Waking Kiss (4 page)

“Obviously.” She had such a pretty smile. I hoped she was one of those girls who liked sex with her BDSM, because there were a lot of things I wanted to do to that mouth. I put my beer on a nearby table. It was time to move things along.

“So,” I asked in my best
I’m-a-trustworthy-dominant
voice. “How long have you been in the lifestyle?”

“The lifestyle?” She blinked at me. “Forever, I guess. But I’ve only gotten serious about it the last couple years. When I left New York and decided to come here.”

“I see.”
Forever
sounded promising. I wondered what she meant by getting serious in the last couple years. Was she into edgier play? Hardcore slavery? I hoped she didn’t belong to some other dom, some online motherfucker or something. Only one way to find out, and that was to make my move. “Can I be honest with you?” I said, very close to her ear.

She nodded. “Uh, sure.”

“There’s something about you that intrigues me. Your eyes, or your body. I like little girls.”

Shit, that sounded so wrong. She made a squicked face.

“No, I mean, petite women,” I amended. “Women who are small enough to manhandle a bit. Just for fun, of course.” I slid a hand up her arm, a light, seductive touch. “Ruby’s never invited one of his ballet friends here before. You fascinate me.”

She stood very still beneath my full-force invitation stare. Her expression wasn’t welcoming. I didn’t know if it was due to shyness or disinterest.

“Where’s Rubio?” she asked, looking around. Shit. Disinterest.

“Downstairs in the play room, I imagine.”

“This house has a play room?”

This house?
Didn’t she realize this was my house? And why did she think everyone came here to party? I had a basement full of BDSM furniture and equipment—and soundproof walls.

“Want to check it out?” I asked. I’ll admit it, I was proud of the play room I’d put together. Maybe it would change her mind about hooking up with me. I took the glass out of her hand, set it on the table next to my beer. “No drinks allowed down there.”

I held out a hand and her fingers closed around mine. Trina scowled and finally seemed to accept defeat as Ashleigh and I crossed the main room and headed for the stairs. There were tons of other guys here who’d be happy to play with Trina, but Ashleigh didn’t seem to be generating much interest. Well, she was wearing black, shapeless clothes, but her eyes… Her eyes were so wide and pretty, light blue or maybe gray with dark lashes. There was something in the way she moved too, some sensual or ethereal quality that made me want to touch her and hold her in my arms. And she was an American. Midwestern girls. Heh.

To the play room then. I walked ahead of her down the stairs and into the darker, lower floor of the house. We were enveloped by the warm glow of candles and the beautifully erotic sounds of pleasure. Rhythmic thuds accompanied shrieks and muffled screams.

“There’s Ruby,” I said, pointing to a rack near the corner, where his curvy, screeching partner writhed in chains. Rubio was naked, his cock hard and jutting out. He sidled up to his play partner and rubbed his junk between her ass cheeks. I grinned as he ran a groping hand down between her legs and ripped off her g-string, then stepped back and accepted a whip from a nearby assistant. The implement was perhaps three feet long, black braided leather. I turned to Ashleigh, to make some crack about whether she still wanted to talk to him.

My words died at the look on her face.

“Oh my God,” she whispered. Her eyes were wide, her cheeks pale. She looked around the play room in shock.

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” She tried to act cool and nonchalant, but I could tell this wasn’t what she’d expected. In that terrible moment, I realized I’d misunderstood every one of her signals, realized that we’d been speaking two different languages, fellow Americans or not. Ashleigh Keaton was vanilla, and she was completely freaked out by what she was seeing. I looked over my shoulder and tried to imagine the play room through her eyes. Grasping, whipping, screams and laughter, naked people bound in all kinds of positions on all kinds of equipment, all of them going out of their minds.

I got her attention with light fingers placed at the small of her back. “Hey, you want to go back upstairs? Finish those drinks?”

She nodded. “It’s hot down here, isn’t it?”

We started up the stairs. Her back was ramrod straight and her mouth curved in a fake smile. I wanted to tell her it was all right, that she didn’t have to pretend to be okay with all the hedonism she’d just seen. I’d exposed her—nonconsensually—to some pretty hardcore shit. “Go sit on the couch,” I said when we reached the first floor. “I’ll be right back.”

I stormed down the stairs and did something I never allowed anyone else to do at my place. I interrupted a scene in progress. I grabbed Ruby from behind just before he drew back to throw a whip stroke.

“You fucking prick,” I said, taking his feet from under him and pinning him to the floor. “Why’d you invite her here?”

His play partner grinned over her shoulder, her back a canvas of red-pink whip bites. Ruby grinned too, like this was some kind of joke. “I did it for fun,” he said. “She was standing there in the hall and I brought her. What, she’s not kinky?” He tried to throw me off but I wasn’t having it.

“I thought you knew her,” I said. “I thought she was a friend of yours, that she was in the lifestyle.”

“Oops. No. I never see her before tonight.” He took in my embarrassment, my disappointment in one perceptive glance. “You like her, huh? I hate to tell you, she’s a shitty dancer.”

I wanted to punch the snark right out of him but I’d tried it before and it never worked. I let him go instead and apologized to his partner for interrupting. My energy would be better spent debriefing Ashleigh, if she hadn’t already fled my place and called the cops. But no, she was sitting on the couch like I’d told her. Like a good sub…only she wasn’t a sub.

I got a fresh Coke for her on the way over. She shifted to make room for me.

“Here,” I said, thrusting it into her hands like a peace offering.
I’m sorry, Ashleigh. Of all people, I know what’s seen can’t be unseen.

“So…” I leaned forward to catch her gaze. “I gather you ended up here by mistake.”

“I— Well—” She shrugged. “Yes.”

“When I asked you about the lifestyle you thought I was talking about…?”

“Ballet.”

“And when I mentioned a play room, you thought…”

“Pool tables, maybe. Pacman.” She rubbed her forehead. “I’m disappointed about the Pacman.”

And I’m disappointed that I won’t get to play with you tonight.

I didn’t dare tell her that. She might decide to give it a go, and there was nothing worse than breaking in a vanilla girl. Well, I assumed there wasn’t. I hadn’t been with a vanilla girl in…well…ever. I clicked into concerned-friend mode. “I’m sorry. I wouldn’t have taken you down there if I’d known you weren’t into the lifestyle. Honestly, I thought you were a sub. I mean absolutely no offense by that.”

“Uh…” She put down her Coke and rubbed her forehead again. “I’m not even sure what lifestyle you’re talking about. Or why I might be offended. What’s a sub?”

Sigh.
“A sub is someone who submits. A submissive likes to surrender and let another person take over. There’s, you know…” I paused, spreading my fingers. “A dominant counterpart. Who does things to the sub.”

“Like Rubio?”

“Yes, like Rubio, but Ruby’s a top, not a dominant.”

“Oh, I see,” she said, even though I could tell she didn’t see at all. How to condense everything down into understandable sound bites?

“See, tops are mostly into the sensation and pleasure of it. They play casually, for fun. Dominants are more serious about roles and rules, and usually more into the power exchange.”

“Power exchange?” she asked, wrinkling her nose.

“It’s complicated to explain.” And pointless, at the end of it. I watched her luscious, non-kinky lips while she took a drink. What a waste of those lips. I frowned and scratched the back of my neck. “I’m afraid our mutual friend may have brought you here to be cruel.”

She looked around and I wondered what she was thinking. There was almost no one left in the room now. A few people idled near the top of the stairs. From below, I heard Rubio’s voice, Rubio’s laugh, along with more screaming. “He enjoys being cruel,” I said quietly. “Perhaps you already knew that.”

She poked at the ice in her drink. “Tonight on stage, he called me a whale and an asshole.”

“He did what?” She looked so sad. I wanted to kiss her.
Vanilla. She’s vanilla.

I leaned back from her while she stared at me, biting her lip. “Do all dominants…or tops, or whatever…enjoy being cruel?” she asked.

“I wouldn’t say that. Nothing in this lifestyle is ever all or nothing.”

“Do you enjoy being cruel?”

“Jesus. That’s a really loaded question.”

“It’s a yes or no question.”

“And one I’d rather not answer if nothing’s going to happen between us.”

If
nothing’s going to happen? Apparently some part of me was still holding out hope, most likely my half-erect cock. Could something happen between us? I stared at her shapely, strong legs beside mine. I wanted to hold her and touch her. I groaned inwardly. “It’s too bad you’re not a sub.”

“A guy spanked me once, but…”

“But?”

“It was nothing like the stuff going on down in that dungeon.”

“Play room.”

“Play room, whatever.”

A shrill scream carried up from below, followed by Ruby’s shouts of encouragement. Ashleigh looked deeply disturbed. “Is that safe, what he’s doing to her?”

“Believe me, she likes when Ruby pushes her limits. They’re perfectly matched in that way. They’re lucky.”
Unlike us.
“Did you enjoy it?” I asked to draw her attention from the screaming. “Getting spanked that one time?”

“Not really. But I didn’t like the guy very much.”

“Why? Because he was a dominant?”

She shook her head. “No, because he had bad breath and he always tried too hard. And he…he wasn’t a dominant, I don’t think. He was kind of a pussy.”

I stifled a smile. “Dominants are never pussies. No, wait. Sometimes they are.”

“But not you.” We both started laughing, at the awkwardness, the hopelessness of me and her.

“I don’t like people hurting me,” she said, as if that settled things between us. “And you like to hurt people.”

I turned my head a little in rebuttal. “Yes and no.”

“So you’re not a ‘dominant’ or whatever?”

“I am. But whether I want to hurt someone depends on the circumstances. It depends on wants and needs, observation and negotiations. Consent. It’s hard to explain to someone who’s never exchanged power. I assumed Ruby invited you here because you were in the lifestyle, or because you were curious.”

“Oh.”

I was determined not to utter the words but they spilled out anyway. “Are you curious? At all?”

She looked around the room and then fixed her eyes on some point in the middle of my chest. “Honestly—”

“There you are!” We both turned as Rubio swaggered over. “Why are you still dressed, girl?” He grabbed Ashleigh in a hug and rubbed his dick against her stomach. His posse gathered around in a half circle, laughing and gawking as he pressed his lips against the side of her neck.

“Let her go,” I snarled.

“But she’s my Sleeping Beauty.” He turned, playing to his pals. “Don’t you think we make a perfect pair?” They snickered as he forced her into a clumsy turn. “Her balance isn’t great though. I hold her here—” His hand closed over one of her breasts. “And here.” I lunged for him as his other hand clamped hard on her crotch. “And then we do the lift!” He swung her into the air just out of my reach, then slid her down the front of his body, groping her again.

I pulled her away from him and held her against me. “You’re an asshole.”

“No more so than you,” Rubio shot back.

His friends chortled as music throbbed in the background. Ashleigh pushed away from me and stalked toward her bag beside the couch. Her hair had tumbled down from her careless twist and flew back from her shoulders as she moved. Graceful, angry ballet dancer.

I went after her. “Ashleigh, wait.”

“No. I’m gonna go.”

I sucked at playing the white knight. I didn’t deserve her or her pretty blackberry hair, or her kissable, shy lips. I corralled her in my arms and led her to Rubio. “Tell her you’re sorry,” I said to him. He made a face and balked. I felt dangerous anger. “Apologize or leave my house.”

Ashleigh turned to stare at me. I should have told her it was my house from the beginning. I should have been honest about what I wanted from her outside on the curb, so none of this would have happened.

Rubio squirmed, scratching his balls. He knew I was a hair’s breadth from losing my shit, and he knew me well enough to know it would be a bad scene. “I was just playing, being silly.” He appealed to Ashleigh. “You knew I was only joking. Yes, girl?”

“Apologize like you mean it. Use her name, you dumb fuck.”

“I’m sorry, okay?” Rubio threw up his hands. “I am very, very sorry… What’s your name?”

I hissed, but Ruby protested, “I don’t know her. I never saw her before today.”

Ashleigh wiggled away from me. “I’ll find my way out.”

I followed, pushing past Trina, who never fucking gave up. “Ashleigh, please stop.”

She halted and spun to face me. “Why didn’t you tell me this was your house? Your party?”

“I don’t know. I didn’t want to freak you out.”

“Oh, because everything else here isn’t freaky enough.” She rolled her eyes and walked away. I didn’t want her to leave this way, storming out in a huff. I didn’t want her to leave at all, damn it. I wanted her to transform into what I’d fantasized she was, but that seemed unlikely to happen.

“Will you at least accept a ride home?” I asked, catching her at the door.

“I’ll take a cab.”

“I’m calling my driver. He’s just down the street.” I pulled out my phone and paged Travis, vaulting after Ashleigh when she slipped outside.