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Authors: Claire Ashgrove
"Ready?" she asked in little more than a whisper.
Throat too tight to speak, Clint nodded. He moved to the
door before her fingers could graze the knob and pulled it
open. With an outstretched hand, he stopped her exit. "Keys."
"Keys?" she echoed.
"I'll drive. When I break my leg tonight, you can drive
back."
Her light laugh only fanned that blissful warmth into a rush
of heat. She pushed past his hand, grabbed hold of his wrist
and dragged him out the door. "They're in the car, silly. So
are the boys."
The boys. Right. He'd almost forgotten they'd have
company tonight. Not that he particularly minded. But on the
heels of their afternoon together, all he cared about was
finding a few minutes where they could be alone, so he could
thoroughly explore those rosy lips.
He let himself inside the driver's seat and turned around to
face the three boys crammed into Jesse's back seat. "Hey,
Ethan."
Ethan grunted in reply. He looked beyond Clint, out the
windshield, expressionless.
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So much for the idea of a pleasant car ride, too. Clint told
himself Ethan's rudeness didn't bother him. Yet, down deep
where it mattered, he wanted the boy to like him. He'd
always gotten along well with kids. The teens who worked for
him in the summer rarely complained, and when he'd briefly
substituted at the junior high, they'd called him cool.
Maybe it was just puberty. Thirteen hadn't been the
easiest year for him either, as he recalled.
As he rolled down the driveway, he glanced in the rearview
mirror. Ethan's gaze locked with his, narrowed, then cut to his
lap.
Clint furrowed his brow and navigated the turn. The
highway stretched out before them, a long dark ribbon that
led into the heart of the city.
The boy in the back with red hair shattered the silence as
he leaned forward to look at the other two. "Dude, did you
hear Elaine say Stephanie would be there?"
"No way," the kid in the middle said. "Ethan, didn't
Stephanie give you her number?"
Clint chanced a glance in the mirror, catching Ethan's self-
satisfied smirk.
"Yeah. I talked to her for like three hours the other night."
Clint slid his gaze to Jesse, chuckling silently at her
amused grin. If there was one subject that could pull a
teenage boy out of sulking, it was girls. Evidently pretty ones,
at that.
"Aw man, you suck," the redhead complained. "I'd give my
left one to have her calling me."
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Jesse's brows pinched together. Twisting in her seat, she
scolded, "Language, Sam. I'm still here."
He hung his head and looked up through lowered lashes.
"Sorry, Jessica."
There it was again—Jessica. It sounded out of place. Her
parents had been the only people who called her by her given
name, excepting teachers on the first day of school. In third
grade, she'd nearly broken a boy's thumb when he'd made
the fatal mistake of using her full name. Why had she
adopted it now?
"Just keep it clean. We'll be out of your hair soon enough,"
Jesse added as she scooted around to face forward again.
"Yes, ma'am," the boy in the middle chimed in.
Clint drove the rest of the way in silence, listening to the
occasional snippets of adolescent chatter that drifted from the
back seat. When they arrived at Crown Center, he parked in
the underground lot and shut the engine off. Before he had
one foot on the ground, all three boys shot-gunned out of the
car.
Bolting to his feet, Clint leaned over the car's roof.
"Ethan."
Ethan stopped mid-stride. His shoulders stiffened, and his
jaw pulled tight as he turned around. "Yeah?"
Giving him a look that said he wouldn't put up with any
arguments, Clint gestured at the car. "Get your mother's
door."
For a moment, Ethan did nothing more than blink. His
mouth opened, then closed, and he stared at Jesse's door like
he'd never seen the side of a car. Then, as if everything came
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together at once in his brain, he strode forward and eased the
door open.
"Thank you," Jesse murmured. As she climbed out, a
pretty pink colored her cheeks.
"Can we go, Mom? It's so not cool to have you hanging
around if Stephanie's here."
Clint resisted the urge to chuckle, sensing his humor
wouldn't be appreciated. But Jesse did it for him. She let out
a light laugh and shooed Ethan away. "Go on. I'll be on the
ice, though, so watch yourself."
The young man's sullen demeanor cracked with a smile
that showed off neat white teeth, seconds before he broke
into a jog.
Walking around the front of the car, Clint joined Jesse.
"You're really taking me on the ice?"
"You really think I'd let you out of it?"
Shaking his head, he gave in to his laughter. "No." Not in a
hundred years. She'd gloat if he fell, and it would become one
more story, amongst their many, to reminisce over, years
from now.
"That was sweet of you, Clint."
"What was?"
She nodded toward the skating rink. "Ethan. Having him
get my door."
Clint shrugged. "It's something he should learn. I hear
women like these things."
"That's what makes you so special," she remarked in a low
voice. "If he spent time with no one but you and your
brothers, he'd turn out okay. More than okay."
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His chest tightened at her praise. For the first time since
he could remember, someone stopped to tell him, in so many
words, that he mattered. Not for what he owned, not for what
he could do for someone else—just the things that made him
what he was. It mattered little that she'd included his
brothers in the statement. She'd included
him
.
At a loss, he nodded again and fell into step at her side,
following her into the indoor concession stand and rental
counter. Stale air filled his nostrils, blending with the scent of
nacho cheese, popcorn and hot dogs. Memories hit him full
force—junior high, much like Ethan and his friends did now,
they'd come here almost every weekend when the rink was
open. Heath had split his lip on the ice his first time out on
skates. Alex had his first date on a snowy December night.
And Clint had a birthday party here one year. His fourteenth.
Every excursion involved Jesse. She'd brought chips of ice
for Heath, teased Alex mercilessly, and dropped her cupcake
on the ice. For as far back as his memories went, she was a
fixture in his life. As much a part as his brothers.
The lump in his gut rolled heavily. He stood to lose so
much. If this, whatever it was that brewed between them,
ended badly, all those memories would bring regret.
Yet, even as he considered the dilemma, he couldn't
imagine any other option. Damned if he knew what it was,
but she had something he needed. And the yearning to
possess that something ate at him like salt on a wound. He
longed to wrap his fingers around it. Hold on tight. Absorb
every miniscule particle of whatever it was.
Never let go.
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Her dainty fingers wrapped around his wrist, and she gave
him a tug. "C'mon, fraidy cat. Let's get our skates."
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A gust of cold air rushed beneath Jesse's coat as she
skated around a corner. She edged closer to Clint, in search
of his natural warmth. Around her hand, strong fingers gave a
soft squeeze, and she looked up to smile into his bright
amber eyes.
"Cold?" he asked above the music that poured from the
loud speakers.
"Yeah."
He pulled up short, using the toe of his skate to dig into
the ice. It hadn't taken either one of them long to remember
how to skate. After a couple slips, a near fall when four
teenagers rushed around them, and a retreat to the far outer
edge of the rink, they'd slipped into old habit. The only
difference, tonight Clint reached out and closed the distance
by holding her hand.
"Want to turn in the skates and get some cocoa?"
She searched the sea of kids and couples, looking for
Ethan's blond head. She found him leaning on the rail, Sam
and Mark flanking, while they talked to a group of young girls
on the opposite side. "I should stay close..."
"Why?" He gave her hand a bounce. "He's thirteen. He
can't go anywhere, and he's not likely to get into trouble
here."
He had a point. At some time she had to let go and trust.
Completely. Ethan wanted this life as much as she did. He
wouldn't deliberately risk being pulled out of her home by
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getting into unnecessary trouble. Besides, it had been a good
year since he'd done anything to give her cause to worry.
With a decisive dip of her chin, she relented. "Okay. Cocoa
sounds good."
Clint pushed off the ice, gently pulling her along behind
him as he headed for the exit. When they stepped into the
heated concession room, two teenage girls looked up,
covered their mouths to whisper between themselves, then
broke into giggles. Jesse suppressed a smirk. They weren't
the first to observe Clint. In fact, she'd found more than one
pair of female eyes on him tonight. And like they had in high
school, the appreciative gazes quickly cut to her, full of envy.
The difference being, where she'd laughed at the jealously
her friendship with the King brothers created back then,
tonight the envious glares sent a prideful thrill rushing all the
way down to her toes. Clint was handsome. His dark hair,
aquiline nose, strong jaw and sensual mouth would make any
woman look up and take notice. But it went beyond that too.
His very presence called attention. At a little over six foot, his
powerful frame dominated the room. A figure meant to
intimidate, yet shrouded by a welcoming smile and a warm
twinkle in his bright eyes.
She looked away from him, her body flushing with
uncustomary warmth. Taking time to appreciate Clint's good
looks would only lead to trouble. She still couldn't get the
image of him in a tux out of her head—nor the intensity in his
eyes when she'd found him staring at her through the mirror.
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He led them to a small bench, and she sat down to untie
her laces. When she pulled the skates off, she wriggled her
stiff toes, welcoming the warmth of the room.
"Here." He held out an empty hand, indicating her skates.
"I'll get our shoes."
"Thanks. My legs feel like jelly."
A wry grin tugged the corner of his mouth and pulled his
solitary dimple into play. "Wuss."
As he walked in front of her, Jesse slapped him in the butt.
His chuckle lingered long after he disappeared across the
room. In moments, he returned, her tennis shoes in one
hand, his hiking boots in the other. While she tied her laces,
he stuffed his feet in and disappeared again.
Jesse looked up to find him at the concession stand, and
her heart did a little tap-dance against her ribs. She'd tried to
convince herself all night this was nothing other than two old
friends getting together to chaperone teenagers. But the way
Clint attended to her, the way he insisted on paying, finally
pushed the realization through her brain—something else was
happening here. She didn't know exactly what, but Clinton
King had never paid for so much as a can of Coke without
loaning
her the change.
In all their time together, he'd never once treated her any
differently than Alex or Heath. She'd watched him a hundred
times or more with girlfriends, and a different man appeared.
One who knew the rules of long-dead chivalry. One who doted
on whichever woman shared his company.
Now, she stood on the receiving end of his gentlemanly
manners. And for the life of her, she'd never have believed a
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simple paper cup of cocoa could make her tummy flutter like
she'd swallowed a boxful of butterflies.
His eyes locked with hers as he returned, those rich amber
portals setting off a tremor deep inside her soul. Her hand
shook as she accepted the drink, and she chuckled to hide a
sudden bout of nervousness.
"It'll warm you up," he murmured as he sat back down to
tie his boots.
She could think of a dozen things or more that would
warm her up far better. All involving him. But she bit down on