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Authors: Kat Martin

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Pulling the counterpane tighter around her shoulders, she pressed herself deeper into the shadows, hoping no one would see her. She could hear the sound of voices coming from the taproom and an occasional burst of laughter. Outside the inn, a slight rain had begun to fall and a chill crept into the misty air. Her muscles ached and she was glad they had stopped for the night, but more than that she was grateful for the extra time she would be able to spend with the earl.
It was foolish, she knew. But the moment he had stepped into the clearing, her heart had swelled with joy, and reason seemed to fly out the window. He had come for her, as she had known he would, and the knowledge spun the last silken threads of the web that ensnared her.
It was useless to deny it—she was in love with Nicholas Warring. Desperately, futilely, completely in love with him and there was nothing she could do to change things.
She imagined his dark, handsome features, thought of her hopeless situation, and a memory of her mother, dead these past six years, arose in the eye of her mind. With the same dark auburn hair and slender figure, Elizabeth looked a good deal like her, but there the similarity ended. While Elizabeth loved life and tried to make the most of every day, Isabel had never been happy.
Her marriage to Henry Woolcot had been arranged. She had been forced to marry a man twenty years her senior. Isabel resented the marriage. From the age of sixteen, she'd been in love with another man.
"There is no one else for me," she told Elizabeth once. "I have always loved him. I always will."
Elizabeth remembered that day clearly, a warm summer afternoon on the banks of the small meandering stream behind their big stone house.
"Listen to your heart," her mother had said, staring down at the water with tear-filled eyes. "When you marry, do it for love. Life is not worth living if you cannot share it with the man you love."
It must have been true, at least for Isabel. She killed herself on a cool fall morning, the day she discovered her lover, Captain Eric Blackstone of the Fifth Dragoons, had died in the fighting on the Continent.
Isabel was dead, and Elizabeth alone had mourned her. Her father, feeling angry and betrayed, had died not long after, a lonely, bitter man.
Elizabeth sighed, thinking of the past, thinking that as much as she'd fought against it, she would be following in her mother's painful footsteps. She would have to marry and soon, and the man she would wed would not be Nicholas Warring.
Nick placed a small stack of coins on the counter in front of the innkeeper, a white-whiskered man with a leather apron tied around his waist.
"We'll have ye quarters ready in a thrice, milord." The man scooped up the coins and scurried away to see the task done.
Turning back toward the entry, Nick strode toward the place where Elizabeth's slender figure pressed into the shadows along the wall and a shot of guilt assailed him. She looked like a waif standing there in the darkness. Thanks to that whoreson, Bascomb, she had been dragged from her bed in the middle of the night and forced to endure two days of torture at the hands of Bascomb's men. Damn but he hated the bastard.
Nick ground his jaw. If he had his way, Bascomb would face the same fate as his no-account brother, and Elizabeth would be safe. Perhaps this time the authorities would intercede, he thought, and the earl's pursuit would end. Nick doubted it. As Sydney had said, Oliver Hampton was a force to be reckoned with. Odds were, the local justice would have little power against him.
He glanced to where Elizabeth stood and forced himself to smile. He tried not to think how lovely she looked even with her tousled hair, her cheeks smudged with dirt.
"The innkeeper has given us the last two rooms. Apparently they are above the kitchen. Nothing fancy, I gather, but at least we shall be warm." He caught her answering smile and something squeezed inside his chest.
"I'm sure the rooms will be fine."
The kitchen was in a separate brick building in back of the inn. Still dressed in her wrinkled, dirt-stained nightgown, the counterpane haphazardly wrapped around her shoulders and trailing in the dirt, Elizabeth preceded him up the stairs and he opened the door.
The rooms were adequate, but little more, just two chairs and a rough-hewn table set before a small fire burning in the hearth. A bedside table with a half-melted candle in a scratched pewter holder sat beside a bed fashioned of rope, covered by a lumpy corn-husk mattress, but over it had been placed a deep feather mattress. Clean muslin sheets encased it, topped by a colorful quilt. Apparently, the extra coin he had paid had been worth it.
"I believe the innkeeper has done his best to make us comfortable," he said. "On the morrow. I shall find you something more suitable to wear." The counterpane slipped just then, and his gaze followed the path of the pink mauve silk down over Elizabeth's breasts. Outlined by the thin white cotton fabric, two perfectly sculpted mounds pointed upward, the soft peaks forming shadowy circles beneath the cloth.
His throat went dry and he dragged his gaze away, but the size and shape remained etched in his mind.
"I am sick unto death of traipsing around the countryside in my nightgown," she said. "I should be grateful for anything you might be able to find."
Nick nodded. The unwelcome thought occurred that he would like nothing better than to see her out of her blasted night clothes, to have her naked and lying in his bed.
He pushed the thought away. A soft knock sounded and he was grateful for the diversion. "I ordered water for a bath," he said over his shoulder. "Apparently it has arrived." He strode to the door and pulled it open, and four young boys— stable lads and kitchen help—walked in with two steaming tubs filled with water. They trooped through the first room, depositing one tub there, and carried another tub into the second. The bedchambers were tandem, one in back of the other, making the most of the attic space above the kitchen.
Nick glanced uncomfortably toward the door adjoining the two rooms. "I'm sorry there isn't more privacy, but these were the only bedchambers left."
Elizabeth seemed unconcerned. "The rooms are fine, my lord."
The boys headed for the door leading downstairs, and Nick tossed them a coin as they passed. A kitchen maid appeared with a tray of food: cold boiled beef and potatoes, a slice of Wilton cheese, coarse rye bread, and two flagons of wine, which she divided into portions and set on a table in each room.
She gave him a lusty smile as she walked out the door, her hips swaying seductively, but it garnered not the least bit of interest. Instead his eyes strayed again to the door between the bedchambers. "There is a lock, so you needn't be afraid."
Elizabeth turned, smiled at him softly. "I am not afraid of you, my lord. I told you that before."
Nick glanced from the door to the bed, then back to where she stood just a few feet away. His eyes skimmed from her tousled auburn hair to the toes of her bare feet peeping out from beneath the counterpane. He wanted to toss the damn thing away, to tear off her nightgown and stroke those beautiful breasts. He wanted to kiss the arches of her slender bare feet.
"Perhaps you are right," he said gruffly, hating himself for his lustful thoughts. "In truth it is I who am afraid." A last fierce glance and he turned away, his long strides carrying him back through the opening that led to the bedchamber he would occupy for the night.
It would be a long one, he knew. With Elizabeth so very close yet miles out of his reach, odds were he wouldn't get a minute of sleep.
Elizabeth watched Nicholas walk away, tall and lean, and incredibly handsome even in his dusty riding clothes. He disappeared behind the door and her heart felt suddenly leaden, crushed by the weight of her need of him. In a few short hours she had grown used to the feel of his arms around her, the comforting sound of his heartbeat, his solid strength when he held her. She was in love with him, irrationally perhaps, futilely for certain.
She knew her own feelings well, but she wondered—what did Nicholas feel for her?
Ignoring the food on the tray and the rumble in her stomach, Elizabeth turned toward the steaming tub of water. The counterpane fell to the floor, followed by her dirty white nightgown. A clean one sat next to a brush and comb on the bed, she saw, and was grateful for his care of her.
Care. That was something Nicholas felt for her. In some way he cared for her, at least a little.
She thought of his burning gaze in that instant before he left the room, fierce in its intensity, a scorching glance that seared from the top of her head to the soles of her feet.
Desire was something he felt—he had made that perfectly clear. But the yearning in his eyes when he looked at her said there was a great deal more.
Elizabeth sighed as she sank into the water, allowing the warmth to rush over her, hoping some of her troubles would drift away. Instead she thought of Nicholas, of his lean, hard body and dark, long-fingered hands. She remembered the kiss they had shared, and a soft ache rose inside her. Nicholas wanted her. He did not deny it, yet she knew he would not take her. As Sydney Birdsall had said, Nicholas Warring was a man of honor. He had vowed to protect her and he would do so no matter the cost.
But what of the cost to her?
Elizabeth leaned back in the small leather bathing tub, letting the warmth of the water soothe the aches in her muscles and joints. In a few weeks' time, she would be leaving Ravenworth Hall for good, traveling to London in search of a husband. She would marry a man she barely knew while her heart yearned for another. It was the same fate her mother had suffered.
At least her mother had known love, she thought with a hint of bitterness. Elizabeth had only that one brief kiss, that one brief flare of passion to savor. She would never know what it felt like to lie with a man she desired, to touch him and let him touch her.
Not unless she did something about it.
The notion stayed with her as she washed her hair with a bar of strong lye soap, rinsed it as best she could, then climbed out and dried herself on a thin muslin towel.
Dressing in the clean white night rail on the bed, she sat in a chair before the fire to dry her hair and eat the supper that waited on the table. She poured herself a mug of wine and took a drink, but her mind strained toward the sounds on the opposite side of the wall. She could hear Nicholas moving about, splashing water from the tub as he climbed out and began to dry off. The thought of him naked, all smooth dark skin and hard, unyielding muscle, made her nipples peak beneath her gown.
She closed her eyes and remembered the feel of his mouth over hers, the sweep of his tongue and the pressure of his thigh where it had brushed against her leg. Long minutes passed. A quarter of an hour, then a half. It was quiet in the other room. Nicholas had gone to bed. She wondered if he was already sleeping. Or if perhaps he was thinking of her, as she was thinking of him.
She wondered what he might do if she were to go to him, offer herself to him, ask him to make love to her.
Her heart speeded up at the thought. The desire to go to him was overwhelming, so strong she rose to her feet without thinking. For a moment she stood there undecided, knowing the decision she was about to make would change the course of her life. But the urge was too great, the call too strong, and her bare feet started moving, padding silently toward the door.
Her fingers found the latch, but she didn't lift it. Her heart was thudding, pounding a tattoo much louder than the rain that had started to beat against the window. What would she do if he turned her away?
The thought made her mouth go cotton-dry and her hands start to tremble. How would she deal with his rejection? It would hurt, she knew. But missing this chance at love—perhaps the only one she would ever have—seemed far worse.
Her trembling hand found the latch. It made only a soft muted click as she lifted it and quietly pushed open the door. A single candle burned on the bedside table, dripping wax onto the scarred wooden top. Nicholas was awake, she saw, sitting up in bed, his chest bare, his shoulders propped against the rough-hewn headboard. He had tossed back the quilt, and the sheet rode low on his waist, covering his nakedness. For a moment she just stood there, admiring the incredibly mas-culine picture he made, her heart beating like a bird trapped in a cage, her breath caught in her throat.
Then those silvery eyes met hers, a muscle flexed in his jaw, and it was all she could do not to run.
N
INE
N
ick stared at the woman in the open doorway. Long dark auburn hair streamed down to her waist, still damp from the bath she had taken. Backlit by the fire, it glowed with the same fiery hues as the coals in the grate. Through the thin white gown, her figure stood out in shadowy relief: slender, boyish hips, long, coltish legs, an im-possibly narrow waist, and high, upthrusting breasts.
His own body tightened painfully even as he swore a silent curse and his mouth thinned to form the words that would send her away.
"Nicholas?"
"You shouldn't be here, Elizabeth. What is it you want?"
She didn't answer, but her tongue slipped out to nervously moisten her lips and her pale hands trembled. "I thought that perhaps ... I hoped that you would., " She swallowed so hard he could see it. "You told me once that you wanted me. You said that you had, almost from the start. Do you want me still?"
He clamped down hard on the surge of desire that rose up with vicious force. "For God's sake, Elizabeth." His fist clenehed around a handful of sheet. Surely he was mistaken. Surely he hadn't heard her correctly. "Has something happened? Are you frightened?"
She moved forward into the room, not stopping until she had reached the side of the bed. "I suppose, in a way, I am. I'm terrified that you no longer feel as you did. That instead of making love to me, you will turn me away."
Sweat broke out on his forehead. For a moment he couldn't seem to breathe. "Elizabeth, you don't know what you are saying."
"Yes I do. I know exactly what I am saying. I am asking you to make love to me."
His body clenched harder, but Nick shook his head. "I can't do that, Elizabeth. I'm a married man. I can't wed you and I won't dishonor you by taking your innocence."
She took a single step closer, her nightgown belling out then molding once more around her slender hips. She smelled of soap and a trace of smoke from the fire. It was a clean scent, clean and youthful, and it reminded him of all that he could not have.
"Please, Nicholas—please don't send me away."
He glanced toward the fire, his body throbbing with need. "I want you," he said softly. "I can't re-member when I've wanted a woman so much. But the fact remains, I am married to somebody else."
"You are not married," she said fiercely. "Not in the eyes of God. Your wife abandoned you nine years ago." She reached toward him, her hand coming up to caress his cheek. He felt the touch all the way to his heart. "Soon I'll be forced to marry. My husband will be a man I do not know and care nothing about. I want to know what it feels like to be loved by a man I desire. I need you, Nicholas. I want you, and I don't care about anything else."
Nick heard himself groan. He didn't know exactly how it happened, only that one moment he was reaching for her and the next she was there in his arms. His mouth came down over hers, hot and demanding, yet somehow he held himself back. His tongue slid along her trembling bottom lip, coaxing her to open for him. He deepened the kiss, letting her get accustomed to him, careful not to frighten her.
"I know I should send you away," he whispered. "I know it, but I can't. I'm only a man, Elizabeth. Worse than some, better than others. And I need you, too."
She made a small, soft sound in her throat, and he kissed the side of her neck, the softly rounded lobe of an ear. Easing her down on the bed beside him, he smoothed back her thick auburn hair, cupped her face in his hands and kissed her, long and deep, his tongue sweeping in to taste the rich dark cavern of her mouth.
"Nicholas . . ." she whispered. "Nicholas . . ."
His hand stroked over her cheek. He wanted her. Sweet God, how he wanted her. His arousal strengthened, pressing against the rough muslin sheet, making him ache and throb. He tried to tell himself it was wrong, that he could not have her, that Elizabeth could never be his, but his body refused to listen. Instead his hands splayed down her back, over her ribs, then rose to cup each of her breasts. Her nipples were hard beneath the thin cotton nightgown and suddenly he was des-perate to see them.
Working the buttons on her gown with unsteady hands, he drew the night rail over her head and tossed it away, leaving her beautifully naked. He saw that she was trembling, but she didn't try to cover herself. Long strands of her fiery hair did that, flowing over her breasts, hiding all but the pale pink tips. They were small and tight, quivering with each of her rapid breaths.
"Lovely," he said, lifting the shiny dark hair away and cupping the rounded weight in the palm of his hand. "I imagined you this way, but I never thought to know for sure."
She whimpered as he lowered his mouth and took the tip between his teeth. Her back arched and her fingers smoothed over the nape of his neck.
"Nicholas . . ." The word came out on a ragged breath of air the instant before he kissed her. He took her mouth as fiercely as he had wanted to do from the start, and Elizabeth kissed him back with the same wild abandon. He could taste her innocence, her trembling desire, and reveled in the passion he awakened in her untried body.
His loins throbbed with heat. He wanted to be inside her, wanted it so badly he hurt. He held himself back by sheer force of will, commanding himself to go slowly. Her fingers splayed through the curly black hair on his chest, testing the muscles beneath, measuring each indentation of his ribs, and a fresh wave of heat rolled over him. She pressed her mouth against the side of his neck, pressed soft kisses across his shoulders, and he thought he might go up in flames.
He eased her down so that she lay beneath him, settled himself between her pale, slender legs. His arousal rode hard against her thigh and a thread of tension seeped into her body.
"Easy, sweeting. I'm not going to hurt you." Nick kissed her deeply, stroked her breasts, kissed her again and felt her begin to relax.
Sliding her arms around his neck, she clung to him as his finger sifted through the curly dark hair at the juncture of her legs and he eased a finger inside her. He heard her sharp indrawn breath, felt the liquid warmth of her, and his arousal went rock-hard. -
"You're ready for me, Elizabeth." He stroked her deeply, gently preparing her. "You want me, just as I want you." Her face was flushed, but anxiety darkened her eyes and her bottom lip trembled. His conscience reared up. She was an innocent. He had no right to take her.
Swearing a silent oath, he gently touched her face. "This is wrong, Elizabeth. Tell me to end it. Say it now, before it's too late."
She only shook her head. Dragging his mouth down to hers, she kissed him, long and fiercely. "It is already too late."
It was indeed, he discovered, feeling his hardness slip inside her. Another second had his heavy length pressed firmly against her maidenhead, the last thin barrier he had left to conquer. He hadn't been sure he would find it, had thought perhaps Oliver Hampton had stolen it that day in her father's study. Relief mingled with guilt as he surged forward, claiming the treasure of her womanhood for himself, knowing he didn't deserve it.
Elizabeth cried out at the sharp jolt of pain that tore through her body, but the sound was muffled by a hot, demanding kiss. Clutching Nicholas's shoulders, she lay beneath him, filled by him, her body invaded, breached in a way she hadn't expected. She felt branded, possessed. As if Nicholas had somehow claimed her, as if she belonged to him and always would. It was frightening and yet it was the most incredible sensation she had ever known.
"Sweeting, are you all right?" He held himself rigid above her, his muscles straining with tension, allowing her body to adjust to the size of him, giving her time to accept the feel of having him inside.
Elizabeth wet her lips. "Yes . . . I'm all right." He bent his head and kissed her, a deep, tender kiss that made her forget the pain, made her blood start racing as it had before. The pain subsided. Heat replaced it. She felt hot and cold and tingly all over. He was big and hard. When Nicholas started to move, her body sprang to life.
A soft moan escaped her throat. Elizabeth arched upward, straining toward the feel of him, her body consumed by the heavy thrust and drag that sent shivers across her skin. Instinct parted her legs even wider, taking him deeper, desperate to be closer.
He groaned as he surged forward, filling her again, driving faster and harder, taking all she gave and demanding more. Elizabeth bit her lip at the fire roaring through her, the shivery heat that clouded her thoughts to all but the feel of his powerful body. Her fingers dug into his shoulders. Bands of muscle bunched and his head fell back. Thick black hair curled against the nape of his neck and brushed against the back of her hand. His muscles strained. His jaw clamped down as he fought for control, and suddenly her own body tightened.
Something was happening inside her, something fierce and joyous. Elizabeth cried out at the startling heat that suddenly swept through her, a raging current like a hot wind carrying, her upward. A blinding burst of sunlight lay ahead and she exploded inside it. A sound arose, a whimper that came from deep in her throat. Sweetness rolled through her, and pleasure so intense her whole body shuddered out of control.
Above her, Nicholas drove on. Bands of muscle popped out on his neck and shoulders. Two more deep thrusts and he groaned, his body shuddering just as hers had done, his seed spilling hotly inside her. For minutes, he held himself rigid above her. Then he kissed the side of her neck and placed a last soft kiss on her mouth. Slowly he eased himself away, pulling her gently into his arms, cradling her body spoon fashion against him.
Nicholas held her without speaking, his heart pounding so hard she could feel it where his chest pressed into her back. Her own heart seemed filled to overflowing.
She wasn't sure what might have happened if she had simply fallen asleep. But the night was too young for that, too special. Instead, as the minutes lengthened and Nicholas said nothing nor made a move to touch her, she turned and came up on an elbow, leaned over and pressed a soft kiss on his mouth.
"Elizabeth..." he whispered, his tone low and rough. "Bess ..." She turned onto her back, and he rose above her. Then he was kissing her again, her body beneath him, his hardness buried deeply inside. "God, I know this is wrong, but I can't make myself stop. I can't seem to get enough of you." He took her gently this time and afterward they slept for a while.
Just before dawn, she awakened, opening her eyes to find him watching, his expression closed up, his eyes dark and cloudy. She reached for him and his arms went around her. They made love with abandon, Nicholas almost frantic in his need to have her.
It was as if he dreaded the dawn, the rising of a sun that would force their return to a life where their passion could not exist. It made her sad, yet she had known the consequences before she had stepped through the door to his room.
No matter what happens, I will never regret this. Never. How could she regret the most beautiful night of her life? She wouldn't let her feelings destroy her as they had done her mother. In that they were nothing the same. Instead she would savor the hours she had spent in Nicholas Warring's arms— in his bed—lock them away and treasure them forever in her heart.
Nick left Elizabeth sleeping. He rose from the bed, careful not to disturb her, dressed, and went out to the stable. His chest felt leaden. Guilt seemed to pervade his very bones. The stable boy had Akbar groomed and waiting, none the worse for the difficult journey. Nick wished he could say the same for himself.
He glanced back toward the rear of the ivy-covered inn, to the rooms above the kitchen where he had stolen a young woman's virtue. He had known it was wrong, known it deep in his soul, yet the knowledge had not stopped him. He was married to another woman, Elizabeth forever out of his reach. She was a lady and his ward, yet he had taken her to his bed as if she were no better than one of Turner-Wilcox's pretty whores.
He felt sick with disgust at himself. And yet the night with Elizabeth had been so incredible, so intense, it was difficult to be truly sorry.
In truth, Elizabeth affected him as no other woman ever had. She touched him in some way, made him feel things he hadn't felt since before he was sent to prison, before his life had taken such a bitter, irrevocable turn. But his feelings for her didn't change things. The fact was he was married. He had vowed to protect Elizabeth Woolcot and he had failed.
Nick tossed a coin to the stable boy, instructed him to saddle the horse, then set out to find her something to wear. As he walked back through the stable door, he glanced once more toward the windows above the small brick building that served as kitchen and his jaw went tight.
He dreaded the long ride home.
Though she hadn't seen him in nearly a year, Margaret Warring knew something was wrong with her brother the moment he stepped through the front doors of Ravenworth Hall. It had been nine years since she had been there, yet it felt as if only days had passed. She gazed at her brother, but at first he didn't see her, his eyes fixed instead on the woman he led into the entry, a slender auburn-haired figure dressed in the simple brown skirt and white muslin blouse of a servant.
She wasn't one, Maggie knew. The girl was Nick's ward, Elizabeth Woolcot. Maggie had heard the story of the young girl's abduction, having arrived unexpectedly just minutes after her brother had departed in hot pursuit. She had met the girl's aunt, a pleasant if slightly eccentric older woman with a knack for cutting to the heart of whatever was happening around her.
Such as Maggie's unanticipated arrival.
"Why, you're Margaret!" Sophie Crabbe had said, coming upon her in the entry. "Lud, I haven't seen you in years—not since before you went away to the convent. Such a darling young girl you were—the image of your beautiful mother. Have you come home then, dear girl? Your brother will be thrilled—he wasn't at all pleased, you know, with your decision to lock yourself away."
Maggie had been speechless. In a single paragraph, Sophie Crabbe had summed up her life and her current situation. She had come home. She had done her penance for the errors she had made and finally realized the life she had chosen wasn't the one she really wanted.
During the years she had spent in the Sacred Heart Convent, she had begun to feel as though life was passing her by. She wanted a chance to discover the world again, to make her own way, to choose which direction she would take and experience the consequences of those choices.

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