Authors: Sara Craven
'I feel like hell,' she said shakily. 'Excuse me, please. I need a
dustpan and brush.'
'Not to mention a double brandy,' he said. 'Don't look so stricken.
It's only a bloody glass.'
'But it's
your
bloody glass.' Morgana got hurriedly to her feet,
terrified that he might be going to put out a hand to help her
because she knew she would not be able to bear it, and that the icy
core which seemed to have possessed her inmost being might melt.
'You can always stop it out of my wages.'
'I'll ignore that,' he said rather grimly. 'What's all this for, anyway?'
He gestured at the table.
'We've had a special dinner booking,' she said very brightly. 'Ten
people. Only a small beginning, but tiny acorns and all that. Who
knows? Next year we might make the Good Food Guide.'
'I see.' His eyes were fixed on her face. 'And it's the prospect of
serving dinner to ten strangers that's making you look like a
ghost?'
She avoided his gaze. 'I'm sorry my appearance doesn't meet with
your approval,' she said in a low voice. 'But it won't be for very
much longer.'
'And what's that supposed to mean?' Lyall frowned. 'I'm not in the
mood for cryptic remarks, lady. I've had one hell of a day.'
'Oh, I'm sorry,' she said insincerely. 'But at least you have a nice
relaxing evening to look forward to. The Donlevens are quite
famous for their parties, I understand. You should enjoy yourself.'
'I was looking forward to this evening,' Lyall said slowly. 'But my
anticipation is decreasing by the second. What the hell's got into
you?'
'A touch of realism, and not before time too,' she said. 'I'm leaving
Polzion, Lyall. How much notice do you require—a month or a
week?'
His expression didn't alter, but she knew instinctively that he was
suddenly, blazingly angry. He said flatly,
'You're going nowhere.'
'You can't stop me.' Her chin went up defiantly. 'There's no way
you can keep me here against my will, and we both know it. It was
all a great laugh while it lasted, Lyall, but now it's over, and I'd
like to get on with my life.'
'Away from here?' he jeered. 'Cutting the cord at last, Morgana?
Take care—you might bleed to death. And what about your ardent
lover? Where does he fit into your schemes?'
She bit her lip, stifling the natural reaction to tell him that she and
Rob were through. 'That's my problem, not yours.'
He shook his head, still staring at her. 'Your problems are mine.'
'Not any more,' she said. 'From now on, I'm my own responsibility.
I'm leaving Polzion because I want to put as many miles as
possible between us. It's you I want to get away from.'
His face hardened. 'Still determined on the coward's way out,
Morgan le Fay? Why don't you try being honest for once in your
life?'
'Oh, you're such an expert on honesty.' Her voice shook. 'But if
you want the truth, here it is. I hate and despise you for what you
tried to do to me. Oh, you can make me want you—of course you
can—and you're probably a wonderful lover, but then you've
obviously had a great deal of practice, and I'm not being added to
some kind of grubby list ..:'
'I have no list,' he interrupted, his voice icy with fury and his hands
reached out as if he was going to take her by the shoulders—
perhaps to shake her, perhaps to draw her closer, but whichever it
was she didn't want to know, she thought as she stepped
backwards out of reach.
She let her voice drip with contempt. 'Of course not. You probably
have to programme a computer to keep track of your conquests.
But I won't be among them, thank God. I couldn't live with myself
if I let it happen.' Her voice cracked suddenly. 'Oh God, why did
you ever have to come here? I wish I'd never seen you!'
'The feeling is entirely mutual,' he grated. 'But don't worry,
Morgana, you don't have to leave your beloved Polzion to be rid of
me. I'll take myself out of your life, and I'll guarantee to make the
situation permanent.'
She watched him turn away from her, striding out of the room and
across the hall to the stairs. In the distance, she heard his bedroom
door slam.
Moving like an automaton, she swept up the broken glass, and
completed the table setting. Then she went to the kitchen and
helped with the vegetables, still in a dream where the only reality
seemed to be Lyall's face as she'd seen him last, dark with anger,
and something more than anger.
'I'll be glad of them sprouts when you've finished mangling them,'
Elsa said tartly.
The Bartons when they arrived were a jolly crowd, so clearly
disposed to enjoy themselves and praise everything that was put
before them that Morgana was forced to bury her own unhappiness
and enter into the spirit of their party, at least on the surface. It was
past ten o'clock when they drank their final cups of coffee and
departed, profuse in their thanks and swearing they would
recommend Elsa's cooking to all their friends.
'Only I hope not too many of them, and certainly not all at once,'
Mrs Pentreath sighed, sinking into a chair. 'Oh, lord, there's the
telephone. Who on earth can it be at this hour?'
Morgana went into the office and lifted the receiver. She gave the
hotel number and heard Elaine's voice venomously, 'You little
bitch!'
Her immediate impulse was to slam the phone down again, but
something in the other girl's voice gave her pause.
She said coldly, 'Did you just ring to call me names, Elaine, or did
you want something?'
'I want to talk to Lyall. I don't know what you've said to him, but
whatever it is, it won't work.'
'I told him I was leaving,' Morgana said wearily. 'Wasn't that what
you wanted me to say?'
'Liar!' Elaine snapped. 'If that were true, then why's ' Lyall going
back to the States?'
'But he isn't,' Morgana exclaimed. 'At least . ..' She paused,
recalling only too vividly Lyall's final remark.
'I'll take myself out
of your life and I'll guarantee to make the situation permanent.'
Her mouth went suddenly dry. 'What makes you think he's going
back to America?'
'He does. Apparently he walked in here tonight, spoke to my
father, said he was going back to the States on the first available
flight, and that his lawyers would be in touch over the purchase of
the house and stables.' Elaine's voice was crackling with temper.
'Well, he's not going to treat me like that and get away with it. Will
you get him? I want to speak to him.'
'Just a minute.' Morgana put the receiver down on the desk and
went up to Lyall's room. He wasn't there, and the whole place
looked oddly deserted. Her breathing quickened nervously as she
looked around her. She went over to the newly fitted wardrobe unit
and slid back the door. It was empty, and so were the drawers in
the dressing chest.
A little sob tore at her throat and she whirled round and ran
downstairs again. Her mother was crossing the hall, on the way to
the drawing' room with a tray of tea.
'Mother,' Morgana's voice was breathless, 'Lyall's gone! His room
is empty.'
'Yes, dear,' Mrs Pentreath said placidly. 'He went while we were
serving dinner. I presumed you knew. He told me he'd had a word
with you.'
Morgana's eyes were enormous in the pallor of her face. 'Yes, he
did—but I didn't realise—I didn't know . ..' She broke off, biting
her lip. 'Did he say when he'd be back?'
'No, but then he rarely does. He just wished us all well, and left.
Why?'
Morgana shook her head. 'It—it doesn't matter. There was a
message I should have given him, that's all. I don't suppose it
matters.'
I should have told him I loved him, she thought. I should have told
him I'd be his on any terms he chose to dictate. And now it's too
late.
She said brightly, 'It's been quite a day. I think I'll go out for a
breath of fresh air before I go to bed.'
'Perhaps that's what you need,' Mrs Pentreath said gently.
Morgana went up to her room and changed out of the dark dress
she had worn to wait at table, putting on her jeans and a warm
sweater, with a hip-length quilted jacket.
It was a crisp night, the clear sky bright with stars, and she turned
her collar up round her face with a little shiver as she walked
along. She had moved aimlessly at first, and then, almost without
knowing it, realised she had turned off the road and was making
her way up the rising ground towards the Wishing Stone.
The Stone hadn't moved that night, weeks before, but her wish had
been granted just the same. Lyall had gone, just as she'd wanted,
and now she had to live with the bitterness of it. And remembering
his words, the tone of his voice, she doubted whether he would
ever come back. After all, Polzion was only a tiny corner of the
empire which he ruled, and could easily be administered from a
distance.
She was tired when she reached the dark, implacable bulk of the
stone. She had spent most of the day on her feet, and she was glad
to lean against the upright for a moment, her eyes closed, getting
her breath back.
The stone was cold and rough under her cheek. In a low voice she
said, 'I didn't mean what I said before. Please send him back to me.
Please!'
She didn't look up at the cross-stone. She didn't dare. Because if it
remained still then her heart would break. She took a shuddering
breath and turned away, back to the house, and light and sanity,
then stifled a scream as she collided with something that was flesh
and blood instead of granite.
Lyall said gently, 'That stone's a fraud, Morgan le Fay. I'd trust
your own brand of magic in future.'
She said, 'Lyall—oh, Lyall' on a little broken sob, and then she
was in his arms, her mouth parting helplessly under the searching
devastation of his kiss.
When she could speak again, she whispered, 'But what are you
doing here? I thought you were going back to the States.'
'And so I am,' he said. 'But not until I can take you with me. Oh, I
slammed out of Polzion tonight in a high old rage, swearing I'd go
away and stay away until you'd learned your lesson, and would
admit that you loved me as much as I loved you. But after I'd
called in at the Home Farm, and learned a couple of things, I
decided to postpone my trip for a while.'
'What did you learn?' she asked shyly, her heart singing.
'That Donleven clearly thought he'd lost a daughter— you—in
order to gain a son—me. It occurred to me that if Elaine had
managed to convince her own father that I was on the point of
proposing to her, she might have spread her net even farther and
caught you. And I wondered why you'd been so careful not to tell
me that you'd broken off your engagement. It wasn't a lot, but it
was enough to make me decide to come back, and force you to
listen to me, if need be.'
Morgana bent her head. 'Elaine came to see me. She— she said
that you knew I'd fallen in love with you, and this was an
embarrassment because all you'd wanted was a quick affair.'
'Presumably before I settled down to a life of bliss with her,' Lyall
completed harshly. 'Dear God! And you believed her?'
'I didn't want to,' she said in a low voice. 'But you spent nearly all
your time with her—and you were her lover, so what she was
saying sounded almost reasonable. She said we were all adults,
and she didn't grudge me a little fling.'
'How sweet of her,' he said ironically. 'And how shrewd. She
certainly knew your weak points and how to attack them. But let's
clear up one small point right away. I am not and never have been
Elaine's lover.'
'She didn't say that—but Lyall, I saw you together. The night of
Hallowe'en. You went into her room.'
He said slowly, 'My God, so I did. The fuse had blown in her
bedside lamp, and I took her the one from my room, but I didn't
stay. You must have a lousy opinion of me to imagine I could go
from your arms to hers.'
'I thought she was the one you really wanted,' she confessed. 'After
all, you'd said that all you wanted was to get me into bed. There
was never any hint that you cared for me in any way. You spent all