Ruining Me (8 page)

“I ask
ed
some
of the
regulars at the bar
if they knew you
,
” he said in th
at sexy
scratchy voice of his.  “
Some
guy named Kip knew exactly where you lived. 
Do you w
ant to tell me how he knew that
,
because I didn’t give him time to e
laborate
?
”  His tone didn’t sound happy. 
I nar
rowed my eyes at him.

“
Not that it’s any of your business,
but I used to date his brother.”

Kane
lowers
his eyes and
just sh
akes
his head.
 
He raise
s
them once again towards me
and ask
s
,
“Are you
r
parents’
home?”  I
have no idea why
I did
n
o
t lie
because
I really d
o not
know him, but I shook my head no. 
Looking
up into his eyes
,
he steps
up to me, “Why didn’t you come meet me tonight?” 

“Yesterday was just too intense for me.  Right now is al
most too intense for me.  I really don’t want to deal with whatever this is right at this moment.
” 

I hear him chuckle
and
I fe
e
l
it all
the way down to my toes.

“
I love
an honest woman.
  Hell
Ja
y
, you think I want this right now?  You have no clue w
h
ere I’m coming from.  I’m trying to build a company with my brother down here and working two jobs.  I barely have a moment to breathe.
It’s crazy because I’ve
been trying to figure out what the hell I am doing in my life when
s
udden
ly, I
spot this girl who in an instant
makes me laugh and I haven’t done that in a long time.  I’m not looking for anything serious, but
I couldn’t concentrate last night or today wonderin
g what would happen when I
saw
you next. 
I dreamed of you all night
long
and
I woke
up
needing
to see
you
.  I
f I
would have
known
where you lived I w
ould have been here this morning
.” 

He lifts
his
arms
and cradle
s
my face with
both of
his
strong
hand
s
.  I close my eyes and let his voice pour over me.  “I’ve never burned for a woman before and all night I burned for you.”  A full tremor shook my body.  I didn’t have to open my eyes to know that he felt it.  “Look at me Ja
y
, if I could walk away I would.  I need to walk away, but I can’t.  Nothing in this world could make me
. 
Shit
,
it’s only been twenty-four hours
since we met. 
This is cr
azy. You don’t know me, but I know you feel this.”  His eyes plead with mine. 

I’ve lied to everyone these last two years.  I
’ve
lied to
lifelong
friends and to my family, but as much as I know that I needed to lie to this man
and back away from him
, I just couldn’t.  I grab
the back of his head and pull
his lips to mine and in that instant we both went up in flames.  I actually swore I heard him growl.
Our han
ds were everywhere and he kisses
me as he
walk
s
me in the door and shut
s
it behind us. 
He backs
me up to the round table in t
he middle of the hall and lifts
me up
to sit on
it.  Not once did
his lips leave mine.  He kisses
a tr
ail
from
my ear
to
my neck while I rub my
hands up and down his
back and
then
to the front
so I can unzip his jacket
.

Kane
remove
s
it
and I push my hands underneath his shirt
to feel his skin.  Sucking in
air
he
moan
s
and
I pull his shirt up and off. 
God his chest was beautifully ripped. 
Grazing
my fingers across his nipples
,
his head f
a
l
l
s
back and I
immediately
start
kissing his neck. 
He is so yummy
,
tasting s
alty and sweet
as
I lick from one side to the other. 
Yanking my
tank top over my he
ad
he stares
at my breast
s
.

He
glances
up from
my
chest
in
to my eyes
with
a
look of appreciation
on
his face
.  He kisse
s
my mouth with a chaste kiss and repeat
s
that kiss to each nipple.  Now it was my turn to moan as he then feasted on each one. 
Slowly he
pushe
s
me
down with my
back on
the table and
he
follow
s
on top of me.  Kissing me like there was no tomorrow.  I was rubbing my hips with his and
my body was strung so tight. 
Our bodies were so in tune to each other and
he sensed what I needed and ground his hips
hard
into the vee of mine
and I
shatter
ed
.  He did that a couple of more times and I felt his body shudder
as
he moaned
then
rest
ed
all
of
his weight on
top of
me
. 

I’m not sure how much longer we lay like that. It took a couple of minutes for our breathing to slow down.  His body was still on top of mine and as far as I was
concerned
, I never had to breathe again
because
I loved his weight on me.  His head lay right on my chest and his hand rubbed circles on my stomach.  I looked down and he looked up at me. 

“I haven’t do
ne that since I was a teenager,”
he said and
laughed.  “I think I would have went down in flames had I
actually
been inside of you.” 

Oh my God, my body
lit up again
at his words
.  He finally climbed off the table and grabbed my han
d
to pull me up
.

“Baby,
where
is the nearest bathroom
?
”
 

Pointing him to it I
just sat there
grabbing
my tank top off the table and
slowly
put it back on.
My head lowered into
my hands
and everything that just happened crashed over me. 
What the hell am I doing?  

I hop off the table
at the same time
he
walks
out of the bathroom. 
Grabbing his shirt off the
floor
I
slung it at him.
Embarrassed
,
I
couldn’t look him in the eyes knowing I just made out with him like that. 
I can handle one night stands but this was different.  He was different. 

“Um, you have to go.  Like right now.  I have school in the morning.”

I notice him s
mile as he slid
es
his t-shirt
on.

“What time is your first class?  I could meet you for lunch.”

What the hell was
he talking about
? 
I
snapped at
him, “The same time it starts every morning and we can’t leave campus for lunch.” 

At that moment I seen him flinch and his eyes got a little bigger
.

”Aren’t you at the University
?
”

Looking at him I roll my eyes. 
“No I’m a senior at
Jackson
Heights
High School
.”  Oh no.  I watch
him
step back and his face looks
a little green
.

“How old are you Ja
y
and please don’t lie.” 

Okay that last part pissed me off, I’d been more honest with him tonight then with anyone else in
the last
two years.
My lips snarled as I said,
“You weren’t too worried ab
out that when your mouth was all over me
a minute ago.”  I hated to sound crass, but damn
,
now I was hu
rt and pissed.  “You need to go,”
I almost shouted
at him
.  He grabs
me around the waist
and pull
s
me to him
.

“Look I’m sorry if that hurt your feelings, but this is important.  Almost everyone I talked to tonight trying to get info on you said how you hung out at the bar
.  I know your friends with Jill. 
I just assumed you were at least twenty-one
. 
My bad, but God Ja
y
, this is
so
important.  I don’t want to go to jail
if
you’re
a minor
.” 

Looking at him I a
sked sarcastically
, “So If I told you I was under eighteen you would just leave
?
  No matter what you
r feelings, you would
what
,
walk away?
”  I had to ask, “
Even i
f I begged you to take me upstairs
right this minute
?”
  He looked in pain for about a second
, but then glanced into my eyes. 

“
Yes Ja
y
, I would walk away
.”  H
e rubbed his
hand over his
head
and
said
, “
God I would hate every single minute, but yeah, I couldn’t be that type of guy.”  I knew he meant it
.  With a huge s
igh I looked at him.

“I turned eighteen last July.  My parents held me back a year
s
o that I could go to school with their friends
’
kids. I have a fake ID that helps me drink when I need to.”  He looked
a little relieved. 

“But you
’
r
e
still in high school huh?”

“Yes Kane, is that a deal breaker for us?”