Authors: Virginia Boecker
moonlight, when Schuyler holds out a hand to stop me.
‘Don’t,’ he says. ‘Use it to break the tablet, but not for
anything else. Not unless you absolutely have to. You
already killed that guard. You don’t want to give the curse
another chance to take hold.’
‘Okay.’ I ease the blade back down. ‘I don’t know
what shape I’ll be in…after. I’ll do what I can from the
inside, but in case I’m not able, I need you to attack it from
the outside, too.’
Schuyler nods.
‘Don’t come for me until you hear me call for you,’ I
continue. ‘If you hear me scream, ignore it. It’s just…part
of it. And if they come for you – for us – don’t wait for
me. Run.’
I walk to the door and reach down, grab the heavy iron
ring, and pull. I yank once, twice. On the third try the
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trapdoor creaks open. Down the wooden steps to the other
door, the door that only after fear, after magic, after illusion
and after death, is the Thirteenth Tablet.
Pressing my hands against the splintered wood, I push
the door open. A crack at first, then wider, the hinges
shrieking into the silence. Rancid air comes pouring out,
the smell of my nightmares. Beyond that: dank, dark
nothingness. I slide through the opening, pausing once to
turn around and look at Schuyler. That dark shadow passes
before his bright blue eyes again.
‘Be careful,’ he whispers.
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The door slams shut by itself, and I’m plunged into darkness.
It’s not long before the world tilts and I’m thrown onto
my back. I get to my feet and stand as still as possible,
hands clenched into fists at my sides. I wait for the dirt to
start falling. One heartbeat. Five. Ten. My palms are
sweating and I’m breathing too hard, too fast. But still,
nothing happens.
I see something flickering. Pale, yellow, like a faraway
candle. It grows brighter, and as it does, I see I’m no longer
in the tomb. I’m in a tunnel. I move in the direction of the
light, but slowly. I’ve taken maybe ten steps when I hear a
noise so loud it makes me jump. A thundering sound, like
an angry fist on a wooden door. I ease a dagger from my
belt and keep moving. The noise continues. Pounding, over
and over. A splintering sound of breaking wood, the heavy
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tread of boots crossing a threshold. A shout. Then a scream.
My body reacts before my head does, and I start running
towards the sound. I stumble along in the darkness,
bumping into the walls, tumbling to my knees, and climbing
to my feet. I follow the screams until the light grows brighter
and the ground beneath me harder. I look down, and I can
just make out flashes of black and white underneath the
dirt. There’s a door up ahead. I push through it and find
myself standing in the middle of Humbert’s entrance hall.
The black-and-white checkered floors are dirty and
chipped, the paintings torn off the wall. Cobwebs in the
chandeliers, crystal vases shattered. The many diamond-
paned windows broken. I take a tentative step, then another,
glass crunching under my feet.
I feel my heart pick up speed. I know this is an illusion.
Isn’t it? I can’t be in Humbert’s home. It’s miles away,
and I’m here. At Blackwell’s. I try to recall Fifer’s voice,
reminding me it’s an illusion. But she feels long ago and far
away. This feels here; this feels now.
This feels real.
‘Is anyone here?’ I call. ‘Humbert?’
I check the sitting room, the dining room. They’ve been
torn apart: tables upended, chairs toppled to the floor,
curtains pulled from the windows. I back away, back into
the hallway, and I trip over something: John’s weathered,
brown canvas bag.
‘John?’ I dash up the stairs, into the bedrooms. Clothes
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lie in shreds everywhere: Fifer’s beautiful dresses, John’s
dark green coat, even George’s hideous orange harlequin
jacket.
‘George? Fifer?’ I can hear the panic in my voice as I call
their names. I run back downstairs, to the library. The
door is gone, ripped off its hinges. Inside, it’s dark. But I
don’t need to see to know that it’s in ruins, too. A cold
breeze blows through the broken glass ceiling, ruffling
the pages of the books that lie in heaping pyres on the
floor. In the moonlight, I can just make out the felled tree:
its grey branches scattered through the room like bones
in a graveyard, the leaves I made blowing through the
air in swirling gusts.
I stand for a moment in the dark, broken library, trying
to control my mounting fear. Trying to remember what
Fifer said about illusion. Is it illusion that makes fear real?
Or is it fear that makes the illusion real? And what does this
illusion mean? It’s meant to show me fear, but I don’t know
what I’m afraid of. Not yet.
I run back into the entrance hall. But instead of the
black-and-white tiled hallway I came in through, I’m
somewhere different. Filthy stone floors, rugs shoved into
the corner, more broken windows, stained glass this time. I
can just make out a snake’s tail in one of the shards, dangling
precariously from the frame.
‘Nicholas!’ I run through the house the same way I did at
Humbert’s. The sitting room. The dining room. The
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bedrooms. They’re torn apart the way they were at
Humbert’s. The kitchen. It looks as it did the last time I
saw it: pots and pans and knives and food strewn
everywhere. ‘Hastings!’
But no one answers. The house is quiet.
I turn in slow circles, my breath coming in gasps, my
limbs numb with terror. What does all this mean? I don’t
know. I just know I want to get out of here. I run back into
the entrance hall, push open the heavy front door.
And I freeze.
I’m standing at the edge of a crowded square, watching
the executioners light the pyre. They circle the narrow
wooden platforms, their lit torches held high. At the top of
each, chained to the stake, bundles of wood heaped around
their feet, are John, Fifer, George and Nicholas.
I sway on my feet; I actually swoon in horror. And even
before the executioners touch their torches to the wood, I
start to scream. Push my way through the jostling crowd,
trying to reach them. I scream their names over and over,
but they don’t hear me.
I lunge for the platforms, but the guards grab me and
throw me to the ground. I scrabble in the dirt, trying to get
back up, but they hold me down, and I’m screaming and
sobbing too hard to fight back. But I need to get to them, to
save them before it’s too late, but then it is too late: There’s
an enormous whoosh of flames and a billow of smoke as the
fire engulfs them and they’re gone, forever.
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Somehow, I stumble to my feet and push my way
through the crowd and into the street. And I start to run. I
don’t know where I’m going, just away from this. Away
from the smoke and the fire and the screaming and the
death. Eventually I reach an empty alley and collapse in a
doorway, trembling and crying and completely terrified.
So this is it – my worst fear. It’s not dying alone anymore.
It’s watching the people I care for die in front of me and not
being able to stop it. Being responsible for it. Knowing that
if I don’t destroy the tablet, this is what will come of it.
My heart is pounding too hard, my breath coming too
fast. I have to make it stop. I remember what Fifer said: I
have to eliminate my fear. That eliminating the fear
eliminates the illusion. But how? I start to sing, but I
can’t remember the words. I take a breath, but I can’t stop
sobbing. I try to think of something else, but I can’t seem
to do that, either. I don’t know how to do anything but
be afraid.
Some men pass by me then, their arms looped around
one another. They’re singing some kind of drinking song.
I smell the ale wafting from them as they go by and wrinkle
my nose. They’re drunk and it can’t be past noon, and—
Then I get an idea.
I leap to my feet. Skirt through the alleys: left, right, left
again, until I see the familiar green sign that reads THE
WORLD’S END. I shove the door open and it’s just as it usually
is, just as it was the last day I was here. Crowded and loud,
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musicians playing, Joe pulling drinks behind the bar. As I
approach, he slides me a glass of ale and watches me, his
hands folded.
‘Well?’ he growls.
I take a tentative sip. But instead of the usual horror –
roasted pig or absinthe or God knows what else – this
time it tastes like ale. This time, it’s actually good. And just
like that, my heart slows. My breathing slows. I know
without a doubt that this Joe and this ale aren’t real. This
is an illusion.
I start to laugh.
‘What’s so funny?’
I don’t answer him. Instead, I turn around and rush
for the door of the tavern, flinging it open. There, on the
other side, is the tomb, dark and dank. I’m right back
where I started.
I step inside and go still. For a moment I fear dirt will
start falling, that the illusion still isn’t over. But after a few
moments and nothing else happens, I make my way to the
entrance. The moon is bright enough that slivers of light
work their way through the cracks, illuminating what is no
longer a rickety wooden door but the edges of a massive
stone slab, the number XIII etched at the top.
The Thirteenth Tablet.
It’s big; I knew that. But standing in front of it, I realise
just how huge it really is. Six feet tall, three feet across. Solid
stone, at least a foot thick. It’s been down here a while,
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buried in the dark and the damp, the edges beginning to
turn green with moss.
I stare at it a minute. Run my fingers along the words
etched down the length of the stone. I can just make out
runes along the edge, along with Nicholas’s name, written
over and over among all the symbols and marks.
Nicholas said Blackwell did it. That Blackwell cursed
him, that Blackwell is a wizard. I didn’t want to believe it
then, and, despite everything, I don’t want to believe it now.
It was just speculation, just a guess. There was no way of
knowing for certain if it was true.
Until now.
There should be a signature on the tablet. The wizard’s
name, a symbol, a pseudonym like the ones necromancers
take on. Something to identify but not incriminate. A curse
tablet won’t work without it.
I crouch to my knees. If there is a signature here, it will
be somewhere along the bottom. But it’s hard to see. The
moonlight’s not as strong down here, and there’s dirt
clumped around the edges. I brush it away, and I see part of
a symbol. Words. I keep brushing until, finally, it comes
into view. A rose. And his motto: What’s done is done; it
cannot be undone.
I fall back against the crumbling wall. Press my head into
my hands, and I give myself a minute to feel it again. The
betrayal, the disbelief, the horror, the truth: somehow sharp
and numb, all at once.
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Blackwell is a wizard.
I jump to my feet. Yank the Azoth from my belt. And,
using every ounce of strength I have, I swing.
The silver blade sings against the stone, the sound
echoing through the tomb like a scream. I can feel the
power of it crawling through my limbs, filling my heart, my
head, so strong I’m drunk with it. I swing again and again,
and again, the impact of silver on stone sending sparks that
ignite the darkness.
‘Elizabeth!’ Schuyler’s voice cuts through the clatter.
‘Can you hear me?’
‘Schuyler!’ I call back. ‘I’m here! The door – it’s the tablet
now. Help me break it, okay?’
There’s a pause, then an enormous, resounding thud
that shakes the tomb, showering me with dirt. There’s
another thud, then another.
I swing the Azoth, over and over, until a narrow crack
appears in the centre of the tablet. It’s beginning to break. I
keep swinging; Schuyler keeps kicking. The split grows
longer, wider, until a bright green light issues from its