Waking Storms (9 page)

The wave stretched itself, its watery chest inches from Dorian’s eyes, and then he saw a little girl’s curled arm and hand suspended in its core. The hand was green with decay. Tiny fishes nibbled the loose skin from its fingertips, but as Dorian gaped the forefinger crooked twice, beckoning him inside.

He was still trying to back away, but his path was blocked by a cloudy wall, his legs snarled in warm weeds. In the murky depths of the wave, he could just see a girl’s face beginning to form. Dorian knew that he couldn’t let himself see that face, and with a frantic effort he flung himself around, straining to run. Something fleshy hit his mouth, and he heard himself screaming, and screaming again.

He had a mouthful of cloth. It was his pillowcase. He was banging his head into the pillow, and that awful yielding wall was only the mattress. He lurched up onto his knees, gasping, with his sweat-slicked hair cloying around his face, and found himself staring at a baby koala perched on its mother’s back, gray light sifting through the frilly curtains.

“I hope you had a nice restful sleep,” the man in the suit said. He was sitting in the rocking chair where Lindy did her knitting. His blue eyes were as blank as gobs of flattened chewing gum on a sidewalk. “A nice, deep, soothing sleep really makes all your troubles seem to melt away, doesn’t it?”

Dorian wasn’t sure if this was another dream. Irrationally he thought his clock might be able to tell him whether or not he was asleep. All the red digits said, though, was that it was already twelve minutes past eight. Why hadn’t the alarm gone off?

“I’m going to be late for school,” Dorian announced reflexively to the man, who suddenly appeared far more substantial.

“You won’t be attending school today, Mr. Hurst.” The man stood up. He was tall, and his blue eyes were small and so close-set that they seemed to be about to merge together. He had freshly shaved, sticky-looking cheeks and a long, flat nose with broad pink nostrils.

“I have a test today. In English.” Dorian was finally awake enough to wonder what the man was doing there. He was awake enough to remember the night before, when he’d skimmed along the pitching sea with a mermaid’s lips soft and cool against his own. How could anything in his normal life seem real compared to that?
Luce.
And she would come back to the beach tonight...

The tall man smirked. “I believe Mrs. Muggeridge will accept a note from the FBI, Mr. Hurst. You can take your test after you get back from Anchorage.”

“From ... I’m not going to Anchorage!” Dorian heard a soft shuffling out in the hall and looked up in time to catch Lindy’s frightened eyes blinking in at him. She hurried out of view.

“You aren’t? You know, I’ve mentioned to your nice relations here that we suspect some unpleasant things about the
Dear Melissa.
Foul play, maybe. Criminals, maybe. Extortion, you see, aimed at the cruise line. We’ll keep popping your ships if you don’t cough up.” The man bent down and jerked open Dorian’s dresser: not just any drawer but the bottom one. Dorian was suddenly very still.
The drawings
...

The man threw a pair of jeans onto the bed. Dorian forced himself to be casual, even obnoxious.

“So?”

“Well, I’ve explained to them that these extortionists are smart people. They recruit someone on board to help out. Someone impressionable, like a teenager. Naturally, I told them, young Mr. Hurst will want to do whatever he can to help us bring these fiends to justice.” A gray sweater flew after the jeans, landing on Dorian’s knees. That freckled hand couldn’t be more than half an inch away from grazing the stacks of paper.

“Wait!” Dorian yelped the word, and the agent straightened and raised his eyebrows, his pink lips puckering. “Of course I want to help. I just didn’t see why it had to be Anchorage.”

“Can’t stand the thought of getting out of this dump for a day or two?”

Dorian stared him down. “Can I get dressed, please?”

“You hadn’t exactly studied for that test, anyway, had you? I’m doing you a favor.”

“Are you trying to see me with my clothes off?”

“You think you’re the first person to come up with that line?” The agent was sneering, but he still backed off, slapping the pale lavender door shut behind him.

Dorian wasn’t about to put on the clothes the agent had flung at him. He picked out an outfit that was as obviously different as possible: a red hoodie over a ragged Mr. Bubble T-shirt marked all over with his own sketches, a pair of black cargo pants. Then he reached through the tangled clothes in the bottom drawer and stroked the paper. Even without looking he was painfully aware that he was touching an image of Luce’s face. He stared around the room, but there was really no better place to hide the drawings. Not from someone who might search, anyway.

After a minute’s thought, he pulled the drawings out and slipped them under a pile of Lindy’s knitting magazines. He didn’t think she ever looked at them.

A day or
two?
What would Luce think if he wasn’t at the beach tonight?

He walked out into the kitchen and found Lindy nervously flipping pancakes while the tall agent leaned on the counter. He gave Dorian’s outfit a sharp once-over but didn’t say anything. Lindy caught the look, though, and turned to Dorian reproachfully.

“Dorian, couldn’t you wear something nicer? For your trip with Agent Smitt?”

“Oh, that doesn’t matter, Mrs. Basel. We don’t care how our young man here looks. External appearances are so unimportant.” He gave Dorian a wide, sickly smile. “Don’t you agree, Dorian? What matters is what’s on the
inside.”

***

After the first shock of Smitt’s arrival Dorian’s thoughts began to drift again. As he went through the motions of stuffing an overnight bag and layering on extra sweaters in place of his missing parka, he was thinking of Luce, imagining how he’d explain:
I thought if I didn’t go along with it maybe they’d start following me or something. I had to throw them off
... She was already worried about the police. She would understand that he had to act in a way that would keep them from getting suspicious. At least, she’d understand if she ever gave him a chance to explain. Maybe she’d get so angry at waiting around for him tonight that she’d never come back. The idea sat inside Dorian like something cold and gelatinous clogging his heart. Real life was wherever she was, in her face where every curve held a kind of shuddering brilliance, in her disarming bursts of honesty.
I’m supposed to make sure you die tonight. And I just blew it
completely. Maybe it was crazy, but Dorian couldn’t help grinning at the memory of those words.

Everything else in his life was just something other people expected from him. He kissed Lindy on the cheek, carried his bag to the car, and sat silent next to Smitt as they drove to the airfield. Whatever happened, Dorian thought, it shouldn’t be too hard to convince them he was totally ignorant. The FBI thought a criminal gang had brought down the
Dear Melissa,
Smitt had said. Dorian could truthfully claim he didn’t know anything about that. Once they’d boarded the small propeller plane Dorian stared out the window. Instead of the clouds he saw her face with its soft internal glow, her eyes shut tight, in the moment before he’d covered her mouth with his. Once again he’d known exactly what to do.

He’d outsmarted death a second time. It was impossible to repress the thrill of that, the sense it gave him of his own outrageous specialness. If he could make a mermaid like him too much to kill him, how ordinary could he be?

***

In Anchorage there was another car waiting. Smitt took the front seat while Dorian slumped into the back. He’d spent a day here with his family just before they’d left on their fatal cruise, and he remembered the drive into town, the freeway curving beside a blue waterway, a handful of white office buildings set against whiter mountains, the blue-green luxuriance of trees. They pulled into an underground parking lot beneath one of those white buildings and took an elevator up to a floor where anonymous beige hallways mazed away in all directions.

Smitt led Dorian around several turns. His eyes were still empty, but his smirk kept getting tighter, as if someone were steadily pulling on a drawstring threaded through his mouth. After a few minutes he opened a door onto a small room where a brown plastic table sat surrounded by blue plastic chairs. An older, thickset man looked up at them expectantly. He had tan skin—maybe he was Italian or Hispanic—gray hair, and large sympathetic eyes. His smile struck Dorian as genuine and even reassuring.

“Thank you, Agent Smitt. And this is Dorian, of course. I’ve seen your picture. I’m Ben Ellison.”

“Hi.” Dorian smiled back awkwardly and shook the proffered hand. Ben Ellison waved him to a chair, and Dorian sat down while Smitt leaned against the door. Ellison pulled a file folder out of a laptop bag and opened it, and Dorian caught his breath.

“Your mother really liked to post pictures online, didn’t she? It’s wonderful to see a strong relationship like this between a boy your age and his little sister. I wish my kids could get along half this well.”

The picture in the folder showed Emily sitting on his shoulders. They were in a park, the pale sky laced by bare black branches. She was wearing a bright polka-dotted jacket and mittens made to look like duck faces. She held her hands up menacingly on either side of Dorian’s face, thumbs flared to show that the ducks were quacking furiously. His own gloved hands wrapped her legs, and he was laughing so hard that he couldn’t quite stand up straight.

Dorian turned his eyes away, only to find himself confronting Smitt’s contorted smile.

“You must miss her very much,” Ben Ellison said. Now his voice sounded too warm, almost gluey.

“Of course I miss her,” Dorian said. It came out harsh, rasping. He didn’t know where to look; definitely not into Emily’s giddy face.

“I know you do. I spent a great deal of time studying these pictures.” He turned over the photo of Dorian and Emily in the park. From the corner of his eye Dorian could see more images of himself: roughhousing with his sister, reading to her, jumping with her in a pile of leaves. “Seeing them, I couldn’t doubt that you were telling us absolutely everything you know that might help us to understand why she died.”

Dorian didn’t know what to say to that. “Sure.”

“The little jerk’s been doing nothing but lying his ass off from the first time we talked to him,” Agent Smitt snarled from behind Dorian’s left shoulder. Dorian couldn’t help twisting around at the words, and Agent Smitt’s blue eyes met his with a slick, repellent look of self-satisfaction.

“Please, Agent Smitt.” Ellison was warmly reproachful. “That’s not at all constructive. We have no reason to believe that Dorian is actually lying.”

Dorian was aware that he was being played with, but awareness didn’t stop any of it from affecting him. He felt the repulsive slap of Agent Smitt’s words, his queasy smirk, and then the soft comfort of Ellison’s reply.

“From everything we’ve learned, it sounds as if Dorian had a truly enviable life before the tragedy. Mother a professor of Russian history, father in medical research. Beautiful home, top schools. Everyone who knew them describes a very cultured, happy, loving family. ” Ben Ellison was watching Dorian too intensely as he spoke those last words. Dorian was careful to keep his face completely frozen. “Dorian would have more reason than anyone—anyone at all—to want to get to the bottom of this.”

Dorian sneezed, loudly. Smitt snickered and said, “That’s what you’d think, all right.”

“That’s what we
all
thought,” Ellison agreed. He focused his attention on Dorian again. “Your story doesn’t explain anything, of course. ‘Everything went dark’?” Was there a note of sarcasm in his voice? “But considering how little we know about the effect an occurrence like that might have on the human mind ... Well, let’s just say that I was prepared to accept your version of events. It did leave open the question of how you reached the shore, though. We can definitely rule out the possibility that you
swam.”

“I never said I swam.” Dorian felt his throat getting rough. “I said I didn’t know how it happened.” Ellison nodded, fixing his serious gaze on Dorian’s face.

“You don’t know how it happened. Of course. But how do you
think
you made it to land? What’s your theory?” Dorian stared blankly. “Just speculate. I’d like to see what ideas we can come up with together. Anything at all.”

“I mean...” Dorian had found a spot of carpet to stare at. “Maybe I took a lifeboat or something part of the way? And I just repressed it?”

“Maybe.” Ellison nodded. “But if you took a boat, you did it long before the
Dear Melissa
crashed. You were discovered on the beach exactly fifty-three minutes after the time of impact, but by my estimate it would have taken you at least four hours to paddle that distance alone. And that”—for the first time his mouth bent like Smitt’s—“that would suggest you had some advance knowledge.”

They were getting back to the whole criminal conspiracy idea, then. In a way it was a relief. “I didn’t know anything.”

“Then you didn’t take a boat.”

Dorian met Ellison’s brown eyes as Smitt burst out laughing behind them. The gaze Dorian shared with Ellison went on for too long but it was also somehow unstable, disorienting.

“We know how the brat got to shore!” Smitt yapped. “Stop pretending we don’t.”

“Agent Smitt...”

“He knows it, too. He just keeps spewing lies.”

“Withholding information isn’t the same thing as lying.” There was a lull. Ben Ellison started flipping through the stack of photos again, and Dorian clung to the edges of his chair. He was feeling terribly unbalanced, as if ocean waves were pushing up beneath the dull beige floor and tilting it subtly from side to side. Something cold and vast and seething was coming too close.

“Dorian...” Ellison seemed genuinely concerned. “At a certain point I was forced to entertain the idea that there were some things you weren’t telling us. But I couldn’t believe you would have willingly participated in anything that might hurt Emily. I had to try to come up with other explanations for why you might be choosing to keep quiet, even though you must realize what’s at stake here. We’re trying to make sure no other little girls have to die the way Emily did. You do understand that, don’t you?”