What You Do To Me (Unexpected Love) (16 page)

Alex
pulled
away from the kiss, “Are you still sure? If you
aren’t,
I can find the will to stop myself.”

“God, I need
you.
I need you now, please.” Not realizing how much I sound
ed like I was
begging for him,
I wanted
this to happen.

Alex moved
my
hips, and
with
his
hands on my
ass, he
slid into me. He let
out a low groan. “You feel even better than I thought and you have no clue on how good I thought this would feel.”

I immediately start
ed
moving my hips
with his and the feeling that was being felt between my legs wa
s
unimaginable.
I foun
d it almost impossible to feel the tightening again
, but I
was.
In
all my
life,
I
had
never had
multiple orgasms and each one wa
s as intense as the first.

“Look at me,” I hear
d Alex say, but it didn
’t come off like a command, but almost as a plea.

I imm
ediately laid
my head back and look
ed
up at him. The moment our eyes
connected,
I c
ould
feel the wave
s rippling through me and I felt
Alex tense up between my legs. With
a few final
thrusts,
Alex slumped
down on me, resting on his
elbows,
keeping most of his weig
ht off me. His forehead rested on mine as we both tried to
steady our breathing.

After lying like that for minutes, Alex pulled
out of me, p
ulling the condom off. He stood and walked
towards
the bathroom. I immediately felt
exposed and used. I thought there was some sort of connection, but
obviously,
with him walking away like
that,
it must have just been about sex for him. I hear
d the water running, so I stood
and grab
bed
a shirt from my bag. Throwing it
on,
I climb
ed
back into
bed,
fighting the tears
that were now
burning in the back of my eyes.

Walking out of the bathr
oom in all his glory, Alex walked
over to my side of the bed. Sit
ting next to
me,
he sat
down a g
lass of wate
r on the
nightstand
and stroked
my
hair.
Taking
my
hands,
he handed
me some Excedrin. “I didn’t want to get out of bed with you, but you will need these. It’s bad enough with
these. You’re
still gonna have a hell of a headache.”

Not being able to fight the lump in my throat, I let out a small sob. Alex immedia
tely jumped
behind
me,
scooping me
up into his arms. “Shhh, don’t
cry.
I’m
sorry.
I should have
stopped;
I should have known you weren’t ready for this.”

I immediately start
ed feeling
worse,
knowing that he wa
s beating himself up over something I so desperately wanted. Trying to speak between sobs, “No, it’s not
that.
I thought you were leaving and
that you just
wanted the sex.”

Ale
x scooted back on the bed and rolled
me to face him. “Abby, you are so much more than just someone to sleep with. The minute I saw you at the concert, I knew I needed to get to know you. As soon as I saw you in line, I c
ouldn’t take my eyes off you. You
aren’t like anyone I’ve ever met. You se
emed to have no real interest i
n meeting me
,
or any of the
other
guys from the band. Then, when I found out you were alone, I was
excited,
because it gave me a way to keep you around.
Even then,
I didn’t want to let you
go,
but after the
concert,
when I went back to talk to you and you were gone, my heart
stopped.
It
literally stopped. I knew your name was Abby, but I had no other information.”

He stop
ped
for a brief
moment,
wiping and kissing
the
tears from my face. “I walked into the hotel bar so I could get drunk and forget about meeting you, but instead, I found you again. When you kept trying to get away from
me,
I panicked. I knew I had to do what I could to spend more time with you.
Luckily,
you are a pushover and I talked you into five minutes in my room.
Equally as lucky,
you
aren’t good with
time,
”
he said,
nudging me and getting a giggle out of me.

             
“When I got up this morning, well
yesterday,
and you were gone, my heart sank. I used my influence to find out what room you were in, but they had no record of an Abby or Abigail
being
checked into the hotel.
I tried calling and texting your phone, but you didn’t respond
.”

             
“Abrianna
.”

             
“Huh,” Alex said
to my interruption.

             
“My full name is
Abrianna.
I go by Abby and
my close friends call me Abbs.
I’m checked in under
my full
name,
” I said
quietl
y.
I was
still i
n shock
from
everything that he was
saying to
me;
that he tried to find me that
morning when I left his room.

             
“
Well,
Abrianna, I was mad when you left,” leaning over and kissing me on the nose. “I couldn’t believe you could walk out and not say good bye.
I thought
that
whatever I was feeling last night, you were feeling it too.
”

             
“I was feeling it, but I thought I was the only one and it scared me. You aren’t just some normal guy. I assumed
that
taking girls to your hotel room was a common event. It wasn’t until after my run when I ran into you that I realized you wanted me there this morning.”

             
“After seeing you this
morning,
I couldn’t risk
the
chance again b
y leaving. I thought that I was given three chance
encounters,
and I wasn’t allowing you to slip away
again,
because I felt like it was my last chance. I told Sam
that
I refused to leave and to ca
ncel as much as she could. I
needed
more time with you and I’m embarrassed to admit this, but I wasn’t
leaving,
knowing you were alone with Derek for the night
.
”

             
My heart was melting, until I heard the part about Derek. Now I
didn’t
know if he really was feeling something or worried that he didn’t get to sleep with me the night before and Derek might be sleeping with me when he left. “This isn’t about
me,
is
it?
Is this some male ego thing, thinking Derek would sleep with the girl you couldn’t get t
o screw the night before?” I could
hear the poison in m
y words, but right
now,
my head wa
s
spinning,
thinking this was all actually some competition for him after seeing Derek show up this morning.

             
“I’m telling you the truth. I coul
dn’t say
goodbye
to you and in a few
hours,
it’s
going to kill
me,
knowing I have to let you go.
” He took
a deep breath
in and continued
, “
This
has nothing to do with
Derek,
other than he put things in perspective.  I couldn’t stand him hugging you in front of
me,
because I wanted to be the one holding you.”

             
“This isn’t going to work, so we shouldn’t try to fool
ourselves,
” I
said,
trying to convince myself in the process. “I’m
the
mom of
three children.
I have a job and a life that I can’t leave. You are a rock star with a career and we live thousands of miles apart.”

             
“
Please,
can we worry about
that
later? Right
now,
I
want to
enjoy this time with you
,
without
arguing
. I
know
I
just
can’t let you walk out of my life after t
he day and night we just shared
.
Can you give me a chance?
”
Pausing for a moment, “
Give
this a chance.”

             
“Right
now,
I have little left to
give,
” I
said,
knowing my wounds from David weren’t healed and there was
nothing good that could come of this with Alex. I barely had the strength to survive all the devas
tation David’s death and the discoveries of the affairs brought me just months ago.
I couldn
’t allow the girls to see me like that. They
needed
someone strong leading them through life.

             
“I’ll take anything you can give.
” Alex leaned
his forehead on mine.
“
Let’s start as
friends,
because you seem really good at that type of relationship.”

             
Letting out a little laugh, “Sure, friends.”
Deep
down,
I kn
e
w
it was
not going to be easy
thinking
of Alex in the same way I
thought
of Derek.

             
Breaking from the moment, I eventually roll
ed
over, took the Excedrin,
and dra
nk the water Alex brought
to
me. After thinking about all
the alcohol I had consumed
, I
realized
what he did was
a thoughtful gesture and I need
ed
to
forget about
him leaving me right after the sex.

             
We spent the next hour or so talking. Alex told me about his ex-wife and
about
how they started dating in high school. He thought that she loved h
im
,
for him, but considering the band was
already on the fast track and got signed a year after seeing each
other,
he soon discovered
it wasn’t about the love, but the lifestyle
she loved about him
. They were both young at the time the band was signed, eighteen and right out of high school. He talked about how he
eventually
wanted kids, but she just never felt it was the right time in their lives. Finally, he decided it wasn’t meant to be, but instead of divorcing, he cheated and tried to hurt her, hoping
that
she would realize it was him she wanted and not the lifestyle.
Eventually,
things fell apart.