Women and Men (51 page)

Meanwhile, the blonde, serious Albuquerque businesswoman you smell behind you waits to renew her quiet theme. Her pitch isn’t like that of Raymond Vigil the Indian. His is a shade hidden by the ail-too-well-aged tale he tells as if you hadn’t had it already long ago in a life where you were a reader, he’s selling it and now it’s another story, the Enchanted Mesa of his cousins (Incorporated for better flow—a hundred cars a day comes to twelve hundred dollars a week American to support the pueblo as an institution, literally, no joke, you’re adding it up not counting private enterprise—and now here comes electricity). However, the Albuquerque businesswoman’s story hides less: what? her? what else? not her kids who go to bilingual school and whom she took to lunch at the Western Skies Hotel yesterday, and not what she frowns about, shakes her slightly silver-sheened blond-ash (good) head at, and just about breathes (out
as
in): the environmental impact of an airport they’re talking about for smaller planes under twenty thousand pounds: but (no) hides what else? a tender, firm, speechless sight of what could still happen in the land if only the river flows clear, if only the horizon can be tilted another way so the strip-mine boom (read
bomb)
towns may slide elsewhere whose concept breathes its (can that be chlorine-rinsed) air-conditioning off the drawing board’s horizon or off the wall onto the very neck of Ship Rock—and if only the toxic output from future plants can be solved not by water of San Juan River but by decision, by foresight—yet in this so abstract nation (of men within men within men) her tender freedom of sight equals also that American speechlessness you knew in the car coming out here through a reservation so great it can be comprehended only on a map or in the cleft lines in the blooded faces of sun-banished Indians your ignorance mixes up with other burnished Indian faces, and she said, "These little farms—it’s a museum! But the blood’s still here if we leave them alone."

New Mexico is more outside-controlled than any other state, yet in itself more foreign, magically foreign, you’re pretty certain the economist in Farmington said to you at the moment your eye sockets began to feel anesthetized from the mescal and thawed-out orange juice, and you saw this gentle old leftwinger from the McCarthy and even Roosevelt days now day-to-day studier and teacher of Indian resource economics (to Indians out at that underfunded outpost community college in the town named for the Rock Ship Rock) as a great man—yes, quietly and factually forewarning that in two, three years they would need
more
two-thousand-megawatt generating stations and you figure twelve new strip mines roughly for two stations, but is "out-of-state" anti-Indian? yes, because the supplier and profiter is non-Indian—even if he was here first, your bad knee jokes paining you—while the economist mentions a rug auction tomorrow evening and you both get into family and he speaks factually, not wearily, not intensely, of a still undivorced wife a little too near, and a daughter and almost imaginary grandchildren too far. He thinks the economy is history, he has a steady view, but he isn’t where he was a generation ago and the western world might wind up devaluing via police-state order and rebuild on the Austrian model and maybe nobody important wind up dying of gold hoarding: but he doubts that scamario, he thinks the corporate cooperative will have to self-destruct rather than rebuild out of world poverty and he wonders if you could design a nuclear device that would confine itself to non- or m-human target-structures—but he isn’t interested in black-humor technology, he is for local economics, the irrigation project—it didn’t sound like overall history, which you have always declined to take a view of.

Farms—the environmentalist lady dreams of—encased in this transparent air you’re not used to taking in. You know that she, here two miles from the astoundingly near Rock, has a sense of you, that you wouldn’t get sentimental about legend/religion, yet that you have not yet refigured how to do your work so that it matters. A sense of you, she has, you (well) might skip the trip to Socorro, get the volcano man on the phone, maybe he can talk a more layman’s geotherm. You’re serious, she guesses (hits upon it,
lo acierto).
That is, serious about something else which may be volcanoes or idleness or privacy, but may be something to one side (both sides) of this assignment that’s your job, so much to either side of it that she’ll have to be framed by these margins of yours or she’ll just have to take off her public environmental concern and let the craziness the two of you are giving off speak to eclipse this infernal garrulous Navajo whom you do ask in self-defense to return your rental car to Farmington and you’ll go south with the woman, Dina, and why doesn’t he get going where instead he’s totaling you with the high place accorded the Navajo woman: she rules the hogan almost; yet where are the hogans?—show me a hogan—these pole-supported, earth-covered mound-houses, where are they? (are they the polygonal wooden cabins you see?)—north pole is Corn Woman, south is Mountain Woman, west is Water Woman, east pole is Earth Woman.

There’s a void fading out and you a reciprocal window fade nakedly in, into just a shifting weight of plasm, it’s what you are on this New York Election Day, plasm recalling in of the girl Barbara-Jean’s voice up there on the pillow that she said at Cape Kennedy she was there for a magazine that you now know more about but last night she hardly talked of because she started you in a western direction—you feel a slowness, greater and greater, turning you back into the rest gap inside you, groups of powers gimbaling the window far away in you, computerized adjustment with an equally far away
outside
—what groups? they are in communication—fades out, leaves one dark twinkle in the hair of her puff, primes this globulet of light there flowing through her legs, but it’s shower water, there comes a thumping on her front door again and you taste rose-flesh in the drop of her shower water on your tongue, determining to have what’s here—the margin is the center, forget Spence in the movie and the Chilean economist three, four years ago at Cape Kennedy—so long as the girl isn’t responding to the door. And so you won’t talk now for a long time of circling her as she circles you, turning the bed warm again, and the interruption once tight with the touch of chill for a moment between bathroom and bed crossing the palm of your old hand, now gets bigger and softer. Void fades out and the silver-disk shower head is no more the brain and no more that mutation beyond terror both future and past that could not be believed if voiced to this girl who’s of a scientific mind for a journalist, and would wonder what you thought you were laying on her, what being in future reinventing the present meant and as for public events threatening to be news, there’s private life and public life and always was.

Didn’t she do that at dinner before the movie? Not his westward grandmother Margaret who passed muster but the negotiator Karl immune from search who packed a very small Japanese pistol into a room in London that was right next to the room where erstwhile presidential timber Stassen of whom she had but dimly heard went even further than the long way the mythic little bit of him was said to go in 1957. He’d gotten the Russians actually interested in a couple of aerial surveillance plans, but then on the day that Karl had the pistol, Stassen spilled one of these schemes to the Russian, forget his name, and the West Germans and the British found out and got mad— they hadn’t been told; and Eisenhower’s face was red with rage because here we were with the Russians again and he was trying to soothe the British after not backing them on Suez, and Foster Dulles, who was Secretary of State as you know, had for his beloved West Germans all kinds of Presbyterian good manners in the breach of which created by poor Stassen’s jerkwater impulse Dulles aimed at Stassen a backfire that blew him right out of a job. (But "How could this Karl get into the talks with a pistol on him? I didn’t know the Japanese made pistols"—"Same thing in Stockholm I think it was and there he was assistant to one of the sub-principals entrusted with
the
most finely boring technical details, you know"—actually in those days less the
un
making of weapons than making them on a rational schedule of rationed balances.) Mayn’s westward grandmother Margaret on the other hand: she saw the Statue of Liberty in pieces on Bedloe’s Island in 1885, she must have been twelve?, and her father, who took her on these short trips from the New Jersey town where the family paper had run weekly since at least 1834, sent her in ‘93 to Chicago to cover the World’s Fair. ("The World’s Fair? Fve got pictures of the ‘39 World’s Fair, my father met my mother there, they were standing outside the Finnish Pavilion and some kid’s green balloon with Minnie Mouse on it blew by and Dad captured it and returned it to the kid, who was French.") It was called the World’s Columbian Exposition, and Mayn’s nineteen-year-old future grandmother took issue with a famous reincarnationist named Carl Browne whom she heard hold forth and he introduced her to the famous Jacob Coxey ("Who?") who organized an army of unemployed to march on Washington the following year.

("But why didn’t
you
take over the paper—what was it called?") the
Democrat,
and up to when Margaret’s grandfather became publisher in 1854, it had weathered many attacks beginning with the scurrilous and unspeakable and dastardly charge in its first months that it would publish only until the fall election, that being its only aim, but the attacks came from the same landowners who thought Jackson’s war on the Bank of the United States was a left-wing stampede to anarchy, the same who had been known to pay laborers with notes below par value on a bank seventy miles away, and the same who agreed with Justice Story, who was one of two pre-Jackson dissenters on the Taney court, in ‘37, that to build the
toW-free
bridge, the Warren Bridge, across the Charles River in Boston was tantamount to raping decent monopolist stockholders of the already existing bridge at a time when the political routine of exclusive charters granted (as they put it) to businesses meant that—well, the editor of the New York
Post
was saying, The City is trapped, we can’t get our potatoes, we can’t get our fuel, without paying some damn monopoly that’s finagled a corporation charter out of a clutch of crooked legislators in the statehouse. (Lawmen, newsmen. "What, Jim?") Newspapers don’t give away a million loaves of bread any more, like when Jacob Coxey’s Army of the unemployed moved on Washington in ‘94—the New York
Herald,
can you believe it? ("The promotions have just gotten bigger, Jim, I got news for you! But . . . your grandmother went to Chicago at nineteen?")

Something like that. Of course by then it wasn’t just your advertisements that showed you what was going on in town, for in the 1830s and ‘40s it was Congress, the legislature, politics, foreign news—not much local news; and she used to show me the ads for the stagecoach even before her own time that took people, her grandfather’s subscribers, to Hightstown to meet the railroad train, or to Key port to meet the steamboat. ("What river was that?"—"Oh it must have been the Delaware.") That is, if the steamboat made it. ("What railroad?"—"The Camden and Amboy; big inverted-cone stack, two pair of high wheels back by the engineer’s cab, two pair of little wheels up front by the cow catcher, and the big wheels came right up inside the railing with its little brass posts, twenty that ran clear round the engine"), and even fifty years later it was Chicago those subscribers wanted to hear about in the Windrow
Democrat
("Windrow . . ." Jean says the word—), June 1893, headlines
THE
C
HICAGO FAIR
—Two Windrow Girls Visit the Great Exposition—An Interesting Account of What They saw—A Labyrinth of Crystal Rocks— Fooled by the Mirrors—The Germans Everywhere Ahead—("The World’s Fair"—"Yes, and she and Florence were almost afraid as they wended their way toward the New Jersey building . . ."). Margaret wrote,

I had heard words of censure about this little place, and at last we were told that it was just ahead of us. To be sure it is just a handsome old Colonial residence and not prepossessing in comparison with the others. And it may be my entire loyalty, but I thought it was just too nice for anything. There is a drawback in that no one is around who appears to have to do with affairs except the colored servants. But we met Mr. Walter Lennox, the Secretary of the New Jersey Commission, who made us feel very much at home and showed us the rooms—banquet room and sleeping apartments—which are not open to all visitors. Of course the first thing we Jersey girls did was to devour the register.

("Crystal rocks?"—"I think that was over in the Horticultural Building. She described it for the
Democrat:
a pyramid of tropical vegetation in the center towering up to the glass dome, and grassy knolls with fountains and pools; and avenues; and orchids from Short Hills; and under the pyramid a pint-sized model of the Crystal Cave in South Dakota—that’s the labyrinth in the headline.")

It sounded proper, like her report of the light show one night over the Lagoon with one building after another illuminated with hundreds of electric lights, and the searchlight making the water throw gold sparks, and something called "The White City" there in the dispatch but she never talked about it or much about the Fair, Susan B. was there to visit the Women’s Building displaying handicrafts and Mary Cassatt’s mural of modern woman "plucking the fruits of knowledge and science," Margaret declined an invitation to attend the opera in Milwaukee because she had only just met the people who asked her, who were from Madison, Wisconsin and had an Irish name: a vivid correspondent but then in the next weeks an errant daughter. But the white city under the lights fulfilled "the most alluring dreams anyone ever had, with John Philip Sousa’s band playing dreamy Spanish airs, and, later, car after car passing with people hanging on like swarms of bees." ("I can see them." "Bless you, baby, so can I—one foot on, one foot off. T hear Mark Twain is here, but no one has seen him, which is hard to imagine,’ she wrote, I remember. Do you know, she gave a full account of Coxey’s friend’s reincarnation theory: chemistry came into it, and Christ, and Congress too. Newspapers aren’t what they were, thank God, but Easter 1894 the New York
Herald
gave a thousand dollars worth of clothing to the Coxey marchers though I happen to know one of the California hoboes named Jack London did not wish to change his clothes.") But she really went West, you know, and Florence got sick after they spent a day at the Cudahy Packing Company in Omaha, visiting one thousand hanging carcasses, and the man who gets five dollars a day for sticking ten hogs a minute (a job which in some states disqualified a man from serving on a murder jury), and the children packing smoked meats, and the process of making butterine mostly out of tallow to which is added some small amount of real butter and the small amount of white waxy waste left after the golden mass got pressed from it was used in chewing-gum factories and Margaret reported (!) the only thing not utilized in the whole plant was the squeal of the hog—and what happened then isn’t clear except two other New Jersey people persuaded Florence to go home with them and Margaret remained with a family in Omaha for two or three days more. And then, incredibly, she kept on west. ("She must have had something amazing in her to go away across the country like that—Victorian girl correspondent." "Or she was
homing
on something amazing she wanted to
get.
Long skirts, hat—you ought to see the photograph of her on a bicycle I have—she might have bicycled the Colorado trails!" "No.")