A Constant Reminder (26 page)

“It’s the truth. I know you probably don’t remember him.”

“No I remember him.”

“You do?”

“I remember him because I remember running into him in the hall that night. I remember his face. I talked to him.”

“So you know he was there.”

“Yes I talked to him but he didn’t seem like that type of person.”

“You were drinking right. You met him once. I didn’t think he would shoot somebody but he did. He is the reason I went to prison.”

“Okay fine. I guess now that I know. It just seems like I would feel a certain way and I don’t.”

“Tony was there waiting for me. I was there to see my brother.”

“He would have never been there, if not for you.”

“That’s true and I’m sorry. That’s why I feel so guilty. I’m the reason he was there but I never thought he would do such a thing. I didn’t really know him that well.”

“I read the things you sent me. I saw his past criminal record. So he’s Morgan’s father.”

“Yes, he has to be.”

Roxanne covered her mouth. This was the first time she said it out loud. It felt terrible to put a real face to the blank one that had hovered out in the unknown world.

“I just need someone to blame. I need someone to be mad at.”

“It was stupid for me to keep those things but I felt bad about all the things I had done when I was with him.”

“Us meeting was a coincidence but then I fell in love with you. I realized who you were. I needed to see for myself you were okay.”

“Adam what do you want from me.”

“I want the opportunity to make this up to you. I put him in your vicinity and I hate myself for it. I love you. I will do anything to get us back to where we were. Did you stop loving me overnight?”

Roxanne thought hard before she spoke. It had been more than overnight but not long enough for her love for him to vaporize.

“Roxanne if you have even a little love left for me you have to give us a second chance. I will never hurt you again. Do you still love me?”

“I still love you but-.”

Adam swallowed hard. “Don’t run away from us?”

“I need time.”

“I understand. I will wait for you forever. Would you take the ring back?” Adam slid the ring across the table.

“I don’t think I should.” Roxanne sat as far back in her seat as she could, far from that beautiful engagement ring.

“We can work through this.”

“I don’t know.”

“Don’t give up on us.”

“Time Adam.” Roxanne needed to make that perfectly clear.

“How is Morgan? I miss her so much.”

“She is confused.”

“Does she hate me for disappearing?”

“She doesn’t know what’s going on.”

“Can I come and pick up some of my things.”

“Yeah everything is where you left it.”

The awkwardness hit its peak when they sat there and ate together. Roxanne picked at her food but managed to only eat half of it. Adam spent most of his time staring at Roxanne while she refused to give him any eye contact.

Adam paid the check and they both walked out to their cars.

CHAPTER 20

A bunch of emotions stirred in Roxanne as she drove home. She gripped the steering wheel tight until she realized what she was doing. She kept checking her rearview mirror. Adam was following her. She knew he would but then she thought he might turn off and just say to hell with it.

She was mad at him for things she couldn’t even pinpoint. He had answered all her questions. He had convincingly given her his explanations. But still there was something holding her back from offering him true forgiveness.

Roxanne let him into the apartment that they once shared. It felt strange to her letting him in but she had changed the locks. Then it felt normal and common for both of them to walk into the apartment together. She hated to admit that she loved him so very deeply. She exhaled a silent breath of relief when he emailed her with the information about Tony Demarco.

In her heart of hearts she just refused to believe that Adam was capable of such a thing. It just didn’t jive with the man she knew and loved.

“Are my things in the bedroom?”

“Everything is where you left it.” She sounded like a robot to herself.

Adam quickened his pace and entered the bedroom. Roxanne closed the front door and followed him. He went straight for the closet. He didn’t have any plans to remove one article of clothing from the apartment. This was all an act, a maneuver and stall tactic.

He just wanted to get back into the apartment. He wanted to be alone with Roxanne. He had achieved his goal. Adam fumbled around in the closet like he was looking for something specific.

Roxanne left him in the closet to go to the bathroom down the hall. She didn’t like watching Adam from behind. It brought back too many memories. He had lied to her and she couldn’t immediately forgive him. She needed more time, more separation to get her bearings.

She decided to wash the makeup off her face. She couldn’t wait for him to leave. She just hoped she wouldn’t cry while drinking a bottle of cheap red wine. She didn’t want to kid herself. That’s exactly what she would do as soon as he left the apartment.

She opened the door to the bathroom and started walking the hall. She heard the music purring from the bedroom. He was playing their song,
Haunted
. Why?

Roxanne entered the room. “What are you doing?”

“What are you doing?” Adam turned her words back on her.

“Adam.”

“Roxanne.”

Roxanne rolled her eyes. This was not in the least bit funny. She turned to leave him and Adam rushed her from behind and slammed her body into the wall. He pinned her to the wall and pressed his body against hers. Her face was smashed into the wall’s paint.

“Adam.” Roxanne felt his extensive manhood pressed against her butt cheek. He was aroused.

Adam grabbed a fistful of Roxanne’s waves. He twisted her strands. He smashed his face into the side of her cheek. “You still love me. I still love you. I’m not going to lose you.” Adam licked her cheek and sucked her entire jaw into his mouth.

Adam’s knuckles scraped the wall as he reached underneath Roxanne to roughly palm her breasts. He pinched her nipple through her shirt. She reflexively poked her butt off the wall pushing deeper into his crotch.

“Adam, we can’t do this.” Roxanne muttered.

“We have to do this.” Adam had pulled her blouse from her skirt. It had been neatly tucked in before he released it. His hand glided up her waist. He was under her blouse kneading her breasts with his hand. He pulled one of her bra cups down and gripped her bare skin. He rubbed his flat palm over her nipple until it sharpened.

“I was miserable without you.” Adam bit into her collarbone without breaking her skin.

Roxanne threw her head back as her legs got weak. Her ankles wobbled in her office heels as Adam held her up. Her body was hot with the heat of his embrace. He let her hair go and she could feel him fumble with his pants as he pushed into her backside. She stared at the wall. She wanted to see how much he craved her but she was afraid to look him in the eye. She feared he would have her under his spell. She feared that he would ruin her heart and make it impossible to see clearly. Her core was on fire with a desire she missed. Her body hurt when he wasn’t around. They had sex everyday and the days he was gone were the days her body ached for him.

She was minutes from being sated, seconds from feeling his width and his length stretch and her contract around him. She was daydreaming about him piercing her insides and she didn’t realize he had rid her of her panties and hiked her skirt up to her waist.

Adam reached around her thigh and pierced her with one of his thick long fingers. “OHHHH!!!” She moaned into the wall. Adam swiped his thumb back and forth over her swollen clit. She buckled as he quickened his pace and pinched her nipple with his other hand.

Roxanne’s cheek grew moist pressed against the wall. She lifted out of her pumps and tilted her round rear into his stiffness.

“I love you Roxy.” Adam removed his finger to replace it with his eager throbbing member. He pushed in headfirst. Roxanne was on her tiptoes and he slowly pushed deeper inside her. Adam grabbed the back of her knee and raised one of her legs. He plummeted inside her from a lowly angle. He drowned in the hot wet cave and pushed fast enough to cover his member with her savory wetness.

Adam raised her leg higher and her high heel pump fell off and hit the carpet. The ferociousness of his thrusts slammed her knee into the wall. He was holding her but still he was thrusting so hard her knee bone was hitting the wall and making it impossible for her to keep her balance on one leg in one heel.

Adam finally let her leg drop and she caught her balance without falling on her face. He quickly turned her body around to face him. He reached forward and ripped her blouse open without regard for the buttons. One of her creamy chocolate breast sat perched on top of the bra cup while the other stayed hidden under the bra’s cup.

Adam dove onto her exposed breast. He suckled on her nipple and swallowed her entire breast deep into his mouth.

Roxanne panted and moaned as she ran her fingers through his hair and pushed his face deep onto her breast. She tried to suffocate him with her breast. She removed her hidden breast from her bra and pinched her other nipple and Adam brought her to orgasm sucking on her other breast.

Roxanne could feel her sexual juice ooze down her inner thighs. Adam dropped to his knees and pushed his face into the dense patch of hair in between her legs. He laved at her bud with his tongue and pushed three fingers inside her private hole. He twirled his fingers in circles. When Roxanne squealed in delight he looked up at her and watched as she panted into the air.

Their eyes met when she looked down at him. Adam removed his fingers and placed them in his mouth. Adam stood in a hurry. Roxanne weakened legs started to slide from underneath her. Her body slid down the wall. Adam grabbed her wrist and swung her around until she felt the bed under her knees. He lifted her up under her shoulders and tossed her back onto the bed.

Adam stood at the foot of the bed and removed his shirt. Roxanne got on all fours. She wanted him to pound her from behind. She purposefully pushed back to expose her open wet pussy to the man who knew exactly what to do with her exposed hole. She rolled her butt in sensuous circles and turned back to see the mesmerized look on Adam’s face and he stood behind her caught in her delicious scope of her glory hole.

Adam stood paralyzed. He couldn’t figure out if he wanted to lick her or deep-sea dive with his raw generous cock. He chose the latter. He climbed on the bed and gently grabbed Roxanne waist. He pushed on his knees and slowly entered her. He excitedly watched as his member inched inside her intimate space. He pulled out to watch her glistening milk cover his length and shelter his girth.

Adam moved slow but with purpose. He rolled his hips and made sure to hit every corner of Roxanne’s lubed channel.

“Roxy, I want to come home.”

“AHHHH!” Roxanne groaned as he hit the edge of her core.

“I need you.”

“Yes!!!” Roxanne cried as she pushed back on the pole that afforded her so much pleasure on this occasion and a multitude of others.

Adam collapsed down on top of her. His face was buried in her wet hair. Adam wrapped his arms around Roxanne and pulled her to her side never letting his throbbing cock dislodge from her body. They lay side by side as Adam ground inside her. Adam’s hand grabbed at her breast as he pushed and pumped inside her.

Adam was bringing Roxanne close to the brink. Tears escaped her eyes and she rolled with him and sunk into his warm embrace. Her arms laid on his as he held her close enough to break her ribs. Roxanne contracted around him and squeezed the cum from his engorged muscle.

Adam moaned into her hair as he pumped the last remains of his hot seed deep into his cozy home.

He held her like his life depended on the connection. Roxanne lay still as if their bodies were one. She loved him no matter what. She forgave him for placing that monster on her college campus. She wanted to stay mad but all she could do was take the love he gave to her so effortlessly. She loved him and she would never doubt he loved her.

They woke the next morning with Adam still buried inside her. They were fused together. They didn’t talk when they woke. They both just walked into the bathroom and took a bath together. They washed in silence. They ate breakfast in silence, as they were too overwhelmed with yesterday’s events to discuss them. Roxanne didn’t want this to be over and she hoped it wasn’t.

Adam felt the same way. He didn’t want to do anything or say anything to ruin his bliss. He had dug his way out of a hole. There was no way he was going back.

***

How can things go back to normal? A question Roxanne asked herself when she realized that was exactly what was happening. They had fallen back into a place that was comfortable but new. Roxanne had forgiven Adam. Staying mad at him seemed useless. He made her happy. He was good to her. She questioned her sanity. How could she just take him back after he lied? Or did he just hold information that would hurt her. She didn’t know if he was a hero or a liar. All she knew was she loved him like she had loved no other man.