Authors: Heidi Ayarbe
“
The Gambler
,” I answer.
Randolph nods.
I look over at a seminew client—don’t remember his name. His hand trembles, cash peeking out of his clutched fist; sweat drips down his temples.
What’s his name?
I stare at him until we make eye contact and I mouth, “Cool it or leave. Now.” I can see his Adam’s apple bob up and down in his throat.
Justin.
That’s right.
Justin.
He’s a junior.
Somebody’s reading. Randolph listens to Alexei’s first run with roulette. The guy stutters over “whence” like he’s never read nineteenth-century lit before. Rookie.
“What class is this for?”
“Not a class,” I say. “We’re just into Dostoyevsky. We meet here all the time.” I know the drill and pass him my book, dog-eared pages yellowed, highlighted, and underlined.
My bet book lies open on my lap—right in front of Randolph’s nose. I move to close it and it falls off my knees. Randolph absently picks up my bet book, pages open, handing it to me while flipping through the pages of
The Gambler
. “Dostoyevsky, huh? Pretty highbrow.”
“Yeah. He was persecuted in Russia for his ideas, exiled in Siberia, came back, and rocked the world with his work.
The
founder of existentialism.” I smile and hold my hand out, waiting for him to pass the book back. A couple of guys cough. A blue vein streaks across junior Justin’s bright red face. I glare at him and tap my fingers on the bleachers, waiting for Randolph to hand me everything, feeling the thrill, that feeling that we’re so close to getting caught. But we won’t get caught.
I shift my weight and try to ignore my cold, metal-bleacher–numbed butt.
Randolph nods, looking above
The Gambler
at la Cordillera. He’s more interested in our friendly neighborhood gang. He hands me the book, and I close it around Sanctuary’s bets, safe in
The Gambler
’s pages.
It’s so freaking obvious why we’re here—what Sanctuary is—that he doesn’t see what we’re doing.
Really. Study group?
The Gambler
? Outside? When the temp is hovering at just about ten degrees?
I shake my head.
It’s always that way with Dean Randolph and pretty much every other teacher, parent, guardian, counselor . . . whoever . . . on the planet. It’s like once you hit middle age, you spend your time looking for smoke signs when your ass is already on fire.
Randolph tries to hide a yawn. He smiles at us approvingly and ambles along, skirting around la Cordillera, not ballsy enough to actually sit with them. When he’s out of sight, I take the rest of the bets. Justin hands me his sweaty ball of cash. I hold his wrist. “It’s cool, okay? Just be cool.”
He nods.
“Or don’t come back. You got that?”
“Okay.”
Everything’s done—the bets are placed. I close my book and am ready to head to class—with plenty of time left over to get caffeinated—when I see Nim and his girlfriend.
Not Nim. Not today.
Nim motions for Kylie “Medusa” to stay. I can practically hear him: “Stay, Medusa. Stay. Good girl.” Medusa sits on the lowest bleacher, her hair a nest of tangled auburn ringlets—probably one of Nevada’s government-protected ecosystems for migratory birds.
“Hey, Mike.” Nim smiles. Deep dimples on ski-tanned cheeks deceivingly charming.
I’ve fallen for that smile plenty of times. Like eight hundred dollars plenty. I pull my gaze away. “Yeah.”
“Can you hook me up?”
“I’m not a pimp or a dealer, so probably not,” I say, standing up.
Nim pulls me down and sits next to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder, nearly asphyxiating me with cologne and caked-on Degree Sport stick. He pulls me in tight—too tight. I can practically feel capillaries bursting under his grip. “You
know
what I need.”
I swallow. Count.
Keep it cool
. His grip loosens and he starts to laugh that maniacal nervous laugh he gets before he goes wacko. This is not good.
“This sweet parlay will get me out of some hot water,” Nim says.
Nimrod’s dad doesn’t know he’s already hundreds in the hole. Hundreds his family can afford. Hundreds Nim can’t. The irony of this entire situation is that though I’m the one who has him by his Shrinky Dink steroid balls, I’m the one trying to still my trembling hands. If he knew how scared I was of him, I’d never survive high school.
I shake my head, steady my hands to pull out the BlackBerry. “Not gonna happen. You’ve already used up your line of credit.” Leverage. Gotta use any leverage I’ve got, so I squeeze a little harder. “You’d have done well this past week with Ravens.”
Nimrod slams his fist into the bleacher, the aluminum buckling. I don’t think I’ve visibly flinched and hope to God my lip isn’t quivering. He’s never hit me before. But today he’s desperate. Desperate people do stupid things.
The thing is, with a guy like Nimrod, you’ve got to take a little pity because unless he makes the major leagues or lands a modeling contract
soon
, odds are he’ll end up working as a security guard for his dad’s storage rental units, wearing the poop-colored polyester uniform. His only chance at post–high school glory is discovering that some deranged serial killer hides body parts in one of the storage units.
I look back to la Cordillera. A few of them are watching. Witnesses. This is good. I’ll need witnesses.
As if he’s reading my mind, Nimrod drops his arm and stares at the gang. Being on good terms with la Cordillera is kind of its own built-in security system.
“Please,” he says. “C’mon, Mike.”
Criminy. He’s begging. I shrug him off. “Nope. I can give you the number of my guy in Reno, though. He’s
real
pleasant. Especially when you
don’t
pay your debts.”
I watch Nim’s dimples disappear and his face turn a blotchy red. It’s kind of fun to play with him. He grabs my arm tighter. Fun’s over.
“Don’t be a—”
“You want to finish that sentence?” I ask, and peel his fingers off my arm.
“I’m good for it,” he grumbles. Defeated.
I wait, cock my head to the side, and stare at him.
He shoves his hands into his pockets, pulling out a limp, pencil-smudged piece of paper. “C’mon, Mike. Jesus Christ, already.”
“Collateral,” I say.
“Collateral?”
“What? You need a dictionary?”
He flinches.
“Collateral. Give me something of yours. You lose, I keep it. You win, you get it back and we’re done.”
“Like my varsity jacket?” Nim nods at Medusa, who’s moved so close to him, it’s hard to tell where he ends and she begins.
Medusa glares at Nim and hugs it around her broomstick body.
“Um. No.”
“But that jacket—”
“Means
nothing
to me. Something else. Something big.”
Nim looks shocked. How could his varsity jacket be meaningless—all that leather, the letter, those pins? “Okay. Like what? My debit card?”
“With a fifty dollar–a-week limit. Please.”
His jaw almost drops to the bleachers. If there’s one thing Nim isn’t, it’s subtle. The entire student body knows his jock strap size, PIN, and mother’s maiden name. Idiot.
“Shit. What do you want then? My signed football—Peyton Manning. It’s gotta be worth—”
“The title to your truck.” I say. “By the end of the day.”
“Are you out of your—no way. Like.”
I move down a couple of bleachers. “Have a great week then.”
He pulls me back so hard that the bleachers dig into my knees with an electric, cold jolt. He leans in close, so close I can smell the barely masked body odor and count his blackheads. The left side of his lip goes up as if it were attached to some invisible string, bobbing up and down, up and down. Twitchy.
How to deal with the likes of Nimrod was not addressed in
Bookmaking for Dummies
. My only hope to come out of this without ending up with my jaw wired shut and a liquid diet until we graduate is to make sure Nim wins. Unfortunately, I don’t rig bets. I just place them.
He hands me a paper with his picks—a four-game parlay, all-or-nothing bet on Wild Card Weekend—money-lining each game. So rookie.
I shake my head. “Listen. Back in middle school, I did the parlay-card thing. This, though, is just green. Nobody money-lines four different games.”
“I make the bet, you place the bet. Like I really need advice from a chick about how to bet.”
“Gambling 101, Nim. This is pretty basic stuff.” And annoying. “You can’t cover the losses anymore. You’re already several hundred plus in the hole. You lose, I lose, which shouldn’t be the case—as you stated, you make the bet, I place it. But here’s the thing. You can’t cover it, and I want my money back.”
I take the normal vig with all my clients, but Nimrod is
the
pain in the ass who bets too much. His losses never used to affect my take, but lately, I don’t even get the juice and have gotten into a bad habit of fronting him cash I know he’s not good for. No odds in my favor there.
I straighten my back, moving in close, trying not to gag on the musty smell of his cologne. My throat burns like I’m drinking tree bark and moss. “I won’t front you the cash for this bet.”
“It’s my cash, my bet. I’m good for it.” Nim pushes past me. I lose my balance and stumble backward, falling from halfway up the bleachers to the ground. My diaphragm spasms. I gasp for air.
Nimrod stands over me, framed by the heatless sun, making him look like some kind of Greek god—his perfectly waved hair on fire. He spits; thick phlegm splatters on the grass next to me and spatters into my ear.
He pulls the truck title out of his wallet and drops it next to me. “Place the fucking bet. Tonight,” he says, then turns on his heel and leaves, Medusa trailing behind him. I try not to panic because it’s been approximately forty seconds since oxygen has reached my brain. And you can’t bookie when you’re brain dead.
I close my eyes, willing my body to start respiratory function. Sometimes I wonder if I’m like the tree falling in the forest.
If nobody sees Michal, will she exist?
“Hey. You okay?” I open my eyes. The kind-of-new guy at school, one of those instantly popular fit-ins, stands over me in all my humiliated glory. I’m still trying to catch my breath when he reaches his hand down to help me sit up. “You okay?” he repeats. He pulls his baseball cap off and pulls me into a sitting position, squatting down beside me, placing his hand on my back, dusty blond hair flopping into his eyes.
I’m caught between not breathing because, physiologically, it’s impossible at this moment and not breathing because the hand resting on my back makes me feel like I did when I licked a wall socket on a dare when I was little. He squints, trying to block the sun from his eyes. “Should I call someone? Are you, like, choking on something? Can you breathe?”
I manage to nod.
“Which one? Choking or breathing?”
I hold up two fingers.
He hands me a bandana to wipe my face. “You okay?”
My diaphragm decides to cooperate and contract to let air in. I gasp for breath and rest my head between my knees, tucking Nimrod’s truck title in my pocket, hoping I haven’t turned that awful purple-red color. “I’m okay. Just clumsy.”
Javier comes over and crouches next to the new guy.
I’m feeling incredibly exposed. Hard not to do, considering they found me sprawled on my back on the third-base line. I undoubtedly have a grass stain on my head from sliding off the bench after I lost all respiratory function. So my existence takes place in two spheres: bookmaking and humiliation.
“Josh,” the first guy says, shaking my hand, smiling wide, revealing a slight gap between his front teeth, perfect for first-date lettuce disasters. “I’m new here. You might’ve seen me around. Specifically in your Creative Writing and Government classes.”
Yeah. I’ve seen him. Who hasn’t?
“Yeah. I’ve seen you around.”
“Hey, Mike, whatcha doing sprawled on the third-base line?” Javier says, taking my other hand in his. Together he and Josh pull me to my feet.
I brush wet grass and dirt off my jeans.
Javier’s a cool guy. He’s placed a couple of bets. The only time he ever won, he invited me out to Dairy Queen to celebrate, as if I were personally responsible for the Giants beating the Mariners.
I sigh, running fingers through my hair and pulling it back into a ponytail.
“Binder placing a bet?” Javier points to Nim’s looming frame in the distance. He and Medusa are working it in some spontaneous feel-up moment—probably the only time they’ll get until after school. “He do this to you?”
Josh points to where Nimrod was standing. “
That
guy pushed you down? And
spit
on you? What the . . . ? That’s just wrong.” The small scar across Josh’s left eyebrow practically glows white in his red-flushed face.
“Save your indignation for when you lose. You here for Sanctuary?”
Javier turns back to me. “Yeah. Josh wanted in on something.”
“You’re late.”
“We mixed up meeting places. My bad.” Javier scuffs his shoe across the grass. “Listen. I’ll let you two figure it out. I’ve got to finish some calc before Mrs. Hensler gives me infinite detention.”
I laugh.
We watch Javier head toward school. “Wild Card Weekend. I’m not really into new clients,” I say. “I’m not interested in consoling beginners—or losers.”
“Not a beginner.” Josh flashes a smile. “I don’t lose.”
“Cocky. So how much are you throwing away?”
“You’ll take my bet.”
“I don’t have all morning.” I shrug, waiting for the typical
I want to put twenty dollars on the Raiders winning.
After which I’ll have to explain the Raiders aren’t even playing.
“First scoring play. San Diego Chargers.”
I push my bangs out of my eyes and nod. “Nice.”
He hands me a hundred dollars. “Want in on it? You can match my bet and we’ll make loads more.” He’s smiling, a half-moon toothy smile that makes him look utterly dorky or adorable.
“I don’t gamble. I just make my money off of those who do.”