Wanted (2 page)

I walked right up to him and gave him my best smile.

“Hey Ellie, is something, um wrong?”

“Nope….just realized something though Bryce.
”

He looked around as if he was looking for Denise….or maybe
he was looking for
a way out.

“
Ahhh
, what’s that Ells?”

I reached down and picked up a piece of pizza and took a bite of it and then looked
at his nice white t-
shirt and smiled
.

“I realized that you are nothing but a cheating bastard!” I slammed the pizza right into his chest and then picked up his root beer and dumped it over his head.

As I walked away from Bryce I made a mental note to have Jefferson kick his ass.

I was never going to date again!

CHAPTER ONE

Ellie
………

Two
Years later………

Two days before I was s
et to graduate
and here
I stood against my locker in a state of shock.
People were walking by and going to class, not knowing the hell I was going through or
at
least not caring.

Memories of
what
my mother
said to me when I was seven
had to come back
to me
right at that moment
.

My whole b
ody started to shake.

Why?
I wanted
to just
scream
out
as loud as I could
WHY?

Maybe my mother was
right;
no
man
would ever want me
or w
ould ever truly love me.
I needed to just give up on them for good.

I just wanted Jefferson
, when would he get here?
I had to tell him what happened
or
he will know something is wrong the moment he sees my
teary
red eyes.
Jefferson will know what to do to
take away this pain
before I have to go home and face my mother.
I can never let her know what happened. She
will never let me forget this just like she always brings up Bryce. God, I was having a problem getting air in my lungs. I just needed Jefferson.

Jefferson is my older
broth
er by three
years. He
has been the only person in m
y life to be there for me
.
He was going to the University of Texas and
studying A
rchitectural Engineering
. He
worked his ass off in school to get perfect grades and of course he kicked ass on the football field
as well. He received a scholarship to play football at the University of Texas
. He could have gone anywhere, but he
stayed in Austin to help
take care of my mother and me.

He would not leave me all alone to deal with her.
He is
all I have in this world.

My father left when I wa
s three
.
He came back to see us only once
after he left. It was right after Jefferson got his scholarship to UT. He showed up on our door step
acting like a proud father
. I thought Jefferson was going to beat the shit out of him. He only stayed long enough to give Jefferson and me part of an inheritance from a grandmother neither of us remembered
. He also caused
our mother
to go
into anot
her drunken fest and
los
e another job
.

Jefferson made me put the money
away for college and he b
ought his truck and paid off what was owed on our
mother’s house.
My mother
is
nothing but
a drunk who half the time does not even know she has two kids.
I’
m nothing but a reminder of the man who left her
alone and unwanted
.
She would tell me how much I lo
ok
ed like him
when I was younger.
Her hatred for him
drives her to drink away her problems
, or at least she attempts to drink them away
.

Jefferson
is another reminder of our
father but my mother pretty much
just ignores him more than
she does me.
A
s long
as
he puts money in her account each month for her alcohol she is happy.
Jefferson
has
work
ed
since he was fourteen
to help keep food on our table. I stopped counting how many jobs my mother has had in the l
ast ten
years. Sometimes she would
be
gone for days at a time which was
fine by
us
.
How Jefferson managed to work, study and get to football practice all the while taking care of his baby sister I will never know.

I love my brother so
much for all that he does
, even
for
our mom.
Jefferson is the only person in my
life who has been there for me.

I only needed two people in my life……..
Jefferson and Ry
an
…….
Well shit……at
least up until thirty
minutes ago I thought the only two people I needed
in my life
were
Jefferson and Ryan. Ryan has been my bo
yfriend for the last eight
months; p
retty much all of my sen
ior year
h
as been spent with him……..
what
a fucking waste.

I guess I should say
he
was my boyfriend. That fucker!
My body started to shake again
as the image came
back
in
to
my
mind
.
I felt the tears
threaten to come
again.
No! I was not going to cry over him
anymore
.

I had gotten a text message from Ryan asking me to mee
t him in the auditorium during sixth
period. I
was an office monitor and it was not unco
mmon for me to meet him during sixth
period
before he left campus for the day.
I could have
sworn
he told
me he was leaving right after fifth
.

Today
something was different and I knew it the moment I walked through the door
of the auditorium
.
I heard
moans coming from behind the stage. I slowly walked up and found
Ryan
behind the stage having sex with
Jessica
Harris
.
I thought I was going to throw up. I stood there like an idiot
watching them
for probably a good minute before
my brain started to work again.

I f
inally was able to turn myself
away
from one of the worst moments in my life only to
walk into a prop for the stupid Wizard of
Oz play
the drama class was
putting on tonight. It made a loud crash
as it hit
the floor
and I turned just in time to see Ryan lo
ok
up at me with a stunned lo
ok
on his face
and to see Jessica give me the most evil smile
I had ever seen
. I mean really…that bitch could throw
daggers
at her mother
while singing a Disney song
.
At that moment
I knew this was all her doing, she set it up for me to be here and see this.

I turned an
d jumped over the prop to run out
the door. A
ll
I
knew
was that I could hardly breathe
and I really needed to get out of there and fast.
I heard the bastard calling out
for me.

“Let me explain!
Ellie
!
PLEASE
let me explain!” he kept yelling
out
. Really…
how could he possible explain
why he was having sex with the one girl in school who hated my
guts?

Ever since Ryan a
sked me to the fall dance
Jessica
has made it her mission
in life
to hate me
and take Ryan away
. With her perfect blonde hair, blue eyes and
daddy’s
money,
she wanted for nothing and got almost everything she wanted
. I guess
she
accompl
ished
her mission
of take Ryan from me
.

After I spent the last twenty
minutes in the
girl’s
bathroom ugly crying with my b
est friend Arianna
standing outside the bathroom stal
l
begging me
to tell her what was wrong, I was ready to go beat the sh
it out of Jessica Fucking Harris
.

I was finally able to
somewhat
speak to Ari
once the sobs settled a bit
.

“
Ohhh
, my
gawd
, Ari
that fucker….that no good for nothing
”
…..
and there it was…another round of endless sobs.

“Please
Ellie
, you are really scaring me. Please tell me who and what the hell you are talking about before I scale this fucking doo
r and beat it out of you.” Ari
screamed over my loud cries.

“It’s ….it’s Ryan. I saw him having sex with….with….Je…Jess…
Je
ssi
….
”

I can’t breathe……
OH MY GOD! Why?

“
I
just
saw Ryan fucking Jessica Harris
behind the stage
!” I screamed out with such a force even I was waiting for someone to come in and see what the hell was going on in the
girl’s
bathroom
down in
C hall.

F
or a f
ew minutes I thought Ari
had left
me in my misery
alone
.
I was alone
, sitting in the girl’s bathroom crying over some jerk, crying all alone
.

I would always
end up
alone.

How stupid was
I to think that Ryan
would wait to be with me until I was ready. I just ne
ver felt like Ryan was ‘the one’
I was saving myself for
.
We had barley even kissed and he never tried to go further.
My mother told me the first and last time she met Ryan that I was only arm candy for him.

I am always going to be alone.
I sho
ok
my head….
that is not true…..
I had Jefferson.
I would always have Jefferson.

“
Holy hells bells…..Jesus, Mary and Joseph… t
hat dirty rotten son of a bitch
cock sucking mother fucker
!
I am going to cut his bal
ls off and…”

God I loved this girl. Arianna had been my best friend since we were ten. She was beautiful, funny and smart as hell. She was graduating as Valedictorian of our class. Sh
e was the same height as me, 5’5 and
we both weighed around 120
. It made it nice since I loved to borrow her clothes.

She had beautiful m
edium brown hair that fell just below her shoulders. She had hauntingly beautiful
green eyes. Her only down
fall….she didn’t know when to stop talking.
The girl could rattle on all day if you let her.

“Ari
please, if anyone is going to cut his balls of
f
it sure as shit is going to be me
not you. But thank you for the love.
” I s
aid as I walked out of the stall
more composed tha
n I really should have been
.