Draping her arm around my shoulder Mel let out a long breath. “You know what you have to do Layla. Don’t you.” I nodded weakly. “When will you tell him?” Gazing at them both I sighed. “Not yet. I don’t want to ruin these last few weeks with him. I will tell him but I need to give him this. I owe him that much.” Sitting on the floor in front of me, I could see tears in Amy’s eyes. “Oh Layla. I can’t believe he’s leaving and that he’s got to go with a broken heart. Maybe you’ll change your mind. Maybe, if you really try and spend more time together you’ll see how amazing he is and you’ll just forget about Jared. Ollie loves you Layla. He can make you so happy I know it. You’d have an incredible life. You’d be his queen. What’s not to love about him?” Poor Amy, she really was a hopeless romantic. Just because someone is the good choice it doesn’t make it the right choice. “Amy if I went with him it would be out of guilt or because I feel I should. He wouldn’t want that. He said he wants me to want to go with him.” “ Don’t you?” I sighed. “ Of course I do Amy, but for all the wrong reasons. I should go because I love him. Because I can’t bear to be away from him. Not because I don’t want to break his heart or because I’ll miss him when he’s gone. This is his chance at a new life. A start over. He deserves it. If I went with him we’d just be living one huge lie. I won’t put him through it. It wouldn’t be fair on either of us. Look, how about this. I won’t say anything to Ollie until I’m one hundred percent sure of what I want. I’ll just…take it slow. Never say never right?” She knew I was right and though I could see it pained her to accept it, she respected my choice. “Ok. But just give him a chance. Please?” That’s exactly what I had been doing since Christmas and I was no closer to knowing what I wanted now than I had been then.
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Staring at myself in the mirror, I sighed. In less than an hour I would be face to face with the woman who abandoned Ollie. I could already feel the anger building inside me. I didn’t care what he said; there was no excuse close to acceptable for what she’d done. Deciding on the purple dress I’d worn for our dinner date, I twirled, patting down the garment for any dust or lint. “You look incredible.” A pair of warm arms snaked around my waist as his lip ring pressed against my cheek. “ Thanks. Hope she approves.” “ I don’t care what she thinks. I approve.” Turning to face him I pressed my palms against his chest. He was wearing his black pants and a deep blue shirt slightly unbuttoned. “ You don’t look so bad yourself.” Pressing his lips to mine, the spark of electricity between us made me smile. Ollie really was amazing and whenever I was around him I felt so comfortable and happy. Ollie’s natural charisma, and gentle charm was completely disarming and totally swoon worthy. I wasn’t just with a great guy, he also happened to be one of my best friends. “Well, let’s get this show on the road.” Holding my hand tightly in his, we walked outside where a cab was waiting for us. My mind suddenly drifted to Daniel, the Mercedes and Jared. Angry at myself for letting my mind wander, I glanced at Ollie and tightened my grip on his hand. Entering the restaurant I could feel the nerves swarming in my stomach. Still holding my hand firmly, Ollie led us through to a table in the far corner where a slim woman with long dark hair was sipping a glass of water. Seeing us approach she stood and immediately wrapped her arms around Ollie who, albeit rigidly, hugged her back. “ Mom, this is Layla.” Leaning in to me she gave me a peck on the cheek and smiled widely. “It’s lovely to finally meet you Layla. I’ve heard a lot about you.” I eyed her with skepticism. “I’ve heard a lot about you too.” Looking at Ollie and then at the floor she sighed. “Yes, I imagine you have.” Noticing the tension building between us, Ollie gestured for us to sit. Taking the seat next to me he held my hand on top of the table and brushed his thumb back and forth over my knuckles. “So, Layla. Ollie tells me the two of you have been dating for several months now. How did you meet?” I shifted uncomfortably in my seat. “Well, I actually quite literally bumped into him on my first day at college. We became good friends and then we started dating around Christmas time.” Ollie held my hand firmly and smiled at me. “That’s sweet. So why the long wait between meeting and dating?” I gave Ollie a discomfited look. I didn’t like the direction the conversation was going. “She was in a relationship. He treated her badly. They broke up. That’s it.” Ollie to my rescue. Sitting back in her chair, his mother gave me a smile but I got the district feeling she was sizing me up. What gave her the right? She’d only just crawled her way back into his life and here she was questioning me? I gave her an icy glare. I was not going to be intimidated by the likes of her. Taking my menu, I gave the waiter my order and sipped on my water, all the time keeping my eyes fixed on the woman sitting opposite me. Her hand brushed Ollie’s as they spoke about his move to Utah this summer and my stomach twisted into knots every time they made plans, spoke about the apartment or even said the word move. “Oliver tells me he’s asked you to come with him Layla. Well, we’ll be very happy to have you join our little family. My younger son Jason has always wanted a sister.” I almost choked on my water. “ Mom I told you to drop it. I won’t pressure Layla into a decision.” He placed his hand on the small of my back and I couldn’t have felt more awful. “ What’s to think about? You love each other, you want to be together, and Utah is only a different state, not another country.” “ Mom! That’s enough. Just drop it.” Raising her hands defensively, she shot me a questioning look and it instantly got my back up. I was glad when our food arrived as it gave me a reason to remain silent as the two of them continued to talk about Ollie’s new life that waited for him. “ Well, if you’ll excuse me I need to use the bathroom.” Resting his hand on my shoulder he leaned in to my ear. “You’ll be ok?” I nodded and giving me a quick peck, he left the table and the two of us alone. Watching him leave, Ollie’s mother turned her attention to me. “ Layla, I’m going to be frank and say what I have noticed this evening. You don’t want to come to Utah and you certainly do not feel about Ollie the same way he does about you. Now why don’t we stop pretending and lay the cards on the table. You don’t like me for what I did to Ollie in his past. And I certainly won’t like you if you jeopardize his future happiness. If you don’t want him, let him go.” I stared at her in total shock. “How dare you. I am crazy about your son and I would never jeopardize his future.” “ Oh come on dear. Be honest with yourself. You don’t love my son and the way you have responded to his enthusiasm about moving has left a lot to be desired. I appreciate you care about him and maybe on some level you do love him. But I’ve been the woman you are now. You stay because you feel you should and if you came to Utah it would be for him, not you. Be kind, let him go.” Now I was irate. She had no right to question my motives or my feelings considering what she had done. “I don’t know who you think you are but the only one hurting Ollie around here is you. You come wandering back into his life and offer him this perfect little family and just like that he’s leaving his whole life to come to Utah. His college, his friends, everything.” She gave me a satisfied grin. “I notice you never mentioned yourself in that list. You are hurting him more and more the longer you give him hope. Cut the strings and let him go. I made the biggest mistake of my life when I left Oliver and his brother but I had my reasons, reasons I do not have to justify to you. Oliver has found it in his beautiful heart to give me a chance to make it up to him and I will not stand idly by while you tear his heart out.” Standing, I slammed my napkin on the table, grabbed my purse and walked away. Her words, though harsh, were right on the money. She’d seen through me and called me on me on it. As I reached the door, I saw Ollie coming out of the bathroom and putting my head down, I quickened my pace out into the street and across the road to hail a cab. Sprinting out of the doors he yelled after me. “Layla! Wait, where are you going? What’s going on?” I stood staring ahead looking for a cab to pass for me to take. Reaching me, he held his hand on my arm and lifted my chin to face him. “Layla, what’s happened? Why did you take off?” I shook my head, unable to look him in the eye. “I have to go home Ollie. I can’t stay here.” “ I don’t understand. I went to the bathroom everything was fine and I come back and you’re taking off. What did she say to you?” Pulling away from him I exhaled loudly. “Nothing that I didn’t already know. Ollie I…” He cut me off, closing the space between us, pressing his lips to mine. “You’re not coming with me to Utah are you Layla.” His forehead rested against mine and weakly I shook my head. He sighed. “I know. I always knew. I understand. It’s a lot to ask of you and I shouldn’t have expected you to leave everything for a man you don’t even love.” Tears pooled in my eyes. “Ollie…I’m so…” “ It’s ok. We gave it our best shot didn’t we? Sometimes the story doesn’t end the way we want it to. Can you do something for me?” I gazed into his eyes “Anything.” “ Let me pretend, just a while longer. I need it.” Warm salty tears rolled heavily down my cheeks. “ Ok.” We didn’t stay for dinner. Leaving me on the sidewalk Ollie ran back to the restaurant to say goodbye to his mom and that he would call her the next day. Sliding into the cab beside me he held my hand threading our fingers together. My heart gave an almighty thud as I gazed into his deep brown eyes. He smiled but I knew he was hurting as deeply as I was. The walk down our hall was a long and silent one. Standing outside my room, we stared at each other. Taking my hand, Ollie pressed my palm to his lips and kissed me softly before holding it against his cheek. My heart swelled and my eyes blurred with unshed tears. “I love you Layla. Thank you.” I couldn’t believe what he was saying. Everything I’d put him through and he was thanking me. “What for? Breaking your heart?” Tears fell silently from my eyes. “ No. For letting me know I have one.” A sob escaped my lips. Pulling me to him he held me in a warm embrace and stroked his hand up and down my spine. “ Shhh. It’s ok. It’ll be ok. I promise.” I nodded weakly, unable to believe his words and I was sure he didn’t believe them either. Releasing my hand he smiled and reached for his door handle. Taking his other hand I stopped him. “Don’t.” He looked at me confused. “Stay with me. Even if it’s just for tonight. Be with me Ollie.” Cupping his face in my hands I kissed him passionately. I kissed him like it was my last and the way things had played out that night, I feared it could be. His hands on my shoulders his tongue slid into my mouth slowly rolling, caressing and stroking my own. “Are you sure about this?” Catching my breath I gazed at him and nodded. “I want to be with you tonight Ollie. I want to do this with you.” Taking his hand I led him into my room. Amy had gone home for the weekend so I knew we had the whole night alone. He looked nervous. Closing the door behind us I lit a few candles around the room. His eyes glistened and sparkled in the dim light beneath his long black hair. My palms pressed against his chest, I gently and slowly unbuttoned his shirt. I felt him tense beneath my fingers and momentarily I pulled away. Catching my wrist in his grasp he placed it back over his heart. Gazing down at me he kissed me softly and slid his hands over my shoulders, making the straps of my dress loosen and rest on my arms. Turning around, I held my hair up as his fingers traced across my neck before gently unzipping my dress. Turning back to face him, I shrugged it over my body and it fell lightly to the floor. Stepping out gracefully, I ran my hands over his bare chest, beneath his open shirt. My mouth closed over his as I pulled and tugged it from his torso. Tracing my fingertips over his chest, I followed every line, curve and contour of his body. I drew in a sharp breath as I slid my hands downwards to his pelvis. Snaking my hands over his hips and around his waist, I pressed my hands firmly to his back, forcing him close to me. His own hands glided up and down my spine gently before resting on my hips. His forehead rested against mine and I could hear how breathless he was and my own chest rose and fell heavily. “Make love to me Ollie.” His lips sealed over mine as he scooped me into his arms and carried me to the bed.