Read When He Was Bad... Online
Authors: Anne Oliver
He shrugged it off. âNot at all. Just one of life's quirky coincidences.'
âOf all the nightclubs in all of Melbourneâ¦' she purred, leaning closer. âYep. Has to be fate.'
âFor heaven's sakes, Yaz, give it a rest.'
As always, undeterred by his scowl, Yasmine swung one long leg while she twirled her fingers through a container of paperclips. âAre you bringing her to the staff do?'
âStaff do?'
âHave you forgotten? You approved the idea. Twenty-first of Juneânext Monday night for those who forget to look at the calendar. Formal or fancy dress or Celtic, yet to be decided. A money raiser. Charity to be determined by the boss.' She tapped his chest. âThat would be you.'
He grunted. Someone had come up with the idea in February for a winter solstice celebration as a morale booster, he remembered, but he'd been working in Sydney for most of this year and it had slipped his mind.
âSo are you going to bring her?' she asked again.
âNo.'
âWhy not?'
Becauseâ¦? He preferred the idea of something more intimate for their first date, not a roomful of colleagues garnering Ellie's attention. When he and Ellie got togetherâand they wouldâhe didn't want an audience. âWe're not involved.'
âYeah, I noticed,' Yasmine said dryly. âBring her anyway. Make Belle happy.' It
would
be a way to keep his word to Belle that he was looking out for Ellie. âWe'll see,' he muttered, more to shut Yasmine up than any promise on his part. But for now⦠He clicked open a folder on his computer. âMoving on to more
important matters,' he said, ignoring Yasmine's grin. âBring me up to speed on the Dalton project.'
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âSix beers, two tequilas, one rum and Coke,' Ellie recited to herself, sliding the requested drinks order onto her tray. She started towards the table of rowdy guys, wishing her black skirt was a few centimetres longer.
The atmosphere inside the club oozed sweat, cheap aftershave and testosterone. A lone pole-dancer was doing her thing to bad music over a poor sound system. According to Ellie's fellow waitress, Tuesday night wasn't usually busy, but an entire football team had turned up after training and were jostling for viewing space.
Her throat felt scratchy with the constant strain of having to raise her voice over the noise. They were one staff member short. Sasha, who'd arranged the shift for Ellie and was supposed to be here to help her through the first night, hadn't turned up. Ellie suppressed her annoyance. Perhaps Sasha was sick, but she should have phoned.
Well, she was doing just fine tonight without her help, thank you very much. Only a few more hours with Sleazy in the cheap business suit mentally undressing her from his corner table and she was out of here.
She offloaded the beers, carried the rum and Coke to Sleazy's table.
âHow about a nightcap when you finish up here?' he asked her breasts as she set the glass down.
âNo, thanks.' Booze had made him more obnoxious than he'd been an hour earlier.
âCome on, babe. We'd make a good team, you and me.'
âI don't think so.' She turned to leave but he grasped her wrist. She wrenched her arm away, toppling his drink. Liquid splashed the table, sloshing over the edge and onto his shiny polyester trousers.
âEverything okay, here, Ellie?' A familiar deep voice behind her.
She darted a look over her shoulder, glimpsed Matt and groaned inwardly. With relief, with embarrassment. âHow long have you been here?' And how come she hadn't seen him arrive?
âLong enough.' Then to Sleazy, he leaned low and murmured, âI suggest you leave while you still can.'
Sleazy glared at Ellie a moment as if deciding to make something of it, then rose. âYou'll pay for this,' he muttered, swiping at the damp patch on his leg. He didn't give eye contact to Matt, she noted, but he sent Ellie a final glare, then pushed his way towards the bar.
âYou okay?' She felt Matt's hand at her back but shrugged it off before she did something stupidâlike arch against it and purr. âI'm fine. Please let me get on with my job.'
He stepped back. âFine. Get on with it.'
His clipped reply reminded her that she'd been prickly and ungratefulâa survival mechanism, but rude nonethelessâso she followed up with, âWould you like a drink? On the house.'
He nodded. âMineral water. Thanks.'
She watched him return to an empty table on the far side of the room, away from the tables she was serving, and flick open a folder he'd left there. His dark eyes met hers again, sending ripples of awareness down her spine.
Smoothing her skirt, she headed to the bar to place his order and paid for it herself. She couldn't remember the last time someone had bothered to come to her rescue. Even if she hadn't needed it. She reminded herself she didn't need anyone, particularly Matt McGregor, stamping all over her independence.
So when she came by with his drink a few moments later,
she couldn't help herself. âThere are much better strip clubs in town, as I'm sure youâ'
âYes. I know.' He studied her a moment, an almost-grin lurking around his mouth. Then picked up his glass, raised it to her, took a long slow swallow. âBut the evening's young yet.'
Something hot quivered low in her belly, prompting her to say, âUnless the stripper's a personal friend of yours?' She saw his eyes narrow and leaned towards him a fraction. âYou're checking up on me,' she accused. âDid you think I was lying to you this morning?'
âWould you lie to me, Ellie?' His gaze slid to her lips. âAbout how you feel, for instance?'
Her pulse jumped up a notch and she took a swift step back. Away from the incredible aura he seemed to exude. âWhy would I?'
âOnly you can answer that.' Still watching her, he took another swallow from his glass.
âListen, I don't need a minderâ'
âBelle's idea.'
She huffed an impatient breath. âI'm sure she didn't mean for you to intrude on my private life.'
âI have a moral obligation since I don't consider this a safe working environment. And hasn't that been proven justified?'
She looked away, only to catch the disapproving eye of the bar manager. So it seemed it was okay to be sexually harassed and threatened but chatting with the customers was frowned upon. âI need to get back to work.'
He set his glass down, flicked an eye over his folder, then drew out his phone. âAnd I need to make a call.'
She knew Matt was there, was conscious of his eyes following her for the next couple of hours, even though whenever she glanced his way he had his nose buried in his folder or
was speaking into his mobile phone. At one point he was smiling while he talked and she just knew he wasn't talking businessâunless it was funny business. And that, she told herself, was none of
her
business.
It was sometime after midnight when the manager paid her at the end of her shift and told her that her services were not required. He told her there'd been a complaint, that she'd come on to a customer, then deliberately spilled his drink when he'd knocked her invitation back. So the manager had docked her the cost of the drink for the damage that the
customer
had caused.
Resentment spiked through her bloodstream. âThat's not how it was and you know it.' Giving him the best evil eye she could manage, she stuffed what was left of her night's pay into her bag, buttoned her coat with quick jerky movements. âYou can take your lousy job and stick it in a very dark place,' she snapped out on her way to the nearest exit.
Ellie was accustomed to people expecting her to be an easy walkover. Usually she fought back. She could have argued her case; she was the injured party here. Tonight, as she manoeuvred her way through testosterone city, all she wanted to do was get out of this pit and lay her throbbing head on a pillow and sleep for a week. Was she coming down with a bug?
She shook it away. Not going to happen. She had to rise and shine early tomorrow. At this point she really, really needed Belle's part-time job. And
now
it came with an additional problem⦠Speaking of which, did she say goodbye to Matt or what? Would he think she was angling for a lift home? Or more? She glanced to where he'd been sitting moments earlier but he'd left. Without a word.
Good, she told herself as she veered back towards the exit. One less problem. Tomorrow morning was way soon enough to be interacting with him. She wasn't in the mood to deal with complications. And despite his views about their
non-
relationship, Matt McGregor was
complication
in flashing lights. Big red warning ones.
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Doing his gentlemanly duty as he saw Ellie preparing to leave, he exited the bar and waited for her outside.
She'd told him she wanted to be left alone, but safety concerns aside, knowing where she'd be this evening had been too much of a temptation for Matt to ignore. He'd wanted to see her again, simple as that. He stepped towards her the moment she appeared. âI'll walk you to your car.'
Her head swivelled towards him and her eyes widened. âWhy are you still here?'
The damp air teased her hair so that it curled in wisps around her face. She must have washed it again because it was lighterâhoney blonde with only a streak or two of pinkâbut the austere light from the street lamp turned it silver-white, making her appear smaller, more fragile.
âYou think I'd leave you here at this time of night without ensuring your safe journey home?' Wherever that might be.
She pulled her coat tighter, straightened her spine, hitched her bag higher. âI can take care of myself.'
âYeah, right. Alone, past midnight, in this seedy area. Where's your car?'
âI don't own a car. And I happen to live in this seedy area.' He didn't miss the light of contempt in her eyes.
Along with her list of criticisms, did she think him prejudiced? He couldn't decide whether it amused or annoyed him. âHow are you getting home?'
âPublic transport.'
âMy car's across the road. I'll drop you off.'
âIt'sâ'
âNon-negotiable.' He placed a silencing finger against her lips.
Heat, as her sharp exhalation of breath streamed over his
fingertip. Friction, as his finger drifted lightly over her lips. Desire, sharp and swift, as her lips parted the tiniest bit. In surprise? Or something else? He couldn't be sure, and for a pulse beat or two he thought she might yield and open further. But she remained completely still.
âNon-negotiable, Ellie.' He pressed his thumb to her lower lip, watching her eyes darken to an intense charcoal in the dimness. âSo get used to the idea quickly.'
E
LLIE
didn't move, didn't pull away, even as a throng of raucous patrons spilled from the bar and ambled past, their voices raised in some tuneless song. The night breeze, pungent with the sting of exhaust fumes, wrapped around them. In the distance an alarm wailed. He wanted to press his momentary advantage, replace his thumb with his mouth and relive that first kiss.
He could almost smell the desire on her skin, but he didn't push it. She stepped back, eyes flicking away, as if giving him eye contact might betray her. She scanned the row of parked cars. âLet me guessâyours is the champagne-tinted convertible.'
âSorry to disappointâit's the little bent and black ninety-six Ford.' He couldn't resist adding, âMy Ferrari's in Sydney.'
Her laugh was spontaneous and unexpected and she seemed as surprised as he. âI
knew
it,' she said with a half-smile. âRed?'
âIs there any other colour?' With a light hand at her back, he steered her across the road.
Ellie practically fell onto the seat, willing her pulse to settle down while Matt rounded the car. Good Lord, just that single thumb print on her lower lip had turned her inside out. If he hadn't stoppedâoh, she did not want to think about it. He made her weak. Made her wantâ¦what she couldn't have.
By the time he'd climbed into his seat she'd managed to halfway calm herself. She directed him to a street about a kilometre away. She spent a moment studying the car's interior rather than the width of Matt's more than capable hands on the steering wheel, focusing on the engine's rough-throated purr rather than the scent of clean masculine skin.
But as they neared her apartment her breathing changed for very different reasons. And with every passing moment the band beneath her breastbone tightened.
She'd always sensed Heath's low opinion of her previous apartment even though he'd never voiced it. As if her living conditions reflected her worth as a human being. She might have been in love with him but her self-confidence and sense of self-worth had taken a battering and never fully recovered. Compared to this dump it had been a palace.
Would Matt the squillionaire businessman judge her the same way? And why did it suddenly seem to matter if he did? âYou can drop me off here,' she said, ready to jump out and flee the moment they stopped.
The building she lived in was crammed between the abandoned car park of a graffiti-covered warehouse and a row of currently untenanted shops.
Matt slowed to a stop. âThis your place?'
His tone didn't change but her stomach clenched tighter. âYes.' She knew what he was thinking. She just knew it. She would
not
let it bring her down.
She reached for the doorhandle. Before she could thank him and escape, he was out of the car and rounding the bonnet.
âNo need to see me insideâI live upstairs,' she said, climbing out. Somewhere nearby a cat yowled and the din of metal rolling down the street broke the night's stillness.
âHow long have you lived here?'
âA couple of months.' She remembered him quipping about his Ferrari. âWould it help if I said I used to live in Toorak?'
she said, forcing humour into her voice as she mentioned one of Melbourne's most affluent suburbs.
He didn't return her smile. âOnly if it helps
you
.'
It didn't and her smile faded. Those days were gone. Once upon a time, before the people she loved had been erased from her life for ever, her world had been very different.
But his voice helped. Smooth and steady and even, like a still lake, soothing the rough edges around her heart. Until she looked up into his eyes and saw the storm, all dark and brooding and beautiful. Reminding her that she didn't want to get involved. With anyone, ever again.
âThanks for the lift.' She paused before adding, âAnd thanks for your assistance at the bar tonight.'
âNo worries.' He didn't seem in a hurry to leave.
She hesitated. âI'll see you tomorrow, then.'
He nodded. âYou're coming. Good.'
âI didn't get the bar job, so yes.' She shrugged, trying for philosophical, failing miserably.
âBecause it wasn't the right job for you.' There was something in his eyes. Not sympathyâshe didn't want sympathy, nor did she need it. Understanding?
She stood, rooted to the spot, watching him while he jingled his car keys. What the hell would he understand about the tough non-corporate world of low finance?
âGoodnight, Ellie.' He touched his lips to hers. A token kiss, almost impersonal. No sexual undertones. Nothing she could call him on.
And nothing to get herself in a lather about.
Because now he'd watched her lose a job on the first night and seen where she lived, what other kind of kiss could it be?
She stepped away before she kissed him back and made it into something it wasn't. âGoodnight.'
She turned abruptly and made it through the entry door and
halfway along the common hallway before the door behind her opened again. She looked over her shoulder. Matt's silhouette filled the space and a thrill of excitement shivered down her spine before she could stop it. âIs something wrong?'
âDamn right something's wrong.' He stepped inside and walked towards her, his shoes echoing on the worn concrete floor, his features growing clearer as he neared. âI should be ashamed of myself. Kissing you that way.'
Huh?
Her mouth fell open in astonishment and she remained where she was, sure her heartbeat would wake the entire building. âIt's okay.' The words trembled out. âI didn'tâ'
âSince when do you let a guy kiss you like that and get away with it?' He gripped her shoulders. Walked her back until her shoulders touched the wall, eyes glittering in the dim stairwell's light. His face was close, his hands possessive, stroking down her upper arms.
With what little strength she had left, she hugged her handbag in front of her like a shield. âDepends⦠On who's doing the kissing.' Oh, good Lord, had she said that aloud, and in that thin reedy voice that seemed to be coming from someone else?
His sensuous lips curved and he moved nearer. His jeans brushed against her bare legs. Hard thighs rubbed hersâ¦and heat speared into her lower belly. Her arms slid uselessly to her sides, leaving her bag dangling from one shoulder.
âI am,' he murmured before his mouth descended on hers.
She could no more hold back her response than stop the sun from rising. Her lips fell open beneath his and her whole body shuddered against him. Without any idea of how they got there, her hands slid to his waist and grasped fistfuls of his shirt beneath his jacket.
His taste was as she remembered, only more. Richer, fuller, more intoxicatingâ
âExcuse me, Ellie⦠Perhaps you could take your displays ofâ¦affection upstairs?'
Ellie jerked back, her head bouncing off the wall. âUm, hi. Mrs Green.' From apartment two. And looking less than impressed that they were all but standing in front of her door. Ducking under Matt's arm, Ellie spun away into the passage, fumbling with her slippery hold on her bag at the same time. âUm. Sorry.'
Matt and Ellie regarded each other without speaking until her downstairs neighbour's door closed and they were alone again.
It gave Ellie time to gather her jumbled thoughts. She considered it a minor miracle that she was able to say, âIt's late and I'm tired,' in a reasonably steady no-nonsense voice. And she meant it. Every muscle felt sapped of energy and she had no idea whether it was Matt's fault or the bug she seemed to be coming down with.
Matt, who'd propped himself against the wall, watched her with a hint of the devil in his eyes. âMrs Green's suggestion sounds good to me.'
âNot to me.' Straightening, she pulled out her keys. âI've worked two jobs today. Goodnight, Matt.' She caught a glimpse of that sexy grin before she forced herself to turn away and head for the stairs.
It was way, way harder than she wanted it to be.
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Ellie was woken by a dull throbbing headache when her alarm trilled at 7:00 a.m. And when she swallowed, it was like forcing a razor blade down her throat. To her surprise, she realised she'd slept the entire night, probably because she'd been so exhausted.
So how come she felt as if she hadn't slept a wink?
With a groan, she dragged herself out of bed and peered through her dust-spattered window at the heavy-bellied clouds just visible in the dawn sky. A dark rain shower swept across the distant suburbs, wind whistled with malice around the ill-fitting pane.
A perfect day to burrow back under her quilt and nurse her sore throat. But she didn't have that luxury, so she grabbed a couple of painkillers at the kitchen sink before stumbling to the bathroom.
She stepped beneath the ancient showerhead, shivering as she soaped up quickly under the meagre lukewarm stream. She'd just bet Matt McGregor was still tucked up nice and warm in
his
bed.
And after that kiss last nightâ¦well, she might have been sharing it with him. His hot, hard body pressing her into the mattress, springy masculine hair rasping against her nipples. That deep voice, gravelly with sleep and sinful suggestions while his fingers played out those sinful suggestions over herâ
âGet those X-rated thoughts of your
employer's nephew
right out of your head,' she ordered herself, whipping the shower curtain aside, creating a shivery draught. Grabbing her towel, she rubbed briskly to get the blood flowing beneath her skin. âConcentrate on important matters. Like an income.'
Belle paid her generously, but she needed to supplement it with another part-time job and somehow fit both jobs in around the volunteer after-school shifts she worked at the children's centre around the corner.
She loved kids but she'd never fall in love again, could never risk a failed marriage. Which meant no children, ever. But her maternal instincts were very much alive, and working with underprivileged children was her way of satisfying that natural urge.
Grabbing a muesli bar, she swung her gear onto her shoul
der and headed out into the wintry day. The tram was crowded and stuffy with early-morning commuters, and Ellie was glad of the fresh air when she disembarked just after eight and walked the last few minutes to Belle's place.
Remembering yesterday, she knocked on the back door to let Matt know she'd arrived. She could always hope he'd already gone to work. On the other hand she could hope she'd gotten him out of bed. To see him dishevelled and disgruntled at her early arrival. Bleary-eyed, unshavenâ¦
âGood morning, Ellie.'
She turned at his voice. He was none of those things.
Fully dressed in dark jeans and a soft-looking cream jumper that probably cost more than her entire wardrobe, he ambled from the garage, morning newspaper and a carton of milk in hand. He'd obviously showered and shaved already; the fresh smell of sandalwood soap carried on the breeze. And his eyes were bright, alert and focused. On her.
Memories of last night's kiss hung in the air between them. But this was a working day, a working environment, and she intended keeping it that way.
âGood morning.' She cleared her throat, wincing at the raw pain as she did so and trotted down the back steps with an officious, âI'll be getting on with it, then.'
âWant a coffee before you start?'
âNo, thanks. I want to make some headway before it starts to rain.'
âWhat are your plans today?'
âI have to finish digging over the plot.' Which she should have finished yesterday, but with Matt calling the meeting and all, it had put her behind. She kept moving, walking backwards as she spoke. âThen it's the fertiliser and seedlingsâ Belle left everything in the greenhouse. Are you going to the office?'
âI don't plan on it,' he said, dashing her hopes for a day
without the prospect of further interruptions. âI've a costing to finish and a computer link-up with the Sydney crew.'
She nodded. âI'll come by the door when I'm done.'
When she stopped for lunch, she ate her sandwich and drank her thermos of coffee alone. Despite what she'd told Matt about being self-sufficient, Belle always invited Ellie inside to share her break.
On the last day Ellie had seen her, Belle had offered her a key to the main house, allowing her access to the bathroom and hot water. But she'd felt awkward about the whole idea and refused it. If anything happened in Belle's absence Ellie didn't want to be held responsible; it was bad enough that she'd given her the code to the gate.
She'd not glimpsed Matt since she'd started work this morning. Seemed he was in accord with herâbusiness hours were just that. She didn't know whether she was relieved or disappointed.
Her mobile rang as she was packing away her lunch box. She glanced at caller ID and answered straightaway. âSasha. I tried calling you last night. Where did you get to?'
âI called in sick. I just opened your message.'
Her friend sounded distant and Ellie felt that all-too-familiar clutch in her belly. âAre you okay now?'
âNever better.'
âSo are you up to checking out that Healesville job with me sometime soon? We need to let them knowâ'
âAh, about thatâ¦' A pause, then Sasha went into excitement mode with, âI met this great guy at a club last night. Anywayâ¦' she went on when Ellie didn't reply, âI've got the chance to work onboard a cruise ship leaving Sydney in a week's time.'
Disappointment ripped through Ellie. âI thought you said you were sick last night?'
âEveryone chucks a sickie now and then, right?'
No. Not when it mattered they didn't. âI was counting on you to show me the ropes at the bar last night.'
âOh. Sorry. Did you get the job, by the way?'