Accepting Destiny (24 page)

He sees me leaning back against the door and our eyes meet. He sees things in my eyes that I never want anyone to see. Blinking away a tear, I slither off towards the guest room and close the door behind me. I flop on to the bed, face down and fight the tears. I have no idea why I’m crying, but I can’t seem to stop it. I’ve never been a crier before, but then again
, I’d never gone through what I have, these past few months.

I hear the door open and close quietly and soon, a presence on the bed. I feel a hand stroke through my hair, but I realize it isn’t Jackson. I turn towards them and see its Dani. Great, big sister to get involved now. “You okay Ally? You look kinda.....I don’t know...stressed? Is everything good between you and my brother?”

“Yeah, I guess so. I’m just a bit overwhelmed,” I say, between snubs of tears. “The shit just got real, I guess. Coming in here and being seen in public as a couple for the first time, just kinda freaked me out. I wasn’t expecting to come home....errrr, here and see everyone I know and then some I don’t know.”

“I hear ya. We are all just so happy that you guys are okay. Jackson’s recovery was amazing, and I owe that to you, Ally. Your love for him brought him back to all of us. You know that
, right?”

“Not sure about that, but I did what I could. I’ve loved him for a while, but I could never admit it to myself. When I learned what he did...almost giving his life for mine....I knew I could no longer hide it. I feel better knowing that he knows now, but it’s a bit surreal I guess. I’ve never been in a real relationship and it scares the shit out of me.”

“I know, it did me too, when Tony and I met. I was young and still in medical school when we met. He swept me off my feet and has never put me down. I just wish I could give him the children that he wants. We’ve been trying for years, but no luck. We’ve seen so many fertility experts and none of them can pinpoint a problem. I’m going to take a break from medicine for a while and we are going to focus on us, see where that takes us.”

“I’m sorry, Dani. I had no idea you were struggling with that. I’ve heard stress can play a major role in not being able to conceive, so maybe a break is good. I wish you luck.”

“Thanks, we’ll see, I guess. I have a few more patients that are finishing up with treatment and once they are done, I’ll be able to focus completely on us. I didn’t want to leave patients in the middle of treatment. I only have four now, and three of them will be done soon.”

“Well, you and Tony should take a trip once they have completed treatment. Just to get away and spend some quality time together. Jackson mentioned that to me at the hospital, wanting to get away.”

“I think you should. You guys have been working on this relationship for months and nothing but problems kept getting in your way.”

“Well, he’s been working on it. I’ve just been running, too afraid to give in to what I really feel. It took him almost dying for me to see it. I just don’t see how that’s fair to him. He deserves someone to love him
, without reservations, without being forced in to it, I guess. I just wonder how long it will be, before he realizes I’m not good enough for him.”

A throat clearing at the door jolts me out of my thoughts. I look to the door and its Jackson, leaning against the door frame
with his arms crossed over his chest. Oh joy, he heard that and now I’m going to get an ear full.

“How long have you been standing there?” I ask

“Long enough. Dani, will you excuse us for just a moment please?”

“Sure. Ally, you can talk to me any time. I know my brother can be overbearing at times and maybe I can help......”

“Danielle!” Jackson growls.

“Okay, okay, I got ya,” s
he says to him, as she gets off the bed.

“You know where to find me,” s
he says, as she leaves the room, patting Jackson on the shoulder, as she leaves.

He stalks towards me like I’ve really pissed him off and I scoot back on the bed, my head clocking the headboard. Thankfully it’s padded, so it doesn’t hurt. But by the look in his eyes, I’m about to be spanked.

He sits down next to me and pulls me in to his arms. “Why on earth would you still think you aren’t good enough for me?” He asks, then presses his lips to my head.

“Look at us Jackson. We come from different worlds and......”

“Stop right there. Do you really think I care wha
t
world
s
we’re both from? Look at me, Alexandra,” his steely green eyes land on mine. “My world is wherever you are, and right now, that is right here. My world was empty before I met you. I worked, I had a little fun.....well, maybe too much fun, and I was miserable. When I first saw you at that fundraiser in Miami, I knew. Ask Dani. I even called her from the hotel and told her about you. She was skeptical at first, but then she met you and realized you were the one for me. The only one. It doesn’t matter where we both
came
from. What matters is, the world we make together.”

             
The waterworks begin again. You’d think my tear ducts would be dried up by now, but they keep flowing. I’ve never been involved with anyone at this level before and I have no idea what I’m doing.

“We’re gonna be fine, Ally. I promise you that. Please stop trying to over analyze everything and just live. I love you more than life itself and nothing is going to change that, do you understand me?”

I nod and lean my head in to his chest. “I love you too Jackson. So much it scares me to death.”

“I know, it scares me too,” he says, as
I look up at him in disbelief.

“It scares you too?”

“Of course it does. Love can be a scary thing, but as long as we have each other, we can conquer anything. Our lives are going to be so much sweeter together. I know the past few months have been hard, but all of that is over now. Now, we can get to the fun part.”

He says this
, as he tackles me to the bed, pulling me forward so my head is on the pillow. He rolls over on top of me and presses his body into mine. Resting on his elbows, he slants his head and presses his lips against mine in a tender kiss. I kiss him back eagerly, because I really don’t want to talk anymore. His tongue presses between my lips and our breaths mingle together

“Wait Jackson, stop,
” I say, as I push him up. He looks at me with confusion and cocks his head to the side. “There are people here, we can’t do this right now.” I try to squirm my way out from under him

“Relax, I kicked everyone out before I came in here. I saw Dani follow you, so I knew I had some time. Once everyone left,
besides Tony, I came in here, but there is one thing we can do.”

“What’s that?” I ask.

He doesn’t answer, he just gets up and lifts me in to his arms, cradling me like a baby. “Put me down, Bentley! You aren’t supposed to be lifting anything, let alone.....”

“Don’t say it Ally.”

I zip my lip and let him do his thing. I reach out and open the bedroom door and he kicks it open with his foot, then carries me to his room at the end of the hall. He has this animalistic look in his eyes as he not so gently tosses me on to his bed. I bounce a little and then lift my head to look at him. His fingers are unbuttoning his shirt and his eyes are glued to me. I sit up and start to pull my dress over my head.

“No. Leave it on, for now,” h
e says, as his shirt falls to the floor. I suck in a breath at his chest. Yeah, I know. I’ve seen it before, but I can never get enough of it. Sleek, smooth skin, with a small patch of hair, that is calling my name. I sit up to my knees and face him, placing my hands on his chest. He releases the button fly on his jeans and lowers them to his ankles, kicking them off with his feet. Commando, nice. His erection springs in to my face, bobbing and begging for my lips to wrap around it.

I reach for his hard cock and he steps back, grasping himself in his fist. “Nuh huh. Now, take your dress off, slowly.

I reach down and slowly pull my dress over my head and toss it to the floor. It lands with a swoosh beside his jeans. “Now the bra, slowly.” I reach behind me and unclasp my bra, holding the cups over my breasts. “Now, let it fall.” He says quietly, as he strokes his cock.

Seeing him pleasuring himself is so turning me on, the throbbing between my legs making me squirm. I try to squeeze
my legs together to alleviate some of the pressure there, but he stops me. “Now the panties.”

I stand up from the bed and slowly lower my panties around my ankles, kicking them in to the same pile. “Now, lie back on the bed and spread your legs.”

Whoa, not sure where this is going, but it’s driving me crazy. He is still fisting his cock, which is so hard, it’s pointing right at me. I can see the glistening drop of pre-come on the head and my eyes glue to it. He brushes his thumb across it, spreading it around.

I lean back on the headboard, so I’m sitting up and facing him. I’m not sure I want to spread my legs for him to be able to see right up....there. So I end up crossing my legs at my ankles.

“Did I tell you to cross your legs, Alexandra?” He says, as he sits down in the chair, at the foot of the bed, still stroking his cock. “Play with your tits, Alexandra. Pretend that your fingers are mine and pinch your nipples.” I do as he says, as my already hard nipples stretch and pull even tighter.

“Now, bend your knees
and let me see you. All of you,” he says, as he leans forward a little to get a better view. I pull my knees up, but have a hard time spreading my legs as wide as he wants, because he gets up and stands over me, placing his free hand on my left knee. “Wider, Alexandra,”               he presses against my knee, so I have no choice but to spread my legs wider. I hear him groan as he sits back down in the chair, still leaning forward and his cock in his hand.

“Now, we’re going to play a little game, Alexandra. First one to come
, loses. Ready?”

I have no words at this time, because I know I’m gonna lose. I’m so close to the edge right now just watching Jackson stroking his own cock, that one touch and I’m gonna explode. So I just nod at him and I swear, a little whimper comes creaking out of my throat. “Good girl. Now, play with yourself. Stroke your clit and rub it in circles,
like you do when I’m not around,” he tells me.

How exactly does he know what I do when he’s not around? I decide now is not the time to argue with him and I place my fingers gently between my legs. I can’t usually get off like this and reach for my vibrator, but this time is going to be different
, I have a feeling. As soon as my middle finger grazes across my clit, my body jumps and I groan out loud. “Careful, Alexandra. You don’t want to come too soon do you?” He teases.

“Put those baby
blues on me Alexandra, only me,” he says as we continue our little game of self-pleasure.

I stroke myself, dragging the wetness up and around my clit
, while my other hand stays planted on my breast. “Yes, that’s it Alexandra. Stroke yourself, make yourself feel good baby,” he says, as he strokes his own cock, staring at my face. The look in his eyes is almost enough to send me over the edge, but I try hard to control myself.

“Slip your fingers inside, Alexandra. I know you’re close. Stroke faster, harder.”

I watch him speed up the strokes on himself and I know he’s close too
.
“Hold on Ally, let him come first,
”
I tell myself, refusing to lose this game, but it’s no use, my toes begin to curl back and the spasms take over my body, my back arching and my eyes rolling back in my head. “Eyes on me Alexandra. Eyes. On. Me,” he says. Damn it, I can’t! My eyes have a mind of their own right now and they close, hard. I can’t help it.

But when I hear Jackson let out a shout, they come right back open just in time to see him come all over his hand. Damn, I almost had him beat! But seeing him release has my body convulsing again and this orgasm stronger than the first. “Ungh!! Shit!” Are my first words during this little game we’ve played.

Before the spams stop, I feel Jackson between my legs, his hot breath against my aching sex. Oh no no no, I can’t handle another one! He drags his tongue along my cleft, spreading the moisture from my release around. He sucks my clit in to his mouth, as his fingers enter me, stroking and licking at the same time. My vision goes dark and stars flash before my closed eyelids. Sorry, Jack, but this is too intense to keep my eyes open.

As I’m just about ready to fall over the edge once again, he stops. He crawls up my body, planting kisses on my belly and between my breasts, before his lips latch on to my nipple. He bites my nipple and then gently uses his tongue to ease the sting. As he travels up my body, his lips then
, find mine and he plunges his tongue deep in to my mouth. I can taste the salty sweet tang of myself on his tongue and I suck it in to my mouth, drawing a deep groan from him.

Then, without warning he plunges his cock inside, not even trying to be gentle. He grunts as he seats himself deep against my womb. “Alexandra.......” he says
, before pulling back and slamming back in to me. “I can’t be gentle right now, not this time,” he says as he continues to stroke deeper and deeper in to me.

“Then don’t be,
” I breathlessly say, as he grunts in my ear again, before grabbing my thighs and pulling me flush against his body. He places my ankles on his shoulders and strokes in and out, sweat dripping off of his face. His kisses my inner calf as he continues, his face contorting in pleasure.