You Found Me (220 page)

“W
h
y
do
y
o
u
th
i
n
k
y
o
u
f
ee
l
li
k
e
y
ou
're
be
i
n
g
p
r
o
g
r
amm
e
d, Lara?”

“How can you not?” she asked. “Everything we do here is d
on
e
o
n
a
s
t
ri
ct
s
c
he
d
u
l
e
,
wi
t
h
n
o
th
i
n
g
e
v
e
r
be
i
n
g
a
ll
o
w
e
d
o
r
c
h
a
nge
d
if
i
t
'
s
n
o
t
in
th
e
s
c
he
d
u
l
e
.
I
f
w
e
w
a
n
n
a
p
lay
c
a
r
ds
a
n
d
i
t
'
s
t
i
me
f
o
r
th
i
s
stup
id
s
e
s
s
i
on
,
t
o
ugh
.
I
f
we
w
a
nn
a
e
at
w
he
n
i
t
's
fr
e
e
t
i
m
e
,
t
o
ugh.
”

“A
r
e
yo
u
s
a
y
i
n
g
o
r
d
e
r
i
s
n
't
ne
c
e
s
s
a
r
y
?”

“S
o
m
et
im
e
s,
ye
ah
I
th
i
n
k
s
o.
”

“I
d-d-d
o
n
't
th
-
th
-
th
i
n
k
so,
”
To
n
y
s
tutt
e
r
e
d. 
“O
r
d
e
r
c
-c-
c
an
b
e
a
v
-
v
-
v
e
r
y
i
m
po
r
t
a
n
t
th
-
th
-
th
i
ng.
”

T
o
n
y
w
a
s
h
i
gh
ly
un
s
t
a
b
l
e
,
m
o
r
e
so
th
an
a
n
y
o
f
th
e
ot
h
e
r
s.
H
i
s
wife
f
l
at
ou
t
to
ld
h
im
h
e
w
as
g
a
r
b
a
g
e
a
n
d
h
e
w
a
s
n
't
w
o
r
t
h
h
e
r
t
i
m
e
.
S
h
e
w
as
go
n
e
ho
u
r
s
la
te
r
.
Th
is
w
a
sn
't
h
i
s
fi
r
st
a
d
m
i
tt
a
n
c
e
,
I
l
a
te
r
l
e
a
r
n
e
d.
H
e
h
ad
bee
n
h
e
r
e
nu
m
e
r
o
u
s
t
im
e
s
a
n
d
th
i
s
w
a
s
j
u
st
a
no
t
he
r
t
r
i
p
.
I
f
e
lt
s
o
r
r
y
f
o
r
h
i
m.

“W
h
y
c
an
o
r
d
e
r
b
e
so
i
m
po
r
t
a
nt
,
Tony
?”

“
O
-
o
-
o
r
d
e
r
c
a
n
k
-
kee
p
t
h
i
ng
s
s-
s
-s-
s
af
e,
”
h
e
t
r
i
e
d
h
a
r
d
t
o
s
a
y
.
I
t
w
a
s
a
ll
I
c
ou
ld
do
t
o
l
i
s
te
n
t
o
h
i
m.
I
t
w
a
s
a
nn
o
y
i
n
g
a
n
d
did
n
't
g
o w
e
ll
wi
t
h
h
i
s
s
o
m
e
w
h
at
h
i
g
h
p
i
t
c
he
d
vo
i
c
e
.

“Y
o
u
th
i
n
k
s
o
?
”

“Y-
y
e
s
.
”

T
h
e
r
e
we
r
e
ot
h
e
r
s,
but
these
we
r
e
the
ones
I
r
ememb
e
r
the m
o
s
t
;
th
e
one
s
th
at
r
e
a
l
ly
s
tu
ck
o
u
t
a
n
d
g
r
a
bbe
d
me
th
e
m
o
s
t
.
Each
h
ad
a
un
i
q
u
e
s
to
ry
t
h
at
c
a
u
s
e
d
me
t
o
a
c
h
e
i
ns
id
e
.
I
f
e
lt
as
i
f
I
w
a
s
n
't
a
l
on
e
in
th
i
s
w
o
r
ld.
Th
i
s
w
o
r
ld
f
u
ll
o
f
h
o
rr
i
b
le
f
ee
li
ng
s
a
n
d
fa
u
l
t
s. S
o
m
eon
e
e
lse
w
a
s
go
i
n
g
th
r
o
u
g
h
w
h
at
I
w
as
go
i
n
g
th
r
o
ugh
.
P
ai
n
. L
os
s.
P
ain
a
n
d
l
o
ss.