A Vision of Fire (13 page)

Caitlin slumped. She thought for a moment, then shook her head slowly. “Yeah, I'm not there either,” she said. Then she started to get excited again. “But hold on. You just said genetic imprinting. What if it's something similar? Jung talked about genetic imprinting—­feelings, ideas that were passed down from our ancestors. Maybe these three family bonds are creating a portal into that collective unconscious.”

“But we're not just talking about vague feelings or even ideas. Maanik and Gaelle seemed transported, almost totally.”

“And me,” Caitlin said.

“To where? A volcano somewhere in the past?”

“Not just the volcano, the Vikings too,” she said. “A lost language.” Then she murmured, almost as if it came from her unconscious, going with the flow: “No, not genetic imprinting. That's too specific, individual-to-individual, and Gaelle wasn't related to her stepmother,
at least not genetically. What about racial memory, Ben? Group experiences.”

“You mean like past lives?”

“Honestly, I don't know what I mean,” she said. “Because there's something the girls and I share,
my
Viking ship and the Old Norse factor in
their
language.”

Ben shook his head no. “That's tenuous at best. And really, really specific. Besides, where do the Mongolian and Japanese fit?”

“I don't know, but my point is we are dealing with something way older than any of us that has somehow manifested itself here, now.”

“I don't know, Caitlin. If you're going to consider racial memory and past lives, what's to prevent you from considering future lives or—”

“You're right.” Caitlin nodded.

“Cai, I wasn't being serious.”

“But I am! Ben,
what i
f
? What if these phenomena—or just a single big phenomenon—are somehow free of time constraints? What if there is some kind of communal stream that's carrying images and language—information—from ‘somewhen' to ‘now' and we're here to receive and pass it forward?”

“Why you four?”

“I don't know,” she admitted. “I need to look up Pompeii, I remember there were eyewitness reports—”

“Pliny the Younger,” Ben said. “Chilling stuff. One of my schoolmates did a translation for his thesis.”

“Atlantis,” she muttered.

“Cai, don't.”

Caitlin was only half-listening. Her brain was free-associating all over the map and through all the calendars that were and ever would be.

“Time to reattach your wires to the ground,” Ben said. “This is beyond speculation.”

“I'm fighting myself,” she said.

“Huh?”

“One of my professors always said that guesswork is part of the scientific method and if you skip that step, you just keep living in the same box that was handed to you at birth. I never really liked that intellectual bungee jump—but here I am, doing it!”

“And heading for the rocks,” Ben said. “You remember what your sophomore roommate used to call you?”

“ ‘The girl with rivets,' ” Caitlin said. “Yeah. I like things to make sense. And this thing doesn't seem to, does it?” Then she added almost dreamily, “But it must.”

Caitlin's phone buzzed with a text. It was from Mrs. Pawar:
My husband suggested I send this to you. It's from Maanik.

Caitlin tapped on the attachment and a triangle made of triangles made of crescents filled the screen.

“Oh no. No.”

She turned the phone to show Ben.

“Jesus,” he breathed. “That's impossible.”

“I'm going over there.” She stood, already tapping a reply to Mrs. Pawar. “I've got a couple hours before my first session.”

Caitlin started walking toward the Pawars' building, then turned and spoke as she walked backward. “Thanks, Ben. Thanks for everything.”

“You're welcome,” he said. “For everything.”

CHAPTER 19

C
aitlin stood in the hall outside the Pawars' apartment door for an unusually long moment. The corridor was thick with the same still, unwelcoming atmosphere as the last time she was there. And then a click on the other side of the peephole: someone had lifted the cover to look out. When the door opened, Caitlin realized why Mrs. Pawar had used it. The wife of an Indian diplomat would not allow most outsiders to see her in a housedress with no makeup. The woman clearly wasn't eating or sleeping enough. When they'd first met, stress had penciled dark smudges around her eyes, but these past days had hollowed her cheeks. Caitlin was mildly shocked by her appearance.

“I'm sorry you had to wait,” the woman said.

“Don't worry about that,” Caitlin answered, stepping into the apartment. She waited until the door was shut before asking, “Is Maanik all right?”

Mrs. Pawar locked the door behind them. “The blackberries finally worked,” she replied, with no sign of being relieved.

“Finally?” Caitlin asked. She noticed Kamala standing sentry several paces back. Caitlin guessed that Mrs. Pawar was beginning to micromanage the household, trying to control anything she could in the face of a nearly uncontrollable threat to her daughter.

“Just after I sent you Maanik's drawing, she began running around the room, shrieking,” Mrs. Pawar said as they walked down the hall to Maanik's bedroom. “She could not hear me. Or would not, I do not know. Finally, her father managed to restrain her and I was able to use your cue.”

“I'm sorry you had to go through that,” Caitlin said. She gently took the woman by the arm and slowed them down. “Tell me something, Mrs. Pawar. Have either you or your husband been having nightmares?”

“To have nightmares one must sleep,” the woman replied, stalwartly fighting tears. “Our world seems to be coming apart. There is no haven—not abroad, not in this city, not in our home. No, Dr. O'Hara, there have been no nightmares.”

“I understand,” Caitlin said. She released Mrs. Pawar's arm and they continued toward the bedroom.

Proximity and a familial relationship clearly were factors in what was happening. Whatever nightmares Caitlin had experienced as a result of being with Maanik and Gaelle had come from a connection made through hypnosis . . . or possibly Vodou. Forces that operated on a subtle, subconscious level—but even accepting that, she could not even begin to see how such forces could generate the same symbol from two very different hands.

In Maanik's boldly colored bedroom, the rich scent of flowers and harsher smell of chemical fragrance failed to mask the stale, stagnant air. Caitlin spotted an air freshener incongruously plugged into a surge protector also feeding Maanik's computer. About a dozen small bouquets were arranged around the room, most of them including stuffed animals, which suggested they had been sent from Maanik's friends. Doubtless they'd heard she was going to miss a week of school and realized something more unusual than flu was going on. Perhaps the Pawars were claiming stress from the attack on the ambassador.

The ambassador was sitting on his daughter's bed with his arm around her shoulders, at once comforting and protective. Her freshly
bandaged right wrist rested in his open palm. Her left hand rested on the back of Jack London, who was curled up and snoring. The ambassador looked up as Caitlin approached. He nodded courteously but he did not have a smile in him. Maanik was asleep, breathing through her mouth with a slight rasp. In contrast to her mother, she looked as though she had been eating: her cheeks had a healthy color and her face seemed fresh. But there was a shadowy quality in her brow, a pinching of the eyebrows, that showed distress even in sleep.

“Thank you for coming,” the ambassador said as he gently withdrew his arm from his daughter. He stood, passing the responsibility of propping up his daughter to his wife, and shook Caitlin's hand. She could see he was hiding his unease better than Mrs. Pawar, out of necessity. “I feel so helpless.”

Caitlin impulsively placed her right hand on top of his. “Mr. Pawar, we
are
getting there.”

He glanced back at the spent form on the bed. “I wish I could believe that.”

Caitlin persisted. “I just spent time with a young lady who has a condition similar to your daughter's.”

“Were you able to help her?” Mrs. Pawar asked hopefully.

“I was able to learn from her,” Caitlin said. She searched through the photos on her phone and held up Gaelle's sketch. “She drew this too.”

After taking it in they shook their heads in shock.

“That's what this phase is about,” Caitlin continued. “To
learn
. There is no easy explanation for why both girls are experiencing similar symptoms or why they both drew this symbol.” She put away her phone. “And there may not be a quick and easy fix for Maanik. I sometimes work with a high school for children from war-torn countries. They saw terrible things before America offered them political asylum. They experienced trauma as intense as your daughter's and it takes months, sometimes years, before they find ways to be teenagers again.”

“I do not want to hear that,” the ambassador said, as if his wish could somehow sustain him.

“I understand,” said Caitlin, “but I will tell you this—you are lucky because Maanik has your support and the support of everyone around her,
and
she is a fighter.”

The ambassador looked at the floor. “Understand this too. I don't want my daughter to be a fighter. I want her to be my daughter.”

“Of course. That's
my
goal as well,” Caitlin said patiently. “Which is why I have several important requests to make.”

“What kind of requests?”

“First, I would like to hypnotize Maanik again.”

Mrs. Pawar reacted instantly. “No! My daughter is not a laboratory animal!”

“We cannot protect her, Hansa,” Mr. Pawar said evenly. “We can only love her, and loving her means taking the next necessary step.” He looked back at Caitlin. “All right.”

Mrs. Pawar tensed when she heard his pronouncement but said nothing.

“Thank you,” Caitlin said. “I won't do it now but it does need to happen imminently. And for my second request, I would like Ben to be present during the hypnotism. He is known to you and, more importantly, to Maanik, and his linguistic skills could prove invaluable.”

Now the ambassador's eyes sought his wife's support. He received it in the slight softening of Mrs. Pawar's expression.

“I trust Ben like a son,” he said to Caitlin. “You may ask him.”

“Thank you again.”

The ambassador's brow lifted slightly. “Have you finished with your requests?”

“Not quite,” Caitlin said.

“I admire your resolve,” he said. “Perhaps you should take my place at the negotiating table.”

“Ben would tell you, sir, that I never give up.”

He finally smiled. “I've missed hearing such a hopeful expression.”

Caitlin smiled back warmly. “Hold the applause until I'm finished.”

“With?”

“Request number three. Jack London.”

The ambassador looked at her as if she might be pulling his leg. “What about him?”

“I want to try something. Now. It will just take a minute.”

The ambassador opened his hands in a gesture of approval and sat with anticipation in the desk chair. He and his wife watched as Caitlin approached Maanik's bed. She scooped her hands gently under Jack London. The dog opened his eyes and gave her nearest fingers a few licks. Carrying him, she walked around the end of the bed to Maanik's right side, where she was leaning against her mother. Caitlin held the dog close to Maanik's right hand, which was resting in her lap. Instantly, the dog snapped his teeth at Caitlin's hand, at the fingers he'd just been licking. Caitlin moved in time to avoid more than a nip but had to drop the snarling dog. He landed on the bedspread in an aggressive crouch, barking loudly at Maanik's hand, then leaped from the bed and ran around to the other side. He stood there shaking and barking, but also trying to edge closer to the bed and to Maanik. It was a strange tug-of-war, as though invisible hands were pulling him in two directions.

The dog seemed about to jump back onto the bed when Mrs. Pawar raised her voice and Jack London froze. In rapid Hindi directed at her husband, she seemed to be arguing vehemently. Mr. Pawar started to argue back but checked himself and spoke in a low, calm voice.

Caitlin turned away to give them a semblance of privacy. She patted the bedspread near Maanik's left hand. Jack London eyed her warily but soon jumped back to the place where he'd been sleeping earlier. He huddled against Maanik's side and nudged his nose under the girl's palm.

Caitlin heard a sigh from Mr. Pawar.

“I'm sorry,” Caitlin said.

“Do not be,” he told her. “How did you know he would respond like that?”

“I noticed him acting skittish last time, and in Haiti I saw animals reacting strangely around the other girl,” she said. She considered mentioning the rats in Washington Square but decided they had enough horrors to face, and there was hardly a shred of connection to the incident anyway.

The ambassador sighed sadly. “My wife wants to have him put down.”

“I would strongly argue against that,” Caitlin said quickly. “We don't know what the connection is but it should not be broken.” She gestured at the restored tableau of mistress and pup. “My point in trying this little experiment is to show that there's a little light here, a little bit of understanding. The dog is ahead of us, reacting to something that we don't comprehend yet. But there's hope that we can learn.”

The ambassador's eyes were a bit brighter than they had been before. “I'm not sure what you mean but it is good to know that
you
think so. Now I must return to the United Nations. When will you come again?”

“This evening, if I can arrange it.”

“We will see you then,” he told her.

The ambassador grasped his wife's hand and lingered just a moment as she squeezed back. Then he left the room.

“Excuse me,” said Mrs. Pawar. “I must give my husband something before he leaves.”

The woman started to stand, handing Maanik's weight over to Caitlin. As the door closed behind her Caitlin carefully maneuvered the girl into a horizontal position, with Jack London adjusting to the new arrangement to stay close to her left hand. Placing Maanik's head gently on her pillow, Caitlin glanced down—and jumped back.

Maanik's eyes were open and regarding her. They were clear, alert, steady. Incredibly steady, like little machines that had suddenly locked onto her.

“Hello,” Maanik said softly. “I surprised you.”

“A little,” Caitlin admitted.

“You surprised me too.” A faint smile tugged at the girl's mouth. “But I'm too tired to scream.”

Caitlin laughed nervously. “I guess that's a good thing. Do you know where you are?”

Maanik nodded.

“Where?” Caitlin asked.

The girl looked around. “It is not the Taj Mahal, so it must be . . . my bedroom.”

Her parents had said she had a sense of humor. Caitlin was glad to see that it had returned intact. “Right. And do you know who I am?”

“I think so. Dr. O'Hara?”

“Caitlin,” she said, nodding. “And I'm happy to properly meet you.”

“Me too,” Maanik said.

“I'm unused to speaking like this with you,” Caitlin admitted. “I've only met you during emergencies.” Honesty, she'd always found, worked best with teenagers.

“I can try scaring you, if you like.”

“How would you do that?”

Maanik hitched up one side of her face and stuck out her tongue. “Howsh thish?”

Caitlin laughed. This was the easygoing girl she'd seen in the ­theater video. “How do you know about me?
What
do you know about me?”

“My parents said you are a doctor. A psychiatrist. Will I be cured soon?”

“Workin' on it,” Caitlin said. “Can I get you anything? Food? Water?”

“I'm good,” the young woman said. Her left hand sought Jack London and began rubbing him behind the ears. He seemed normal, unperturbed. “How are my parents? Are they here?”

“Your mother's in the living room. They're doing very well under the circumstances.”

That seemed to bring Maanik down and Caitlin didn't want that. She also didn't know how much time they might have, whether this period of lucidity would last for an instant or endure. “Hey, are you up for a few questions? I have so many.”

“I'll try to answer them,” Maanik said. “I'm a little confused.”

“Totally understandable. Me too.” Caitlin pulled the desk chair to the side of the bed and sat. “Let's try this for starters. Do you remember what happens during your episodes?”

Maanik sat up, preparing to speak. “I remember nothing. I know about the screaming and scratching because my parents tell me. Oh, and”—she held up her right arm—“because I'm wrapped like the Mummy.”

Caitlin laughed. “So you don't remember doing that.”

“Not at all.”

“Or speaking?”

“Speaking?”

“Not the way we're talking now,” Caitlin said. “More like—­acting.”

“No.”

Caitlin didn't see the benefit of complicating Maanik's grasp of the situation by mentioning other languages.

“You're usually awake when the episodes begin,” she said. “What does it feel like when you—”

“Start to lose my shit?” Maanik cut in, eyeballing the door to make sure her mother couldn't hear.

“You're not wrong about that,” said Caitlin, enjoying the girl's spunk.

Maanik looked away and continued patting the dog, whose eyes were shut. “It's weird. I just, kind of . . . go away.”