World's Fair (37 page)

“We can go to the Fair!” I shouted as I came into the apartment. “The whole family! It’s free!”

But my father held up his hand. My father was reading my essay aloud to my mother.

“‘He should be able to go out into the country and drink raw milk. Likewise, he should traverse the hills and valleys of the city. If he is Jewish he should say so….’”

It sounded good in my father’s voice. He read it with feeling. He read it better than I could have. I was thrilled that he thought it worth reading aloud in his own voice. As he reached the end he spoke almost in a whisper.

“‘He knows the value of a dollar. He looks death in the face.’”

Neither of them said anything. They were staring at each other. I realized my mother was crying. “What’s the matter?” I said. “Ah, Ma,” I said and felt that old despicable thing in me in which tears came to my eyes at the least provocation. She shook her head and lifted the hem of her apron to her eyes.

“Nothing’s the matter,” my father said. “She’s very proud of you, that’s all. Come here.”

I went to him and he opened his arms and pulled me to him and he held me. It was awkward for me but I did not protest. When he released me, he stood up and fished around in his pocket for a handkerchief and blew his nose.

I still didn’t like it that my mother was crying. “Come on, Ma,” I said. “We have free tickets!” She laughed through her tears.

My father said, “Don’t be disappointed that you didn’t get first prize, Edgar. You are not a typical American boy and that’s all there is to it.” He cleared his throat. “Let’s celebrate! What do you say? Let’s go out for the evening!”

“Won’t that get him to bed very late?” my mother said.

“We’ll go to Krum’s,” my father said.

“He has school tomorrow,” she said.

“Rose,” my father said, “this boy has done something wonderful. Come along, don’t dally, get dressed. The night is young.”

She gave in readily enough, it was what she wanted too. And so a few minutes later we were on our walk up the Concourse, my mother and my father and I. He was in the middle. My
mother’s arm was in his and on the other side I held his hand. They looked very nice. She wore her flowered sundress with a matching jacket and a smart hat with the brim pulled over on one side, and he wore his double-breasted grey suit and his straw boater tilted at a rakish angle. I had put on a clean shirt and tie and had washed my face. “Don’t we look swanky!” I said. We were all very happy. Krum’s was up near Fordham Road. At their fountain were devised the best ice cream sodas in the Bronx. Perhaps in the world. The evening was balmy, the sun had set but the sky was still blue. The Concourse was alive with cars and people strolling in the early evening. The trees on the road dividers were in full leaf. The streetlamps had come on, and some of the cars drove with their parking lights, but the underside of the passing clouds in the sky were sunlit. My father strode along as he did when he felt good, his shoulders moving from side to side, it was almost a dance. His head bobbed. “Shoulder back,” he said to me, “chin up, eyes straight ahead. That’s it. Look the world in the eye.”

“We should call Philadelphia and tell Donald the good news,” my mother said. “We’ll do that when we get home,” she said after a moment. “He’s probably out for the evening anyway. And where did you
get
that stuff,” she said to me, leaning forward across my father to catch my eye. “Appreciating all women, indeed. You’re a chip off the old block, all right,” she said, and when we laughed she laughed with us.

I thought to myself that I was, too, in another way. Perhaps what so pleased my father—beyond my essay, beyond my enterprise—was that I had gotten us into something, in the least likely way I had come up with the tickets.

THIRTY-ONE

T
he following Friday night Donald came home, and the next day we all went to the Fair. Donald enjoyed very much the way it had happened that the family was finally going. He claimed not to be able to believe it. He hit his forehead with the heel of his hand.

The minute we entered the fairgrounds I felt at home. Everything was there just as I had left it. It was even more amazing to see the second time. We were admitted just as the letter promised, each of us was given a special pass to pin like a badge to our clothes. I was proud, I enjoyed it when people looked at us and then looked again.

We stood in the shadow of the Trylon and Perisphere, and I felt these familiar forms, huge and white, granted some sort of beneficence to my shoulders. It was hard to articulate, but it was as if I were in some invisible field of their guardianship.

I was eager to show my family what I knew. The first thing I wanted them to see was the General Motors Futurama. They all pored over the guidebook. Donald planned the itinerary. Futurama would be on it, of course, yet it made more sense first to see Democracity, the diorama inside the Perisphere. So that is what we did. We rode an escalator up inside the Trylon and walked across a pedestrian bridge into the Perisphere. It was a strange globelike room. We stood on a moving belt that went
360 degrees around the inside of the shell. We were looking down at a totally planned planetary city of the future. Everything had been designed to eliminate all problems and difficulties. A recorded narration told us about it. “In this brave new world,” said H. V. Kaltenborn, my father’s not terribly favorite radio news commentator, “brain and brawn, faith and courage, are linked in high endeavor, as men march on toward unity and peace.”

“M’God,” said my father, “he’s here too.”

The music of an orchestra and choir directed by André Kostelanetz rose from the background. Everyone stared intently at the display, but I was not terribly impressed because nothing moved except us. It was not quite as exciting as a merry-go-round, which is itself fairly dull. My mother was made slightly dizzy moving sideways in this manner. My father pointed out that he knew the music, the score was by a Negro composer named William Grant Still. It was available on records, and he had sold quite a few copies when he had his store.

We left via the Helicline, a ramp leading from the Perisphere to the ground. From this close both structures could be seen in their texture, the sunlight illuminating the gypsum board of their siding. The rough siding made dimples of shadow on the Perisphere. At one point the whiteness turned silver and I could imagine it as the flank of a great airship. Then I could see where the paint was peeling, which was discouraging. But then as we neared the ground the two structures loomed in their geometry, gradually becoming more and more monumental and revealing more of their familiar form, until everything was all right again.

Even though it was Saturday, the Fair was not as crowded as it had been on my first trip, and with fewer people filling the avenues it wasn’t as pretty a place. With fewer people in their dress-up clothes the Fair wasn’t as clean-looking or as shiny, I could see everywhere signs of decay. Perhaps this was just in my mind; I knew that in only a month the World’s Fair would close forever. But the officials who ran the exhibits seemed less attentive to the visitors, their uniforms not quite crisp. Many empty
stroller chairs stood about in banks, their operators in their pith helmets talking to one another and smoking cigarettes. Now the tractor-train horn playing “The Sidewalks of New York” seemed plaintive because so few people were aboard. I hoped my family didn’t notice any of this. I felt responsible for the Fair. However, it all seemed interesting enough to them, they were intent on the main things.

At the Westinghouse building, before we entered the Hall of Science, where Electro the Robot was the star, we stopped at the Time Capsule—or rather the site of its burial. I had seen it before it was put in the ground, because one Saturday afternoon at the Surrey Theater it was shown in the Movietone newsreel, a polished steel cylinder suspended from a crane, twice as tall as a man and pointed at both ends, like a double-headed bullet. The president of the Westinghouse Company spoke into microphones from all the radio stations that were set up there, and then they sank the Time Capsule into this hole they had dug that was just a bit wider than the capsule itself, and into which a slightly larger casing had been sunk so that the capsule would not be eroded by water in the soil and so on. And down it went into its Immortal Well, as the hole was called, and the audience applauded and then workmen screwed a cap over the whole thing and then they built a sort of concrete observation platform around it and that’s where we were now, peering down at the cap and reading the descriptive material they had posted.

The Time Capsule had been devised to show people in the year 6939 what we had accomplished and what about our lives we thought meaningful. So they had put articles of common use in there, like a windup alarm clock, a can opener, and a toothbrush and a can of tooth powder and a Mickey Mouse plastic cup, and a hat by Lilly Daché; and they had put in material like asbestos and coal, and messages from scientists, and a U.S. silver dollar and the alphabet in hand-set type, and an electric wall switch; and they had put in the Lord’s Prayer in three hundred languages, and a dictionary and photographs of factories and assembly lines, and assorted comic strips and
Gone with the Wind
, by Margaret Mitchell, which I had not yet read; and
finally newsreels of President Roosevelt giving a speech, and scenes of the United States Navy on maneuvers and the Japanese bombing of Canton in the war with China, and a fashion show in Miami, Florida.

My father wondered aloud what the people five thousand years from now would derive from these things collected in the Time Capsule. “They will think we were good engineers for a primitive people,” he said, “and had in our religion only one prayer, which we spoke in a babble of tongues, and that we wore odd hats and murdered each other and read abominable books.”

“Not so loud, Dave,” my mother said. Other people were standing there and listening. One man laughed but my mother didn’t want my father to offend anyone. Of course her reaction only provoked him into even more embarrassing comments. He asked my brother and me why we thought there was nothing in the capsule about the great immigrations that had brought Jewish and Italian and Irish people to America or nothing to represent the point of view of the workingman. “There is no hint from the stuff they included that America has a serious intellectual life, or Indians on reservations or Negroes who suffer from race prejudice. Why is that?” he said as finally we edged him away from the Immortal Well and into the Hall of Science.

It wasn’t as if my father couldn’t have a good time. On the contrary, he was enjoying himself tremendously. He could be critical of something and admire it at the same time. He just liked to use his mind. By contrast, my mother lacked any capacity for irreverence. She could be bitter, but never disrespectful. When we went through the Town of Tomorrow, a sample community of modern detached houses, each in its own new yard, she became incensed. “What’s the point of showing such houses,” she said, “when they cost over ten thousand dollars and no one in the world has the money to buy them?”

I was happy when it was time to eat. We sat in the sun and ate waffles with different kinds of topping, which we shared, and not a voice was raised in criticism.

I thought when I got them all to the Futurama, even they would be impressed. And as we rode sideways in our speaker chairs, the whole splendid panoply of highways and horizons before us, all lit up and alive with motion, an intricate marvel of miniaturization, they oohed and aahed as anyone else would. I felt better. It was exhausting to use your mind all the time, education was exhausting, particularly when it was administered by one’s parents.

My father understood that I had a proprietary interest in the occasion. So afterwards, outside, he was very gentle and said many things to show his appreciation and his delight. “It is a wonderful vision, all those highways and all those radio-driven cars. Of course, highways are built with public money,” he said after a moment. “When the time comes, General Motors isn’t going to build the highways, the federal government is. With money from us taxpayers.” He smiled. “So General Motors is telling us what they expect from us: we must build them the highways so they can sell us the cars.”

Even I had to laugh at that. Everyone did, we were having a good time.

“That may be so,” my mother said a moment later to me as my father and brother walked on ahead. “But it would be very nice to own a car.”

I
can’t recall much more of that final day at the Fair. My parents, growing tired, decided to concentrate their energies on the foreign pavilions. My mother wanted earnestly to see the Jewish Palestine pavilion. She was proud that Jews had a place among other countries. She had contributed a bit of money to the building of it. “They show how the Jewish farmers have made Palestine fertile again, with irrigation and forestry programs,” she said. “They show that Jews can be like everyone else.”

My father was interested in the Czechoslovak pavilion because
of what had happened in that country. “Chamberlain betrayed them to Hitler,” he said. “I want to go there and pay my respects. Also the Netherlands, now also lost. They have a carillon—those bells we heard a while ago? That’s the Netherlands.”