Blinding Trust (22 page)

Except, nothing mattered to us.

We were so caught up in what we’d just experienced that neither of us moved. He held me tight, kissing me frequently.

When the storm finally passed and the night sky cleared, Colt stood up, pulling me with him. He laughed, noticing just how filthy we both were. “What the hell just happened? I mean, did we really just fuck in a damn cornfield, for the second time?”

I laughed with him. “Yeah, we did. Maybe it’s our thing.”

He grabbed my clothes off the ground. They were too disgusting to put back
on, but I at least needed a bra and panties. Colt helped me get them on. “I like it when you get like this.”

“Crazy?”

He shook his head. “No! Carefree. I love it when you let go, Savanna. It drives me wild.”

We started walking back hand in hand. “You know what I want?”

“Ice cream?”

I shook my head and stood in front of him. “No. I w
ant to make love to you every time it rains.”

“I got news for you darlin’. That there had nothin’ to do with love and you know it.”

I backed away from him and giggled. “Fine. If you want to get all technical on me. I want you to fuck me every time it rains, Colt Mitchell.”

His eyes got huge and a wicked smile formed in the corner of his mouth. “I think we can work somethin’ out.”

Chapter 30

Colt

I think my hands were still shaking when we got back to Ty’s house. We were covered from head to toe in mud an
d had no explanation for our actions.

I had just opened the door, when Miranda and Ty stood in the kitchen with their mouths dropped.
“You two should be ashamed of yourselves!” Ty scorned like he was a parent. He held up a finger and ran toward the back of the house. He came back with two towels and a bar of soap. “The pigs bathe out back at the hose!”

He shut the door right in my face.

Savanna started to giggle. “It’s better than his official walk of shame.”

“Yes, it is.”

The hose water came from a well, which meant it was colder than a hairless cat in the snow. Savanna screamed when I squirted her for the first time. After what we’d just done in the field, it sure was a buzz kill. We rinsed off enough mud to be able to walk into the warm house and not track any in. Our first step was to get a real shower. I had dirt in crevices of my body that even I couldn’t see.

Ty and Miranda were still in the kitchen when we came back in. He had her pinned against the counter and they were talking quietly amongst themselves. They turned to see us walking in. “We made up the guest room, but if you’d rather sleep out in the barn, that can be arranged.”

I flipped him the middle finger and walked right through the living room, with my wife in tow.

The warm shower was nice, and it was even nicer because I wasn’t in it alone. Savanna wrapped her arms around me as I washed her hair and placed kisses on her forehead. We’d just done something so out of our norm, but for some reason, it made me feel closer to her.

We stayed in the shower until the hot water started fading. The best part about that was knowing Ty still had to get a shower and it would be a cold one. After drying us both off, we went into the guest room and put on our pajamas. I had to admit, it was nice of Ty to bring our bags to his house, otherwise, we’d be wearing some crazy ass shit of his. The last time I’d borrowed something, he’d purposely given me all NCU printed clothing to be a prick. For Christmas, Savanna and I had bought him a Kentucky State hoodie. During one of their visits, he conveniently left it at our
house.

Ty and Miranda were in the living room when we finally came out. They were staring at the television watching a murder mystery. When the music got intense, he jumped up and shook her, causing her to scream out loud. She smacked him. “Stop it! I hate that!”

Savanna sat down next to Ty and he scooted away from her. “I can still smell the sex on you two.”

She patted him on the leg as I sat down beside her. “Are you jealous?”

“Maybe.”

Miranda giggled.

“So, how about we talk about somethin’ else,” I suggested.

“Dude, what else is there to talk about? Our kids aren’t bothering us and I can’t wait to crawl into bed with her fine ass.” He grabbed Miranda’s thigh and squeezed it.

“I want to hear about Van’s surgery.” Miranda turned her attention to my wife. She sat
Indian style and leaned back against her annoying husband.

“Well, it isn’t happening until after the round of radiation is complete. We wanted to make sure I was perfectly healthy before I underwent another surgical procedure. The doctor is going to remove both breasts and then reconstruct new ones to take their place.”

“That’s where the tattoos come in, babe.” Ty added.

Savanna laughed. “Yeah, my nipples will be removed and so they tattoo new ones on to look like normal ones. Of course they don’t have a point to them, but they look real enough. Besides,
nobody sees them except Colt.”

Ty started waving his hands around. “Hold on, now! I think that I should be allow
ed a thirty second peek at what the new nipples look like, just because I think they are fucking cool as shit.”

I cleared my throat. He was going to shit himself when he heard this. “If Savanna wants to show you, I will allow thirty seconds, from a distance of course.”

He got a sad face. “How will I see the detail if I have to be far away?”

Miranda
smacked him. “Shut up! This is serious.”

“I know. I’m being very serious. It’s my life’s mission to see Van’s new tits. It’s only fair since I’ve seen her current ones.”

I cocked an eyebrow. “You know that line that you’re always crossin’?”

He chuckled. “Yeah, yeah. I’ll shut up.”

We started watching the movie and the room got quiet, but every so often Ty would ask some bazaar question.

“Are you going to go bigger? If I had a penis replacement, I’d go huge.”

Savanna burst into laughter. “You need to!”

“Hey now! Leave my little pecker out of this! Not everyone was born with a trunk like he was.” He pointed at me.

“It’s not little. It’s perfect if you ask me.” Miranda was trying to make him feel better.

Ty pretended to cry. “I’ll have you know that the average penis is five inches. I have at least two and a half inches on that. We can’t all be born with a horse cock.”

“My brother has a horse cock, too. Well, that’s what Amy says. It must be from the mother’s side of the family.” Miranda informed us.

Ty stood up and put his hands on his hips. “That’s it! Me and my above average penis are going to bed!”

We all waved as he pouted his way out of the room.

The next morning, we woke up to the smell of breakfast cooking. Noah and Bella were sitting at the kitchen table across from Jake and Jax eating pancakes and bacon. Ty saw me walking in and handed me a plate of food. I looked down at my plate and then back up to Ty, who was all smiles. “Is there a reason all my pancakes look like a penis?”

Ty held up Miranda’s plate. She had the same thing. “They’re penis cakes, dude. If you don’t want them, then I’ll feed them to the dog. I worked extra hard on them, you know.”

I rolled one up with some butter and shoved it in my mouth. He watched me chew it up and swallow. “As much as I hate sayin’ this, I appreciate you takin’ care of my wife when I wasn’t there.”

“So, let me get this straight. You finally realized that I wasn’t trying to sleep with her?”

I looked at Miranda, who had her hands on her hips, waiting for an explanation. “Well?”

“I was wrong, alright. You need to put yourself in my shoes. It looked bad and you know it.” I heard the door shut and noticed the kids were gone. “Listen, I may have overreacted, but I had every right to suspect somethin’ was goin’ on. She was keepin’ things from me and ya’ll were actin’ weird.”

Savanna came into the room. “Enough, you two. I haven’t had my coffee and we are past this discussion. Let it go.”

We both turned and started eating our food.

My wife sat down with Miranda and they planned out the rest of our visit. She had been so excited about coming that she didn’t care if we all just sat around and did nothing the whole weekend.

We ended up setting up tents in Conner’s yard and letting the kids camp. Of course, us guys were chosen to sleep in the tents with the kids. We had three tents. One for the girls and one for the boys and one for us adults. That lasted a good ten minutes. The girls started crying and the boys started fighting. We ended up taking our own kids in a tent and sleeping that way.

While we babysat, the girls got to stay in the cool house and relax. I would have complained more, but Savanna deserved it.

By the time Sunday night came around, and we’d had another family meal, we hit the road for our long drive home. Savanna finally seemed relaxed. She played with my hand while I drove and gave me looks like she was content with the world. It made me happy to see her so calm.

We still had more ahead of us, but were hopeful that everything was really going to be okay.

The kids were so tired from playing, that they all fell asleep on the way home. Even Noah only lasted the first hour. He was soon asleep with
ear buds stuck in his ears.

We didn’t get home until midnight that night. Savanna was tired and I was exhausted from driving. I couldn’t wait to climb into our soft bed and cuddle up next to her. She knew what my motives were. We helped all three children up to their rooms and got them tucked in before meeting in our room.

Savanna wrapped her arms around me. “Thanks for this weekend.”

I kissed her nose. “The trip, or what we did in the field?”

She giggled. “Both.”

I wiped her hair away from her face and tucked it behind her ears. “Are you tired?”

She shrugged. “A little.”

I tugged at her shirt and lifted it over her head. She stood there in her bra, looking up at me. I reached down and tugged on her pants, pulling them and her underwear down at the same time. I leaned in and kissed the base of her pussy, while looking up at her watching me. I could tell she was more tired than she was admitting to, so I stood up and removed her bra and then pulled her nightgown over her head.

Savanna looked at me like she was confused.

“Darlin’, I just want to hold you in my arms and go to sleep. If that’s alright with you, of course. I mean, if you want me to kiss it again, I won’t complain.”

She placed her hands on my chest and moved them up and down. “I love you.”

“And I love you.”

Savanna walked toward the bed, leading me by the hand. When we got to her side, she wrapped her arms around me and held me there. “Colt, I’m scared. I don’t want to get sick. It’s going to scare Noah and the girls and I can’t have them fearing me. I don’t want them seeing me weak.”

“You’re goin’ to be fine. You heard the doctor. He said that the radiation is going to be mild. You probably won’t get sick at all. Darlin’ I get that you’re worried, but the kids are goin’ to want their mother around. They ain’t goin’ to care if you got sick a couple of days to do it.”

She nodded and looked up at me with tears in her eyes. “We’re halfway there, ya know.”

“We can get through the rest. If I have to, I’ll have my mom take the kids to Disney again. By the time they get back, you’ll be feelin’ better. They’ll never know.”

“What if something bad happens?”

I got that she was afraid, but she was worrying about things that were set in place to make sure the cancer was gone. It was more important than anything, considering it was life and death. As upset as she was, there was not going to be any backing out. If I had to fight her, I would.

I grabbed her hands and kneeled down in front of her. “Listen to me and hear me good. You are going to get through this.”

She nodded. I leaned over and kissed her on the lips. She climbed under the covers and I climbed in behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist. “What would I do without you?”

“You never have to find out, because I ain’t goin’ anywhere and neither are you.”

Chapter 31

Savanna

The next couple of weeks went by too quick, probably because I didn’t want to do the radiation treatment. Colt was getting used to taking care of the kids and helping out. I felt fine, but he insisted on keeping with his program until everything was over with. It was summer, so the kids had plenty of time to help him out.

For the most part, they did okay. I found myself sneaking behind them and picking up, or going into the laundry room and switching things over. I think I was so bored that I wanted things to do.

I’d never read so much or watched television, until it was all I had to do. I wasn’t surprised when Zeke and Piper were plastered all over the news. When he found out about her being pregnant by another man, he started going crazy. One day while she wasn’t at home, the news reported that he had her swimming pool filled with trash. They said he paid someone to drain it and dumb tons of trash in it, including some of her favorite belongings. They talked about how the divorce was going to get ugly. As sad as it was for a marriage to end, I couldn’t feel bad for them. He’d tried to drag my son into a publicity scam and left him scarred. If we never saw Zeke again, it would be too soon.

On the day of my first radiation treatment, I was petrified. I thought it was going
to make me deathly ill and I’d have to be carried out of the place. It turned out, it was nothing like that at all. My oncologist had to do a couple extra things being that it was my first treatment. They gave me these tiny tattoos that were barely noticeable and went through all of the instructions with me in detail. I had to remain perfectly still and move only when the nurses told me to. The procedure itself only lasted about twenty minutes. The nurses called it baking time. Within an hour of arriving at the place, we were leaving, walking out of there like nothing had happened.

Colt reached over and grabbed my hand while he drove. “What was it like?”

“Actually, it was pretty simple. They said I might get tired, but that’s about it. I heard another woman mentioning that she’d done chemo and the radiation was much easier. She said she’s never been sick one time from it and this was her thirtieth session.”

“Damn, she must have it bad. It’s a damn shame they don’t have a better cure. You’d think after all these years they’d have found one by now.”

It was a shame. So many lives were lost every day to some form of cancer. I had to be glad that mine was detected so early. It had been removed and we were taking all of the precautions to make sure it didn’t show it’s ugly face ever again.

It took another month after my radiation was over before my doctor would agree to do the mastectomy and reconstruction. They were very kind about the whole process. After measuring the cup size of my real breasts, the doctor told me he would do his best to make my new ones look as natural as possible. For some reason, by the time I got to this step in the process, I was more optimistic, instead of afraid. Sure, there was always going to be a chance that I developed some form of cancer again, but with routines checks and a healthy diet, it was possible to beat the odds.

I had so much to be thankful for in my life and I’d learned to appreciate the little things, because sometimes, they are what matter the most.

I’ll never forget the day of my surgery. After the family was sure I was cancer free, Ty had a field day with me getting implants. Even Colt started to joke about it.

They called me Sagfree, whenever they were together. As much as I loved that they were getting along, I didn’t appreciate Colt getting on the Ty bandwagon.

Colt drove me to the hospital with a smile on his face. I remember turning and giving him a dirty look. “What are you so happy about?”

He grabbed my hand and kissed it, like he always did. “Well, my wife doesn’t have cancer. My kids are healthy and my business is growin’. I’d say that’s enough to smile about.”

“Colt we’re driving to have my breasts removed. I hardly think it’s a smile kind of day.”

“You do realize that your breasts are going to look like they did when we first got together. Forgive me for bein’ an ass, but I’m a little excited about that. I can still picture seeing you naked for the first time. It gets me all kind of crazy.”

I could feel myself blushing. “I love how you can be so serious and mature one second and then a normal thinking guy the next.”

“What can I say, I’m pretty darn irresistible.”

I laughed and nudged his side. “You’re lucky you’re so damn sexy and you’ve given me three beautiful children that look just like you. Otherwise, I may have had to slap you around from time to time.”

He put his arm around me. “Darlin’ you can slap me around whenever you want. I know you like it rough.”

“That’s our secret!”

“Fine by me.”

Since the procedure was more extensive, I had to wait in the pre-surgical unit longer than the last time. Colt stood beside my bed the whole time. He played with my hands or leaned over to kiss me a bunch of times.

I wouldn’t say that this all changed him, but it did make him more
in tune with us. Instead of focusing on the ranch and coming home all tired, he spent more time at home. The kids loved him being around and they understood that their dad had obligations. If something happened where he needed to run out, we could always count on him getting back as quickly as possible.

I wasn’t nervous until the doctor came in and said they were ready. I st
arted crying for some reason, while Colt held my hand.

The doctor patted me on the arm. “Savanna, this is the easy part.”

“It’s going to hurt.” I’d had enough people tell me that after an implant it was excruciating.

“I will give you something to manage the pain and after a couple weeks you’ll be back to your normal self. The good part is that you’re not going to be sick. The worst is over.” He was reassuring, even if I was being skeptical.

“Darlin’, I’ll be right here when you get done.”

Unlike the last time, when I was put under, during my surgery, I had the most vivid dream. I dreamed that Christian was getting married. She was so grown up and beautiful. Addy was in college. She wanted to be a vet. Noah, who looked identical to his father, worked along side him running the ranch. The wedding was taking place at the barn where
her father and I had married. She’d decorated it the same way and even rode in on a horse. It was breathtaking.

Our family had grown, and everyone was older, but yet they were all still around.

When I woke up, I almost wanted to ask to go back to sleep. I wanted to see my babies all grown up again.

Colt was sitting in chair, playing on his phone.

“Hey, you.”

He got up and came over to the bed. “Hey. How are you feelin’?”

“I’m not in any pain.” He kissed me softly on the head. “I had the best dream. The kids were older. Christian was getting married.”

“Who was she marryin’?” Colt cocked his eyebrow and I could tell he was offended.

“Wow, are you going to be one of those dads that doesn’t let their daughters out of their sight?” It hurt to laugh at him, but I couldn’t help it.

“Let’s just say that when the times comes for that, me and Noah will be outside, cleaning our guns as they arrive.”

“Our poor girls!”

He chuckled. “I was a young man once. I know how they think.”

I just shook my head. It was good thing that I was going to be around for all of this, because those girls were going to need me with a father like Colt. If he had it his way, they’d be wearing purity rings until they were thirty.

Due to the extent of my surgery, I had to stay in the hospital overnight. This time, the kids were all allowed to come visit. By dinner time, my room was filled with flowers and little visitors.

It was the first time that the girls had really been in a hospital, so they were very curious about what machine did what. After sharing my pudding and my bed, I had to hug them
goodbye when visiting hours ended.

This time, Colt didn’t spend the night. I was fine being alone for one night, while he was home with the kids. Noah offered to stay with me. If he would have been allowed, I probably would have let him. I never should have doubted his devotion to me. His love radiated off of him
and we’d never been closer. I could sense that he still felt bad about what happened between us. It seemed like so long ago and we’d all decided to leave the past in the past.

When they got home they all called to say goodnight. Colt wouldn’t get much sleep with two kicking girls in bed with him. He said the last time, he woke up and had a foot in his mouth and a knee in his nuts. While I laughed, I think he felt the pain as he talked about it.

Between being uncomfortable and the nurses coming in to check out my drains, I didn’t get much sleep either. When morning came and Colt arrived, I was ready to roll out of there. Unfortunately, I didn’t get my release papers until later that afternoon.

The kids made signs and the house was
sparkling clean when we got home. Colt’s mother had made her famous fried chicken. I could smell it as soon as we got out of the truck.

After dinner, the family headed out, leaving us with three wound up kids and a lot of leftovers. Colt and the kids formed an assembly line in the kitchen. One person washed, one dried and the other two put the dishes away.
It was actually cute to watch them working together.

I wasn’t exactly sore. It was more like I felt tight. My chest was wrapped up and it had to stay that way for a couple of days. I’d never cared much
about my breasts until I had the new ones to look at. I didn’t know that they swelled up double in size.

Colt
and I got the biggest surprise when he unwrapped me to check on my drains. I was huge. His eyes were fixed on them, like he’d never seen boobs before. I actually had to wave my hand in front of him to get his attention. “Hello?”

He grabbed my arms. “You know that I would never ask somethin’ like this if it wasn’t necessary.”

I knew what he wanted and for some reason, I didn’t even get offended. “Go get your phone and take the picture.” I shook my head and rolled my eyes.

Colt smiled the whole time he was sending Ty the picture. “I told him you went up a couple sizes. He won’t know they’re just swollen.”

“They’re more than swollen. I look like I have cantaloupe breasts and they feel like them too.” They were hard and tender. “We better get them wrapped back up. I don’t want them pointing in opposite directions.”

We laughed as Colt put the bandages back on. We’d no sooner finished when his phone started ringing. Colt answer
ed and put it on speaker.

Why didn’t you tell me you were going so big? Holy shit you’re huge!

I hope you enjoy the picture. This counts as your thirty second show, cuz.

Colt ended the call and ignored it when it rang again. He turned it on vibrate and walked me over to our bed. “He won’t stop calling, you know.”

“I don’t give a shit. I ain’t answerin’ him. There’s more important things to do.” He covered me up and kissed me slowly on the lips. “If you weren’t so sore, I’d be all over those new titties.”

I was a little weirded out by the tattooed nipples. From afar they looked so real, even three dimensional. To feel them was different. They were flat and it was just going to be something to get used to. It was a good thing that my breast feeding days were over.

“Trust me, as soon as I feel up to it, I’ll let you do whatever you want with these new titties.” I laughed at myself for using the same word he had used.

He reached his hand between my legs and started rubbing me. “I’m so turned on right now, we may need to think of other ways to solve this problem.”

I reached over and stuck my hand down his boxers. “I think I have some ideas.”