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Chapter 24
1973

A few months after the explosions in the city centre Izzy went off to the USA for her concert tour, with her first appearance, as planned, being at Carnegie Hall. Originally she was to be accompanied by her parents and Maggie, but Mageen, Sarah, Bill and Harry were so determined to be there for such a special high point in Izzy's career, that they all made whatever adjustments were necessary to their various commitments and arrived in time for the big moment. To her bitter disappointment Aunt May had a nasty dose of flu and wasn't able to attend.

As was expected the concert was a sell-out. The whole family was bursting with pride. Sitting waiting for the concert to begin they chatted quietly.

‘Who would have believed that our unplanned, unexpected child, and the one who was so frail when she was little, would have become an international star? I can't believe that I'm truly sitting here in Carnegie Hall, waiting for her to start playing Rachmaninoff.'

‘It's a weird feeling, Milo, and this is going to sound so silly – but
I
feel nervous and
I'm
not the one who's going to be performing.'

‘I do too, Noola darlin', but don't we always feel that way when we're at Izzy's concerts?'

‘Yes, Mammy, but never quite so much as I do now.'

Milo laughed.

‘And I thought I was just being an over-anxious dad.'

Overhearing him, Harry also laughed.

‘Since you've admitted it, I must say I'm nervous too, I'm certain we all are!'

It was a resounding success and there would be rave reviews the next day. After the concert there were celebrations well into the small hours. Afterwards Milo and Noola, with enormous pride and pleasure, reflected on Izzy's success.

‘It's unbelievable, especially when you consider all she went through.'

‘You know, Noola, I'm convinced that surviving and recovering from that appalling experience has made her into a person who will cope with anything life may throw at her.'

‘Yes, my darling. Just like Mageen, only Izzy's experience was even worse. It's a wonder she came out of it sane and normal.'

‘Well she certainly did and it looks as if this is only the beginning of her success.'

‘Let's hope and pray for that.'

Inwardly he couldn't help reflecting how proud his father would have been of this gifted grandchild. I wish you knew, Dad, he thought to himself. But then, maybe you do – you who, I'm quite convinced, protected her when she so needed you. Maybe I'm becoming a nutter!

Milo, Bill, Harry and Sarah had to return home, but Noola and Maggie stayed with Izzy for the remainder of her tour and revelled in the whole amazing experience. Izzy's last concert was scheduled to be in Minneapolis where she was to play with the prestigious Minnesota Orchestra. For several days leading up to the concert they stayed in a big comfortable hotel close to the concert hall, this allowing rehearsals with the orchestra. Izzy developed an allergic reaction to something, she wasn't sure what, but the old familiar rash broke out. At a small, privately owned pharmacy nearby, recommended by the receptionist at the hotel, she asked for some of the lotion which she knew would help. The pharmacist had difficulty finding exactly what she wanted and called the owner/manager. A good-looking man came to speak to her and looked at her with delight.

‘You're Iseult Butler, the pianist, aren't you?'

‘Yes, I am,' she answered, with pleasure at being recognised, although this was becoming quite a common occurrence. However, she hadn't expected a pharmacist to recognise her, although she couldn't quite think why.

‘I'm going to your concert tomorrow and really looking forward to it.'

‘Thank you. I hope you enjoy it.'

‘I know I will. Now let me see what I can find that will get rid of that rash. Something not needing a prescription.'

He searched around and found a lotion for her.

‘I'm pretty sure this will do the trick.'

‘Thank you so much.'

She got out her purse to pay.

‘No, no. Please, it's on the house. It's not every day I've the pleasure of serving an internationally recognised pianist.'

‘That really is very kind. Thank you.'

He was tall and slim with crew-cut silver hair, blue eyes and a warm smile. He also had a closely trimmed beard and moustache, in colour a little darker than his hair. He had a very sympathetic aura about him and she liked him.

‘We'll be having a celebration after the concert. As a thank you for your generous gesture would you and your wife like to join us?'

‘I'd love that but I have no wife.'

Why did that make her feel pleased?

‘I don't know your name.'

‘I'm Jed Seabourne.'

‘Well, Jed, if there's anyone else you'd like to bring along that would be fine.'

‘No. It'll just be me and I look forward to that.'

Like all her other concerts it was a huge success, with a standing ovation for Izzy. Much to her delight Jed turned up afterwards for the party. They got along like a house on fire and Noola and Maggie liked him too, finding him very sociable and easy to talk to. He seemed almost old fashioned in his manners and attitude generally and he didn't have too strong an American accent which, perhaps, could have made him difficult to understand at times to the untuned ear. However, he was obviously a lot older than Izzy and, in a way, they were quite glad they were going home soon, for she seemed to be more than a little taken with him. Remembering her attraction to Bertie, it occurred to Noola that Izzy seemed to have a preference for older men and wondered if they gave her a sense of security perhaps not given by younger men. It was getting late and the party was winding down. Izzy felt free to spend a little more time with Jed, having been meticulous in talking to all the other guests and indeed revelling in the generous accolade for the final concert of her tour.

‘Sorry I haven't been able to spend much time with you, Jed, but I'm so pleased you came along.'

‘So am I, Miss Butler.'

‘Oh, my friends all call me Izzy and I'd be happy for you to do the same.'

‘Thank you. I feel honoured to be regarded as a friend.'

‘Well, you were so kind to me yesterday how could I regard you any other way?'

‘If you've nothing special planned for your last few days here I'd love to give you a guided tour of our places of interest. Did you know we've strong connections around here with Hiawatha and Minnehaha?'

‘No, although we were very excited at seeing the mighty Mississippi. We've been so taken up with my concert arrangements here that we haven't had much time for sightseeing.' She paused for a moment. ‘But I would
love
to have a guided tour given by someone who lives locally and knows the places worth seeing. I'm sure my mother and grandmother would be delighted too. Give me a few minutes to talk to them. I won't be long.'

He made his way over to the bar, hardly taking his eyes off her, while she spoke earnestly to Noola and Maggie. She put the proposal to them.

‘I really would love to have Jed show us the sights. What do you think?'

They looked at the eager, anxious face. Izzy had worked so hard; had had an exhausting tour and not that much time to do what she really wanted. Concert after concert; rehearsal after rehearsal; daily practice for hours. She wasn't asking much of them and somehow they couldn't refuse. They liked Jed but still had those reservations. However, they'd soon be home and she'd probably forget him quite quickly.

‘You don't want to go and have a quick look at California, perhaps San Francisco for a few days?'

‘I really would rather stay here, Mum.'

‘All right, sweetheart, why not? What about you, Mammy?'

‘I'm just happy to be with you both, wherever it may be in this fascinating country.'

‘Mum, Granny, you're wonderful. Thank you.'

The radiant face was their reward. She hurried back to Jed.

‘Yes, they're happy to accept your offer.'

He gave her a marvellous smile and joined Noola and Maggie.

‘Thank you both. I feel so privileged to be allowed to act as guide to an international star and her family. In fact I'm really excited.'

‘Can you get time off at such short notice?'

‘Well, actually I own the pharmacy and have an excellent assistant manager who I trust. I rarely take time off so I feel quite comfortable asking her to look after things for a few days.'

They were there for their last three days and found it genuinely interesting, with Jed as a wonderful guide. He behaved impeccably and didn't try to push anything with Izzy. They couldn't have faulted him, although he said very little about himself and they didn't want to pry. So on the last evening Noola and Maggie agreed that they would back out of dinner and leave the two of them to have some time to themselves. Izzy felt so comfortable in his company and had longed for a chance to have him to herself, so was highly delighted. Jed felt as if he had been given a million dollars.

Neither would ever forget that evening. He took her to a restaurant in a highly recommended hotel where there was live music and dancing. He wanted to know all about her and in her forthright way she chatted away about her family and Riverside and the family's great love affair with the River Liffey. In turn he told her how he'd been to college, but decided he would like to try running his own business. How hard it was at first and how he had sometimes worked eighteen hours a day to pay off the outstanding loan to the bank, not minding what he did: labouring, working in bars and so on. But now he had almost paid off the debt and would soon own the business outright. He felt quite proud of his achievements. His foster parents had been dead for some years. He had no known relatives and didn't want to pursue any enquiries in that direction in case he found they weren't what he might have chosen.

‘Is that very selfish, Izzy?'

She thought for a moment.

‘No. Actually I can understand. I've heard of people discovering they had relatives who they would have preferred not to know.'

‘Izzy, these have been the most wonderful few days of my life. I can't remember when I've been happier. Would you be willing to keep in touch? I know we live far apart and I'm a lot older than you but I'd be really sad to lose all contact. Could we be penfriends?'

He seemed almost wistful. She didn't hesitate. She'd been hoping he might make some suggestion of this kind.

‘It's been such a happy time for me too. I'd love to keep in touch. The penfriend idea is great. Then if I come back for another concert tour we could meet up again or you might even come to Ireland for a holiday.'

‘Well, you just never know. Now how about a dance?'

‘Yes. That would be lovely.'

He took her in his arms and she had the weird feeling that she had come home, this was where she belonged. They danced slowly around the floor and she nestled her cheek next to his. They didn't speak – words weren't needed and afterwards, in true gentlemanly fashion, he took her back to her hotel and said goodnight, with a brief peck on the cheek. He didn't dare to wait for her to suggest a nightcap, for he wouldn't have been able to refuse and he was frightened where it might lead. There was no way he was going to risk being tempted any further or, more to the point, compromising Izzy.

Next morning he drove them to the airport to see them off, courteous and considerate to the last. They said goodbye reluctantly, but Noola didn't extend an invitation for him to stay at Riverside if he came to Dublin. She was still much too concerned about the obvious age gap between him and Izzy and was relieved there was such a big distance separating them. Moreover, much as she admired the United States, she was rather appalled at the idea of Izzy possibly emigrating to America. She simply didn't want one of her children so far away from her. The UK was quite far enough. Later Izzy would look back on 1973 as such a happy year.

Chapter 25

In June of that same year Isabel gave birth to a little boy. She and Tommy were ecstatic and the twins were apparently vying with each other in trying to help with the new baby. This time the child did have typical Butler black curls but very blue eyes. They called him Milo after his uncle. Not long afterwards, to everyone's delight and by a remarkable coincidence, Bill was posted to Cyprus with a contingent of the Irish UN Peacekeeping Force and so was able to report back first-hand on the new member of the Butler family.

Being so good-looking Bill was often the target of female interest, something he had been accustomed to from his teenage years. But while he enjoyed the company of the girls, and even flirted gently with them, he had never ever stepped out of line with his vows. However, being a normal red-blooded man, he was not by any means immune to feeling the appeal of members of the opposite sex and, during his brief stay in Cyprus, he was put to the test in a big way when he found himself strongly attracted to a very beautiful Cypriot girl.

He met Androulla at a social function hosted by one of the UN groups to which some of the Irish contingent had been invited. Local dignitaries had also been invited, including Androulla's father who was a member of the Greek Cypriot Government. She had characteristic Mediterranean dark eyes and hair and a perfect smooth, olive complexion. She was also highly intelligent and Bill found her extremely good company with her quick-fire repartee, a ready wit and an impressive knowledge of current local and worldwide politics. She had recently completed her studies to be a lawyer at the new University of Warwick, so it was no surprise that her English was perfect, spoken with a delightful trace of a foreign accent, which added to her attraction. She appealed to him powerfully, both emotionally and intellectually, more than any other girl he could remember and he quickly picked up the fact that she was responding to him in the same way.

The evening came to an end and Bill had spent more time with Androulla than protocol would have dictated. Even though he had occasionally made the supreme effort to go and mingle socially with the other guests, time and again he drifted back to her. When they were saying goodbye, in a very brief aside out of hearing of anyone else, she had made a comment that had disconcerted him:

‘I'm sorry that you're a priest, Bill. I do understand what that means – it's best if we don't meet again.'

He was on the verge of saying he was sorry too; of saying he'd love to meet her again, all his instincts telling him that she would readily agree to such a suggestion, but he pulled himself up short and bid her and her parents a formal farewell.

He was so sorely tempted. Typical Butler it had taken the briefest time for him to lose his heart completely to this lovely young woman. He had never been in love before. He had found some girls extremely attractive but had never really loved any of them. Now I understand, he thought to himself. I didn't fully appreciate before what I was sacrificing. Dad's right. We Butlers are a virile lot and now, for the first time, I truly realise what I've forsworn. I've been so self-righteous in believing I knew what it was all about and that it wasn't such a difficult thing to do: to forego my natural instincts. Now I'm being tested and what am I going to do? Fall at the first fence? Give up everything I believe in? Give up being a priest? But, oh God, I want her desperately, in every sense of the word. I want to be with her; spend all my time with her; to enjoy her company as much as I know I would; to have the joy of looking at her; to make love to her.

It hurt so much. He wasn't convinced he could withstand the temptation. He spent most of that night and was to spend many hours afterwards on his knees, in agony of mind, praying for strength and courage to honour his vows.

More than two thousand miles away to the west Harry knew. Like the earlier generation of Butler identical twins he and Bill could feel each other's emotions and more than anything else they could feel each other's pain and distress. Harry couldn't sleep a wink. He tossed and turned. He tried reading a book, but it was no good and instinctively he knew something was wrong with Bill. It came to five o'clock in the morning and he couldn't stand the anxiety any longer. He knew that by then it would be seven o'clock there and everyone on the base in Cyprus would be up and about with many having started their day's work. So he telephoned and asked to speak to Bill urgently, explaining that he was his brother calling from Dublin. He didn't have long to wait, for Bill was close by having cup after cup of coffee in the dining room. Concerned that something was wrong at home, he hurried to take the call.

‘Hello, Harry. Is something wrong?'

‘Not here, Billy, but I know something's very wrong with you – I haven't slept a wink. What is it? Can I do anything?'

‘Bless you, Harry, I wish you could but it's something I've got to sort myself and not something I can talk about on the phone.'

‘I could go out there for a few days. Perhaps just talking about it would help. Dad wouldn't mind if I took a few days off and I needn't say why, just that I'd like a bit of time with you out there.'

There was a brief silence.

‘Bill?'

‘Sorry, Harry, I was thinking about your offer. You know that would be great. Regardless of my problem it would be so good to see you and would help me a lot.'

‘I'll get there as soon as I can. With any luck in the next day or so.'

Bill was vastly relieved. He had decided that he didn't want to talk about the whole thing with anyone out there, not even a fellow cleric. Had he been at home he might have gone to Father Callaghan and unburdened himself to his old friend and mentor, but there was no one like that here. It would be such a help to have Harry, someone he knew he could trust implicitly.

Harry arrived the next day. When he had asked, as casually as possible, for a few days leave from the office to spend a bit of time with Bill, he didn't fool his father for a second. Milo, having watched them growing up together, knew the extraordinary telepathy between them. Maggie had told him the story of how that same closeness had saved one of the earlier generation of twins from a particularly awful death when he was buried alive in the First World War. His brother had refused to give up digging for him because he had known, by that same strange telepathic communication, that he was still alive. Now, when Harry was leaving, Milo simply said to him:

‘I hope you can help him, Harry, whatever the problem is.'

Harry smiled.

‘We can't hide anything from you, Dad!'

‘Well, not much when it comes to matters involving the closeness of you two. Anything else I wouldn't be too sure about.'

Having his twin there really did help Bill through the next few difficult days. Harry listened patiently while Bill talked it through and he made sympathetic comments. However, never once did he try to influence him in his decision. Womaniser that he was, in no way was he going to try to persuade his brother to walk down the same path, for he knew that the guilt he would suffer in doing so would destroy him. In any event he felt very strongly that the final decision must be Bill's.

They had a good time together, Harry doing everything in his power to take Bill's mind off his worry and with some degree of success. Then the day after Harry returned home the October or “Yom Kippur” War broke out and despite their very short stay there, the Irish unit in Cyprus was transferred to the Sinai Desert, for peacekeeping duties in the area separating the Israeli and Egyptian forces. This kept Bill so preoccupied he had little time to dwell on personal problems and it built on the coping process started by his brother's visit.

Once they had settled into their new base, as a member of a neutral military force Bill was able to visit both countries. He had intended to visit the Holy Land while in Cyprus, but now this was even closer. Like any tourist he couldn't have failed to find it fascinating, but as a Christian in holy orders he was deeply moved to think that all the places he was walking in had probably been trodden by Jesus Christ. He also found the sights in Egypt so interesting and had time to visit the Valley of the Kings as well as the Pyramids at Giza and the museum in Cairo, with its amazing remains of all kinds but especially those of Tutankhamun. He felt sad that it had been a war that had given him such opportunities but fully appreciated it all nevertheless.

It took time but he recovered and was very thankful that he had managed to resist such a strong temptation to abandon his vows. However, one thing he did firmly resolve was that some day he would return to Cyprus, perhaps on leave, to stay with Tommy and family, for, like so many others who visited this magical island, he had fallen in love with it and wanted to see more. He now felt he could do that without opening up the sore spot again.

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