. She has a huge bed with gold trimming and can barely get into it with those stubby little legs. She is so spoiled. It’s different having someone in the house with me. We are learning thou and Cameron seems so on edge right now. I can’t place the problem but I am thinking it has to do with him not working. He is a mans, man he needs to be busy and feel productive, he needs to be needed.  I have to figure out how to give him a purpose yet keep him as flexible as me. When I decide to fly to Paris for a week I want him to be able to drop and go and him being a house husband just isn’t going to cut it for him.  (Not that we are married or anything) I’ve been being more than a pretty face at work; Cam thought I should show the world who I was not …what. He said it was obvious I was drop dead beautiful but I was so much more and he was right.  We’ve only known each other for such a short time but I can already tell you I know with every fiber of my soul he is my forever. I want to scream it and make him mine… would I be crazy to ask him to marry me? Do girls “pop the question” I bet he would laugh at me if I dropped to my knee. Maybe I could get a blimp or do it on the jumbotron at a heats game? Ok maybe that’s a little much…

I zone back in to reality about the time my intercom beeps “ Hey
Lexi you have a call on line 3, they say its urgent, but in my opinion it doesn’t really SOUND that way” with a sigh I throw down the new FASHION magazine I’m thumbing thru “Ok Mags I will take it thanks for the heads up. I hear the shrill voice on the other line before I ever say a word..   “Corrine is there something I can do for you? And please don’t waste my time I have shit going on” I hate this bitch like I hate the smell of generic tanning oil… it’s the same thing FAKE. “HEY ALEXA BABY(she’s half drunk I can hear the slur)  I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THE ANNUAL PARTY IS ON FOR NEXT SATURDAY NIGHT, I know you’re not in to the scene right now so you say but you will tire of him and when you do you will need a new sub, come by and see the line up it’s to die for this year” I hate the way she talks about the people at the party even thou I use to be the same way, after meeting and falling for Cam I can’t imagine going. I don’t need a naked buffet of able willing boys or girls to pick from. I have my man My equal! “UH NO CORRINE! I won’t be tiring nor needing a new SUB, I love Cam and my scene IS him.”

I can’t help but picture his beautiful face smiling down at me after one of our wild and so very often
sexcapades. This bitch is threading thin with me even thinking he is temporary.

“Well I had the invite curried over earlier so you will receive it if you change your mine CHOW DOLLFACE” and she’s gone,
skank didn’t even give me time to snub her again. Why won’t she just die, I can’t stand her ugly self.

Well in reality she’s not ugly to look at but GAWD she’s ugly inside like dead molded road kill slapped by
ya own momma kind of ugly. I’ve slug assed around all afternoon and Cam has noticed every time I sneak a peek he has his brows furled together just staring through me. I’ve decided to keep him away from that lifestyle. We only have passionate love sessions, I want to do naughty things to him but I am afraid it may get out of hand. I don’t plan on telling him about the “party”.

“
Lexi baby what’s a ….S.U.B. B.A.L.L?, are we going?” Cam barely says it all stuttered like. I all but snort the chocolate milk I was inhaling through my nose. Is he a fucking psychic?  “WHAT THE HELL CAM, why are you asking about that?” as I turn I realize my mistake, Corrine had the invite sent here not the office and I never even looked to see what Val left me on the mail desk SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK ME SHIT! “ Oh umm it’s a ahhhummm… well it’s like a  party but like a buffet style for ummm FUCK CAM, IT’S A FUCKING DOM/SUB PARTY.(grrrrr)” Yep now he wants to question the crap. “What is it? And NO we aren’t going, I wouldn’t do that to you, and besides I don’t need to see anyone or window shop I have everything I want right here.” Poor guy he is so flushed and red, is he pissed at me? I can’t help the way I have lived until him & I will NOT apologize for who I am… I mean was! It wasn’t a bad decision just a different lifestyle.  He clears his throat before he speaks “It says you’re co-hosting it? Don’t you have to go if that’s the case?” I snatch the beautiful invitation out of his hand, it’s amazing Corrine besides being a skank has fabulous fashion taste. It’s a thick charcoal colored 5x7 with a thin layer of silver tied on top, with hand written calligraphy writing on it. And sure as shit I TOTALLY FORGOT.. “FUCK ME, I forgot it was my year to do this, she didn’t even say anything to me. I wrote the check last year to cover my end and she was going to do all the planning.” I drop to my knees right there in the room and bury my face in my hands. The paper flits to the floor. “Lexi if you have to do it I understand this isn’t the life you want anymore but you’re committed and you have to follow through its part of why I love you so much, is this something I could do with you? I mean I will go. I am kind of curious to how you got into it.” I open my eyes to see he has squatted down to my level and has a sincere look. I hate to do this to him and it’s only a day away well not even more like 12 hours. FUCK!!!!! “Yea your right Cam I do have to do this but I don’t want you to see this, it was me but that’s before you and nothing before then even matters. I can’t ask you to go taint yourself like that. I love your innocence, I love that me alone is enough for you. But in the end I can’t deny you doing anything you want to do so if you want to go yes you can, you will always be my plus one.”

Everything looks great I can’t even believe what I see when I look around at this. I’ve attended for years now but it’s like seeing it for the first time. It’s a VERY private event, not just anyone can come in & everyone is under contract
What Happens at the Sub Ball stays at the Sub Ball.
Lighting is amazing as are the drapes everywhere. Looks like it adopted a genie in a bottle kind of theme. There are several raised platforms all around the room. I can’t imagine Cams face when he sees what they are for. He is wearing a very impressive Silver and grey suit that matches my corseted gown. It’s tied together in a few diff spots not covering much of anything. Technically me & Cam are a bad match here he is dressed as Dom as am I. The subs will be either naked or roll playing. Uhhhh Cam is going to kill me when he sees this display. I hear the music stop in the next room and I know it’s time. “Come on Mr. Thompson it’s time for line up.”  They are about to parade the newbie’s and as far as everyone here is concerned me and Cam are pulling a double, we will be looking for a set, otherwise Cam would be on that platform with the rest of them.

The lineup is a good one this year for all intent purposes. A wide range on age and looks, some look 19-20 and go all the way up to the nice high 45-50 (to each their own you know) male and female alike. They all have different body frames and types; there is someone here to reach ever Dom’s need. Cam’s freaking out as he realizes the platforms are to hold all the sub missive’s looking for an owner. I have to remind him they consented to this and they usually see it an honor to be here since not all who apply make the cut. Sad part is the worst is yet to come.

All the people who attended the party with intent to find a new sub stroll around taking in the supply so they can narrow down who they are interested in.  We have to mingle and look interested to keep up our game, so not to stand out to everyone else. Not that we are scared or anything it’s just to be respectful of others alternate lifestyles. Cam takes a small interest to a few people simply because he can’t understand why they subject themselves to this life. He feels they are degrading themselves (he doesn’t understand it) I make a mental note to try to explain it later. He is floored by the young girl who reminds him of an elementary teacher, as well as one who he thinks looks like his old babysitter.

The music is back up just a little too loud, I take the time to breathe thou,
at least Cam can’t ask any more questions. For a bit, I’ve honestly never felt so judged by it all. Any other time I would’ve already made my selection and put on a show for the crowd to see if he was worthy of taking my commands, I’ve seen maybe 3 who I would try out. In the corner I hear the commotion and I make my way to see what’s going on, and low and behold the try outs have started, I should find Cameron he is sure to freak now. I look around and in all honesty I am majorly floored to see him at the front of the crowd with a smirk on his face. He is glued to the show in front of him. The girl on the platform is standing with her legs apart and her hands on top of her head she stands completely still with a platonic look on her face as they are instructed to do unless it’s a direct order of a Dom interested otherwise. The Dom in this case is a young girl about 23 in age beautiful of course and she is standing beside the girl running her fingers up and down her body following slowly with her tongue. She reaches the girls inner mid thigh and bites down hard. She sub jerks just a tad but holds on well. “Smile sub if you’re enjoying what I am doing to you” demands the tiny girl. And as any well trained sub would do she lights her face up bright as she would had she just won the lottery. “Let me hear how much you enjoy me sub” comes another command and as she trails the same way up the other leg the girl quivers and lets out a moan then as the dom bites again softly and with that the girl all but screams. Cam is about to protest till even he can’t deny what he sees. Running down the inside of her leg above her knee is all the proof you need to know she has enjoyed the public display of twisted love. The beautiful dom licks at her like a thirsty puppy and moves up slowly clenching her thigh and digging in deep with her long nails to make the sub suck in a little breathe when she opens her mouth the Dom slipped her tongue in and leads the girl off the platform. The sub has passed and the Dom has taken the roll of soul provider for that girl.  There is no wrong type here. Boy + girl, Girl+girl, boy+boy, girl+ boy+boy+girl however the Dom chooses and the sub accepts is ok with everyone. It’s the only way this lifestyle truly works.  I head to the drink table leaving Cam with a blinded deer in headlights look.

I make my way back to where I left Cam only to find he isn’t there anymore, maybe he made his way to the platforms intrigued to see what other test are given. It’s hard to see up towards the front but I know
Cam isn’t there I can’t feel him. And anytime we are close I can feel it before I ever see him. “Have you seen my partner Mr. Thompson, he was in a silver suit & been at my side all night?’ I ask a handsome server wearing nothing but a bowtie and a banana hammock, boy is he packing! “Yes ma’am I saw Miss Morgan showing him upstairs a few moments ago” he explains instantly lighting a raging wildfire inside me. I slam my wine glasses back on the tray he is carrying breaking the bottom off the stem and jerk my dress up at the heels stomping off seeing nothing but red.

I open every door with a hard jerk, this is such a major no
no sense it’s where the Doms pay a pretty penny to use the rooms after they make their choices for the night. I only open the door on one set who actually offer to let me join in if I don’t mind giving out spankings. I stare at them a moment actually considering it until I am jerked back by the corrupt giggle from the next door. I’d know her high pitched squeal anywhere.  I slam the door with a “maybe later” and head to the next one. When I jerk it open I stop dead in my tracks not understanding what I am seeing. Cam standing at the end of the bed holding a VIBRATOR and a beautiful blonde tied to the four post bed. She is blindfolded and gagged. Cam looks confused but when I hear the snicker I turn to my left and their stands Corrine. She is happy with what she’s done. “Oh Lexi your just in time to see Cam take his first steps into our life style” she looks so excited. Cam looks at me wide eyed. Before he has the time to say a word I slam the door and take off running. I knew better than to bring him here I knew she would sink her claws in and take him from me. I lose everyone I love.

I hear Cam running behind me screaming  “she tricked me I was stunned and freaking out” but I don’t slow enough I can’t
  my lungs won’t fill up I need to go I have to run.  I snatch the keys from the valet box out front and jump into my chrome colored Fiskar Karma , it matched my dress so well and its edgy just like my outfit. But now it matches my temper and my heart. Jagged and sharp and ready to flee. The last thing I see in my rearview,  I KNEW BETTER THAN TO LOOK, is Cam clearing the last step he looks so scared and so sad. He is screaming at the top of his lungs at me but I can’t hear him. The blood racing through my body is all I hear or feel rather. He will come after me I know that but I can’t make myself stop, I just need, No, I just want to be home in the safety of my bed alone where I know nothing can hurt me. What I need is for Cam to explain why he was in that room with Corrine looking as if he was part of the scene about to take place.

Lexi wakes up with the sun hitting her face instantly noticing her stained pillows and lack of a bed buddy. She changes from her beautiful yet torn and destroyed dress, throwing on her trusty Capri sweats and an oversized sweatshirt that says “reeds” across it. Cam brought it when he moved in and of course it went to the top of the most comfy list.  Sitting at the bar with a latte in hand she thumbs through the paper wondering where Cam could be, would he seriously stay all night with Corrine. Or maybe he had stayed at a hotel or slept on the sofa, I haven’t even checked. I will after I finish this fabulous Carmel latte yummmm. Besides I need to collect myself and wake up so I don’t flip out on him.  Dropping the paper and clicking on the tv no sound and lord knows my heads killing me so its fine.  I notice a car that looks a lot like Cams Enzo crashed into the trees. The heading says “Crash on the cliffs” who in their right mind would be driving so fast out at the cliffs? It’s a freaking death trap the cliffs alone but dang those hard curves aren’t easy either. “1 car 1 Man Critical care”  OMG that’s the way I came home last night, it couldn’t be  Cam… no it’s not he wouldn’t…. WHERE is my PHONE.. “VALERIAAA” now I am in a hissy and can hardly breathe. “Valeria find my phone hurry I have to call Cam” she’s on the hunt and I snatch up the house phone calling Cams cell over and over only to continually go to voicemail. “hey sorry you can’t get me right now me and Lexi are off living life to the fullest, uh I love this girl, anyways leave me a message I’ll call you back” and I hear my stupid girlie laugh in the background squealing. I stand there holding it remembering….

Lying on the grass rolling around
I snatched his phone looking at his pictures of his friends back home. “Cam are you happy here? I know you miss your life, family, and friends.” He just smiles and simply says “Baby there is no contest if it’s you or that, it will ALWAYS be you. Besides they all know where I am and how to find me and you beautiful are my life.” “Oh really Cameron Thompson so Ellie May isn’t sad you left? Because I know you miss her even thou it wasn’t considered living” I croon out. Snatching the phone he told me very boldly “ Nope ALEXA  I don’t miss anything about Mississippi and to prove it I will tell the world one missed call at a time”  he left the silly message with me cackling like a rabid lunatic in the background. “OMG CAMERON YOU’RE SO GOOFY I LOVE IT” I squeal before another tickle and wiggle fest started. He is sooo bad about tickling me uhhhh.

“
Lexi sweetheart here I found your cellular device” Vals voice grabs my attention. I have 4 missed calls on the screen, 2 unknown and 2 were Maggie. My heart is racing and my can barely feel my legs. I hit the redial for the unknown “Miami Medical Emergency Center May I help you” is all I hear before I hit the floor crying “NO NO NOOO I NOooooo” Valeria snatches the phone away and I bury my face in my hands. “Yes my names Valeria I work for Miss Alexa Cruz and we have some missed calls from this number, Yes I understand you say Emergency center correct?” it’s hard to understand her I am sure, her Spanish is thick  and she is talking really fast.  “Yes ma’am I understand but Miss Cruz has a umm well her fiancé didn’t make it home last night and on the television there was a crash, yes, yes a Mr. Thompson. Cameron Thompson yes he was from Mississippi. Ok yes we are on our way thank you Nurse.” “Gus wake up u lazy white excuse of a man and get the car we need to go to the hospital, no Lexi is fine just hurry your old sorry self up” she hung up after a few words that were too fast even for my broken ears.  She grabs my bag and my phone and I am still sitting in the floor bawling. She pulls me to my feet pushing me out the door; Gus already has the car there ready to go. We slide in and on the trip Valeria does her best with what she has. Using her hands to brush out my hair and tie it in a messy bun. Puts my huge blackout Mark Jacob shades on my face because I am wearing only the makeup I haven’t cried off from last night. I can’t function at all except to swat her away. “LEXI STOP IT, I know  your upset we are going, the nurse said he is in surgery but stable as of now. You have to look semi decent otherwise the camera will eat you alive. You already know they set up station at the hospital to catch all the drunk socialites when they gurney through, this is no different to them and they will be there whether you like it or not.” I know she’s right I try to compose myself but it’s useless. Cam is hurt I and I was just crying myself into a pity party stupor. How could I deny him his curiosity? I took him, I opened him up to it and then I left him there ALONE.

I open the door not caring about the paparazzi I make a mad dash for the door actually having to deck a camera guy in my face with my bag, ill pay for that later. But he stood between me and My Cameron. He had to move. I round a corner in a screaming frenzy and slam face first into Alex chest. I forgot
Cam had someone here besides me. We stayed so closed off in our little world together I hadn’t even considered Alex would be here. Eh that’s right 2 missed calls from Maggie hence Alex grrrr. “How is he Alex is he ok?” yep now I have a snotty nose and all yuck, back to business. “WELL”