Work of Art ~ the Collection (40 page)

I consider the possibility that Jonathan’s been a flirty fantasy. It may seem selfish or shallow, but after being the focus of his powerful alpha presence, watching him crumble inserts reality into the equation. Perhaps fate has presented me the simple answer to my uncertainty about getting involved with Jonathan.

Because, no matter what, every relationship is a package deal. You have to take the pretension and bad back with adoring Jonathan, and the mercurial temperament with brilliant Max. If there isn’t a solid foundation for a relationship, like a steel armature reinforcing the core of a sculpture, the thing will crumble the first time a hard wind blows.

Chapter Four / The Bright Light

I had reservations about making art a business, but I got over it.

~ Mary Boone, Gallery Owner and Collector

I
am pissed and it’s no wonder why. My magical Santa Barbara weekend was a comedy of errors that culminated in my injured date dropping me off on the curb in front of my apartment.
What the hell?
I should’ve, at the very least, been able to drive him home, but he became belligerent at the idea of my trying to take care of him. I know he’s short-tempered because of the pain . . . but
really?

As I stand and watch, he hobbles around to the driver side, painfully lowers himself inside the car, and guns off toward Sunset Boulevard.

I climb the stairs very slowly. My heavy carry-on bag feels as if it’s full of rocks and hangs low on my shoulder. It’s still a bit early to surrender the evening and go to bed, so I decide a nap is on the top of my agenda as I open my front door.

The first thing I see is Riley perched on the edge of the dining room table naked, her legs wrapped around Dylan’s waist while she’s splayed on the table like a scrumptious party platter. She arches her back in such a way that her breasts are within Dylan’s reach, proving that her years of Pilates have paid off. Even from a distance, his lips teasing her breast are pretty damn erotic. I try not to notice what a great ass he has, but it’s pretty hard to miss, considering how it moves with each thrust.

I’ll never be able to eat a meal at that table again.

My unwelcome committee can hardly be blamed for the graphic exhibition, since I wasn’t supposed to return until Sunday evening. Regardless, it’s unsettling to witness. I’m not even sure if they notice me as I quietly walk by on my way to my bedroom. I gently close my door, strip off my clothes and pull on an old T-shirt. A pout comes on. I feel sorry for myself
,
wishing I had a devoted boyfriend who could make love without injuring himself. I crawl across my bed and collapse. Fortunately, sleep comes quickly, blacking out the performance now in its second act in the front room.

On the way to work Monday morning, I feel untethered. I’m done with the book project that has all but consumed me. And although it’s a huge relief to be finished, I’m hit with a bit of the letdown blues. It’s good to have something to look forward to.

I have no idea what to think about Jonathan or, at this point, Max, with whom I’ve had no contact. It looks like I need to find a new hobby or something, because I think I was getting a bit hooked on the drama.

Halfway through lunch, Jonathan finally calls to touch base. He lets me know that he was too out of it to call yesterday, but he’s making progress after his doctor and acupuncturist appointments this morning. It looks as if he’ll be able to go to New York on Thursday after all. He sounds relieved, but his disappointment over our weekend still lingers. He assures me that he’s planning another getaway that will more than make up for the Santa Barbara fiasco.

At this point, I have to admit that a getaway with Jonathan has lost its appeal, and whatever we do next time I see him, it definitely won’t be on a chaise lounge.

The next few days move slowly. I spend hours in the print shop assisting Sean as we lay down the colors for Max’s print. A large area of the lightest yellow is printed, which allows other colors to intentionally bleed through. A blazing dark red is screened next. There are slivers of the color lying along the edges—a trail of lips looking for someone to kiss. I run my fingers along the red line, cutting through the art dividing the dark area from the light.

I refuse to actually execute the screen work, because I still can’t do it without imagining Max pressed behind me and kissing my neck. Instead, I load and unload the drying racks until my arms ache from the repetitive motion.

Katherine has generously offered to shoot my headshot for the book, so on Thursday, I leave work a little early and head up Beachwood Canyon to the Kester’s. Like many hillside homes, it’s built on levels and tucked into the mountain, and even though it’s a Richard Neutra design and decidedly modern, it still feels welcoming.

Katherine opens the door and gives me a warm hug. Her wavy auburn hair falls around her shoulders and frames her lovely face. Her clothes are simple—fitted jeans tucked into boots and a white button-down shirt with the sleeves rolled up. The only embellishments are a long, amber and crystal necklace and a wide antique silver cuff bracelet. She always looks polished, but that woman could look elegant in shorts and flip-flops. Katherine is a marvel, the epitome of what I want to be like in thirty years.

As I step inside, I smile as I notice the large vases of flowers throughout, soft music on the stereo, and glass doors wide open to bring the spectacular view of the city inside. I’ve always loved the feeling in their home.

Her studio is a large room with high ceilings located on the bottom level of the home. Like most of the house, the studio has a wall of glass that faces the view and is equipped with blackout blinds she can draw if needed.

Already draped behind the stool where I’ll sit is the background for the shot, a huge sheet of canvas that’s been washed repeatedly with shades of translucent gray paint, creating a rich layered depth. Facing the stool are lights on stands that have softboxes of translucent white attached. When she turns them on, the light is milky soft.

She leads me to the stool and talks me through particulars such as sitting up straight, flattering angles of the face, and the best way to lean into the posing stand. She then takes a brush and moves it through my long hair, sweeping some forward and pushing some back before brushing her fingers along my cheek.

“You’re so lovely, Ava. I’m sure I can’t take a bad picture of you.”

I grin, grateful to be in such good hands.

Once she starts shooting, we try different expressions and poses. Katherine doesn’t so much direct me, but shows me, and her comments while she works make me smile. She also takes plenty of pictures when I’m not expecting her to, such as when I’m laughing or just staring off to the side thinking she’s changing film. By the time she finishes shooting three or four dozen pictures, I’m confident there’ll be at least one that’ll work for the book.

She made me feel relaxed and beautiful, which is part of her talent and why people travel great distances to work with her.

As she shuts down the studio, I ask how she got into photography. The conversation leads to her experience with Adam in college.

“Was it love at first sight?”

“Not exactly, but close. You probably remember hearing that we met at art school.”

“Yes, Art Center in Pasadena. Brian took me to a show there once and told me you two met there as students.”

“I was a photography major and dating one of my classmates. We were always buried in the labs or shooting in the studios and rarely came out to see the light of day.”

“How did you meet Adam then?”

“He was in the fine art program, but he also worked in the student store part time to help pay for his supplies. When I’d stumble out of the labs or the studio to buy film or printing paper, he’d often help me, and I thought he was both good looking and charming. He later told me he usually couldn’t stand the photographers because they were always stressed out and in a bad mood, but I was always kind.”

“Kind?”

“Well, yes. He said he thought I was sexy and beautiful too, but I left that part out.”

“Don’t leave out the good parts!” I tease her.

“I had an assignment during my fifth quarter to shoot a portrait of an artist in their environment, and I thought about him. I’d seen his work in the student gallery, and I really liked it. Of course, he was handsome and charismatic, so I knew he’d be a great subject. I asked him one evening when I was buying supplies, and he agreed, as long as I agreed to pose for a painting.

“Mitchell, my poor boyfriend, didn’t stand a chance. If only I’d known I was setting off on a course that would change my life.”

I smile and lean in closer.

She sighs happily. “I’ll never forget the day I went to his place for our session. He was renting a large room at the top of this grand old house. He called it the tree house because huge, old oak trees surrounded it. There were windows on all sides that let in the most beautiful light.

“We dragged all of my equipment up three flights of stairs, and he showed me all the canvases he was working on. I swear, Ava, I could feel myself falling for him as he talked about his work. He was so passionate and sure of himself.

“And, as we talked, we lost all sense of time. Before I knew it, the light had faded and it was too late to shoot. So we just kept talking until I realized I was late for a get-together with Mitchell and some of our friends.”

“What did you do?”

“I left, but we agreed to keep my equipment there, and I’d come back the next day.”

“Did the same thing happen the next day?”

“No, I was very serious about my work. It was my last chance to get his portrait done and turn the assignment in on time. As soon as I got there, I set up and did the session. He was very present and giving as a subject, and each shot we set up seemed better than the last. One part of the assignment was to shoot the artist at work. It was the last setup we did, and he took off his shirt, because that’s how he liked to paint.”

She fans herself and smiles. “Let me tell you, I could barely focus my camera. He gave me looks that would’ve melted the coldest heart.”

“After I packed up my equipment, he opened a bottle of wine, and we sat on the floor and talked and talked. I was scared because the attraction and tension between us were incredible. He finally put his cards on the table and asked if I had a boyfriend.

“I told him about Mitchell. We’d been together for three years . . . even before Art Center. He was my first serious boyfriend. Once Adam heard that, he shut down, and I thought it was probably for the best. For as much as I liked him, I didn’t need a lot of drama in my life.

“But when I said good-bye at the end of the evening, he gave me this hug . . . It was like really being held for the first time. And before he pulled away, he told me he wanted to kiss me more than anything, but he couldn’t because of Mitchell.

“After that, I avoided the student store. But when Mitchell saw the prints after I brought my graded boards home, he was jealous. We had a huge fight about it, even though I hadn’t done anything with Adam that crossed a line. But Mitchell must’ve operated on instincts—like an animal sensing the presence of another male—and he was threatened. There was always a lot of drama, not just with us, but with all our friends.”