Where Tigers Are at Home (92 page)

“Very good,” said Kircher, interrupting him, “everything seems to suggest that what we have here is an original way of translating, by means of a borrowed script, the sounds of a language that does not possess one of its own. It is, after a fashion, a steganography comparable to—”

“
Mi lannaali woulande ma!
”
¹²
Chus cried, interrupting my master in his turn. “
Wota dâru fuddôde, daru timmôde
.”
¹³

We were so dumbfounded by the fit of anger, that our man had time to continue his reading: “
Bonôrudün m
î
dyii sèda du wi’i:
Kono si mi limii hâ yonii sappo hara mi wi’ aali go’o mi hebaï tèwu? Be wi’i: ‘a hebaï. Du wi’i: Be’i didi e gertogal dâre si wonaa sappo be wi’i ko sappo. Be ‘okkidu tèwu, du feddyi
.”
¹⁴

After a pause & as if he were telling us an important secret, he said in conclusion. “
Hâden dyoïdo, no metti fó lude
.”
¹⁵

“And they weren’t lying, either,” Kircher said, pointing out how proud the man was. “It’s clear he did not like being interrupted while he was speaking … So, as I was saying when he paid me back in my own coin, his language is related to written Arabic in the same way as music is to any system of notation. Let me explain: the Topinambus of Brazil could not write their language when we encountered them for the first time; but our missionaries taught them to use the Latin syllabary to represent its sounds so that today those of the savages that have made the effort are able to write down what they have to say in their own language. If the Mahommedans had landed in Brazil instead of the Portuguese, the Topinambus would be transcribing their language in Arabic script today, just as this negro here has done.”

We all automatically turned to look at Chus; leaning on the windowsill, he had lost interest in us and was looking at the sky, apparently sad to see nothing but leaden clouds announcing a storm.

Kircher picked up the phonetic translation I had made while Chus was reading out what he had written. He spent a long time going through it, then underlined some words that seemed to
have attracted his attention. “Could it be …” he murmured to himself. “Everything is possible. I am in your hands, my Lord.”

“Have you perhaps discovered what language the man is speaking?” Gibbs asked.

“Perhaps, but it is such a crazy hypothesis that first of all I’d like to show you what suggested it to me. Please take a look at the words I’ve underlined here: if I break up
bonôru
, I get
bonô
&
ru
, that is, the adjective “good” in Italian & the word for “breath” or “spirit” as it appears in Hebrew. Which I would be tempted to translate as “the good spirit” or, even better, “the holy spirit.”

“By my truth, that’s true,” Calixtus said admiringly. “This language appears to consist of a marvelous mixture of all the others & it took your unique and multifarious knowledge to see that so quickly. But what deductions do you make from that?”

“I deduce its origins, sir, or at least I assume them, with a clarity that seems more likely with every second. Since it appears logically impossible for this language to have been formed through contact with all the others, which would suppose that the tribe had gone all over the earth without being able to speak, that compels us to presume its preexistence: could it not be the first language from which the angels took the substance of the five languages instilled in mankind after the fall of the Tower of Babel?”

“Are you suggesting this man speaks the
Lingua Adamica
?”

“Yes, Professor Calixtus, the Adamic language itself, which God gave to the first man & which was spoken all over the world until the collapse of the foolish presumptions of humanity—”

Kircher’s explanation was interrupted by a terrible thunderclap; it was so sudden that we could not prevent ourselves from seeing it as a sign of divine assent. Staying by the window, Chus turned his eyes away from the curtain of
rain-darkening the day. “
Diyan dan fusude
,” he said sadly, “
doï, doï
.”
¹⁶

And even though it was only three in the afternoon, Kircher had the chandeliers lit.

“It will take several weeks’ work before I can be absolutely sure, but what I can tell you now is that this man’s language, even if it doesn’t turn out to be the matrix of all others, is older even than Chinese, which itself is the oldest development of the language of Ham. And it would not surprise me if we should subsequently discover a direct correlation between those two idioms.”

Seeing my master put his hand to his forehead & close his eyes for a moment, I realized that his headaches—more and more frequent during these last few months—had returned. I therefore urged our visitors to cut short the discussion to allow him to rest. But while admitting he was very weary & apologizing to Gibbs & Calixtus for that, Kircher was determined to try one final experiment. Picking up the second volume of his
Œdipus Ægyptiacus
, he opened it at a certain page marked in advance by a strip of paper.

“This figure in the shape of the sun,” he said to Calixtus, “contains the seventy-two names of God, which I have arranged according to the principles of the Cabbala, that is, the different ways seventy-two nations have of naming the divinity. And even if not all the languages of the world are represented in this wheel, it at least contains the essential roots outside of which the name of God cannot be expressed.”

After having said that, my master went slowly over to Chus. He seemed fascinated by the storm, which was showing no sign of abating, but he turned around when Kircher came up to him.
His white eyes were gleaming in the half-light & his silhouette, outlined against a sky streaked with lightning, seemed to me like that of a giant straight from the Book of Genesis.

“
Ko hondu fâlâ dâ?
”
¹⁷
he asked sternly.

Kircher simply looked down at his book. “
Deus!
” he said firmly &, leaving a pause between each word, went on, “
Yahvé! Theos! Gott! Boog! Dieu! God! Adad! Zimi! Dio! Amadu!—
”

At this last name an extraordinary thing happened: letting out a howl that made my blood freeze, Chus raised his hands to heaven before dropping to his knees. “
Mi gnâgima, Ahmadu!
”
¹⁸
he said, prostrating himself with all the marks of the most intense veneration, “
kala dyidu gôn yèso hisnoyé. Mi yarnè diyan bégédyi makko, mi hurtinè hümpâwo gillèdyi ha-amadâ!
”
¹⁹

After kissing the ground three times, he stood up & gave my master a look of contempt, shaking his head from side to side. Kircher came back to us, a smile of triumph on his face gaunt with fatigue.

“Amadu or Amida—that is the name by which the Japanese worship the god Poussah. This becomes Amitâbha among the Indians & is, however, none other than the Fo-hi the Chinese have made into their deity, unaware that it is the same as Hermes & Osiris. If we remember that ‘China’ is called
Shen shou
, that is ‘the kingdom of God,’ it becomes clear that our Chus worships one of the closest avatars of Yahve—or Jehovah; & I am not without hope of discovering that those sacred names are not only known to him, but even more precious than that
of Amida. And it is for that reason, that I would ask you to be good enough to come back tomorrow, at the same time if that is convenient. I will undertake a detailed study of this language &, with God’s help, we will open up new routes toward the beginnings.”

Once we were alone, Athanasius withdrew to his study, taking with him the notes of his conversation with Chus. Despite their paleness, his eyes were sparkling with excitement & I did not need to ask him to know what hopes he was pinning on these future meetings.

Unfortunately our expectations were thwarted by a disastrous event & if, dear reader, you want to know what became of the negro, Chus, it will be related in the next chapter.

Opening the door of her flat, Moéma found the little note Thaïs and Roetgen had composed together. She just read the signatures and dropped it in the garbage can. Her resentment toward them had become all the more bitter now that it seemed it was unjustified. They had stayed behind, a long way behind, much too far behind what she had been through these last few days. She wouldn’t see them again.

The first thing she did was to run a bath. As she put the clothes Nelson had bought her in the washing machine, she decided to keep them as a souvenir of Pirambú: the ‘Gloria’ T-shirt had taken on the status of a relic, it bore witness to a complete change of outlook that was going to transform her life. She’d buy some new things for the boy then she’d ask her father to give him the wheelchair he dreamed of. It was the least she could do to thank him for everything he’d done for her.

Immersed up to the chin in the foam, she saw herself go to the orthopaedics shop with Nelson. She’d see that he wasn’t there when she paid so that it’d be a surprise for him to be able to drive off in it. She definitely wouldn’t abandon him, she was going to look after him. Eléazard would do everything he could to find him a job, perhaps even take him to Alcântara.

The more Moéma clung to these images of happiness, the more she felt the darkness inside her rise up again. Those bastards might have given me a disease, she thought with a vague feeling of disquiet. And what if I got pregnant? It had crossed her mind to report the men to the police but she had rejected the idea, paralyzed by the thought of what she would have to go through at the trial and by the certainty that no verdict could lessen the sense of her own degradation. However, she would still go and see a doctor; later on, at the slightest suspicious sign.

In her bathrobe and with her hair twisted up in a white towel, she stretched out on her bed. Tomorrow was the Feast of Yemanjá. Uncle Zé had told her how to get to the
terreiro
, that was no problem. With a bit of luck the money her father sent her every month would arrive next Monday or Tuesday. She hardly had enough to last until then; after that it was all settled: the bus to São Luís! She’d be there in three days, perhaps less. There was no point in writing, she’d arrive before her letter.

On the bedside table were the two syringes she’d used with Thaïs the day before they’d all met up at Andreas’s place. They rekindled her feeling of distress. At the same time she knew, with the obviousness that goes with easy solutions—the kind that make a problem worse rather than helping to solve it—that a little line of coke or simply a joint would calm her down. Psychological dependence, she told herself with a snigger. She wasn’t ill, she had none of the physical torment that went with genuine withdrawal symptoms; she was suddenly aware—and forcibly so—of the absence of the feeling
of being on top of things, in perfect control of her body and her mind. Every time this urgent need had appeared, she had obeyed it immediately, just as you satisfy the desire for a cigarette or some chocolate without thinking; at worst she would go and see Paco and everything sorted itself out. Today it was all much less simple. She got up to search every place where she was in the habit of hiding her drugs. She knew that there were none left, but something was pushing her to pretend the shortage didn’t exist, as if the mere fact of looking would make a bit of hashish appear or a few forgotten strands of
maconha
. In desperation and with the nervousness that goes with the hunch that you’ve found the right key, she took apart the frame of the mirror she used to divide up the coke; there was only a fine dusting of crystals left, just enough to rub on her gums and make her even more impatient. At once her need intensified: she had to get the substance her body was demanding so insistently, she simply had to. It was no use reasoning with herself, the urge for satisfaction had her in its grip. There was no question of asking Roetgen, the only one of her acquaintances who would be able to lend her the money. Ask Paco to give her credit? That was even less of a possibility, he knew too well the kind of people he was dealing with. Moéma had reached a state where she was considering the most absurd deals when Nelson’s savings came to mind. She was sure he wouldn’t refuse to do this for her. She had to get out of this, clear her head of this shit, never mind how.

She put on some jeans, a blouse she chose less for its elegance that for the opacity of the material, then rummaged round in the jumble in the drawer until she found the little teargas spray her father forced on her. She put it in one of her pockets and hurried out of the building.

It took her almost an hour on the bus to get back to Pirambú. When she reached Nelson’s shack, she knocked several times without reply then went in to wait for him to come back. The soap and towel lying in the hammock, the tattered photos, the sand
covered in furrows as if a boa had been writhing all over the room seemed unhealthy, though the only effect of that was to increase her feverishness. The first five minutes seemed interminable and her irritation did the rest. Hardly bothered by the idea that Nelson might catch her doing it, she dug at the spot he himself had shown her and unearthed the plastic bag. She was surprised to find the gun in it but she left it there, just taking the wad of notes she was desperate to have, then filled in the hole, quickly smoothed out the sand and cleared off.

She’d pay him back as soon as she’d cashed her father’s check. Until then there was little chance of Nelson discovering she’d borrowed it. It was a loan, OK? Not a theft. It had to be done. Anyway, he wouldn’t need the money since she’d decided to give him the wheelchair.

Despite all these excuses her guilty conscience made up, Moéma didn’t calm down until she was out of Pirambú. If Nelson had been telling the truth, she was carrying a hundred and fifty thousand cruzeiros, enough to finance a fitting end to her old life and she could come off drugs once and for all. After the Feast of Yemanjá she wouldn’t touch them again, whatever happened. If her father insisted, she’d even agree to a course of treatment for addicts. But that wouldn’t be necessary, she felt strong, in control of her future and of her willpower. She would go as far as coke would take her, to the very limits, to show that she’d hit rock bottom, then she’d resurface, fresh, new, cleansed of a lapse that would remain forever buried in the dark night of her youth.