Always You (14 page)

"This might take a while, but I want to kiss every square inch of your body" he murmured trailing little kissed across my forehead, over my eyelids, nose, cheeks, I giggled as he gently nibbled my earlobe. His hand had made its way back down between my legs and he was rubbing me gently making me moan as he was still planting little kisses round my neck and shoulders. My body was throbbing with pleasure I was moaning and panting.

By the time he'd kissed his way down to my breasts I climaxed crying out his name, he quickly kissed me swallowing my cries as if he wanted to keep them all to himself.

He smiled down at me, "Thanks" I breathed running my hands through his hair.

"Riley I'm nowhere near done" he told me and went back to his little kissing task. I must admit he was quite methodical I don't think he missed an inch. After he was done kissing down my body I had my turn, finally getting the chance to do what I was thinking about earlier and ran my tongue over every part of his chest while my hands explored his perfect body.

When we were both panting and sweating I slumped back down next to him, he pulled me into his arms. I giggled at his face, he was looking at me like I was some kind of Goddess or something. "That was freaking incredible Riley, I'm not kidding, I mean holy shit, are you sure you've never done any of this before?" he asked breathing hard.

"Hmm well there was that one time when....." I trailed off teasingly and he narrowed his eyes at me tickling me making me giggle and squirm.

"Quick, lets get some sleep before I make you do that to me again, you're gonna need your sleep anyway, because tomorrow I need to do your back" he said giving me a wicked grin.

I smiled, does that mean I get more that one night? I didn't want to get my hopes up, but I had already had two perfect nights with him I wasn't going to be greedy. "I'm gonna get the light" he said climbing out of the bed, I moved and climbed under the covers and then I felt him climb in next to me. I kissed him once more and rolled onto my side again, he wrapped his arms around me and pulled my back hard against his chest. I sighed in contentment, I could die right now and I would be the happiest girl in the world.

I woke in the morning and immediately remembered last night, I smiled and giggled quietly. My body was aching a little but it actually felt nice, like a little reminder of him. I rolled over to see that his side of the bed was empty again, my heart stopped until I noticed on his pillow there was a folded piece of paper and a yellow tulip. I sat up and smiled running my finger over the waxy petals, yellow tulips were my favourite flowers, his Mom grew them in their back garden. My heart skipped a beat when I thought of him going over to his garden to pick me the flower then sneaking back into my house, God he is such a sweet boy! I picked up the note

Riley,

I've gone to help Matt clean up after the party, his house was a bit of a mess apparently. Give me a call when you wake up, we need to talk about us being friends and what happened last night.

Clay

My heart stopped again, we need to talk about last night and us being friends, what the hell? Oh God he was regretting it! I knew what he was going to say, it shouldn't have happened, he didn't like me in that way, he didn't want a girlfriend, it shouldn't happen again. I couldn't breathe, I knew this was coming so why did it hurt so much? I shook my head trying to clear it, it's ok Riley everything will work out fine and you can still walk away with your best friend but this needs to stop, it can't happen again or the friendship wont be able to get over it.

I climbed out of the bed stretching my body like a cat, my leg and hip muscles were tight but not painful. I walked into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. My hair was sticking up in all directions and had a big knot in the back from our exerts last night, and my lips were slightly puffy from all the kissing and I had a huge love bite on my neck. I switched on the shower and stood under it for a long time trying desperately not to get upset. Last night was incredible and I wouldn't have changed it for the world at least I get to keep that forever and still have my best friend.

Once my muscles were relaxed enough I got out and went back to my bedroom. I decide to call Clay, as I picked up my phone I saw I had three new texts, all from Blake.

11:03 pm - I'm really sorry Jailbait, I really like you and want to try, I promise I wont say anything about Clay, please call me when you get this your phone is turned off. x x

1:12am - Please Riley, can you at least talk to me? I'm going crazy! Your phone is still off or maybe your avoiding me? Please call me

10:12am - Riley, I'm really sorry, please call me I can get over it I promise, I really think this could work between us x

I frowned, wow he is really into me, I know I like him but not in the way that I like Clay, but I can't keep thinking about Clay, damn it! I need to move on so that things don't get awkward and maybe Blake can help me with that. I sighed and pulled on some clothes and sat back on the bed staring at my phone with Clay's number on the screen, I need to call him and get this sorted quickly.

I took a deep breath and pressed call, "Hey Riley bear" he chirped when he answered, he sounded happy and my heart squeezed at the sound. How did this happen? How the hell did I fall in love with my best friend?

"Hey Clay, how's the cleaning going?" I asked cautiously not knowing how to start the awkward and painful conversation.

"Yeah good we're nearly done, good job too his Mom's due back in an hour" he said with a chuckle, I smiled.

Ok lets get this done quickly like pulling off a band aid. "Clay about last night" I said trying to sound confident.

"Yeah" he said huskily making my body go crazy again, I pushed the feelings away.

"It can't happen again Clay" I said a tear falling down my cheek, he didn't say anything so I pushed on with my prepared speech. "It's gonna ruin our friendship and I wont allow that, I need you in my life and if this keeps happening it's gonna be too hard for us to stay friends" I said wiping the tears off of my face. The pain was unbearable I clenched my fist as tight as I could trying to think of something else other than the pain that was threatening to crush me. "Clay promise me this won't happen again I couldn't stand to lose you, I just couldn't" I said quietly closing my eyes, he was still silent I heard him draw a shaky breath.

"Riley, ok I promise, I won't do that again it was my fault, I shouldn't have" he said, I could hear the pain in his voice, he was really regretting it.

"It's not anyone's fault Clay but you're my best friend in the world and I want it to stay that way ok?" I said smiling now. I could do this, I could get past this and we would be fine.

"Ok, listen Riley I gotta go" he said quietly.

"Ok bye" I said smiling. That's done, we can still be friends, I don't care how hard this is I need to have him with me I'll do anything it takes, even if it rips out my heart.

I hung up and laid back on my bed looking at my ceiling, my phone rang and I answered it without looking at the caller id expecting it to be Rachel, she usually rang the morning after a party to tell me all about any hook ups from the night before. "Hey Rach" I said with a small smile, maybe some gossiping would bring me out of the depression I could feel myself slipping into.

"Err no Jailbait its me" Blake said uncomfortably, I sat up quickly, shit what the hell am I gonna say? After what happened last night with Clay I gasped and squirmed uncomfortably.

"Oh hi Blake" I said with wide eyes.

"Did you get my messages?" he asked quietly.

"Err yeah I just got them a couple of minutes ago" I said nervously.

"Ok well do you think I could come over and we could talk?" he asked a little hopefully. I looked at the clock it was just after 12.

"Um sure ok, my Mom and stepdad are leaving at two why don't you come over after that?" I said biting my lip hoping he would say no. I just didn't want this, I wanted Clay.

My Mom and Brian were driving to a friends wedding this afternoon and were making a weekend of it staying in a hotel until Monday so I had all weekend on my own. My parents had asked Clay to come and stay with me so I wasn't in the house on my own which was going to be awkward as hell tonight, I sighed at the thought. "Yeah ok, I'll come over about half two then" he said excited, "See ya Jailbait" he said.

"Mmm bye" I said closing my eyes again. I pushed myself up off of the bed and went downstairs to spend some time with my parents before they left and tried my best to forget everything that happened last night.

At exactly two thirty the doorbell rang, I answered it to see Blake standing there with a big grin and a bunch of flowers, I smiled, he's so sweet. "Hey jailbait" he said walking in a little awkwardly handing me the flowers, "Hey, thanks you shouldn't have" I said smelling them and heading to the kitchen to put them in a vase.

"I wanted to, I needed to apologise for being an ass" he said rubbing his hand on the small of my back gently.

"Well your forgiven" I said with a smile, he stepped forward then and kissed me hard. I didn't kiss him back at first I was too shocked, Clays face flashed in my mind but I pushed it away and kissed him back.

The kiss felt nice but wrong, this wasn't how I was meant to be kissed a small part of me was saying. I reached my hand up and tangled my hands in his hair, he put his hands on my hips and lifted me onto the kitchen counter stepping forwards so his body was between my legs. He moaned as I sucked on his lip ring, he ran his hands slowly up my thighs until he got to the top of my legs then moved them to the small of my back pulling me closer to him. He broke the kiss only to place little kisses down my neck, he stopped suddenly and pulled back.

"What the fuck is that?" he said frowning looking at my neck, oh crap the love bite!

"That's nothing, just a joke Clay did it for a laugh, it's kinda his thing he's done it since we were kids" I said uncomfortably shifting around on the counter.

"He gave you a love bite for a joke?" he asked shaking his head in disbelief and slamming his hands down on the counter either side of me angrily making me jump. Holy crap he's got a short fuse!

"Blake, it was a joke last night at the party that's all, nothing was meant by it, we are just friends" I said the last part slowly emphasising each word.

He bit his lip looking torn, I could see the jealousy and anger clear on his face but he was trying hard not to let it out. "Listen, Clay and I have a very close friendship, I've known him since I was four years old, you have nothing to be jealous of, if you want to try to make this work then you're gonna need to get used to it, Clay is always gonna be there" I said sternly. Half of me was praying that he would just turn and walk out.

I didn't like doing this, it felt wrong, made me feel cheap and used to be with someone when I wasn't into it. But another part of me wanted him to tell me that it's ok, to make me forget Clay, to make me want to be with him and stop me hurting and wanting my best friend when he didn't want me. I had a feeling that if I tried hard enough I could easily fall for this guy, he was sweet, hot, funny and easy to be with. I bit my lip and waited for him to speak.

"It's just weird that's all, I'm not used to having to share a girl's attention, but then again I'm not used to wanting to be with a girl other than for sex" he said rubbing his jaw nervously. He stepped forwards to me again and the selfish part of me that wanted to feel better rejoiced. "I really like you Riley, but we're gonna have a lot of problems, your age for one thing, it's actually not legal for me to do anything with you until your 18" he said frowning. I pulled his face to mine and kissed him, he responded immediately with a small moan pulling me to him again sliding his hands up my sides to cup my breasts, he squeezed them roughly moaning again. Ok ouch they are attached jeez!

"This sort of thing isn't allowed then?" I asked as he kissed down my neck again licking my skin, I felt him sigh.

"This is allowed but I can't actually go all the way with you, I'm allowed to do everything else" he said looking at me with a wicked grin that made me gulp. Ok I wasn't expecting things to move on that fast.

"Err, what about Clay?" I asked trying to change the subject, the look in his eye told me he wanted to jump here and now and it scared me a little. I wasn't ready for things to move this quickly with him, Clay on the other hand I would have sex with right now, NO! Stop torturing yourself, Clay doesn't want you like that.

He sighed looking slightly angry again, "Well I told you I'll just have to deal with it" he said bending forward to kiss me hard again.

I held my breath, ok is he saying he wants us to have a relationship or he wants to use me? I pushed him back and climbed off the counter, "We're not done talking stud" I said walking into the living room and plopping on the couch, he sat next to me looking confused.

"Well what else is there to talk about?" he asked nuzzling my neck.

"Well I wont be used, I'm not gonna sleep with you, if you want to be with me then we take things slow" I said sternly. He looked a little taken aback but nodded slowly, "I'm assuming that you being a player means that you've never been in a real relationship before right?" I asked smiling at the thought, bless him he's an emotional virgin.

"Err yeah, I've never really had a girlfriend" he said honestly looking a little embarrassed about it.

I nodded again, "Ok well here's how it works then, you need to trust me, and I won't let you cheat on me, if you want to be with other girls go be with them, if you want to be with me then you commit to it" I said, he smiled at that.

"I haven't even looked at another girl for the last 6 weeks" he said proudly. Wow does he honestly think that that's gonna impress me? I giggled.

"Six weeks isn't a long time Blake" I said giggling again.

"Hey it is for me, I'm usually with a different girl every other night but since I met you I just don't want anyone else, it might not sound like a big deal to you but trust me that has never happened to me before" he said defensively, ok I guess that is quite sweet in a weird man-whore kind of way.