Secrets at Midnight (5 page)

It made her release a soft moan before she seemed to slip into a peaceful, deep sleep, the strange, inexplicable undertone in her scent once more dull and hidden. It took time for his anger to abate, but when it did, he had to face the cold, hard facts: Either Kirby was lying about being human rather than changeling or she didn't know.

The latter should've been impossible. Dorian, one of the DarkRiver sentinels, had been latent until approximately a year and a half ago, but though he hadn't been able to shift into his leopard form, the other man had always known of that leopard. He'd smelled like a cat, had the hearing of a cat, the instincts of one. Not only that, but his movements in human form had immediately marked him out as a feline changeling.

Kirby, on the other hand, smelled wholly—if oddly delicately—human the majority of the time, and while she was as sensual and as affectionate as any DarkRiver changeling underneath her shyness, there was nothing inherently feline about her physical presence. If she knew, she was the best actress he'd ever seen, but even the most gifted actress couldn't mask her scent to that extent, not from a fellow changeling.

Notwithstanding any of that, one thing was clear: Bastien had to inform his alpha.

The idea of exposing Kirby made his leopard snarl, his arms locking around her trusting form, but Bastien knew he had no choice. If he didn't tell Lucas and another member of DarkRiver detected Kirby's secret, she'd face harsh punishment for breaching the iron-clad rule that stated no adult predatory changeling could cross over into another's territory without permission, except in cases of imminent risk.

Bastien's scent on her should keep her safe. Lucas wouldn't mete out the penalty without first contacting him, but Kirby would be terrified in the meantime. And, given that they weren't yet lovers, he couldn't be certain his scent would hold on her skin.

No way in hell would he risk it. Lucas had to know.

Bastien would deal with any consequences.

“You're mine, little cat,” he murmured, brushing his lips over her temple, “and I'm not letting go.” Not now. Not ever.

B
astien got up before Kirby, and was fully dressed when she rose happy and energetic. It soothed man and leopard both to see her that way, and he made sure to sneak in a playful kiss, his body wrapped around hers, before he drove her the short distance to the kindergarten.

Never would his mate hunger for touch again.

Cheeks still flushed, she surprised him by leaning across from the passenger seat to claim his mouth in an affectionate good-bye once they reached her workplace. “Will I see you tonight?” She fiddled with the belt of the dark green dress coat she wore over a kindergarten-appropriate outfit of jeans and a white shirt with elbow-length sleeves.

He wanted to tell her he was her mate, would always be there for her, but her life was already complicated—Kirby needed him to be her rock right now, not use her vulnerability to shove her into the passionate intensity of the mating bond. “Unless you plan to seduce another helpless male,” he said with a teasing smile.

Making a face at him, she got out, then leaned down to smile through the open window. “I can't wait to see you again.”

Her courage in saying what was in her heart further enslaved him. Forcing himself to leave once she entered the cheerful little building that would soon fill with children's voices, he went to his apartment only long enough to shower and change. Ten minutes later, he was dressed in jeans paired with a dark gray T-shirt, and on the phone with his assistant,
issuing instructions about what needed to be done in his absence.

Then—staying on the phone using the car's wireless capabilities—he drove not to DarkRiver's Chinatown HQ but to the green sprawl of the pack's Yosemite territory. According to Lucas's admin assistant, the DarkRiver alpha was working from home today. Bastien's own assistant continued to touch base with him throughout the drive, but even as he fielded the queries, part of his mind was on the conversation he'd had with Kirby over breakfast.

“Do you have any changeling ancestry?”

Kirby's laughter had been as sunny as the morning light pouring through the narrow window at one end of her kitchen. “No, plain old human as far as I know.” An open smile that kicked him right in the heart. “Do you mind?”

“I'd think you were perfect even if you were an ice-cold Psy.”

Bastien would stake his life on the fact that there'd been no deceit in her then, or at any time prior. As far as Kirby was concerned, she was human. Except, that was simply
not possible
. A changeling's animal was as integral to his or her life as the human half of their nature—Bastien couldn't be human as he couldn't be leopard.

He was changeling, accustomed to the feel of his leopard stretching lazily beneath his skin when he wore this form, and to thinking with a man's mind if necessary while in cat form. The idea that Kirby could've separated the two somehow, stifling her animal side . . . it not only made no sense, it should've been physiologically impossible according to all known laws of science and nature.

Yet her scent argued otherwise. He'd finally realized why he'd had such trouble tracking her—it was because Kirby's scent wasn't integrated as it should be. The feline part was too primal for a changeling, not balanced by the human aspect, while the human part was too gentle without the feline edge to it. Kirby didn't have the natural depth to her scent a human would have, because she
wasn't
human, her scent meant to be a combination of the two sides of her nature.

“Bas.” His assistant's voice interrupted his turbulent thoughts. “I just got the report on those shares.”

“Go.” Wrenching his attention to the topic at hand, he listened, then gave further instructions, after which he switched to speak to another colleague, before handling a minor issue for an elder in the pack.

The work was welcome; it kept his mind from going around in circles.

He was back in contact with his assistant by the time he parked the vehicle in Yosemite, directing the younger male to make several small financial maneuvers designed to benefit the pack. That done, he gave a “do not disturb” order and stuffed his phone into the front left pocket of his jeans before stretching out into a run, the alpha pair's aerie in a part of the forest inaccessible to vehicles.

Though he ran in human form, he gave up control of his body to the leopard. It loved the freedom of the forest, loved feeling the wind ripple through its coat, the carpet of forest debris soft and quiet beneath the pads of its paws. That leopard, however, was also very strategy minded and enjoyed what Bastien did for the pack—to the cat, the financial stuff appeared akin to a game, a hunt.

Seeing a young soldier on patrol on the extended perimeter around Lucas's aerie, he halted, the human half of his nature rising to the surface once more. “Luc in?”

The tall auburn-haired male nodded, grin bright. “He's on babysitting detail.”

“Thanks.”

Ten minutes later, he found Lucas sitting at a small table set below the sprawling canopy of a forest giant, the dwelling cradled in its branches concealed by dense foliage. The cabin the alpha had built when his mate's pregnancy became too advanced for her to climb the rope ladder to the aerie was gone, no trace of it on the forest floor.

Lucas had a tablet computer on his lap, a sleek phone set to one side of the table, and what looked like a set of marked-up contracts on the other. Right then, however, his attention was on the baby girl who lay happily on her back on the blue-and-green picnic blanket beside the table, kicking her legs in the air.

As Bastien watched, Luc set aside the tablet to go down to
the blanket. Tickling Naya gently on the bottoms of tiny feet covered by the sunny yellow fabric of her footsie pants, he pushed up her fluffy white sweater to blow a raspberry against her stomach, his hair the same rich black as his cub's.

Naya's giggles floated on the air, her delight infectious.

“She doesn't bite, Bas.” An amused glance.

“I was taking a photo for Mom.” Sliding away his phone, he sprawled on the blanket on his back, and—with a glance at Lucas—picked Naya up to place her on his chest. She batted at him with baby fists, her smile sweet and innocent. Catching those soft hands, he pretended to bite and growl, which made her convulse in laughter in the way only babies could.

“And the patented Smith charm strikes again.” The dry comment had barely left Lucas's mouth when his phone beeped.

Grabbing it from the table without leaving his seated position on the picnic blanket, he spent a couple of minutes discussing a timetable change relating to a construction project for which Bastien was handling the finances. When he hung up, it was to give Bastien his full attention. “What is it?” The question of an alpha to a member of his pack, not one man to another.

His leopard immediately aware of the difference, Bastien rose to a sitting position, too, and placed Naya carefully on her back on the blanket, where she grabbed her daddy's hand to gum at his fingers. “There might be a situation.” It was difficult to speak past his protectiveness where Kirby was concerned, but he forced himself to lay it all out.

Panther-green eyes watched him without interrupting until he was done. “You're convinced she doesn't know?”

“She's not a liar, Luc.” Of that, both parts of his nature were in snarling agreement. “Whatever this is, it's not a case of her attempting to sneak into our territory.”

“All right.” Lucas leaned down to lightly tap his daughter on the tip of her nose in what was clearly a game between them, Naya's tiny hands trying to catch his finger; each miss made her laugh that open, bright laugh, and try again. “Stay on top of it and keep me posted.”

Bastien blinked. “Just like that?” Given the volatile
political climate, the entire pack on alert for signs of aggression from any corner, he'd expected more of an inquisition.

Lucas's lips curved. “I can scent blood—you've cut your palms with your claws, you've been fighting so hard not to go for my throat because I questioned you about your Kirby.”

Bastien stared at his palms, having not realized what he'd done.

“And,” Lucas continued, allowing his daughter to catch his finger to her gleeful cry, “since you're one of the most stable, centered members of the pack, your loyalty beyond question, it's pretty damn obvious she isn't just a friend or a casual lover.”

“She's mine,” Bastien answered simply.

Lucas picked Naya up to cradle her against his chest, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. “No alpha worth his salt gets between another leopard and his woman.” Steady eye contact, alpha to packmate, dominant to dominant. “You're no green boy, Bas. I trust your judgment.”

That, Bastien thought, was why Lucas was alpha. It wasn't only about brute strength, but about the intelligence to know his people, and the heart to have faith in them. “I know you have to inform the senior people in the pack about her being in the territory”—ensuring Kirby's safety—“but do you mind if I tell Mercy?” His sister and her mate were currently out of state, touching base with the falcons.

“Why don't you talk to her when she and Riley return from Arizona?” Lucas glanced down as his cub yawned, the smile on the DarkRiver alpha's face gentler than Bastien had ever before seen. “I'd think about talking to Dorian, too, soon as possible.”

The blond sentinel, Bastien had already figured out, was the only one who'd been through anything that might be analogous to Kirby's situation. “I was planning to call him from the car.” Reaching out, he touched Naya's fisted hand where it lay against Lucas's heart and the baby curled her delicate fingers around his. “How do you bear it, Luc?” he murmured, his own heart raw with emotion for this small new packmate. “She's so vulnerable, so fragile.”

Lucas's panther looked out at Bastien through a human face. “Would you die to protect her?”

“That's not even a question.” Bastien would bleed for any of his packmates, but the smallest, most vulnerable had a special place in all their hearts.

“That's how I bear it,” Lucas said. “By reminding myself that every man, woman, and juvenile in this pack would fight to their last breath to protect her from harm.” A soothing rumble in his chest as Naya made a tiny sound, the leopard speaking to its cub. “We're family, Bas, and family stands together. Whatever's going on with your Kirby, we'll figure it out.”

The words centered him, calmed his leopard. No matter what, Kirby was no longer alone. She had him—and she had the strength of DarkRiver behind her.

•   •   •

BASTIEN
had just hit the edge of the city, having spent a good forty minutes talking to Dorian about what it had been like to shift after a lifetime of being latent, when he received another call. “Kirby?” he said, having programmed her number into his phone.

“Bastien.” A shuddering breath. “I—c-can you come get me? I've taken the rest of the day off, arranged a substitute.”

“I'll be there in ten minutes.”

He pulled up to find Kirby waiting a few meters up from the kindergarten. “I'm sorry,” she said as soon as he got out of the driver's seat. “I didn't know who else to call.” Her eyes huge, she swallowed. “You must've been doing something important.”

“Shh.” Enfolding her trembling body in his arms, he ran his hand firmly up and down her back, making sure to touch the bare skin of her nape with each stroke. “I'm glad you called me.”

He could've held her forever, but he was conscious that though quiet, this was a public spot. More important, it was near Kirby's place of work. “Come on, little cat. We'll go somewhere private to talk.”

Once he had her in the car, he turned up the heater full blast and drove them a short distance to a city park dotted with comparatively small evergreens, around which meandered a walking path. Today, it was empty, the grass a deep jewel green under sunlight. Bastien got out as soon as they
arrived, viscerally aware of Kirby's continued distress, and sensing she'd do better out in the open.

Kirby didn't argue when he drew her into the park, wrapping one of his arms around her shoulders so he could cuddle her close. “Tell me what's wrong.”

Stopping, she turned into him beside the straight trunk of a young pine. “Something strange is happening to me.” The words were utterly inadequate to express the raging chaos within her, but they were all Kirby had.

“Go on.”

Bastien's steady gaze, his deep voice, his touch—oh, how she loved the way he touched her so readily—it gave her an anchor as she described her strange madness. “I was in the back room getting a drink of water for one of the children,” she began, still unable to make sense of it, “and all at once, I could hear every single child in the main room. Not just a blur of voices, but specific voices, each word crystal clear.”