Winter of the World (45 page)

The army had certainly made T
ŷ
Gwyn look different. There were a dozen olive-drab vehicles parked on the lawn, and their tyres had chewed up the earl’s lush turf. The gracious
entrance courtyard, with its curved granite steps, had become a supply dump, and giant cans of baked beans and cooking lard stood in teetering stacks where, formerly, bejewelled women and men in
tailcoats had stepped out of their carriages. Lloyd grinned: he liked the levelling effect of war.

Lloyd entered the house. He was greeted by a podgy officer in a creased and stained uniform. ‘Here for the intelligence course, Lieutenant?’

‘Yes, sir. My name is Lloyd Williams.’

‘I’m Major Lowther.’

Lloyd had heard of him. He was the Marquis of Lowther, known to his pals as Lowthie.

Lloyd looked around. The paintings on the walls had been shrouded with huge dust sheets. The ornate carved marble fireplaces had been boxed in with rough planking, leaving only a small space for
a grate. The dark old furniture that his mother sometimes mentioned fondly had all disappeared, to be replaced by steel desks and cheap chairs. ‘My goodness, the place looks different,’
he said.

Lowther smiled. ‘You’ve been here before. Do you know the family?’

‘I was up at Cambridge with Boy Fitzherbert. I met the Viscountess there, too, although they weren’t married then. But I suppose they’ve moved out for the duration.’

‘Not entirely. A few rooms have been reserved for their private use. But they don’t bother us at all. So you came here as a guest?’

‘Goodness, no, I don’t know them well. No, I was shown around the place as a boy, one day when the family weren’t in residence. My mother worked here at one time.’

‘Really? What, looking after the earl’s library, or something?’

‘No, as a housemaid.’ As soon as the words were out of Lloyd’s mouth he knew he had made a mistake.

Lowther’s face changed to an expression of distaste. ‘I see,’ he said. ‘How very interesting.’

Lloyd knew he had instantly been pigeonholed as a proletarian upstart. He would now be treated as a second-class citizen throughout his time here. He should have kept quiet about his
mother’s past: he knew how snobbish the army was.

Lowthie said: ‘Show the lieutenant to his room, sergeant. Attic floor.’

Lloyd had been assigned a room in the old servants’ quarters. He did not really mind. It was good enough for my mother, he thought.

As they walked up the back stairs, the sergeant told Lloyd he had no obligations until dinner in the mess. Lloyd asked whether any of the Fitzherberts happened to be in residence right now, but
the man did not know.

It took Lloyd two minutes to unpack. He combed his hair, put on a clean uniform shirt, and went to visit his grandparents.

The house in Wellington Row seemed smaller and more drab than ever, though it now had hot water in the scullery and a flushing toilet in the outhouse. The decor had not altered within
Lloyd’s memory: same rag rug on the floor, same faded paisley curtains, same hard oak chairs in the single ground-floor room that served as living room and kitchen.

His grandparents had changed, though. Both were about seventy now, he guessed, and looking frail. Granda had pains in his legs, and had reluctantly retired from his job with the miners’
union. Grandmam had a weak heart: Dr Mortimer had told her to put her feet up for a quarter of an hour after meals.

They were pleased to see Lloyd in his uniform. ‘Lieutenant, is it?’ said Grandmam. A class warrior all her life, she nevertheless could not conceal her pride that her grandson was an
officer.

News travelled fast in Aberowen, and the fact that Dai Union’s grandson was visiting probably went halfway round the town before Lloyd had finished his first cup of Grandmam’s strong
tea. So he was not really surprised when Tommy Griffiths dropped in.

‘I expect my Lenny would be a lieutenant, like you, if he’d come back from Spain,’ Tommy said.

‘I should think so,’ Lloyd said. He had never met an officer who had been a coal miner in civilian life, but anything might happen once the war got going properly. ‘He was the
best sergeant in Spain, I can tell you that.’

‘You two went through a lot together.’

‘We went through hell,’ Lloyd said. ‘And we lost. But the Fascists won’t win this time.’

‘I’ll drink to that,’ said Tommy, and emptied his mug of tea.

Lloyd went with his grandparents to the evening service at the Bethesda Chapel. Religion was not a big part of his life, and he certainly did not go along with Granda’s dogmatism. The
universe was mysterious, Lloyd thought, and people might as well admit it. But it pleased his grandparents that he sat with them in chapel.

The extempore prayers were eloquent, knitting biblical phrases seamlessly into colloquial language. The sermon was a bit tedious, but the singing thrilled Lloyd. Welsh chapelgoers automatically
sang in four-part harmony, and when they were in the mood they could raise the roof.

As he joined in, Lloyd felt this was the beating heart of Britain, here in this whitewashed chapel. The people around him were poorly dressed and ill-educated, and they lived lives of unending
hard work, the men winning the coal underground, the women raising the next generation of miners. But they had strong backs and sharp minds, and all on their own they had created a culture that
made life worth living. They gained hope from nonconformist Christianity and left-wing politics, they found joy in rugby football and male voice choirs, and they were bonded together by generosity
in good times and solidarity in bad. This was what he would be fighting for, these people, this town. And if he had to give his life for them, it would be well spent.

Granda gave the closing prayer, standing up with his eyes shut, leaning on a walking stick. ‘You see among us, O Lord, your young servant Lloyd Williams, sitting by here in his uniform. We
ask you, in your wisdom and grace, to spare his life in the conflict to come. Please, Lord, send him back home to us safe and whole. If it be your will, O Lord.’

The congregation gave a heartfelt amen, and Lloyd wiped away a tear.

He walked the old folk home as the sun went down behind the mountain and an evening gloom settled on the rows of grey houses. He refused the offer of supper and hurried back to T
ŷ
Gwyn,
arriving in time for dinner in the mess.

They had braised beef, boiled potatoes and cabbage. It was no better or worse than most army food, and Lloyd tucked in, aware that it had been paid for by people such as his grandparents who
were having bread-and-dripping for their supper. There was a bottle of whisky on the table, and Lloyd took some to be convivial. He studied his fellow trainees and tried to remember their
names.

On his way up to bed he passed through the Sculpture Room, now empty of art and furnished with a blackboard and twelve cheap desks. There he saw Major Lowther talking to a woman. At a second
glance he saw that the woman was Daisy Fitzherbert.

He was so surprised that he stopped. Lowther looked around with an irritated expression. He saw Lloyd and reluctantly said: ‘Lady Aberowen, I believe you know Lieutenant
Williams.’

If she denies it, Lloyd thought, I shall remind her of the time she kissed me, long and hard, on a Mayfair street in the dark.

‘How nice to see you again, Mr Williams,’ she said, and put out her hand to shake.

Her skin was warm and soft to his touch. His heart beat faster.

Lowther said: ‘Williams tells me his mother worked at this house as a maid.’

‘I know,’ Daisy said. ‘He told me that at the Trinity Ball. He was reproving me for being a snob. I’m sorry to say that he was quite right.’

‘You’re generous, Lady Aberowen,’ said Lloyd, feeling embarrassed. ‘I don’t know what business I had to say such a thing to you.’ She seemed less brittle than
he remembered: perhaps she had matured.

Daisy said to Lowther: ‘Mr Williams’s mother is a Member of Parliament now, though.’

Lowther was taken aback.

Lloyd said to Daisy: ‘And how is your Jewish friend Eva? I know she married Jimmy Murray.’

‘They have two children now.’

‘Did she get her parents out of Germany?’

‘How kind of you to remember – but no, sadly, the Rothmanns can’t get exit visas.’

‘I’m so sorry. It must be hell for her.’

‘It is.’

Lowther was visibly impatient with this talk of housemaids and Jews. ‘To get back to what I was saying, Lady Aberowen . . .’

Lloyd said: ‘I’ll bid you goodnight.’ He left the room and ran upstairs.

As he got ready for bed he found himself singing the last hymn from the service:

(ii)

Three days later Daisy was finishing writing to her half-brother, Greg. When war broke out he had sent her a sweetly anxious letter, and since then they had corresponded
every month or so. He had told her about seeing his old flame, Jacky Jakes, on E street in Washington, and asked Daisy what would make a girl run away like that? Daisy had no idea. She said so, and
wished him luck, then signed off.

She looked at the clock. It was an hour before the trainees’ dinner time, so lessons had ended and she had a good chance of catching Lloyd in his room.

She went up to the old servants’ quarters on the attic floor. The young officers were sitting or lying on their beds, reading or writing. She found Lloyd in a narrow room with an old
cheval-glass, sitting by the window, studying an illustrated book. She said: ‘Reading something interesting?’

He sprang to his feet. ‘Hello, this is a surprise.’

He was blushing. He probably still had a crush on her. It had been very cruel of her to kiss him, when she had no intention of letting the relationship go any further. But that was four years
ago, and they had both been kids. He should have gotten over it by now.

She looked at the book in his hands. It was in German, and had colour pictures of badges.

‘We have to know German insignia,’ he explained. ‘A lot of military intelligence comes from interrogation of prisoners of war immediately after their capture. Some won’t
talk, of course; so the interrogator needs to be able to tell, just by looking at the prisoner’s uniform, what his rank is, what army corps he belongs to, whether he is from infantry,
cavalry, artillery, or a specialist unit such as veterinarian, and so on.’

‘That’s what you’re learning here?’ she said sceptically. ‘The meanings of German badges?’

He laughed. ‘It’s one of the things we’re learning. One I can tell you about without giving away military secrets.’

‘Oh, I see.’

‘Why are you here in Wales? I’m surprised you’re not doing something for the war effort.’

‘There you go again,’ she said. ‘Moral reproof. Did someone tell you this was a way to charm women?’

‘Pardon me,’ he said stiffly. ‘I didn’t mean to rebuke you.’

‘Anyway, there is no war effort. Barrage balloons float in the air as a hazard to German planes that never come.’

‘At least you’d have a social life in London.’

‘Do you know that used to be the most important thing in the world, and now it’s not?’ she said. ‘I must be getting old.’

There was another reason she had left London, but she was not going to tell him.

‘I imagined you in a nurse’s uniform,’ he said.

‘Not likely. I hate sick people. But before you give me another of those disapproving frowns, take a look at this.’ She handed him the framed photograph she was carrying.

He studied it, frowning. ‘Where did you get it?’

‘I was looking through a box of old pictures in the basement junk room.’

It was a group photo taken on the east lawn of T
ŷ
Gwyn on a summer morning. In the centre was the young Earl Fitzherbert, with a big white dog at his feet. The girl next to him was probably
his sister, Maud, whom Daisy had never met. Lined up on either side of them were forty or fifty men and women in a variety of servants’ uniforms.

‘Look at the date,’ she said.

‘Nineteen-twelve,’ Lloyd read aloud.

She watched him, studying his reactions to the photo he was holding. ‘Is your mother in it?’

‘Goodness! She might be.’ Lloyd looked closer. ‘I believe she is,’ he said after a minute.

‘Show me.’

Lloyd pointed. ‘I think that’s her.’

Daisy saw a slim, pretty girl of about nineteen, with curly black hair under a maid’s white cap, and a smile that had more than a hint of mischief in it. ‘Why, she’s
enchanting!’ she said.

‘She was then, anyway,’ Lloyd said. ‘Nowadays people are more likely to call her formidable.’

‘Have you ever met Lady Maud? Do you think that’s her next to Fitz?’

‘I suppose I’ve known her all my life, off and on. She and my mother were suffragettes together. I haven’t seen her since I left Berlin in 1933, but this is definitely her in
the picture.’

‘She’s not so pretty.’

‘Perhaps, but she’s very poised, and wonderfully well dressed.’

‘Anyway, I thought you might like to have the picture.’

‘To keep?’

‘Of course. No one else wants it – that’s why it was in a box in the basement.’

‘Thank you!’

‘You’re welcome.’ Daisy went to the door. ‘Go back to your studies.’

Going down the back stairs she hoped she had not flirted. She probably should not have gone to see him at all. She had succumbed to a generous impulse. Heaven forbid that he should misinterpret
it.

She felt a sharp pain in her tummy, and stopped on the half-landing. She had had a slight backache all day – which she attributed to the cheap mattress she was sleeping on – but this
was different. She thought back over what she had eaten today, but could not identify anything that might have made her ill: no undercooked chicken, no unripe fruit. She had not eaten oysters
– no such luck! The pain went as quickly as it had come and she told herself to forget about it.