Authors: Thomas Wolfe
It is the world of magic April and October; world of the first green and the smell of blossoms; world of the bedded oak leaves and the smell of smoke in Autumn, and men in shirt-sleeves working in their yards in red waning light of old October as boys pass by them going home from school. It is the world of the Summer nights, world of the dream-strange nights of August, the great moons and the tolling bells; world of the Winter nights, the howling winds, and the fire full chimney throats--world of the ash of time and silence while the piled coals flare and crumble, world of the waiting, waiting, waiting- for the world of joy, the longed-for face, the hoped-for step, the unbelieved--in magic of the Spring again.
It is the world of warmth, nearness, certitude, the wails of home! It is the world of the plain faces, and the sounding belly laughter; world of the people who are not too good or fine or proud or precious for the world's coarse uses; world of the sons who are as their fathers were before them, and are compacted of man's base, common, stinking clay of fury, blood, and sweat and agony--and must rise or fall out of the world from which they came, sink or swim, survive or perish, live, die, conquer, find alone their way, be baffled, beaten, grow furious, drunken, desperate, mad, lie smashed and battered in the stews, find a door, a dwelling place of warmth and love and strong security, or be driven famished, unassuaged, and furious through the world until they die!
Last of all, it is the world of the true friends, the fine, strong boys who can smack a ball and climb a tree, and are always on the lookout for the thrill and menace of adventure. They are the brave, free, joyful, hope-inspiring fellows who are not too nice and dainty and who have no sneers. Their names are such wonderful, open-sounding names as John, Jim, Robert, Joe, and Tom. Their names are William, Henry, George, Ben, Edward, Lee, Hugh, Richard, Arthur, Jack! Their names are the names of the straight eye and the calm and level glance, names of the thrown ball, the crack of the bat, the driven hit; names of wild, jubilant, and secret darkness, brooding, prowling, wild, exultant night, the wailing whistle and the great wheels pounding at the river's edge.
They are the names of hope, the names of love, friendship, confidence, and courage, the names of life that will prevail and will not be beaten by the names of desolation, the hopeless, sneering, death loving, and life-hating names of old scornmaker's pride--the hateful and accursed names that the boys who live in the western part of town possess.
Finally, they are the rich, unusual names, the strange, yet homely, sturdy names--the names of George Josiah Webber and Nebraska Crane.
Nebraska Crane was walking down the street upon the other side.
He was bare-headed, his shock of Indian coarse black hair standing out, his shirt was opened at his strong, lean neck, his square brown face was tanned and flushed with recent effort. From the big pocket of his pants the thick black fingers of a fielder's mitt protruded, and upon his shoulder he was carrying a well-worn ash-wood bat, of which the handle was wound round tight with tape. He came marching along at his strong and even stride, his bat upon his shoulder, as steady and as unperturbed as a soldier, and, as he passed, he turned his fearless face upon the boy across the street--looked at him with his black-eyed Indian look, and, without raising his voice, said quietly in a tone instinct with quiet friendliness: "Hi, Monk!"
And the boy who lay there in the grass, his face supported in his hands, responded without moving, in the same toneless, friendly way: "Hello, Bras."
Nebraska Crane marched on down the street, turned into the alley by his house, marched down it, turned the corner of his house, and so was lost from sight.
And the boy who lay on his belly in the grass continued to look out quietly from the supporting prop of his cupped hands. But a feeling of certitude and comfort, of warmth and confidence and quiet joy, had filled his heart, as it always did when Nebraska Crane passed his house at three o'clock.
The boy lay on his belly in the young and tender grass. Jerry Alsop, aged sixteen, fat and priestly, his belly buttoned in blue serge, went down along the other side of the street. He was a grave and quiet little figure, well liked by the other boys, but he was always on the outer fringes of their life, always on the sidelines of their games, always an observer of their universe--a fat and quiet visitant, well-spoken, pleasant-voiced, compactly buttoned in the blue serge that he always wore.... There had been one night of awful searching, one hour when all the torment and the anguish in that small, fat life had flared out in desperation. He had run away from home, and they had found him six hours later on the river road, down by the muddy little river, beside the place where all the other boys went to swim, the one hole deep enough to drown. His mother came and took him by the hand; he turned and looked at her, and then the two fell sobbing in each other's arms.... For all the rest, he had been a quiet and studious boy, well thought of in the town. Jerry's father was a dry goods mer chant, and the family was comfortably off in a modest way. Jerry had a good mind, a prodigious memory for what he read, all things in books came smoothly to him. He would finish high school next year....
Jerry Alsop passed on down the street.
Suddenly, the Webber boy heard voices in the street. He turned his head and looked, but even before he turned his head his car had told him, a cold, dry tightening of his heart, an acrid dryness on his lips, a cold, dry loathing in his blood, had told him who they were.
Four boys were coming down the street in raffish guise; advancing scattered and disorderly, now scampering sideways, chasing, tussling in lewd horseplay with each other, smacking each other with wet towels across the buttocks (they had just come from swimming in Jim Rheinhardt's cow pond in the Cove), filling the quiet street with the intrusions of their raucous voices, taking the sun and joy and singing from the day.
They slammed yard gates and vaulted fences; they dodged round trees, ducked warily behind telephone poles, chased each other back and forth, gripped briefly, struggling strenuously, showed off to each other, making raucous noises, uttering mirthless gibes. One chased an other around a tree, was deftly tripped, fell sprawling to the roar of their derision, rose red and angry in the face, trying mirthlessly to smile, hurled his wet, wadded towel at the one who tripped him- missed and was derided, picked his towel up, and to save his ugly face and turn derision from him cried out--"Pee-e-nuts!"--loudly passing Pennock's house.
The boy surveyed them with cold loathing--this was wit!
They filled that pleasant street with raucous gibes, and they took hope and peace and brightness from the day. They were unwholesome roisterers, they did not move ahead in comradeship, but scampered lewdly, raggedly around, as raucous, hoarse, and mirthless as a gob of phlegm; there was no warmth, no joy or hope or pleasantness in them; they filled the pleasant street with brutal insolence. They came from the west side of town, he knew them instinctively for what they were- the creatures of a joyless insolence, the bearers of the hated names.
Thus Sidney Purtle, a tall, lean fellow, aged fifteen, and everything about him pale--pale eyes, pale features, pale lank hair, pale eyebrows and a long, pale nose, pale lips and mouth carved always in a pale and ugly sneer, pale hands, pale hair upon his face, pale freckles, and a pale, sneering, and envenomed soul: "Georgeous the Porgeous!" A pale sneer, a palely sneering laugh; and as he spoke the words he smacked outward with his wet and loathsome rag of towel. The boy ducked it and arose.
Carl Hooton stood surveying him--a brutal, stocky figure, brutal legs outspread, red-skinned, red-handed, and red-eyed, red-eyebrowed, and an inch of brutal brow beneath the flaming thatch of coarse red hair: "Well, as I live and breathe," he sneered (the others smirked appreciation of this flaming wit), "it's little Jocko the Webber, ain't it?"
"Jockus the Cockus," said Sid Purtle softly, horribly--and smacked the wet towel briefly at the boy's bare leg.
"Jockus the Cockus--hell!" said Carl Hooton with a sneer, and for a moment more looked at the boy with brutal and derisory contempt.
"Son, you ain't nothin'," he went on with heavy emphasis, now turning to address his fellows--"Why that little monk-faced squirrel's--they ain't even dropped yet."
Loud appreciative laughter followed on this sally; the boy stood there flushed, resentful, staring at them, saying nothing. Sid Purtle moved closer to him, his pale eyes narrowed ominously to slits.
"Is that right, Monkus?" he said, with a hateful and confiding quietness. A burble of unwholesome laughter played briefly in his throat, but he summoned sober features, and said quietly, with men acing demand: "Is that right, or not? Have they fallen yet?"
"Sid, Sid," whispered Harry Nast, plucking at his companion's sleeve; a snicker of furtive mirth crossed his rat-sharp features. "Let's find out how well he's hung."
They laughed, and Sidney Purtle said: "Are you hung well, Monkus?" Turning to his comrades, he said gravely, "Shall we find out how much he's got, boys?"
And suddenly alive with eagerness and mirthful cruelty, they all pressed closer in around the boy, with secret, unclean laughter, saying: "Yes, yes--come on, let's do it! Let's find out how much he's got!"
"Young Monkus," said Sid Purtle gravely, putting a restraining hand upon his victim's arm, "much as it pains us all, we're goin' to examine you.
"Let go of me!" The boy wrenched free, turned, whirled, backed up against the tree; the pack pressed closer, leering faces thrusting forward, pale, hateful eyes smeared with the slime of all their foul and secret jubilation. His breath was coming hoarsely, and he said: "I told you to let go of me!"
"Young Monkus," said Sid Purtle gravely, in a tone of quiet reproof, wherein the dogs of an obscene and jeering mirth were faintly howling--"Young Monkus, we're surprised at you! We had expected you to behave like a little gentleman--to take your medicine like a little man.... Boys!"
He turned, addressing copemates in a tone of solemn admonition, grave surprise: "It seems the little Monkus is trying to get hard with us. Do you think we should take steps?"
"Yes, yes," the others eagerly replied, and pressed still closer round the tree.
And for a moment there was an evil, jubilantly attentive silence as they looked at him, naught but the dry, hard pounding of his heart, his quick, hard breathing, as they looked at him. Then Victor Munson moved forward slowly, his thick, short hand extended, the heavy volutes of his proud, swart nostrils swelling with scorn. And his voice, low-toned and sneering, cajoling with a hateful mockery, came closer to him coaxingly, and said: "Come, Monkus! Come little Monkus! Lie down and take your medicine, little Monk!... Here Jocko! Come Jocko! Here Jocko!
Come Jocko!--Come and get your peanuts--jock, jock, jock!"
Then while they joined in hateful laughter, Victor Munson moved forward again, the swart, stub fingers, warted on the back, closed down upon the boy's left arm; and suddenly he drew in his breath in blind, blank horror and in bitter agony, he knew that he must die and never draw his shameful breath in quietude and peace, or have a moment's hope of heartful ease again; something blurred and darkened in blind eyes--he wrenched free from the swart, stub fingers, and he struck.
The blind blow landed in the thick, swart neck and sent it gurgling backwards. Sharp hatred crossed his vision now, and so enlightened it; he licked his lips and tasted bitterness, and, sobbing in his throat, he started towards the hated face. His arms were pinioned from behind.
Sid Purtle had him, the hateful voice was saying with a menacing and now really baleful quietude: "Now, wait a minute! Wait a minute, boys!... We were just play in' with him, weren't we, and he started to get hard with us!...
Ain't that right?"
"That's right, Sid. That's the way it was, all right!"
"We thought he was a man, but he turns out to be just a little sore head, don't he? We were just kiddin' him along, and he has to go and get sore about it. You couldn't take it like a man, could you?" said Sidney Purtle, quietly and ominously into the ear of his prisoner; at the same time he shook the boy a little--"You're just a little cry-baby, ain't you? You're just a coward, who has to hit a fellow when he ain't lookin'?"
"You turn loose of me," the captive panted, "I'll show you who's the cry-baby! I'll show you if I have to hit him when he isn't looking!"
"Is that so, son?" said Victor Munson, breathing hard.
"Yes, that's so, son!" the other answered bitterly.
"Who says it's so, son?"
"I say it's so, son!"
"Well, you don't need to go gettin' on your head about it!"
"I'm not the one who's getting on his head about it; you are!"
"Is that so?"
"Yes, that's so!"
There was a pause of labored breathing and contorted lips; the acrid taste of loathing and the poisonous constrictions of brute fear, a sense of dizziness about the head, a kind of hollow numbness in the stomach pit, knee sockets gone a trifle watery; all of the gold of just a while ago gone now, all of the singing and the green; no color now, a poisonous whiteness in the very quality of light, a kind of poisonous intensity of focus everywhere; the two antagonists' faces suddenly keen, eyes sharp with eager cruelty, pack-appetites awakened, murder-sharp now, lusts aware.
"You'd better not be gettin' big about it," said Victor Munson slowly, breathing heavily, "or somebody'll smack you down!"
"You know anyone who's going to do it?"
"Maybe I do and maybe I don't, I'm not sayin'. It's none of your business."
"It's none of your business either!"
"Maybe," said Victor Munson, breathing swarthily, and edging for ward an inch or so--"Maybe I'll make it some of my business!"
"You're not the only one who can make it your business!"
"You know of anyone who wants to make it anything?"
"Maybe I do and maybe I don't."
"Do you say that you do?"
"Maybe I do and maybe I don't. I don't back down from saying it."
"Boys, boys," said Sidney Purtle, quietly, mockingly. "You're gettin' hard with each other. You're usin' harsh language to each other. The first thing you know you'll be gettin' into trouble with each other about Christmas time," he jeered quietly.
"If he wants to make anything out of it," said Victor Munson bitterly, "he knows what he can do."