Best Gay Romance 2013 (20 page)

“I hope you don't think I've gone overboard,” Vince said, “but you're the first guest I've had since moving in.”

He had gone overboard. In the center of the patio sat a glass-topped, wrought iron patio table that had been set for two, with expensive china and real silver. I said, “Maybe a little.”

Vince opened a bottle of red wine and poured a glass for each of us. Then he slapped a pair of T-bones and four ears of corn still in their husks on the propane grill and closed the lid. I sipped the wine politely, adjusting my beer-trained palate to the unfamiliar taste.

We made small talk while the steaks cooked, discussing the weather more than anything else, and before I realized how much time had passed, Vince was pulling the steaks and the corn off the grill and preparing our plates.

I sat, he sat, and then we stared at each other.

After a moment of awkward silence, I blurted, “I don't know what to do. I've never done this before.”

Vince's eyes widened in surprise. “Never?”

I realized he had misunderstood me so I quickly explained. “I'm not a virgin,” I said. “That's not what I meant. I meant I've never done this.” I indicated the dinner table with a sweep of one hand. “I've never had a date.”

He smiled. “All we have to do is eat.”

“I can do that,” I said with a smile. “I've been doing that my entire life.” Then, between bites, I told him about my trips to Dallas and Austin without providing intimate details.

“And why did you find those trips so unfulfilling?”

I explained about my parents and how I'd always wanted the kind of relationship they had and how I despaired of ever finding it in rural Texas.

“You can search the world over and not find your soul mate,” Vince said, “or you can step out your front door and stumble over him.”

Is that what had happened?

“What about you?” I asked. “Have you ever—?”

“I was in a relationship for about a year,” Vince explained. “I thought he was the one, but I was wrong. Horribly wrong. I had to get as far away from him as I could without changing jobs, and that's why I moved here.”

“Is he still in Waco?”

“As far as I know, but there's little chance our paths will cross.”

Vince grilled bananas in their skins for dessert, halving them lengthwise and covering the warm fruit with brown sugar and cinnamon after removing them from the grill. We used spoons to scoop the bananas from the skins and before long we were laughing and feeding each other.

After we finished dessert, Vince tossed one of the steak bones to Elroy and then I helped him clear the table and carry the dishes into the kitchen.

I don't know how to explain it—maybe it was the wine, maybe it was the full belly—but I felt comfortable with Vince, so comfortable that we spent the better part of the evening draining a second bottle of wine and telling each other our life stories. He had been out of the closet since his sophomore year of college and I had yet to tell any of my family or friends about my secret life.

“Someday you will,” Vince said, “and when you do, no matter what their reaction, it will lift a huge burden from you.”

A few minutes before midnight, the second bottle of wine long emptied and the buzz mostly worn off, I excused myself, telling my host that I had church in the morning.

Vince walked me to the front door and opened it. As I hesitated in the open doorway, he told me how much he had enjoyed our evening together. Then he took my face between his hands and covered my lips with his. Surprised but not a bit hesitant, I
returned his kiss with equal fervor. As we kissed, my body quivered with desire.

When the kiss ended, Vince stepped back and said, “You'd best leave now before we do something we might regret later.”

As I drove away, my jeans so tight at my crotch that I thought the zipper might burst from the pressure, I realized Vince and I had not used the Jacuzzi or his towel big enough for two.

That's how our relationship began, and we spent our next several dates revealing our souls and not our scrotums. In fact, I didn't see Vince naked again until our fifth date, when we ended the evening asleep in each other's arms. By then I knew I had found someone special.

I had found my total package.

Kal Cobalt

 

 

 

 

 

 

The suite door snicks shut behind Tobin. David sits in the chair. Tobin starts to sweat.

“How many times?” David's words are quiet, controlled. He's fully dressed.

Tobin's gaze drops to David's waist. Shit. The leather one. David owns a woven belt, something casual and textured that reminds Tobin of tennis players and doesn't hurt much. This is the serious belt. Its buckle gleams, the same silver as David's hair. It's an extension of David's body, of his aesthetic.

This is my flesh hitting you
, David had said the first time, while Tobin sniveled on his knees, uncomprehending.
This is my tongue tasting you. This is my hand caressing you. This is my cock fucking you.
A new perspective for every sharp crack of the belt. David hadn't spoken about it after that first time. He hadn't had to.

“Tobin. How many times?”

Tobin drops to his knees just inside the doorway. How many
times today? He's always aware, at the time, that he's doing it, but somehow he forgets to count. “Fourteen?”

“No. Come here.”

Tobin crawls. As he nears David's feet he lowers himself further, moving forward on forearms and knees till David's scuffed black shoes are directly beneath his chin. This close, he can feel David's heat, a strange, penetrating warmth like that of a few stiff drinks. David hasn't showered yet; he's stopped smelling like cologne and started smelling like a man.

“How many times?”

“Seventeen?”

“No.” Beneath Tobin's gaze, David's feet move apart. “Take it off me.”

Tobin shifts up enough to unfasten David's belt buckle, keeping his eyes lowered. The leather is warm from David's body, firm but supple, reminiscent of the animal it once was. Tobin had mentioned that once, carefully
. I merged with the animal
, David had said.
I took its skin for my own and impregnated it with metal, and now it is me. It's all very primal, Tobin. It's all very evolutionary
.

“How many times?”

“Twenty-one.”

“No. Give it to me.”

Tobin folds the belt in half and offers it up, his head down, as if presenting a sword to a king. His king. David accepts the belt slowly, then holds it in one hand so he can stroke Tobin's cheek with the other. Tobin keeps his eyes down, hot at David's touch.

“How many, Tobin?” David's voice is soft, to match the caress.

“Twenty-five,” Tobin whispers, his throat thick with shame.

“No. Hold out your hands.”

Keeping his head down, Tobin holds both hands out, palms up, and waits.

Waits.

Waits.

The first strike is against Tobin's left palm; he hears it more than he feels it until the sting settles in, deep and intense. “One, Master,” he gasps, straightening his posture, holding his hands out flat once more. The second slap, Tobin thinks, is harder; it always feels like David strikes his dominant hand more sharply. “Two, Master,” Tobin hitches out, resisting the urge to close his hands for even a moment.

“Breathe.”

Respite. Tobin lets his hands drop slightly, careful to keep them open, and takes the opportunity to pull in a full breath and moisten his lips. He can feel David's impatience as they reach the end of the breathing time—its duration has never been spelled out, but Tobin feels it all the same—and he holds his hands up again.

It could be a stronger blow, or just the illusion of it after the break; either way, Tobin holds in a cry, waiting for the sharpest of the pain to dissipate before he trusts his voice. “Three, Master.” How many times? How bad has he been? The guilt hurts almost as much as the next slap of the belt. He was very bad, very disrespectful, god knows how many infractions. “Four, Master.” How he could do this, to his master, day after day, how he could forget the lessons his master crafts for him, so cruel and so clear…? “Five, Master.” How many times? Tobin's palms ache, burn with his shame. How many more infractions? A dozen more? Two dozen more?

The leather strikes hard, cracking sharply against Tobin's skin. He hitches in breath to count off and can't find enough air to do it. Dimly, he realizes he's crying. It doesn't matter. He has to find the breath to speak, to answer and appreciate his master's punishment. He holds his hands up higher, a silent
supplication for patience, and then breath comes back to him in a single shuddering gust. “Six,” he sobs out softly, “Master.” He wipes his nose on the shoulder of his shirt and holds position, waiting for the next slap.

“That's all.”

David's voice is calm, velvet stretched over steel. Tobin blinks away tears, raising his head, looking up past the erection tenting David's unbelted pants and into his master's eyes.

“Only six,” David murmurs. His expression warms a little, crow's feet deepening as affection reaches his eyes. “You're improving. I'm pleased.”

“Thank you, Master.” Tobin's voice is thick through his tears. He keeps his hands out, red, swollen; his master hasn't ordered anything different.

“Are you hard?” David nudges his foot between Tobin's thighs to find out for himself.

“Yes, Master.”

“Undress.”

Tobin gets to his feet just long enough to divest himself of everything but his shirt. That he can remove on his knees, and once it's off, he holds out his hands.

David passes his fingertips across Tobin's right palm, then his left. “Good boy. Now suck me.”

Opening his master's fly is not an easy task; Tobin's hands are swollen and burning as he forces his fingers to work the button and zipper. David's erection is wide, pale, thickly veined, and Tobin wraps one hot hand around the shaft, squeezing though the motion drives sharp pins of pain along the lines where David's belt fell. Tobin licks his lips and takes the head of David's cock into his mouth, sucking gently, nursing at the very tip till David gives that first telltale moan of approval.

Tobin closes his eyes, heated through by the sound. It's here,
when that sound of satisfaction rumbles free from David's throat like the purr of a contented lion, that David transforms from his master to his lover. David's hand comes up to caress the side of Tobin's face, fingertips tracing the contours of Tobin's cheekbone as if it were some rare and delicate artifact, and Tobin opens wider, relaxing his throat, taking David in to the root.

“Enough,” David breathes. “Bed.”

Tobin favors David's cock with one last sucking stroke, smiling lightly as he gets to his feet. David skins off everything but his T-shirt, leaving black garments of various fabrics draped over assorted furniture as he heads to the bedroom. It's a weakness, that T-shirt. Tobin knows it, but only because David told him, and as such it's a secret, a sacred and intimate thing Tobin would never question. It's more me than I am, David had said. I am alienated from my chest.

Tobin pulls back the covers, finds the faint stain from last night's sex still present on the sand-colored sheets. It's a waste, David says, to have the bedding washed nightly, and there is a comfort to sleeping in one's own smell. That, too, Tobin has accepted without question, as he has accepted the knowledge that stretching out under the covers, on his back, legs spread, is the way David wants him every night.

There is no speaking, and after David climbs into bed and rolls on top, there is no light. David's breath is warm and affectionate at Tobin's cheek, pausing momentarily for kisses along that same cheekbone; David's scent is dark and mammalian, trapped by the sheets, as his thighs nudge Tobin's further apart. Tobin reaches, blindly, and rests a hand on David's arm, half over skin and half over T-shirt sleeve. When the lights are on, David is always directing. In the dark, David trusts Tobin enough to be himself.

A soft snap of plastic, a faintly moist, organic sound, and
David's hand is between Tobin's legs, spreading thick, viscous lube.
To ease the friction,
David had said once, on a postcoital float between drags off the joint.
Like a well-functioning piston. Like oil in a car.

David's fingers, then, well practiced in what Tobin can take. Tobin finds David's shoulder, clings to it, squeezes hard as David presses two fingers in, scissoring mercilessly. There are times when the foreplay is lengthy, times when David starts touching Tobin just after dinner and doesn't stop till they've passed out on the bed four hours later. Not tonight. Not on a correction night. Two fingers, scissored hard, and that's all; then David's shifting up to grab the pillow, and Tobin wets his lips, releasing a breath.

Tobin knows David's cockhead as intimately as he knows the pale crescent beneath David's right thumbnail, the slightly phlegmy stuttering throat-clearing David inevitably makes in his sleep forty-five minutes after he nods off, the way David needs his toiletries arranged just so on the bathroom counter. The tip of his cock is almost flat, and Tobin breathes out again, opening up to that familiar bluntness till he feels the flare at the base of the head slide into him. He knows the way the vein that runs across the top of David's cock is bulging right now; as David resists the primal urge to drive into Tobin to the root, Tobin knows the way David's buttocks tense, knows from the glimpse he had in a suite with a mirror once. The image comes back to him brightly in the dark, David's pale ass flexing, bracketed by Tobin's tanned shins.