Authors: H. S. Cross
âI see.
The man nodded, then laughed:
âI see!
Morgan laughed, too. He didn't understand, but he laughed.
The chauffeur was getting out of the motorcar then and helping the Bishop, and Dr. Sebastian was hurrying from somewhere and putting his arm around his father's waist. The Bishop was protesting, and Dr. Sebastian was telling him off, for coming up, for disobeying his physician, for doing what he always did: listen to no one and risk life and limb for his own stubbornâ
âJust what are you laughing at? Dr. Sebastian demanded of Morgan.
Morgan couldn't answer. He could only lean against the motorcar, ribs shuddering, lungs wheezing with laughter.
They took the Bishop into the little garden behind the Headmaster's house, where there was tea and bread and butter. Sunset poured across the walls, and Dr. Sebastian continued to scold.
âIt was warm, the Bishop said. The circumstances were trying, and I momentarily ⦠It's very embarrassing. I beg you to change the subject.
âI shan't change the subject, not until you admitâ
The Bishop kept his eyes on Morgan, as if what mattered was the two of them and what had passed between them and around them and within them, even now. As if they had come to St. Stephen's not to view his son's project but to understand Morgan's.
âYou aren't immortal, Father. If you won't hear reasonâ
âOh, I'd
much
rather hear about this young history master Wilberforce has told me so much about.
Dr. Sebastian looked to Morgan, a glance of displeasure so sharp that Morgan felt the blade, that he might do to the Academy what the scythe had done to people he lovedâ
âSir, Morgan said, please don't change the Academy. I know it isn't the best place in the world, but â¦
How could he say he loved it?
âI've been brought here to make changes, Dr. Sebastian replied.
âIt's a good place, Morgan said huskily. I know it doesn't look it, but it has been. It wants to be. If only someone could understand it, it would be good again.
His head pounded. His throat ached.
âWilberforce, Dr. Sebastian said, sit down, eat those sandwichesâ
âSirâ
âAnd have a little faith.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
He ate until he wasn't hungry anymore, and then Dr. Sebastian sent him to bed. The light was fading, and in the little room of the Headmaster's house, the lamp had no bulb. He got under the covers, eyes swollen, bone-weary, unable to rest. He'd gone to bed without examination, without prayers, without anyone's hand on his head. Was he a person who needed such things? Such things, and such and such things â¦
He had gone by his own will, down and more down, and there at the bottom, where the hurt kept hurting, there, down there, someone ⦠something was happening.
The dark drew near. He felt it as he breathedâthick, adamantâbut in his ears a rumble, like footsteps barreling, him in sights as if nothing else mattered, impact coming, too late to dodgeâa thousand rushingâcaptainâbreathânow, nowâ
now
.
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My grateful thanks:
To Jennifer Gibbs, Jennifer Turner Hall, Jean Wagner, Camille Guthrie, Andrea Codrington Lippke, and Penny Ghartey, for encouragement, accountability, and probing reads.
To Cameron Henderson-Begg, for insights sharp and gentle, and for cricket tutelage.
To Nell Mead, for advice medical, historical, and dramatic.
To Joseph Housley, John Collins, and the hive mind of Twitter friends, for help with language, period, law, munitions, sport, and custom.
To Alice Tasman, for warmth, realism, ambition, and vision.
To Jonathan Galassi, for enthusiasm and belief.
To Christopher Richards, for the most excellent, sensitive, and challenging editing I could imagine.
To the Reverend Andrew C. Mead and the Reverend Victor Lee Austin, for inspiration, in every sense of the word, more than they know.
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H. S. Cross
was born in Grosse Pointe, Michigan. She was educated at Harvard and has taught at Friends Seminary, among other schools.
Wilberforce
is her debut novel, and she is working on a second book set at St. Stephen's Academy. She lives in New York City. You can sign up for email updates
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Cross, H. S., 1968â
    Wilberforce: a novel / H. S. Cross. â First edition.
        pages cm
    ISBN 978-0-374-29010-8 (hardback) â ISBN 978-0-374-71342-3 (e-book)
    1. Boarding schoolsâEnglandâFiction.   2. Teenage boysâFiction.   I. Title.
    PS3603.R6739 W53 2015
    813'.6âdc23
2015002964