Westlake, Donald E - Novel 42 (14 page)

           
STABBED!

           
Betrayed!

           
Bewildered.

           
There must be a logical sequence of
events here. The
events
are by no means logical, but maybe the sequence
can become so.

           
At about ten-thirty this morning,
with me deep in the Central American rain forests among the Mayans, Vickie
phoned. She bandied no words, but got to the point at once. “Hello, Tom,” she
said. “I’m pregnant.”

           
“Oh, my God!”

           
“Don’t worry, it isn’t you,” she
said, sounding somewhat bitter.

           
“It isn’t? Who is it?”

           
“Well, that’s the problem,” she
said. “You and I met the end of March, and the doctor says I was already
pregnant then, and the way the timing works it must have been the last week in
February, right after Washingtons Birthday. That’s when I took a week off and
went to Club Med.”

           
“Oh.”

           
“So that’s that,” she said.

           
I said, “Wait a minute. Vickie,
you’r
e four and a half months
pregnant, and you didn’t know it?”

           
“Well, I’ve always been very
irregular,” she said. “My GYN says it’s a neurotic reaction. I just thought,
well, I’m crazier than usual because I’m fucking a writer.”

           
Letting that one pass, I said, “So
what now?”

           
“Well, it’s too late for an
abortion. I’m going to
Fort
Lauderdale
,
talk it over with my mother, brood about things.
I may keep the kid, if it’s fairly attractive.”

           
“How long—” My voice failed me,
because I suddenly saw why she was phoning. “How long will you be gone?”

           
“That’s hard to say.
Depends on a lot of things.
I’m asking for a year’s absence.
Without pay, of course.
Let my mother support me, the
nasty bitch.”

           
“You aren’t my editor any more,” I
said.

           
“I’m sorry about that, Tom,” she
said. “There’s a couple books I’m really sorry to leave behind, and that’s one
of them. I enjoyed working with you. You
know,
the
fucking too, but also the book. It’s nice to work with a professional.”

           
“Thank you,” I said, while my other
hand crumpled mounds of paper.
This
is why she’s been gaining weight!

           
“I’ll stay on till the end of the
week,” she said. “Don’t
worry,
I’ll see they give you
to somebody good.”

           
There is no such thing. I said, “Not
the man who edits the war books?”

           
“Funny thing about Hiram,” she said.
“He died last month.”

           
“Hilarious.”

           
“Died at his desk.
Apparently he was there three or four days, nobody noticed. Finally one of the
cleaning women one night, vacuuming around him, she noticed the smell.”

           
“Well, somebody goes and somebody
comes.”

           
“It’s been nice coming with you,
Tom. I don’t suppose you’ll be in the city the next few days.”

           
“Sorry,” I said. “I’m all tied up
out here.”

           
“Ah, well.
Maybe
next year sometime.”

           
“Maybe so,” I said.

           
“So long, Tom,” she said.

           
“So long.
Say hello to your mother.”

           
“I suppose I’ll have to,” she said,
and that was that. Well, that ended the Mayans for today. Even though I’d heard
Mary moving around downstairs, I abandoned my desk and my privacy at once, too
shaken to worry about what she might want to say to me.

           
The problem is, out here in the
humid sunny heat, with everybody damn near naked anyway, Mary’s sexual
encounters are getting steamier and steamier, and she just insists on
telling
me about them. “There was a man up at the beach in one of those very skimpy
swimsuits,” she said the other day, “sitting on a towel facing me with his
knees up and his legs spread. He kept looking at me, and sort of running his
fingers up and down his own thigh, like this—” She showed me, running her own
fingers up and down her own thigh, not quite to the swimsuit-covered crotch.
“—and I could see he was getting an erection. Well, I—”

           
“Mary, I don’t need to know all—”

           
“It’s so
different
out here,”
she went on, blandly, merely interested in her own story. “People wear so
little, and they just let you see everything that’s happening to them. And this
man’s suit was that very thin kind of shiny material— you know the kind I
mean?”

           
“Yes, Mary, I—”

           
“I could see
everything
she
told me, calm eyes round and innocent. “And it was a very thick one, too. But
not too long, which was lucky, or it would have poked right out the top of the
suit.”

           
“Mary, look, you—”

           
“And then he came over to ask me
what time it was. I was sitting on the beach towel, you know, and he stood
right next to me, and there it was, practically in my face. 1 could see the
vein.
And he said, ‘Do you have the time?’ And I said, ‘No, I don’t have my watch
with me,’ and then he smiled and sort of
gyrated
, like this.” And she
did a slow round movement with her hips. She’s in very good physical condition,
Mary, the muscles rippling beneath the flesh as she did a deliberate
illustrative bump and grind.

           
“Mary,” 1 said firmly, “if you
wouldn’t look
back
at these people, they—”

           
“They’ll just come over,” she said.
“It’s because I’m alone. This man, I just told him, ‘I’m going for a swim now,’
and I did.”

           
“So am I,” I said, and went away and
leaped directly into the water, which steamed around me.

           
That wasn’t the only one, not by a
long shot. Almost every day, Mary has another rutting male to tell me about.
There was the time she was body-surfing and a man nearby, also body-surfing,
kept managing to bump into her in the water, once getting his hand inside her
bra. And the man who tried to adjust her bicycle seat while she was seated on
the bicycle. And the man with the banana, who—

           
Well. The point is, for my own peace
of mind I’ve been avoiding Mary as much as possible while Ginger’s away in
town, this being the week Ginger has to commute. (Mary won’t tell these stories
in front
ot
Ginger, of course.) But today was a
special case if there ever was one, and so, regardless of what pornography
awaited me below, I went downstairs after my Vickie conversation, and into the
kitchen, where Mary was boiling water for iced tea. I took a glass down from
the shelf, put ice cubes in it from the freezer,
then
filled it about halfway with vodka. I had opened the refrigerator door and was
reaching for the orange juice when Mary said, “Tom? Is something wrong?”

           
“You remember Vickie Douglas,” I
said, pouring orange juice.

           
“Your editor,
yes.”

           
“She’s pregnant,” I said, putting the
orange juice away.

           
“Tom!” She stared at me.

           
“Not by
me
,” I said in
irritation, and knocked back half my drink. Then another ramification of the
situation came to me—the realization that that irregular madwoman was capable
of getting herself knocked up at her age despite all the aids and counsel of
modern-day science, and if she hadn’t been preggers already when we’d met I
could
have been the father—and I knocked back the drink’s other half.

           
“Tom, it’s ten-thirty in the
morning,” Mary said.

           
“You gonna tell me the sports next?”

           
“I don’t understand,” she said.
“What’s the problem?”

           
“Vickie is taking a year’s leave of
absence. She is no longer my editor.
The Christmas Book
is an orphan.”

           
“Well, that happened before,” she
pointed out, “when Jack Rosenfarb left. You were worried then, and it worked
out all right with Vickie.”

           
“That was a special case,” I
muttered. I was building a second drink. It would simply not be possible for me
to climb into bed with Hambleton Cudlipp the Third. Nor could I see myself
running this whole routine again if they gave me another Vickie Douglas, of
whom there is a rich supply in
New York
publishing. “I’m doomed,” I said.

           
The whistling teakettle whistled.
Mary made tea while I made a screwdriver and took it out to the back deck.
Standing in the sunshine, I surveyed the blackness of life. Mary came out and
touched my arm and said, “It’ll be all right, Tom.”

           
“It will not. We are precisely at
the point where Craig can drop the ball.” I nodded at the little guesthouse.
“Hows the accommodation?”

           
“Fine,” she said. “Hot in the
daytime, but I’m never in there in the daytime. Tom, don’t brood.”

           
“The definition of insanity,” I
said, “is ‘an inappropriate reaction to stimuli.’ Given the stimuli I’ve just
been hit with, if I
didn't
brood I’d be crazy.” I swigged screwdriver.

           
Mary took the glass out of my hand
and put it on the table. “Don’t hurt
yourself
, Tom,”
she said. “It isn’t your fault.”

           
“I know that.”

           
“So don’t make it worse. You’ll give
yourself a headache and a hangover and an upset stomach, you’ll ruin the entire
day—”

           
“The entire day
is
ruined.”

           
She came over and put her arms
around me and drew my head down into the crook of her shoulder and throat.
Patting the back of my head, holding my torso with her other arm,
she murmured, “It’ll be all right.
It’ll be all right.”

           
Mary is several inches shorter than
me, so it was a somewhat awkward posture I was in, knees bent slightly, head
folded down like a hanging victim, and yet a sudden wave of comfort and warmth
flowed over me as I stood there, much stronger and sweeter than anything the
vodka could have done. Mary was in her bikini and my hands felt the warmth of
her back. In my nose w
^r
as a faint aroma, a sweet duskiness, that
reminded me of times long long ago.

           
When a couple live
together for years, they lose the knowledge of one another’s scent.
But
Mary and I had been apart now for seventeen months, and had become strangers
again. Her fragrance was both new and old—and so was the feel of her body
against me—and very disturbing.

           
She stopped patting my head, but
continued to hold me, and arched her back so she could look up at my face. “Are
you all right?”

           
“I’ll survive,” I said, and kissed
her.

           
Very warm.
The old-and-new again.
Known but exotic.
Complex.
Memory and desire and
regret and distant warning bells.

           
She released me, stepped back,
smiled
. If she had smiled in some sort of triumph or
conquest I would have hated her, but there was nothing in the smile but care
and concern. “Sit down,” she said, “I’ll make coffee.”

           
I sat under the beach umbrella,
looking out at the sunlight. My thoughts were confused, but calmer. The
problems of
The Christinas Book
seemed very far away; important, but not
urgent.

           
I did not go to bed with Mary, nor
did she seem to assume I might. If there had been any hint of it from her,
would I have followed through? I have no idea.