Authors: Kwame Alexander
Are you going back to school next week?
Yes.
Based on the evidence that's been presented, I rule in favor of the defendant. The date shall commence tomorrow.
WOOHOO!
Mom yells.
That's not fair, you say.
The judge has decided,
Mom counters.
Let's hug it out,
Dad says,
and the three of you do,
just like old times
and hopefully new ones, too.
Who beat y'all?
A team from Mexico. They were fast!
Bummer.
Your team got beat too.
I heard.
But it was cool. I met Pelé.
NO FREAKIN' WAY! REALLY?
Well, I saw him from, like, a distance, but yeah.
Cool!
So what's up with you?
Everything's great. My mom and dad are back together.
Really?
Really.
That's what's up.
Looks like you had a lot of fun in Dallas. I saw your pics.
Not as fun as it coulda been. Wasn't the same.
Same as what?
Same as if you were there. If you want, we can play FIFA after school.
Can't. I'm booked.
You're booked?
Yup. I got a date tomorrow.
A date? With who?
April Farrow.
Yeah, right. Where y'all going?
Riding horses.
Atta-boy!
gets out
of Mom's rental SUV
and walks over
to the stable,
only one word
can describe
the way she
moves
in those
blue jeans:
callipygous.
*
Use the steel comb
like this, you say to April,
demonstrating how
to remove
the caked-on dirt.
Then take this soft brush
and rub over her, yep,
just like that, to wash away
the dust.
You're doing great, April.
You know a lot about horses,
Nick,
she says.
I guess.
You know a lot about everything. Is it true you skipped a grade?
Yeah, second.
You're so smart, Nicky.
. . .
Okay, check her feet
with a hoof pick, to clear out
the little rocks and stuff, you say.
Are you feeling better, Nick?
Yeah, pretty much.
Are you still gonna play soccer?
Uh, YEAH!
Well, that's good. 'Cause you're pretty good.
I know.
(We both laugh.)
Miss Quattlebaum told me
to tell you hi.
Maybe I'll be in class
on Monday,
Milady,
you say, not
looking up, and wishing
you hadn't said that.
Let's mount this pony,
she says.
Whoa, cowgirl, you tell her. We
still have to put the saddle on.
Oh, right. Sorry, Nick.
Let me do the saddle, it's kind of heavy.
Want me to help you, Nick?
I'm good.
But you're not, 'cause you stumble,
fall flat
on your
rumpelstiltskin.
Having trouble over there?
Mom hollers, laughing.
Now April's trying not to laugh. And failing.
Even the horse got jokes. He neighs.
Let me help you up, cowboy,
April says, grinning.
You okay?
I'm good.
You said that before,
Mom hollers. Still laughing.
You jump up, saddle the horse.
Yep, let me help you up.
Mom comes over with her horse.
I've got an idea, Nicky,
she says.
It's her first time, so
one of us needs to pull
April's horse around
until she gets the feel for it.
I thought you were going to do it, Mom?
Uh, no, Momma's gonna be riding.
Well, I can't do it.
I'm riding too.
I'll be fine, Mrs. Hall,
April says.
Mom shoots you a look.
Here's my idea,
she says.
How about for the first few times
around the field,
April rides with you.
Solves all our problems, right?
Sounds like a plan to me,
April says.
Blackjack.
PLEASE, MOM!
We just want to
go to the mall.
It's not that late.
Her parents said
she could go.
We're just gonna
walk around,
maybe see
a movie.
Her friend
Charlene can meet us
there too.
You can come also.
THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
By the way, would you mind
sitting a few rows in front of us,
like maybe, uh, twenty-one?
it each time
a zombie
lunges at a human
and chomps on flesh
because it makes April
grab the legs
next to hers,
one of which
is yours.
I had a great time with you
and your mom. Your parents rock!
You're so lucky.
Guess I am.
Mom and Dad stop whispering
when you get to the table.
Nicky,
I made your favorite,
she says.
Lobster
mac-and-cheese. Figured you needed
a break from the mustard.
We both kinda laugh.
And I even made cupcakes. Red velvet,
Dad adds.
By
made,
your father means he MADE
his way to the cupcakery and bought them.
We all laugh, and it feels
like love is back,
like home again,
just like it's supposed
to feel.
Nicky?
Yep, Mom?
I'm leaving on Thursday.
What do you mean?
I've got to get back to work, honey.
But you're coming back, right?
To visit.
Huh? I don't understand.
The Derby's coming up. It's my obligation to get Bite My Dust prepared. You understand, right, Nicky? They need me.
But I thought you quit, Mom.
Quit? Why would Iâ
I mean, it's just that me, you, and Dad have been . . . I mean, things are normal again.
Nicholas, your mother and I have decided to get a divorce.
A DIVORCE? But, I thought, uh, I just . . . I, weâ
I was afraid of this,
Dad says to Mom.
Afraid of WHAT, that I would think you two would get your life together and not ruin mine again?
Your father and I love each other, and we always will, but sometimes life and work and love don't all mesh.
I don't even know what that means.
Nicholas, your mother and I are just, uh, uncompossible.
It's IN,
incompossible,
*
not UN. Look it up, you say, and start getting up from the table.
We're sorry, honey.
Yeah, me too. Sorry some horse's needs are more important than mine.
Nicky, come back. Let's talk about this.
. . .
Does it sink
like a wrecked ship in the sea?
Or wade in the water
like a boy overboard?
Maybe it just floats
around and around . . .
or does it drown?
Mom tells you
how proud
she is
of the man
you're becoming
and makes you
promise to
call
or text her
every day,
eat healthier,
quit cutting
your nails
on the living room floor, and
keep your
grades up.
Maybe you and Coby want to come to the Derby,
she adds.
No thanks, we have soccer obligations, you answer.
In the car
on the way home
the engine battles
the hum of silence and
sadness
that envelops
you.
He finally says something . . . random.
Nicholas, the world is an infinite sea of endless possibility.
Yeah, well, it feels like there's a big freakin' hole in my ship, Dad.
Is Eminem your favorite rapper?
Huh?
The last time we spoke, you were quoting him.
He's not my favorite rapper, though.
Well, I'm more old school. Ever heard of the Fresh Prince?
The old TV show?
Yeah, but he's also a rapper.
Okay.
How did you decide to handle the bullying?
It's handled.
So it's not an issue?
I don't think so.
And what about your bike?
Uh, what about it?
Do you want it back?
Those hellkites
*
are gone, so that's all I really wanted.
Nice word. Your mother mentioned you were exceptionally articulate.
Didn't really have a choice about that.
What do you mean?
My father forces me to read his dictionary. Has since I was nine.
What don't you like about it?
The part where I have to READ it.
Would you rather not be exceptionally articulate?
Maybe.
So you'd just prefer to be normal?
I guess.
Like everyone else?
Yep.
Even on the soccer field?
That's different.
How?
I like soccer.
And you don't like being smart?
I don't like being forced to
sound
smart.
. . .
. . .
Tell me, how do you feel about your mother leaving?
I feel like I'm drowning.
What will it take for you to get above water?
I don't know. It's outta my control. She's not coming back, and they're getting divorced.
Can you swim?
Uh, yeah!
So if you feel like you're drowning and you know how to swim, then maybe you can get above water.
That sounds crazy.
I guess it does.
. . .
How are things going in school?
School's okay, but I'm tired a lot.
Are you getting sleep at night?
I was. Probably not now.
Why not?
'Cause I'll be thinking about my mom.
How long has she been gone?
Three days, this time.
Have you spoken to her?
When she got to her, uh, new house, she called.
And since then.
Nope.
Maybe you should call or text her.
Yeah!
It's hard for her, and for you. And as hard as it is, regular communication is what gets things back to normal.
Normal? Yeah, right.
Change is hard, Nicholas, for all of us. We figure out how to cope, how to adapt, and eventually things do get back to normal.
Yeah!
. . .
. . .
Talking about things is good. It can help you stay above water.
Oh, really?
Yes.
. . .
So, I'll see you next week?
Tupac.
I'm sorry?
You asked who my favorite rapper was. It's Tupac.
Keep your head up, Nicholas.
Yeah.
Hey, Mom, I'm good, though my toe
nails have grown so long that my
hooves hurt bad. April says hi.
The girls line up
ear to ear
so you and the other boys
can greet them
with a proper hand kiss.
Gentlemen, backs are straight and stiff,
Miss Fruit Tree says.