Authors: Billie Sue Mosiman
"No, you’re not."
Sam hesitated at the door, looking at her, amazed at the determination in her voice.
"You’ll get sick," he warned.
"I don’t care.”
"You’ll miss work tomorrow," Sam pointed out.
"It doesn’t matter." Maggie looked deep into his eyes.
"You’ll turn into a bum like me."
She smiled and lay back on the bed.
"I’ll be back in fifteen minutes," he said. "Get two jelly glasses and take off your shoes. It’s going to be one helluva long night.”
Maggie rested until she heard the front door click shut, then she rose from Sam’s bed and went to the kitchen for the glasses.
Sam walked the five blocks to the National Liquor Store. The day had been unusually warm, and the evening was fresh with a hint of rain on the way. Sam unzipped his jacket and sucked in the air as deeply as he could.
Inside the liquor store he carried four quarts of Old Kentucky bourbon to the counter.
"Gonna throw a party, Sam?" the owner asked. He and Sam were on friendly terms since Sam’s official retirement. Once a week Sam bought a quart from the store owner. Four quarts was a break in the routine.
"In a manner of speaking," Sam replied, taking the money from his wallet.
On the way home Sam contemplated telling Jack DeShane about the fourth victim. It did not take him long to decide against it. Jack would find out about it soon enough. Besides, he was losing weight and looking haggard from his nightly forays into the streets. So far he had questioned half of the street population in the impoverished Heights area and every prostitute he could catch along Main Street and Telephone Road. It took outstanding stamina and more than a little courage to venture into those places alone and without the security of a squad car. Sam did not try to dissuade his young friend. He recognized Jack’s obsession as an attempt to deal with his terrible loss. Besides, he might get lucky--find someone who knew or suspected something and was willing to talk. The department did not have the manpower to cover what Jack had taken upon himself.
In the upstairs’ bedroom Sam found Maggie waiting for him. She stood over a TV tray arranging two glasses, a bucket of ice, and two plates of cheese, summer sausage, and bacon crackers. She wore a filmy pink negligee that left nothing to the imagination and soft pink nylon slippers that Sam had given her for Christmas. She looked like bubble-gum ice cream, cool and tasty.
"It took you longer than fifteen minutes," she said, raising one eyebrow in a way that Sam found incredibly seductive. "You like?" She swirled around so that the gossamer material billowed away from her body.
Sam did not move, entranced by a montage of breasts, voluptuous hips, and firm, long legs.
"You’re the best-looking woman in Houston, Maggie, I swear to God."
A triumphant sparkle lit up Maggie’s eyes. Despite her age and the unnatural blue wash on her hair, there was still one man in the world she could bewitch totally. "Well, don’t just stand there with your tongue hanging out, Sam Bartholomew! Break open a bottle and let’s get on with the misery."
Sam set the liquor on the floor, removed his jacket, untied his shoes, and turned to Maggie with a devilish grin. "I don’t think we’re going to need the booze for a while," he said, wrapping his arms around her and drawing her near.
Maggie nibbled at his ear and stroked the back of his neck. She gave him a lingering kiss. "Honey, we may never need it."
"HE JUST DON'T NEVER GIVE UP," Betty Lawrence mumbled at a sofa pillow as she plumped it between firm hands. "He’s just trying to kill hisself. Lotta good that’ll do, but will he listen to reason, will he listen to me? ’Course not, he don’t listen to nobody and he just don’t never give up."
"Who’re you fussing at, Mrs. Lawrence?"
Jack DeShane crossed the living room on his way to the hall coat closet. He was tired and it showed. He moved slowly and his eyes were gray shadows.
"I’m talking to nobody ’cause nobody don’t listen to me no way." She gave another pillow a furious swat, then pressed it into a corner of the sofa with a cluck of her tongue.
"Are you mad at me or what?" Jack asked, coming back to where she towered over the sofa, scowling.
"Mad? Why would I be mad? I can’t tell you what to do. When I try, you don’t listen to me. If you want to kill yourself, how am I gonna stop you?" She glared at him with smoldering brown eyes that dared him to argue with her.
"Look, I’m too tired tonight for this." He tentatively touched his scar with a forefinger. "You know I’ve got to go out nights and try to find out something. You know if I don’t do it no one will."
"What’s the police for then? They’s the ones supposed to be investigating this awful thing. You keep staying up all night, down in those bad places where they knife people for looking at a crack in the sidewalk, and something’s gonna happen, mark my words. You’re making yourself sick, but there you go." She raised her voice when he turned his back toward the hallway. "Out the door and it already ten o’clock at night!"
“I have to," he said quietly. "You know I have to."
Jack closed the door without looking at Mrs. Lawrence again. On the porch he paused and felt his pocket for his cigarettes. Dammit, why could she not understand? She was right. He was running himself into the ground. Sure, he knew it. But Willie’s murderer was out there. Maybe walking the streets, his collar turned up, the garrote in his pants, a plan in his mind. And he could not be invisible. He had a family or a wife or a girl. He had neighbors or drinking partners or a landlord. He took taxicabs and he ate in diners and he bought newspapers. He did not live in a vacuum. He was a part of the city, and someone, somewhere, knew him, maybe even suspected him. It was the thinnest of threads, but the night people, the people living on the edge of society, were the ones most likely to know something. They had to be asked.
Jack headed straight for the downtown Greyhound bus station area. The bus stations in all large metropolitan areas are way stations and waiting rooms for those who have nowhere else to go. Houston was no exception. Besides the homeless and aimless, the real customers who were there to catch buses, and the bored taxi drivers hoping to give a lift to some old couple just arriving from Arizona, there were always the drifters, the riffraff, the winos, the pickpockets, pimps and addicts and droopy-eyed kids looking for easy adventure.
Jack parked in the lot across the street from the neon- lighted building and adjusted his shoulder holster beneath his jacket before getting out of the car. He knew his hair was too short and his eyes were too clear for him to pass for a member of the street people, but he had been careful about his dress and his attitude. He wore the oldest pair of jeans he owned, a threadbare, faded pair that clung to his hips and delineated the bulge of his crotch. He also wore a flannel long-sleeved shirt with one button missing and a torn pocket. Covering his shoulder holster was a bulky black padded jacket that he had worn for ten years. As for attitude, that meant an adjustment of his state of mind. It called for looseness, a certain slurring of his speech, a slouch in his walk, a way of looking at people that said,
Don’t fuck with me. I don’t want your shit and I don’t want you messing with mine either.
The right attitude usually made up for the short haircut. So far he had been accepted on the street.
"Hey man, how’s it goin’, you taking a ride?"
Jack let the spiffily dressed black man slap him on the arm once then stepped to the side and watched the plate-glass window as if looking for someone he was meeting. He felt the black’s measuring gaze on him.
"Fuck no, you kiddin’me? I don’t hump hounds, man. Buses stink, you know?" Jack replied, easing into his street role.
The black laughed and did a soft shoe over to the window. He squinted against the glare and bared huge white teeth that reminded Jack of a prehistoric carnivore. "You come lookin’ for sumpthing then," he announced. "You can tell me, man." He stuffed his hands in his pockets and looked ready to go into a routine. "They call me the wizard if that be what it is you lookin’ for.” Jack shook his head a little and glanced up and down the sidewalk. Just his luck he had to run into a wizard so early in the evening. They were not easy to shake unless you made it plain you did not want a fuck of any persuasion.
"I’m looking, but I ain’t looking for pussy right this moment." A fleeting expression of disappointment crossed the black’s face and his hungry smile faded. "Tell you what, though, I’ll keep you in mind, man, when I get around to that later.”
"All right! Peaches is my specialty, ask around. I get the freshest. " The glowing smile returned as he danced nearer Jack. "I get a new shipment every week, so to speak."
He nodded his head toward the interior of the bus station and left Jack to catch up with another lone man crossing the street without baggage.
Jack opened the door of the station and immediately was hit by the sickeningly sweet aroma of unwashed flesh, cigarette smoke, and fried foods. It was a busy night and the rows of plastic seats were filled with weary travelers waiting for their buses to leave Houston.
To Jack the bus station was a surreal place where zombies walked in dazes waiting for their lives to resume. Unlike the airport passengers, bus travelers rarely dressed to be seen and admired. They wore comfortable, loose clothing in anticipation of the long hours on the nation’s highways. They carried hampers or paper bags stuffed with fried chicken and pieces of chocolate cake from home. If they had children with them, they did not try to control their behavior. It was hard to sit still on the bus for hours, so stopovers and departure time were a welcomed break for energetic youngsters. Jack wondered if the travelers and the people who served them really felt as despondent and exhausted as they looked.
A sloe-eyed girl wearing a preteen bra that clearly showed through beneath a yellow nylon blouse sidled past Jack. She carried a movie magazine and a stuffed donkey. Behind her came the soft-shoe wizard with a wink and a leer that turned Jack’s stomach. Jack’s instinct took over and made him move before he thought about it. He was beside the girl at the luncheon counter before the black man could reach her side.
"Hey, what’chu doin'?" There was a steel edge in the black man’s voice.
"Later, man. This is my sister from Corpus Christi, all right?"
The wizard thumbed his nose and did a military turn.
The girl stared wistfully up into Jack’s eyes. "Am I your sister?" she asked in a piping voice. "I don’t remember having a brother looked as good as you."
"Are you in here alone?" Jack asked more severely than he had meant to. When were kids going to learn?
The girl turned her head away and sulked, one hand fondling the stuffed donkey in her lap.
"You just get into Houston?" Jack tried again in a softer tone.
"What business is it of yours?"
“Listen, kid, runaways get put into homes."
The girl’s spine straightened. She drew a glass of Coke closer and spoke around the straw in her mouth.
"You’re a cop," she said with confidence. "You can’t bust me. I ain’t done nothin’."
"I repeat runaways..." Jack was not sure what to say.
“I ain’t no fucking runaway, okay? I live down on Gray and I like to hang out here. Is that against the law?"
Jack shook his head and swirled around on his stool to make sure the wizard was gone. He stood up. He was seconds away from losing control. "You’re too young to be selling, kid. Goddammit, go home."
The girl pushed the Coke away and, grabbing her donkey and magazine, made a beeline for the door.
Jack sat back down and ordered coffee. He caught himself rubbing the scar on his cheek and slapped his hand onto the counter. What in the hell was he doing anyway? Maybe Mrs. Lawrence was right. He was wasting his time and destroying his health and his nerves.
"Hey man, you look kinda wiped out. You could use something to ease you outta pain, huh?"
Jack turned and saw a thin, pimply young man in dirty chinos and black T-shirt with a red Led Zepplin logo printed across the front. "You talking to me?" Jack asked. I have to play the game, he thought, no matter how bad I feel or how low I get.
"What the fuck, man, I know how you feel. This place is sick, you know? This whole fucking scene is sick. I seen how you helped that girl. The wizard, man, he’s nigger-bitching mean to his girls. You done right, I could see that. You got balls. I think I could do you a favor."
"What kind of favor could you do me?" Jack turned all the way around to face the boy. At least this one was talking.
"Like relieve your worries, man. How ’bout if we step into someplace private, like the john?"
Jack followed the boy into the men’s rest room and took up a position near the door with his back to the wall. "What you got?" he asked.
"I’m a little low, you know, but I still got some ’ludes and some grass, man, that’s laced sweeter than goose shit," the young man offered.
"I don’t want any freaking angel dust. How much for the ’ludes?"
"Oh man!"
Jack looked up, fearful of the deriding tone of the boy’s voice. He had made a mistake; it was not angel dust on the grass. The mistake could blow his getting any closer to the kid. The grass must be laced with strychnine. "Hey, you wanna sell to me or don’t you? I can take a hike right now if you’re not interested."
Jack snatched the door handle and smiled slightly when the boy’s hand on his shoulder stopped him.
"Okay, okay, wire yourself down. It don’t matter about the fucking grass. So you don’t want sweet Jesus anointing your head, that’s your business, jack."
Jack flinched at the use of his name until he realized the kid was using the word to mean "buddy."
"How much?" Jack kept a firm grip on his wallet and saw the kid’s eyes glaze over while he calculated.
"Will this do you?" He whipped out a twenty and the boy quickly reached into his underwear and handed over a tiny clear plastic bag of pills.
"There, that’ll take care of all your nigger bitching,” the boy said. "I forgot, but I got some crank too if you ain’t into anything too heavy, you know. It’s cheap, but it’ll pump you when you’re too far down."