Authors: Needa Warrant,Miranda Rights
What the hell?
V hadn't seemed in love with me? Or was Rabid playing mind games? I decided to play along. "Rabid, what do you want me to wear when we go over to show V my ring? I want you to pick out what you like best. I’d really like to get this over with and move on.”
He sorted through some clothes and picked a red, low-cut sweater for me and jeans
. Ha, I thought!
V knows I hate the color red and
never
wore it. I brushed my hair and called out, "Should I wear makeup?”
Rabid came to the bathroom and looked me over. "No. I like you without it but you can add some mascara and that shit that makes your lips shine.”
“Fine." Stupid Rabid. He should have made me look older or slutty. V seeing me without makeup would upset him. He'd see the real me. The Kima he loved. Crazy Rabies wasn't as slick as he thought. Game on!
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I really didn't want to see Veiko. Rabid was mad at the receptionist because she would only let the two of us go up. I saw Bullet head for the stairs and felt better.
On the elevator Rabid was telling me what I should talk about. I paid no attention to him. I hate closed in spaces and felt faint, focusing on the round diamond on my left hand. I could do this for now, just to make sure V stayed safe; I had to.
Finally, we got off and walked down the hall toward V's room, I heard yelling. I saw the blonde girl V had been holding rush out of the room crying. She saw us and turned the other way.
Rabid sighed. "Veiko's sister. She's a pretty young girl. Now, be respectful to Mrs. Finn. She loves me and, in time, she may even like you.”
Fuck Mrs. Finn. She could rot in hell! I was blaming her for everything happening to Veiko and me. That blonde was V's sister? Oh my God!
When we got to the door of his room, I saw Veiko. My heart bottomed out. His hair was all messy, the way it was when we woke up together. He looked pale but pissed off. A nurse was trying to talk to him and, as usual, V didn't want to hear anything. Mrs. Finn was crying too.
As we entered the room she gave me a dirty look. "Sean, take that whore out of my sight.” Her voice had an accent to it.
Rabid took it all in stride. "Mama Finn! I just came by to tell you I’m engaged so you don't need to worry about your son and Kima any longer.”
V looked at me and I brushed a tear away. I could see steel in his eyes.
"Mama! Get the fuck out of my life! We're
done
. You have no sons. Do I need to have security take you out here?”
She was crying more now. "Veiko, you don't mean that. Everything is all
her
fault. Thor married
her
friend! And look at what he married!" The old bitch turned to me and hissed something in Finnish or Swedish.
I gave her a condescending smile. "I’m engaged now, Mrs. Finn and I think Thrash chose a lovely bride. I'm sure you'll have beautiful grandchildren.” Score for me! She really hates me and I hate her.
The nurse escorted Mrs. Finn out of the room, all the while she was glaring at me.
Rabid pulled me toward the bed. Veiko looked tired and mad as hell. He looked at Rabid, "So, you took Kima? I was told that’s what you both wanted, so have fun with her. I did. She's a good fuck.”
I smiled at him and gave him a wink. "Yeah I am. Rabid wanted to make an honest woman out of me when he heard the whole story. Something you never wanted to do. So - I’m out of your life, V.”
Rabid was confused. "Veiko, in Virginia you made it sound as if this girl didn't matter to you. So when she hit me, I claimed her. She could have said no.”
V laughed, sounding bitter. "Did she? Or was a bro coming over here to explain it to me with his fists,
brother?
Like I could fight for her in this shape.”
"V, you know I've been looking for an old lady and Kima fits my criteria. Surely you aren't pissed at me?” Rabid seemed perplexed.
Veiko looked long and hard at me. "Fuck no. Take 'Trouble' off my hands. You make a great couple. I was tired of her anyway. Far too young for me. Congratulations. I hope you'll hold the wedding until I am on my feet again,
brother.
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Rabid looked happy. If V was playing Rabid he was doing a great job. Shit, I was almost believing him. Until I saw the twitch of his eyebrow. I know when he says 'brother' like that he's really angry.
Bullet entered the room, standing off to the side silently. Veiko spoke again. "Rabid, can you do me a favor and check on my mother? Make her understand that Kima’s out of my life? I’d like to speak to Kima. We've got some issues to settle. Since Bullet’s here that’s fine, right,
brother?”
Rabid looked antsy about letting V speak to me but nodded. "Of course I’ll speak to your mother. Bullet’s not leaving the room though.” He kissed me on the forehead and went off to find that bitch mother of V's. I waited to hear what he had to say.
"Kima, get the fuck over here.”
I looked at Bullet who nodded it was alright.
V took my hand when I approached his bed. All the love, pain and emotion was in his eyes when he whispered, "I love you forever, just hold on. Jersey told you what to do?”
I nodded, choking back tears, "Only you, V. I love you forever.”
Bullet coughed. It was a signal that Rabid was coming back. I stepped again to his side.
V's tone of voice changed, sounding more angrier, "I'll make sure you get your shit. I get the cabin.”
Rabid walked into the room. "V, I couldn't find her. Are you done with Kima?”
V replied, "Yeah,
brother
. I'm fucking done with her. Where do you want her stuff dropped off?”
Rabid was stroking his goatee again. It seemed to be his addiction. "Actually, I don't want it. Kima’s starting a new life. Just give it away or toss it - she won't need it. Of course we’ll wait for you and Thrash to be at our wedding. Now we gotta go. I need to head north soon, I want my mother to meet Kima. But we'll be around for a few days, in case you need anything. Glad there's no hard feelings. Lots of chicks out there for you, eh bro?”
V was staring into space as he muttered, "Yeah, lots.”
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As Rabid took my hand and we walked away, all I could think was that V still loved me. But would he love me after Rabid raped me? I shuddered at the thought. As soon as I could I was running as far away as I could from Rabid. Hell, I'd kill the bastard myself if given the chance.
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"Kima, you did good today. Are you tired?” Rabid could be so nice when he wasn't crazy. But he couldn't be trusted.
I was tired and it was showing. "Yeah I am. I don't know where to put all the clothes you bought me today or where we’ll be staying. Damn! Veiko took my cabin!”
He patted my hand. "Marco went to buy you luggage and you need rest. I suppose we'll have to get a house. I don’t usually stay put for long but for the times you aren't with me, you’ll need a place to live. Is there any particular town you prefer?”
I was careful in replying, "I’d like to be near the ocean. I don't do well without being able to see it. Somewhere close to a beach would be nice.”
He looked thoughtful, "Bullet, find us some place near the ocean, not too close to Ocean Cove. Now, when we get to the motel, Kima, you go lay down and rest. Tomorrow I want my mother to meet you.”
Well, I’d met Mrs. Finn; I couldn't wait to meet Mrs. Rabies. "Sean, what’s your last name?”
He looked at me and smiled, "Sean Patrick Brennan and your name's gonna be Kima Brennan. Do you have a middle name?”
I knew he was
just
going to love my middle name so I was happy to reply. “Kima Natasha.” He looked upset. "Lose it. From now on, it’ll be Colleen. That's a good Irish name. Oh, and lose the Russian part. I'd rather my mother think you’re all
Irish.”
I smiled adoringly into his face while thinking;
Rabies, you haven't met Mrs. Regan yet, and if you dare knock her for being Russian, she'll have your balls! So will my mean uncles!
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A few days had passed and we moved yet again. Rabid heard V was out of the hospital and wanted to take me to the clubhouse. A bunch of bikers were in the room getting high.
He looked at me with a glare. "Wear something sexy tonight and don't even think of going near Veiko or his chapter. You just sit at the table with my boys. Got it?"
"Yeah, I got it. You want me to look sexy and keep my mouth shut. I can do that.”
I dressed in boots, jeans, and a low cut black sweater. This shit was really wearing on my nerves. I didn't want to see V. I really didn't want to see anyone. I wanted to see my parents and was actually missing them for a change. But, to keep V safe, I'd pull this off.
"Rabid, should I wear makeup?”
He was snorting a line of speed. "Yeah, use a little. Who the fuck cares. You wanna do line?”
I didn't feel like answering but I really needed something to deal with tonight. I'd done cocaine a few times. Maybe he had some. "You got any cocaine?”
Rabid’s eyes were gleaming. "You want coke? Shit. I thought you didn't do drugs. Guess we're wrecking your morals. Bullet, put a line down for the bitch.”
Bitch, huh?
I smiled sweetly, "There’s so much you don't know about me. My brother’s a drug dealer. My father is a nasty man with powerful friends. I told you about my mother's brothers. There’s way more to me than you see. You see a young girl who you think you can control. That girl is not me! I love to hunt. I was always a wild child who drove my parents insane. I've done my fair share of drugs. Normally, I don't do them anymore. Tonight, though, making me go to a club where my ex is, yeah, I want some coke. I'll need to be numb.”
It seems I spoke to the air because Rabid was looking out the windows, bugging out as usual. Bullet and Marco were paying attention though.
Bullet handed me a straw and whispered, "Let it go. He's in a mood already.”
It was a huge line of cocaine and I hoped it would numb my brain. I snorted the coke and we left with his boys.
In the car I had a question for Rabid. "Do you own a bike? How come I've never seen it if you do.”
Grabbing my throat, he hissed, "What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Of course I've got a Harley! I ride. You trying to say I don't ride? I ride when the fuck I wanna ride, bitch! Now shut the fuck up,”
Stupid Rabid! I got exactly what I wanted from him!
I knew I was bruised; I have fair skin. Maybe somebody would notice and stop this charade. Or they could see whatever plan they had wasn't working, and get me out now.
We got to the club and I wasn't happy to see anyone. Nor did it seem anyone was coming over to say hello. Rabid had deposited me at a table and Bullet went to get drinks. I saw Veiko leaning against one of the bars.
"This is so fucking wrong,” I sighed sadly to Marco.
I was shocked when he answered me. "Yeah - it’s wrong and I want no part of it. There has to be a way to get you free.” His sharp, knowing eyes were looking around the clubhouse. He spoke low as a frown suddenly crossed his face. “Just be cool and turn your head. Look at what Rabid’s doing. I've seen him do this shit before. He'll try to make you jealous so he can fuck with you after we get back to the room.”
I turned and saw Rabid with Roxy. He was trying to make a fool out of me. Well, really more a fool of himself because Roxy was a used up slut. Everyone knew that!
Marco grabbed my leg "Leave it be. He wants this - don't give him the satisfaction. Pretend you don't care. Ignore it all.”
I figured Marco knew Rabies better than me, so I took his advice. But the game was on. I'd fix Rabies or make a fool out of him.
Watching this circus act, I saw Roxy grabbed Rabid's hand and led him to the office. Looking back at me, she smiled triumphantly. Stupid bitch! When this was over I'd beat her ass again just for that smile. It sure wouldn't be over Rabies.
Hell!
I'd love for Rabies to take Roxy.
I said I had to go to the bathroom and Bullet told me to make it fast. To get there, I had to walk past Veiko. He looked so pale, like a ghost of himself. Where was the warrior that I knew him to be? Was he giving up the fight for us? Grimly, he looked into my eyes and at my neck before demanding another drink.