Authors: Elin Hilderbrand
Tags: #Fiction / Contemporary Women, Fiction / Family Life
“I know,” Darcy says. “The same goes for me.”
“Good,” Margaret says, and they both laugh because they know Margaret needs Darcy far more than Darcy needs Margaret.
Darcy climbs into the taxi and waves at Margaret through the window. She is heading home to Silver Spring early tomorrow and then to Atlanta on Friday to start her new life.
Good-bye,
Margaret mouths.
Good-bye.
It's just after one o'clock the next day when Darcy calls Margaret's cell phone. Margaret is still at the parade party held every year at Lee and Ginny Kramer's apartment on Central Park West, thirteen blocks south of Margaret's apartment and twenty floors closer to the action on the street. Ava and her friend Potter are also at the party; the three of them have consumed no small amount of champagne, celebrating Ava's job at Copper Hill, which Lee and Ginny's sons, Adam and Harry, both attend. There are cheers all around, several times.
It's just when Margaret is gathering her things to leaveâDrake is picking up a spectacular turkey dinner with all the trimmings from Citarellaâthat she sees Darcy's call come in. There is no reason for Margaret to panic, but she senses Darcy is calling to tell her something. And at one o'clock on Thanksgiving? It's something big.
“Darcy?” Margaret says. She sees Ava looking at her from across the room and she turns her back and wanders into the dining room, where there are floor-to-ceiling windows. The parade has passed but the street below is flooded with people; Raoul is around the block, waiting for Margaret and Ava. They'll have to head four blocks west to get thirteen blocks north. “Darcy, what is it?”
“My source at the Pentagon?” she says. “He called me a few seconds ago. Another soldier from the missing convoy escaped.”
“Oh my gosh,” Margaret says, breathless. “Was it Bart?”
“Not Bart,” Darcy says. “I asked specifically. My source couldn't give me the name but he could confirm it wasn't Bart.”
“Oh,” Margaret says. Her spirit is in a free fall.
“But Margaret, this soldier has far more information. They're about to send out a press release. He said when he escaped that half the troops were alive andâ”
“Half were dead?” Margaret says.
“Yes,” Darcy says. “He gave them a whole bunch of other stuff too, I guess. Details about the surroundings, how far they'd traveled, what direction they went, what landmarks he remembers. My source says the Pentagon is going to move on the information tonight.”
“Tonight,” Margaret says.
“I'll call if I get anything else,” Darcy says.
“Yes,” Margaret says. “Thank you, Darcy.”
She hangs up and tries to process what she's just heard, keeping emotion at bay. She is afraid to turn around; she doesn't want Ava to see her face until she figures out what to do. Part of her, naturally, wants to let Kelley and Mitzi enjoy their turkey. They are eating at Kevin and Isabelle's house. But no, Margaret can't keep quiet, not this time. This is too big. Half alive, half dead.
Flip a coin,
she thinks. They're going to find the kids, all of them, either wayâof this, Margaret is confident.
She swallows, takes a deep breath, and replays Darcy's exact words in her mind. Then she dials the number of the inn.
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ennifer comes by her type A personality honestly: She is exactly like her mother. When Jennifer and her mother, Beverly, occupy the same space, there is always a showdown and Jennifer usually loses.
Not this year, however.
Beverly likes to dine out on holidaysâEaster, Thanksgiving, Christmas. More specifically, she likes to go to the Park Tavern. Jennifer has gently but firmly shot down that idea. This year, Jennifer will cook.
“Why put yourself through so much trouble?” Beverly asks. “You've had such a tough year.”
“Because it's Thanksgiving, Mother,” Jennifer says. She leaves no room for argument, and Beverly backs down.
By ten o'clock, Beverly's townhouse on Nob Hill smells like home cooking. Jennifer should be humming contentedly alongâthe meal will be to her specifications and the quality of ingredients one can find in California is far superior to what's available at home. But Jennifer is bothered by something that happened earlier that morning. She went into her mother's bathroom to borrow dental floss and in the medicine cabinet she found a brown prescription bottle filled with Vicodin. Twenty-five pills. Jennifer held the bottle in her palm and read the label:
Beverly Barrett, for pain as needed.
What bothered Jennifer wasn't that her mother had the pillsâBeverly had suffered from chronic back pain for yearsâbut how badly Jennifer wanted to sneak a few out of the bottle for herself. She could take five or six and they would probably never be noticed missing. Right?
Jennifer had set the bottle back where she found it, but she practically hyperventilated with the effort.
And now, she can't stop thinking about the pills or about how nice it would be to get high and float through the remainder of this holiday.
Jennifer went crazy at the wine store. She bought three bottles of Round Pond sauvignon blanc, three bottles of Stags' Leap chardonnay, three bottles of Cakebread cabernet, and three bottles of Schramsberg sparkling. That gives them four bottles of wine per adult, she thinks. She also went to Cowgirl Creamery in the Ferry Building and bought an assortment of cheeses, sausages, mustard, quince paste, Marcona almonds, crackers, crisps, bread sticks, olives, pickles, and chutney. She arranges all this on a platter and brings it, along with a chilled bottle of the Schramsberg, to Patrick in the den.
She sinks down next to Patrick on the leather sofa in front of the crackling fire and the enormous TV. The games are already on.
“Whoa,” Patrick says as he digs into the spread. “And you expect me to eat dinner after this?”
She doesn't need the pills. She sees Sable's kind face and hears Sable's soothing voice saying that Jennifer does not need the pills.
She hands Patrick the champagne. “Let's open this.”
“Why not?” Patrick says. “It's a holiday.”
He uncorks it and pours, and they raise their glasses in a toast. “I'm thankful for you,” Patrick says.
“I'm thankful for us,” Jennifer says. They clink glasses and drink. Ahhh. There is nothing like the first sip of really cold champagne to make one believe everything is going to be fine.
Jennifer's phone bleeps. She sets the glass down and checks her display. She coughs. It's Norah. The text reads:
Happy turkey. I need to talk to you about something. Call me please.
Just like that, Thanksgiving is ruined.
Jennifer fakes a smile toward her husband. “It's Sable,” she says. “Wishing me a happy Thanksgiving.”
“Nice of her,” Patrick says, but his attention is back on the game. The Patriots are playing and nothing comes between Paddy and the Patsâexcept maybe a Raincoast crisp smeared with Camembert and apple chutney.
Jennifer stands up. “I should get back to the kitchen,” she says. She is going right upstairs to her mother's bathroom. Three pills, she decides. Only three.
But at that moment, Patrick's phone rings.
“Hey, Kev,” Patrick says. Jennifer can hear the buzz of Kevin's voice but no actual words.
“Tell him I said happy Thanksgiving,” Jennifer says. She can't get out of the room fast enough.
When she is halfway up the stairs, she hears Patrick screaming, “Jennifer! Jen!”
She races back down to the den. She sees the look on Patrick's face. Thanksgiving is ruined for sure.
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itzi is speaking quickly but clearly: Kelley collapsed, Mitzi has called 911, she will meet Kevin at the hospital.
“And,” she says, “there has been news about Bart.”
“What?” Kevin says. “What is it?”
“I'll explain at the hospital,” Mitzi says.
Kevin tells Isabelle to stay putâthere's a turkey in the oven and Genevieve is nappingâhe'll call once he figures out what is going on.
Mitzi is standing outside the emergency room, smoking a cigarette. Kevin does a double take. Mitzi doesn't smoke. But that's Mitzi and she's smoking. She says, “Left over from my days with George. You want a drag?”
“Actually, yes,” Kevin says. He takes the cigarette from Mitzi and thinks how much better growing up would have been if he and Mitzi had been able to commune with each other like this every once in a while. “What are they saying?”
“He's in with the doctor.”
“He just fell over?”
“Fell over,” Mitzi says. “Unconscious. I couldn't wake him, though the paramedics did.”
“And what's the news about Bart?”
A nurse pokes her head out the doors. “Mrs. Quinn?”
Kelley is being flown to Boston in the MedFlight helicopter. The local on-call doctorâwho is probably the low man on the totem pole, working on Thanksgivingâdidn't like what he saw and thought Kelley would be best served at Mass. General. Dr. Cherith will be there waiting for him.
“Dr. Cherith?” Kevin says. “His oncologist? They don't think this has anything to do with the cancer, do they?”
No one in Kevin's vicinity is ableâor willingâto answer that.
Mitzi says, “I have to go too. Can you take me to the airport?”
“Yes,” Kevin says. “Of course.”
On the way to the airport, Mitzi tells Kevin about the phone call from Margaret. Another soldier from the missing platoon escaped. It wasn't Bart. But this young man is coherent. He has valuable intelligence about where the rest of the soldiers are being held.
“He saidâ” Mitzi pauses and stares out the window. “Half the soldiers are alive and half are dead.”
Kevin pulls into the airport parking lot. He can see Air Force 2 out on the tarmac. The vice president is on island.
“Wait a minute. What did you say?”
“This soldier told the officers who found him that half of the other soldiers are alive and half are dead.”
“Half are dead?” Kevin says. His eyes are suddenly swimming with tears. Thirty minutes ago, he was hunting for the potato masher in the utensil drawer of his rental house, and now his father is being flown in an emergency helicopter to Boston and there's a 50 percent chance his younger brother is dead.
“Half are alive,” Mitzi says. Kevin pulls up to the front of the terminal to let Mitzi out. “Don't you get it, Kevin? Bart is alive.”
“Is that confirmed?” Kevin asks. “Did the soldier give any names?”
“No,” Mitzi says. “No names, nothing confirmed.” She steps out onto the curb and smiles at Kevin. “But I'm his mother. I know.”
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haritably, Dr. Cherith waits until Friday morning to deliver the news.
Brain cancer. Or, more correctly, prostate cancer that has metastasized to the brain. Kelley has a tumor blooming in the back of his occipital lobe, creating pressure against his skull, which was probably what caused his fall.
“Blooming?” Kelley says. “Like a flower?” He pictures a rose or a peony on the back of his head.
“The tumor has tentacles, some of them far-reaching,” Dr. Cherith says. “It's not resectable.”
Tentacles now, like a squid. Kelley prefers the former analogy.
“So you can't operate?” Kelley says.
“No,” Dr. Cherith says.
“What can you do?”
“Well, radiation, certainly. That should shrink it. The chemo protocol for this particular kind of cancer is notoriously nasty and effective only twenty-five percent of the time.”
“Kind of like our new president-elect,” Kelley says.
Dr. Cherith smiles, but just barely. Honestly, Kelley is so confused and overwhelmed, he can't remember who won the election.
“I'll give you all the information about the chemo and you can make your own decision,” Dr. Cherith says. “For now, I suggest radiation, much like beforeâthirty days.”
“Just keep me alive as long as you can, Doc,” Kelley says. As soon as Mitzi arrived at Mass. General, she told Kelley what she'd been screaming about right before Kelley fell over. Another soldier found, reporting that half of his fellow soldiers were alive⦠and half dead.
“Bart?” Kelley asked. He'd wanted to ask if Bart's specific fate had been decided, but he didn't know how.
“They're going to find him,” Mitzi says. “He's coming home.”
Kelley had asked for Dr. Cherith to give him the diagnosis privately so he could decide how much to tell Mitzi and the kids. Everyone is consumed with thoughts of Bart. The AP reports on the recovered soldier, Private Jonathan Mackie, on Thursday night included his quote that half of his brothers-in-arms were killed by the Bely, but half remained alive. Kelley admires Mitzi's certitude that Bart is alive, and as much as he would like to join her in this steadfast belief, he can't seem to keep his mind from visiting the dark side. What if Bart was killed? What if Bart mouthed off or otherwise angered the Bely? This is certainly possible, but Kelley thinks back on everything Bart has gone through since he enlisted. The thirteen weeks of boot camp on Parris Island, where the drill instructors broke Bart down to nothingâhe referred to himself only in the third personâthen built him back up into a Marine. By his own account, he excelled at his PFT (physical fitness test), running three miles in twenty minutes, doing thirty-nine pull-ups and then seventy-two crunches in sixty seconds. His basic training culminated in the Crucible, a fifty-four-hour exercise during which he was allowed to sleep for only two hours and had to hike forty-two miles with obstacles. After boot camp came the Infantry Training Battalion at Camp Lejeune, where over the course of three months he learned skilled rifle shooting. Mitzi had initially had a hard time thinking about Bart handling weapons but that had been Bart's favorite part of ITB.
Every Marine is a rifleman,
he said.