A Forbidden Love (The Forbidden Series) (11 page)

“Very.”

I
ripped his shirt over my head and threw it in his face.

“You
look so sexy when you’re angry Ice, calm down I was only joking.” He grabbed my
waist playfully to help calm me down.

“That’s
not funny; I thought you really turned on me for a minute.”

“Alecia
Moore, I could never turn my back on you, you’ve showed me there’s more than
just sex with a girl, there’s also trust and love.”

“Wait,
you
love
me?” That was the first time I’d heard him mutter that four
letter word.

“You’re
the only girl I’ve ever felt such a strong connection to. Yes the sex is
fucking amazing, but you’re more to me than just a sweet piece of ass.”

A
surge of tears burst out of my eyes, as I slid onto the floor in front of his
bed with my head lying against my knees. The regret from my stint with Jake
really started eating me alive.

Why didn’t I just confess sooner
and tell him the truth from the start?

“That
wasn’t quite the reaction I was hoping for.” he said, flashing a dimple-filled
smile towards me.

“I
know
,
I’ve just never had anyone tell me that before
and actually mean it.”

“Well
now you have, but don’t get used to it.”

I
put my clothes back on, took my keys and charged right by him.

“Alecia,
wait!”

Bawling
my eyes out, I ran all the way to my car, and drove to the park, the same park
Jake had previously taken me to. My phone rang multiple times, assuming it was
Al; I didn’t have the heart to pick it up. I really needed to vent to someone
else right now so I called my best friend.

“Nik?”

“Leci,
what’s wrong? You sound upset, did someone hurt you?”

“No,
Allan told me he loved me.” The line stood silent for a moment.

“And
that’s an issue because…? Isn’t this what you’ve wanted all along, to find your
sexy dream man?”

“Yes,
but I feel like shit because I almost hooked up with my dream man’s brother.
Then to make matters worse, the cops came by tonight looking for Jake. A girl
is accusing him of sexually assaulting her. What if I was the cause of that?”

“Don’t
be silly, you can’t control anyone else’s actions but your own. I do think you
should just come clean about everything before you try to have an honest relationship
with Al. Where are you now?”

“I’m
at the park down the street from his house.”

“Go
back, look him in the face and say ‘Al I love you too but, I almost fucked your
brother’. Maybe not in that same context though.”

I
burst into laughter, “Yeah, not so much, but he needs to know the truth,
thanks.”

“You’re
welcome. Cheer up buttercup things could be a lot worse.”

After
hanging up with Nik, I called Allan back.

“I’m
on my way back and we really need to talk.”

“Alright.”

He
was sitting outside on the brick stairs waiting for me. We walked back to his
room and sat on the bed. His green eyes weren’t as bright as usual. He looked
like he had been crying. It was as if he already predicted what I was about to
tell him.

“Al,
you mean the world to me and as much as it pains me to tell you this, you need
to know the truth. Jake wasn’t lying about the Red’s Motel, I really did go
there with him but nothing happened. I only went because I was pissed off about
you and Stacey. I know that’s not a legitimate excuse and I’m sorry for what I
did. He also tried to keep me there against my will, but then let me go.”

“So
you mean to tell me, you got so pissed off at me over a worthless whore that
you almost fucked my brother? Stacey doesn’t mean shit to me. Yes, we kissed
but I felt nothing for her, she was just a piece of ass. What do you mean he
tried to keep you there? Did he hurt you?”

“No
he didn’t hurt me, but after I begged he let me go. You have every right to be
pissed at me and I completely understand if you don’t want anything to do with
me after this. I just got jealous because I had such strong feelings for you.
Plus I don’t know if you noticed it or not, but she texted me from your phone
talking shit and that just made my blood boil even more.”

I
began throwing the rest of my stuff in a plastic bag I had found on the floor.
He firmly planted his hand on my hips.

“Ice,
wait. I don’t want you to go. We’re both a little fucked in the head but it
works. You’re the girl for me, and I’m the asshole for you.”

“The
asshole of my dreams,” I said.

Releasing
the bag from my grip, he held me tightly against his chest, and kissed me. It
was magical, and lingered long after his lips left mine.

“Lay
down with me sweet-face, and you better never lie to me, or attempt to fuck my
family again.”

“I
won’t, I promise.”

Chapter 7
:
Is
This Goodbye?

The
week flew by and it was already Friday night. After my shift ended tonight I
had the whole weekend off to spend with Al. He wouldn’t tell me what he had
planned, but I knew it’d be fun. Ever since the cops came by looking for Jake a
while back, he hasn’t been seen or heard from. I must admit that after getting
everything off my chest, I’ve been even happier without seeing him.

“Bye,
Cindy. Bye, Alisha, I’ll see you guys next week!”

“Enjoy
your weekend, Alecia.” Cindy said.

I
left my cell phone charging in the car during my shift; otherwise, it would
have sat in my locker collecting dust because Cindy doesn’t allow electronic
devices on the floor. I unplugged it and played the voicemail Al left. “Hey
Ice, I know you’re at work but I have some interesting news to tell you.” Eager
to find out what the news was I called him right back.

“Hey,
what’s going Al?”

“I
need you to get here as soon as you can.”

“Damn
is it that bad?”

“No,
but you won’t be happy, just get here okay?”

45
minutes later, I stepped outside of my car, a bundle of nerves, anticipating
what Allan might tell me. He met me in front of the hood and walked me back
inside to his room.

“I’m
not gonna sugar coat this, Ice. My manager, Trevor, called me earlier about a
new position and I took it.”

“That’s
great news!”

“Not
exactly, the job is in San Diego.”

“California?”

“Yeah.”

“How
long will you be gone?”

“Six
to eight months.”

“Six
to eight months? What the hell am I supposed to do without you? Will you at
least come back to visit?”

“Not
until the job is finished. It’s a potential temp to perm position. If I get
hired permanently, I’ll have to stay in Cali for good.”

“I’ll
come with you.”

“You
can’t do that, Alecia. You have to stay here and finish school. Plus you have a
decent job here.”

“When
do you leave?”

“Tomorrow.”

I
reached back and slapped him clear across his face. The red imprint of my hand
remained on his cheek long after my hand had passed.

“So,
you drop this bullshit on me today and you have to leave tomorrow? I barely
even have time to say goodbye!”

“Ice...”
he said, while extending his hand to grab mine.

“Don’t
touch me!” He didn’t heed my warning and pulled me to his chest, tightly wrapping
his arms around my torso.

“I
didn’t mean to hurt you. I’ll always love you, Ice, and maybe once you’re done
with school, or are on vacation you can come and be with me.”

“You
promise?”

“I
promise.”

While
wiping the tears away from my cheeks, he walked me over to his bed.

“Have
a seat, since this is the last night I get to fuck you, I’m gonna make it a
night to remember. Close your eyes.”

He
dropped a paper bag next to me and placed a soft silken mask over my eyes.

“Now,
lay down.”

I
couldn’t see a thing, but I made sure I listened to his every command. He
slowly removed my clothing piece by piece, and then clasped my hands together
with a thick piece of rope above my head. I laid there naked and waiting for
what was next. A soft feather gently caressed me all over my body. Circulating
my nipples until they became erect, and lightly brushing the insides of my
thighs.

“I’ll
be back, don’t move.” He dashed out of the room and quickly returned. I could
hear him shaking a can of something, but I had no idea what it was.

Then,
a sudden rush of cold hit my navel sending my body into a slight shock. He
slowly licked it off and it didn’t take me long to figure out it was whip
cream. He continued to spray different parts of my body and lick each
individual puff of cream off of me. I was completely turned on and ready to
receive him.

He
climbed on top of me and guided himself in between my thighs. While shoving my
legs behind my head, his hard body smacked against mine so loud, I bet the
neighbors could hear it.

I
couldn’t contain my screams like I normally would. I let it be heard that the
man I love was fucking me into oblivion.

“I
fucking love you, Ice. Your body belongs to me and no one else, do you
understand?”

“Yes,”
I moaned, while I came all over him.

His
breathing sped up, his strokes began to slow down and his body slightly shook
as he released all over my legs.

I
removed the mask from my face, and watched as tiny beads of sweat poured down
his hot body. He shot a warm smile in my direction and motioned for me to come
over. We were both a gross sticky mess and were in desperate need of soap and
water, but he hugged me anyway.

“Go
ahead and start the shower, I’ll change the bed and meet you in there.”

“Don’t
wait too
long,
I may use up all the hot water.”

The
warm water splashed against my skin, as I waited for Al to join me. He slid in
behind me and we seductively washed each other’s bodies. Teasing and taunting
each other with every passing of our washcloths. He climbed out ahead of me to
grab two towels off the rack. He handed me a blue towel, I wrapped myself up in
it and walked back with him across the hall into his room.

He
gave me his favorite black and white vintage Scarface t-shirt to wear and we
cuddled underneath his single sheet for the very last time.

“I
love you, Al. This is just a small obstacle we have to overcome.”

“I
love you, too, and we will.”

We
both laid in complete silence until his alarm rang at exactly---seven-thirty.

“Guess
it’s time for me to get up and start packing.”

After
about an hour of throwing things around and shoving them in suitcases we
finally finished. It was a fifty minute drive to the airport from here and I
appreciated every moment I got to spend with him up until the last second.
Passing by the ‘Welcome to Rhode Island’ sign we saw the exit for T.F. Green
Airport shortly after. His flight left at 10:15 A.M and we arrived with
forty-five minutes to spare.

Giving
me a quick kiss goodbye, he grabbed two small suitcases from the backseat and
ran to catch his flight. The traffic cop stopped oncoming cars for me so that I
could pull out of the drop off area.

The
drive back home was very long and depressing. It was hard for me to comprehend
that he was really gone and that was the last time I’d ever see him again. All
I could do was shed tears for the remainder of the ride home.

Chapter 8
:
Depression

Two
months had already gone by since Allan left and I still have yet to hear from
him. I had no idea how the job was going and I had no clue if he even arrived
safely. It was hard for me to cope with this and everyone took notice.

“Leci,
you haven’t been yourself at all since Al left. I understand that it’s hard,
but you can’t sit in bed and sulk all day,” Nikki said.